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Susan Kinsella

How often have we been upset by something, or stressed out by something, and then, at a certain point, have just said, the heck with it, and let it go? In that letting go we always feel a wave of relief, as we release the energetic vibrations that we were holding onto. Vibrations all have their signature, and when we hold onto them, that vibration is dictating what we experience. It is better to let the vibration go; we are designed to process energies, not contain them. We want to always be available for the next vibrational experience, as life unfolds.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My dreams were so mellow last night, there wasn’t much to them. It felt like I was dreaming about Seattle winning the Super Bowl, except in my dream, it was more like they had won some kind of basketball championship.

And I was following Wilson around to kind of see what was changing when he was with his family. And one of the things that had changed it felt was like they practiced in a special stadium – and that was part of what contributed to them winning. And the stadium was more like a basketball court of some kind, but it had a very mellow energy to it.

And I felt like, as a result of winning, they’d be able to practice in that more, now, or have one of their own that they practiced in. And I was observing that, and then it shifted a little.

And a friend of mine had come in, that I knew from high school. She’s older now and she’s sitting in the bleachers of the stadium, and she’s explaining to someone why she can retire now. And it’s like she can retire because now she can get Social Security, along with some other pension that she had. Or slight disability, or something, because someone’s questioning why she’s retiring now when she hadn’t retired earlier. And it felt like things have finally come together so she can do that.

But all the dreams were just like really mellow, like I was just following around and observing how they were doing things a little differently that it contributed to their winning, and it had to do with a certain kind of smooth energy. Because it was so mellow, it was hard to pull out.

John: It’s a dream in which, yes, the intensity of something is taken out of the equation, the heavy vibratoriness that one imposes. Like when you’re looking at the four archetypes, each of those has a heavy, imposed vibration.

And so the key to letting go, and thus the ability to experience something in a more rhythmic, or balanced, or whole way, is to not be indulgent in the vibratoriness as the end all, be all, but to be able to take that into a stillness.

And when you take that into a stillness, then there is a natural cadence, a natural flow, a natural rhythm. And you, as the person in the dream indicates, that then you’re able to retire yourself from the anxieties and the stresses of having to go back and forth, and up and down, in the intensity of things.

Like I said, it’s an intensity to have to contend with, no matter what door you’re looking at, whether it’s the Thief vibration, Gambler’s vibration, or the Prostitute’s vibration, whatever door it is there’s an intensity of vibration in each of those doors.

And so what you did is you took a quality of focus where there is typically an element of passion, like people who are heavily involved in the Seahawks, and such, epitomize a type of passion that really presses and pushes them. In other words, there’s a heavy vibratoriness that you could get caught up in there. And you saw yourself as being able to bring that to a stillness.

So the theming of the dreaming has been, for some time, this idea of there being a stillness. This has been octaved into another way of portraying it, too, in that that is the only way that you ever reach forgiveness. Because as long as you’re in a vibratoriness you’re still acting out in some fashion and not really forgiving, or letting go, of something. That’s kind of like another higher octave that I had to look at.

But you were looking at it in terms of the release, or letting go, and finding the ease and peace that exists, in terms of not having to be swallowed up with relating to a vibratoriness as a kind of outer contanglement hold.

The heavy vibratoriness is an outer thing, and the inner quality is the letting go. And the letting go is a way of taking and putting that vibratoriness like it’s a type of dust, or something, it’s like being able to put it back into a peace, or quiet, or a stillness in the heart, which is the image of being able to sweep everything, or put everything, into the heart. And when that is done, then there isn’t the acting up, or the diversity of things, in the outer. I mean, it can be there, but that diversity, and that outer, isn’t where your attention is being misconstrued.

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Willie Holdman

This dream begins with the image of an idyllic setting, in a meadow by a stream, but the dreamer cannot fully be in the beauty and naturalness of the moment. Yet we could also apply this to our view of the everyday: we find ourselves on a planet where everything we need is provided, and each day, each moment, is energetically different from the last, but still beautiful, and fascinating, in the experience of it. So what is all this “stuff” we have put in the way of our engagement with the natural perfection around us, personally or as a species? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my first dream, my meditation dream, I am unable to enjoy the outer flow, like everyone else, because I’m holding onto issues and this is keeping me pent up. I don’t even know what the issues are that I’m holding onto.

And so the image is: I’m kind of in a nice meadow setting, out in nature, and there is a stream, and a river, and the sun is just perfect and really nice out. And ordinarily you would look at the water and you’d say, well, it’s too cold to get in the water, but not only is everyone around me getting in the water, in other words, even though it’s a country setting and kind of quiet and peaceful, there are people and they have come to this area and they’re getting in the water.

And those that have dogs are taking the dogs in the water, and the dogs really are loving the water, too. And it’s like not only are they having a good time, but the dogs are having a good time in the water; it’s just like this whole thing has a whole redeeming process.

In this dream, those who are going in the water, and taking their dogs and everything in the water, were just letting go into a free flow. And even though I was pulled to wanting to test water myself, to see if it was too cold and whatnot, I had some sort of pent-up nature that I just couldn’t shake.

It’s not that I knew what the pent-up nature was. I couldn’t put my finger on the pent-up nature even, but it was something that had me in some sort of tiff, or a mood, or something, and holding back as if by holding back I’d eventually figure it out – but there was nothing on the horizon showing that I was figuring it out. And what was obvious is what I was missing.

And, at one particular point, I kind of let go or something a tiny bit and I threw myself in the water, clothes, shoes, and everything on, and realized, yeah, the water’s wonderful. It’s not as cold. But nope, I still had my nuances, I still had my pent-upism, and I had to come out of the water.

And so what I’m portraying is a quality of bewilderment, and you have this in the out-breath when you’re at a point where you can’t quite sort things out. You are overwhelmed by something that you aren’t able to put your finger on yet.

I’m inclined to be affected by something that is vague to me, that I’m not able to quite catch up with and properly recognize, so I’m inclined to be carrying some sort of nuance trying to find some sort of focus and attention, which, when I find it, supposedly that leads to a balance, so that I can then just appreciate things as they are. And so I’m not quite able to free flow, or let go.

The meaning I write up is that my resolve is being tested. You know, that’s kind of what the outer is all about, to see if you can get closer to something. The question is: can I let go of nuances that, like an inner resolve that I cannot reach, are keeping me from enjoying life in a free flow way? I need to break free of some sort of trance that I am in. The pent-up demeanor is blocking a connection, and I need to let go of that to free flow.

This sort of letting go, or whatever the kind of letting go is that I have to do, that would lead to a natural free flow, will not only relieve me of what I am holding onto, but it supports the free flow and naturalness that is predominating in the surrounding environment. But the natural condition, the primordial naturalness, is askew.

The reason why I’m putting this pressure upon myself, and the reason why I’m acting like this, is it’s like one is directed into the physical to sort and get closer to something. There’s a responsibility to catch up with something. And you carry around a kind of awkward bewilderment  because you’re trying to get into the outer and you can’t. In other words, you can’t quite catch up with whatever this responsibility is.

In other words, therein lies the confusion, and my condition defies the natural letting-go process to a free flow because I am not breaking free of a stigma trance I am in. Until I either let go of this pent-up condition, or catch up with it and own it, I am unable to be naturally free to enjoy the flow and wonderful setting, or conditions, that are permeating the atmosphere for all to see but me.

It’s an awkward, bewildering, condition to have to be in, where I could jump in the water and feel wonderful, but I can’t quite let myself do it because I’m still carrying some sort of nuance or mannerism. That’s painful, that’s really bizarre to have to carry that. There’s a sadness in that.

And this continues into the next dream, it’s repeated again, in that in the next dream there was a time when I was able to see what time it was on a watch. In other words, it’s like somehow or another I’ve gone distant so that, as I glance, I can’t necessarily see the watch anymore. And I can maybe make it out a little bit, but I could get it wrong. Instead of it being, say, 2 o’clock, I might read it as 3 o’clock or something. In other words, there’s a gap, or a distance, that has developed.

In other words, something has changed, like I’m further away. And so I say, in the dream, “I’ve got to be able to read the dials on a watch. So much depends upon getting that right. I can’t be guessing.” So, in the dream, others actually expect me to be able to tell the time. In fact, I’m being relied upon for that.

And so the meaning is, in the dream, over the passage of time, I have gotten ungrounded. In other words, just like I couldn’t go into the water because I couldn’t let go of something, in that sense I’m ungrounded. I’m in a bewildered state. I haven’t sorted out the thought-upon-thoughts that are compelling, that haven’t made themselves known to where they could be let go of into an empty space. That empty space can be in the out-breath to in-breath, too, and so I’m meant to know the balance and timing.

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JourneytWe might use the phrase: it’s as natural as breathing. If we do breathing exercises with a roomful of people, everyone ends up on a similar frequency of breath – which creates a type of closeness between the people. And it seems that all forms of planetary life take advantage of breathing the oxygen in the atmosphere in some way, shape, or form. And perhaps the cycle of seasons are a process of in-breath and out-breath for the planet herself. On the deeper, inner levels, we know, too, how to breathe with the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My sleep dream, that corresponded to that, had my name being called out several times in the night. And each time that it was called out, whatever it was that I could’ve woken up to and tried to write up, I would’ve written up in the modality as if I am pounding my way through to a recognition. And, instead, what was going on was each time that this happened was an attempt to draw out of me – whether you would call it a jerk, not necessarily – to draw out of me what was already known.

In other words, to get me to wake up and recognize what I already see inside. When I rattle the cages, as if I am trying to probe, or understand, something, I’m always toitering with some aspect of motion within the breath. But when I really let go, there is an acuity that comes and just lifts something in, and out, and through, as a quality of stillness.

That’s why I guess I’ve come to realize that I don’t really know how to meditate. I just am fortunate to be able to sit and go somewhere, and, when I go somewhere, it comes out of somewhere deep inside of myself. I don’t project myself to it. I don’t do anything to cause it to get there.

If I do anything, it is to figure out how to let go of the loudness that is around me. and the only tools I have to let go of that is to quit putting attention upon those projections of a loudness, as something that drowns everything else out.

And so the art of the breath has to do with the vibration that exists, in the breath, that one catches up with outside of the bifurcation that we have done to linearize it, in some way, shape, or form. Now we make it linear when we put on the breath a mood, when we put on the breath an attitude, when we put on the breath a thought. That makes it linear; or a fear, or anything like that.

So, when we look to a letting go there is a stillness, and in that stillness there is tremendous energy. And that tremendous energy, the catching up with that, is what causes us to really let go to the stillness. The principle of putting everything on the breath, or inside of one’s self, onto a principle of love is a quality of that principle of catching up with the stillness – a stillness that is, as a stillness, a tremendous source of vibration that generally speaking is more than what we, in our defense mechanistic world of in-breath and out-breath, are able to handle.

When you are really, really dreaming at a real, real deep depth inside yourself, the danger that exists is you stop breathing. You can go into the stillness and maybe forget that you have to breathe.

So it’s an amazing science that a person breathes, and yet is in the stillness. That somehow or another is the challenge in life. And to do things with an attention upon the breath, the in-breath and the out-breath, per se, causes a kind of magnetism that isn’t on the level of stillness. You need it to be from a level of stillness, the letting go, otherwise it is a means of bicycling around and functioning in a duality, in the duality of reflections.

So teaching that has to do with adhering to the breath, as opposed to adhering to something behind the breath, gets you in trouble. So like if you hear inner music inside, and you listen to the inner music instead of letting go to that and be swept up by that, you are dangerously close. When listening to just the music, you’re dangerously close to also then being attentive to the breath. And when you’re attentive to the breath you’re trying to blend the breath of in and out, up and down, yo-yoing with the music. It doesn’t work that way. Letting go involves letting go to the stillness place.

And so this was the theme of the dreaming last night. The sleep dream just had to do with me recognizing that the idea that there is something to see, and do, and get others to realize that they don’t already know, just perpetuates the amnesia and the in-breath/out-breath way of projecting.

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