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5Funny thing about a spiritual journey: we are both the problem and the solution. We are the problem because the psychologies and identity issues we have developed – by being born into a world detached from human purpose – prevent us from being our natural selves. And we are the solution because the totality of our design wants us to respond to our purpose. There are many paths and ways to do this, but those are just pointers along a path that each person will have to pioneer for themselves, because we all have different hurdles to overcome. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream I went through a process in which the effect of that process within causes one to reach this kind of letting go, or inability to indulge, like I am accustomed, or had been accustomed, to doing in the past. And, as a result, my time is more freed up because I am not so construed to contending with outer features and factors – as if they have some sort of control, or ownership, or effect over my state of being.

They’re there, but I’m not sure just what to make out of them anymore, especially in relationship to the fact, in a certain confusing way, where once upon a time that sort of thing would have held me in its grip, or in a kind of trance. And so I have a dream in which it portrays things like what you were doing in terms of a demeanor that I have towards what there is, that is somehow or another a demeanor of a type of letting go that has me somewhat surprised.

But before having this dream I had the meditation dream and, in the process of the meditation dream, it was as if I was catching up with the whole idea of what it’s like to let go, and how the letting go opens something up and is what is important in terms of awakening.

So there’s a number of steps that I seem to go through in order to kind of fall into this space, this inner expansive, or letting go, space.

So in the meditation dream I start with an image of being able to look, from above, down upon a playing field; and there’s a game going on. It’s like a football game or something. Two sides are going at it, and each side has to factor in the presence of something that is holding its attention or, in other words, an obstructive aspect.

So that’s the dynamic. It starts off not yet coming fully down into life, able to look down at something and see that there’s this whole thing going on, all having to do with something, and of course, if you were to ponder what it’s all having to do with, you’d ponder it from the standpoint of, well, I guess it’s the football and they’re going at it this way and that way in order to move this obstructive object around, or aspect, which is the football.

And then the image shifts, and there is a progressing to a state of being in which the free flow comes real close. And to come real close, then I come into the dynamic of being the obstructive object that is used as the principle object of the game. So now I am the football.

And then the whole thing shifts, the access shifts, again and what I do is with the slightest little affect, in other words, in this shift I have to be careful of the slightest little effect because it can throw things out of a balance, and could cause an indulgence.

And so I find myself having to transform that somehow or another in the outer, so that as the football is in relationship to the whole playing field, and I have this closeness, that you don’t have this whole intensity there that causes misconstruances of attention that go this way, or that way, and break up a continuity.

So what is going on is I am seeing what it is like to be in manifestation, having to live under set rules of engagement, that must be put off. They have to be set aside in order for the players of the game of manifestation to get over some outer effect that would predominate over their attention.

And so then in the next aspect of awakening, it’s as if whatever that was that had one indulgence, there’s a letting go and I am deemed to be the aspect itself, that is in play on the field, causing a back and forth dynamic. And then finally a suspense is able to be lifted, and the challenge transcended, as I am able to shift from that inner effect with ease, and affect, in the outer, an unfoldment process.

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Zoe HS

It is a law of the universe that everything is either feeding us energy, or it is draining energy away from us. We know that some people lift us up, and other people bring us down. Some spaces let us expand, other spaces make us feel trapped. Part of becoming conscious is to become more aware of the energy exchanges we have with the world around us – even to the point of the possessions we hold onto, like the past we stuff in boxes and drag with us everywhere we go. The best type of “spring cleaning” minimizes energy drains, and focuses on what feeds us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well I’m still working under the theme that everything in the environment affects one because one is connected to everything, And that whatever you hold onto, or whatever you take on, has some sort of general overall effect on you. As Ellyn says, be careful of your possessions and stuff because they weigh you down.

And so I actually I had kind of a dream like this and, in the meditation dream, I’m finding myself kind of in a lobby area. I shouldn’t say it’s a lobby area anyway, it’s a lower area of a big, large building and there’s no one else around. And it’s kind of like being back in the 1950s or something like that, you know, an old, kind of grayish, big, large building like maybe even in New York City or something, in a big city, and it’s got those big, long columns that go up and whatnot.

And I’m off the street on the ground floor, and I have a whole bunch of belongings that would take a huge cart just to push along. Apparently those are all my accumulations or something, and I’m pondering where to go, you know, and how do I move around with all these things?

And then this guy comes by and he is apparently from up above, and he walks through and he pauses, or at least he slows his gait down just a tiny bit as he glances at everything, and you can see he’s kind of sizing the whole thing up, feeling it vibe-wise, as to whether this should be a concern or something with all of this stuff hanging out. And it must be kind of a poor period of time because I see some other stuff hanging out in the area that belongs to maybe someone else that’s not around.

And the whole sensation of a dream like this is that you’re weighed down by all of this stuff. You can’t move around. You don’t have your freedom. You don’t have your flexibility. You’re caught in the environment of things. It’s very, very contracted, which is the same thing as saying that because everything is vibrationally intertwined that you have a sense of that vibration that permeates or runs through everything.

And so when you hold all of that around you it tends to keep you from being able to have a greater overall sense of the whole. It’s as if all of that stuff, in its density, is now your identity, or has you vibrationally caught in that kind of dementia or something – as opposed to letting go and just being able to flow through life in a way that’s not separate.

In other words, I describe the purpose of the dream was to cause me to feel what it’s like to have to contend with the energetic of so much that it weighs your being down, and defines how it is that you’re able to be. And also the dream causes me to note the heaviness of the heart, in other words when you’re like that, which restricts me from moving around so much that I’m unable to sort things out, or find the inner peace that one needs in the whole.

In other words, you’re kind of sitting there in a type of bewilderment when you’re like that, you know, because your options are really cut down because you’re held by all of the stuff that you have and you’re pondering how to move it about.

The overall theme is one of trying to denote energetically how it is that I am meant to be in the overall expansiveness of life. I’m meant to look at life in terms of an inner connected way, a connected way, though, that’s not holding onto things but is intertwined, so that you flow, so that there’s a oneness.

The one brief glance of a person passing by on his way home, this being a person that doesn’t have the energetic weight to keep himself stunted, in just glancing at him you can see he’s taking in the surroundings in a way in which it shocks him a little bit because he’s not encumbered by the outer denseness. In other words, he has a greater overallness and that reflects back to me how it is that my overall beingness needs to be. By that what I mean is that, what reflects to me is who and how I am meant to be in life. In other words, I’m not meant to be all burdened like that, because when you’re burdened like that you’re energetically defined, and confined, which means your heart then is dysfunctional; it’s heavy, or sad.

So the meditation dream, kind of then to repeat it, is that of an image of a person who is all alone, separate from the world around them, which is not how you’re meant to be. Which causes the saying to come to mind about what a tangled web you create when you conduct yourself in a way as if you can hold onto things, which is a type of deceiving of yourself, in which when you’re like that you think you’re caught in a conception as if you’re affected, or defined, by the environment around you. Instead you’re connected to a space within, which takes your beingness into everything there is in life.

And when it’s like that I mean you’re like an empty space. You’re just in whatever it is and everything in life, you’re not one way or another, you’re just embracing an intertwinement and you’re everything, you’re just a part of everything going on. You’re not somehow or another pulled off to one side where you have to contend and suffer – which is an illusion.

So it’s a very strange condition that a human being is in, it’s put into a position where it’s like they appear to be elevated, and yet they’re really just part of the overall, and uphold and support the overall. The overall, of course, is when they fight and struggle and whatnot they maintain the density which keeps their greater beingness from being expansive.

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the_hanged_manWe can think of human life in this way: We can live our years completely for ourselves and our interests, thinking it’s all about us, in which case we are a possibility and an opportunity lost to creation. Or, we can aspire to be a true human being by upholding qualities such as compassion, kindness, and charity, in which case we have offered something back into life. Or, better still, we can spend our time letting go of the personal, and strive to be in service to the universal. In this scenario, we can actually become co-creators into the evolution of the universe and, therefore, are a great asset to all of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well in my dreams I was tracing a pattern, and this pattern looked like a series of squares that would be linked together. So I would come along and I would go forward and trace around the square and come back, and I might even divide it in two, and then go forward, and come over and come back.

And, initially, because of the going forward and coming back motion, it was almost like you could think you could win a bet or something with the energy and the motion that you were doing, the way you were linking the squares together, but not really because there was someone else there maybe you were competing against a little. Because I guess you have to come back in a way to where things are really linked solidly together with the squares.

But, eventually, you get to where you can add to the squares instead of just going around and making sure everything is linked together solidly. You can begin to add squares in, you know, going forward. And I just did that for the longest time. I don’t remember where it went from there, in terms of a dream or anything, because I was just totally involved in doing that.

John: That’s what it’s like when you make the shift. In other words, prior to making the shift the key is to go back and forth, to be able to go above and below, to be able to go up and down. In other words, not just go in one linear direction, to go in multiple directions.

Well, when you’re going in multiple directions, meaning up and down is all, you know nonlinear, because the faculties that you have that deal ordinarily with outer life tend to be very linear, going one direction or another. But when you can multitask in terms of the flow of life, and up and down is like the breath. Each breath is a cycle of creation. When you can do that, then you can contend with what is meant to be – in terms of as it is laid out, or designed, in its current way, in terms of you as a part of the whole.

And when you are approaching things that way, then this idea of competing with something, or that there is something else in the way, what that means is that you still have the moods, and mannerisms, and attitudes of your own nature that can interfere with how your placement is in relationship to that whole – because there could be others that are vying for that.

And so it’s almost like, if you snooze, you lose, if you don’t stay attentive to this up and down, or this cycle of the breath. What you’re describing is a condition of consciousness. Well, the first step that everyone contends with is the linear approach that works with the senses, and they look in just a very controlled and specific capacity, in an outward sense, and what they’re able to perceive is very, very limited.

The second scenario that you present, or that you catch up with, is the scenario that the spiritual path gets you to recognize that you have got to go above and below simultaneously, which means that you’ve got to go in both directions simultaneously, which is counter to how the ego tends to want to approach things in its linear way. And what this does is this opens you up to a recognition of the whole.

The third scenario, the scenario in which you have overcome the little nuances that continually keep you vying this way and that way, as if what you’re doing has some good, better, or best or a competition or some aspect of you maintaining or holding on to some qualm that keeps you outside of going up and down and maintaining a consciousness in the overall, is that when you get rid of that, or when that is no longer a bias, or an influence, or an attitude, that’s when you can start adding to the squares, or adding to the whole. That is when you’re able to create, or co-create, or to shift.

In other words, that is when you can come to know and be in touch with that which isn’t apparent, from just going up and down in terms of the consciousness of the whole. That is when more can be there. It can’t be there if you have any nuance, or mannerism, or attitude that is still something that you’re holding onto. In other words, you can’t even listen to something like that. You can’t even let the imagination, or a quality of your being, that can reach out in a whole way anew. You can’t even entertain something like that if you still have some tone, or mood, or mannerism that lingers and hangs upon you – because that mood, or tone, or mannerism is what keeps you from attaining the overallness, that is the wholeness, that is you.

And once you’ve attained that wholeness, and that overallness, that is you without this mannerism or nuance or something in your demeanor, when you’re free of that mannerism or nuance in your demeanor, and in touch with the overallness at the same time, that is when you can start adding or changing the chemistry of what is unfolding. That is when you can take the energy in a whole… that’s when you can work with the energy in terms of what facilitates an expansion. Otherwise, it’s a contraction.

I mean there is another way of looking at this from the way science is. In other words, science views the universe as having an expansive quality to it, and a contractive quality to it. When you study astrology, the planets sometimes have an expansive trait to them, and problems associated with that expansive trait as well, and some have a contractive quality to them, and also limitations associated with that contractive quality.

And it’s the quality of all of that coming together and working as a homeopathy or whole that brings you to a place where something more can now suddenly be possible. But, until then, you’re still caught within the fabric of the design of what is intended, and there is so much more that is able to be that hasn’t been determined or decided, and these are all the additional squares that you see in the whole that are suddenly now able to come into fruition.

This is only possible when the human being has reached the crown of creation. The crown meaning that place in which not only have they caught up with the whole, but they’ve caught up with the whole in such a way so that there isn’t any mannerism or nuance that troubles them, or gets in the way and, as a consequence of that, they’re able to shape and shift and adjust accordingly to the need of the whole from some deep, deep, deeper level inside of themselves that is now able to function – completely outside of all perception that one is inclined to know. It’s a beingness that is anew, something you would have never, ever anticipated.

This is an aspect, and this is what the new energy can do. And just like in the dream group a couple of weeks or whatever it was ago, when something was brought up about how something has shifted, people who could not let go of things about how it is that they had nailed down their perspective had to get up and leave, because that perspective had them in a headlock and, therefore, this something more that could add more places and squares to the whole, for them was not possible yet. Yes, they had access to the whole. Yes, they could see themselves or really in a way know that they were intertwined in some capacity to everything that existed, but they were still caught under the motif of a mannerism and, therefore, their relationship to the whole had to be according to that yet.

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