Posts Tagged ‘letting go of our identity’

768_nOur sense of identity is the tether we cling to as we navigate this life. But it is something we have created, through our experiences and understandings, and have formed it over time. It isn’t really “us.” As we develop on our spiritual journey, we see how letting go of this built up identity is critical to being able to grab another, greater tether – that of our belief and trust in the higher essences we are trying to connect with. It can seem to be the most scary concept, to lose our self, but that’s only true when we forget what we will gain in the letting go. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream, I’m trying to determine if there is life after death – as I’m noting in my dream as being possible that there is a life after death.

In the meditation dream I notice that I am able to unfold to a point in which the next step question is that of an awakening which would be on another level of awareness. This level of awareness would be different from anything I currently experience. I would be awakening to a plane in which I would not be able to find self. To not be able to find a self would be a death.

I believe I have heard that this level is called the plane of nonbeing. In the meditation dream I reached a point within that, first of all, was an energetic buildup within that felt like I was before a door, or a shift. In other words, something is penting up before it breaks through into nonbeing. And if this thing hadn’t built up as a kind of crescendo and had been just an easy shift, then I suppose the dynamic of what I went through later, you know, having to evaluate this, wouldn’t have been as dramatized.

In other words, it’s like as I’m waking up, a part of me is waking up, I’m seeing inside of myself that there’s this buildup almost at this threshold that will eventually push through, and then you simply shift into a plane of nonbeing. And such a plane would be a whole new realm to experience. Because it builds up with such a force before you actually shift in, it creates the sensation that you’re leaving, or something.

So the glimpse I must have had is causing me to ponder if there is life after death, and I seem to be able to ponder from deep within because I came right up to this threshold – as if it is okay to go onto this plane. In other words, I built it up, and built it up, and ready to just break right through.

I know that I will not be able to explain my experiences there, assuming it is possible, in words that I am accustomed to using now. The reason it will be like this is because it will be so different. So I have trepidation, or so it seems, as if going there will change the way I am and how I currently relate; it could change it forever.

I must have fallen into the plane, momentarily, to get to a point where I can be worried about being lost or having a need to be assured that it is okay. I say that because I believe that when I suddenly realized I was outside of all frames of reference, I jammed a tooth real hard. You could have taken a pin and stuck it into me to see if there was any sensation function anymore. It was kind of like that, only what I ended up doing was jamming the tooth to find out.

The trauma and reverberating pain of hurting a front tooth in such a traumatic way brought me back and, in coming back, I came back with the question I think I need an answer to before something like this can happen. The question is: is there life after death, and am I to go there? Apparently I am talking about waking up on the plane of the soul. I believe that is one way of describing what occurred.

Another way is that this is a place of nonexistence. In other words, there’s no manifestation necessarily. Your reality’s in a whole. It’s just in another realm in which there isn’t anything as a kind of physical perceiver. Then there is the question, as I hurt a tooth to invoke a familiar sensation from which I am able to articulate anew, is, if there is life after death is it the next step that I am to awaken upon the plane of? In other words, there is a life after death, but is it the next step? Am I to awaken up the plane of the soul and, I guess to add to that, and stay there?

An inner energetic crescendo seems to be building at, we’ll call it, the doorway within of something anew. I say that because I noticed, and this is kind of repeating it again, I’ve noticed the energetic buildup within that was like a pent up energy at a threshold which I knew, if one shifted and went through that, you’d be on another plane in which I am not sure if there is anything to report from this plane – because there won’t be a part of myself on this side. You know, there’s a concern that there won’t be a part of myself on this side which is striving to know what is going on as a kind of reality, or appropriate reality, or as a being.

So, as a consequence, is what’s going on here okay? And, if it’s okay, then how am I going to see myself in such a zone? These are all issues I deem to be important, that I need an answer to, because I am inclined to seek to have words to be able to say and connote what the zone is like, or level of nonbeingness is like. I’m caught in that kind of modality that I see this as important as a form of revelation. So that’s the meditation dream.

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