Posts Tagged ‘letting go of personal involvement’

In our culture, we tend to lump masculine and feminine traits into two genders and seem surprised when the lines blur. But we are all a combination of both masculine and feminine gender traits, with one usually being dominant. Yet that doesn’t mean everything we do should be dominated by a singular viewpoint; like everything else we discover, there is a natural state of balance and a reason to use all the diversity we find in ourselves to navigate the many circumstances we find ourselves in. And, on a spiritual journey, there is another aspect that continually dominates, and that is our personal involvement, or the feeling that this whole “life” thing is about us. It’s really not about us, but rather about how we can fit into the whole of it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my dream, it’s like I’m supposed to go help with a trial, but when I go there it’s like they want to disqualify me from being the prosecutor, or the questioner, without telling me why or putting me in a secondary role.

And then I figure out finally that it’s because either the opposing counsel, or the person that’s coming up, is somebody that I knew, or had a relationship with, or they think I want to be in relationship with, and that this would taint how everyone was looking at the questioning.

So I’m frustrated with this because I don’t feel like it should really make a difference. Then I see that everything is targeted towards making me forget. And then that starts becoming the reality – everything seems to be targeted towards even making me forget the dream, and it’s so frustrating that I have to fight to even remember this part which you think would stand out because there was a certain amount of emotions.

So it is like that just becomes the outer reality then where I really have to struggle to even remember this tiny bit.

John: What’s happening is as the prosecutor you’re being the masculine. In other words, the prosecutor is a person that takes and goes out and brings in the inflections, and the thoughts, and the sparks, and the energetic that takes and quickens something out of its dormancy, enlightens in that regard, makes something more alive, and more real, and more tangible. 

That’s the nature of the masculine, and that’s what you’re doing as the prosecutor. However, the need is to keep you repressed, which then takes you back into the condition of the feminine. The feminine is a person that takes and doesn’t quite see what is going on around it, and is affected by things that it can’t sort itself through and find the greater picture in life.

And so your dream is indicating that this happens to you when you are overpowered by the idea of something being personal, too personal, and so you are shut down by the fact of them causing this indulgence, this limiting feature, to be used as a means to keep you from invoking, and exciting, and causing something to be seen by a normal, natural, masculine quality expression.

So to keep you from finding this other side, or fullness, of yourself, you are being shown that this is lost, or goes away, or is inaccessible to you when you indulge in what is said to be personal mannerisms that contract and hold you down in a kind of compaction. 

That’s the nature of manifestation. Manifestation is something that has been slowed down with an energetic in such a way so that it is of a sound quality, as opposed to something in a more speeded-up realm, that is not necessarily grounded as a consequence, that comes and appears in the nature of light. Yet light and sound are one and the same.

And so the masculine part of yourself that has this quality of being the prosecutor, or the means of bringing something through that quickens, and awakens, and stirs, and jars, and invokes the situation to have a whole other way of coming out of its condition – that is working with the principle of something coming down into life.

And, by contrast, you find yourself constrained because of personal limitations that are placed upon you, that keep you contracted, so that you don’t wake up to that or, as the dream is indicating, find the means inside of yourself to quicken yourself, so that that which is whole and complete inside of yourself you are able to awaken, all on your own, with your own inner masculine.

Isn’t that an interesting dream? 

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ego_deathWhen we are in our personalized view of life, we generally have a dozen or more things we have to do, or that need to happen, and when they don’t unfold according to plan we find ourselves upset and knocked off our normal state of being. Yet if we have let go of that control, have instead surrendered to the universal way of things, we really can’t know exactly what to do next – because it’s a flow. So in our surrender, our “need” becomes more potent. And when our need becomes more potent, it calls in support from the universe to help us navigate the flow of the unknown. That’s when we begin to hear our intuition, and our other instinctual guidance systems, which will help us on our way.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I, too, was reverbing back and forth in a state that wasn’t settled, and wasn’t at rest like it could be in terms of a greater expansive – but I can’t hold the greater expansive very well. For some reason there’s something that I don’t understand in that regard, so I’m subjected to delusional effects, and I’m not even capable of understanding the opposite of the delusional effect, meaning able to be linked to the expansive, because I still have my perceptions that get in the way, that clog my sight to the natural inkling that it can have, to that which is the positive, or expansive wholeness, or oneness, that permeates through everything all around me, that is in tune with this One Mind, or void, that is everything. Or, as they would say, nothing but nothingness.

And that in the contractive I still ponder what appears to be a something, which is just the illusion upon which I suffer. So I experienced this, but didn’t pull it out, and speak of it as in a dream per se. Instead I just have the meditation dream.

So in the meditation dream, I am shown that there are different protocols that are followed for passengers who fly about in life. For example, those who have no exposure in a particular area, in other words, one particular area meaning in the overallness, do not have the direct potential for not contaminating, in other words, struggle with the awakening, whatever the case may be in terms of this kind of yo-yoing back and forth, in that there is a diminution, or taking away of what is intertwinedly evolved.

You have to be concerned about what appears to be a taking away from that, because that’s caused by an aspect in which there is the ego, or the mind that is of the heretic ego, and the taking away is as a consequence of not being able to recognize the linkage that one has in a wholeness, or overall, way. And when one does, that’s an awakened state because that’s when one is experiencing the connection to the wholeness.

So what is different with those who have this connection to an awakening, or an involvement, is that they link to the need to know. So, in other words, if you go along and you just try to experience things in kind of a free flow way it won’t work that way, because you have to do this in relationship to the oneness that threads through everything, that is in the expanse. And to do that is awkward and challenging because it shakes up the personal contractive aspect of your nature, causes you to have to reconcile that to the oneness, the all-pervading mind of things.

And if you don’t do that, you don’t really awaken. And you can have kind of a quality of wisdom, or knowledge, of being but it’s one more bounded in one’s holding onto some definition or something, a duality, and in that they suffer. And each person generally then, that you see suffering, is suffering in slightly different ways based upon some predilection that they still sustain and maintain in terms of what they consider as important in terms of their idea of reality. And that is the heretic’s mind ego.

So once you let go of something like this, the contractive, there’s no longer the sheltering that exists, and the conscious level of an overallness is being tweaked. You can’t grasp anything in that regard. You can only experience it in terms of in the moment – and it is different.

So the meaningfulness is, though everything is intertwined and part of the One Mind, the relationship to awakening arises. And those who have exposure to life in ways that others have not, are treated differently from those who are in a different phase of the inner awakening. Such people who have lived a life of direct involvement are, generally speaking, further along in the process of awakening because they are required to go through circumstances in the outer life which is different from those who are at a lesser point in the atonement.

In other words, those who are kind of just free flowing and don’t allow anything to touch them regarding things that happen, that come in and impact, or affect, from the oneness that permeates through life as part of the overall design, those who somehow or another try to hold onto it in kind of a total subjective way end up being in a condition where they have to contend with their moods, but their moods then are more of a nature of a type of pain, a type of pain in relationship to that which throws them outside of a center.

Now the idea that they have of a center is correct, but they have to include this other component in order to awaken because that is what leads to the consciousness. And if they don’t include this other center, then they are acting in a way that deviates then from what is going on in the overallness.

Those who are more naturally intertwined in the atonement, have knocked upon the door and have a need to know. In other words, the greater you suffer, the more you have the need to know. And, of course, you can try to avoid that, which means you’re trying to hold onto some sense, or aspect, or wisp of things. But you can’t hold onto the wisp of things. What is missing in all of this, that functions like that, is the recognition of a connective intertwinement and, in that, the connection being so much so of the heart.

And so when one is trying to be in a particular way in the outer, in which you’re more contracted from the expansiveness of your overall being, you are projecting a quality of duality yet upon which you suffer.

But if you get set in a particular way strong enough, then what you do is you can react violently and shut out a listening that is capable of taking in anything and everything that is around you because you know the illusion of all projections, because you somewhere are always feeling the atonement or attunement that is intertwined. And if you’re holding onto something, then you’re going to react. And when you react, you’re going to suffer in the heart.

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8ce1b54Most people would be astonished to know the true potential of a human life, if it was unencumbered by the culture and educational training, which have served to disconnect us from our natural processes and alignments. As a result we live our lives in the narrowest possible way, striving for planetary rewards, when we are designed and meant to be connected to universal processes and knowledge. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my meditation dream there is a result that I see happening, that makes sense with the way I am perceiving. I then seem to look at things in a different energetic mannerism inside, and this different mannerism is not necessarily inside, it’s an outward expression, because the other was more deeply inside. And now I’m looking at it more in terms of how it is, and the result I see occurring, it’s an outcome that is not what I expected.

The first thing is really the deeper thing inside, and then the second thing is there’s some meddling or change or shift in my energy and, as a consequence, the outcome is affected and it’s not what I expected.

If I were to go back over the factors under consideration I would find support for this result, meaning a result that occurred because I had taken on a particular demeanor. I didn’t have the demeanor, and that’s why it worked out differently at a deeper level inside.

And so that’s what we do is we take on things and the energetics that we take on change the way something unfolds. That’s how we co-create, but on a deep, deep, deep level it could have been the opposite, because on a deep inner level it actually has this other intended flow.

So as I ponder how this could happen, the balance shifts and I am in a bedroom of a house late at night. So now what I’m doing is I’m using a scenario to try to portray this again. So I imagine that I am not alone. I mean this is just some tone that you take on, just like a horror show puts you into some imagination that something else is going on besides just what is apparent.

I have no proof that anyone is in the house who doesn’t belong. In other words, this is a house that just I’m in, and I’m in the bedroom, and I’m alone, and then there’s the rest of the house and it’s empty. Then I somehow take on a sensation that I’m not alone, and if I can actually carry the sensation to a reality it seems in my energetic imagination.

I pause. I pull my senses together. In doing so I confront what I am doing, but still I am not sure if I can rectify my imagination. So I open a backdoor to my bedroom just in case there is something in the house and I can escape. And then I yell out, “Bozos, get the hell out of my house.” I say it a couple of times as I listen intently. If this doesn’t draw a problem to the bedroom I will realize it all is in my imagination and my calm focus has prevailed, or in other words, my sense you know that I am just making all of this… I’m imagining this.

However, if I’m wrong and there is something there then I can effectuate my escape. I even considered getting a gun I have and going out to see what might be lurking around, if there is anything at all. The problem is, I don’t know how to use this gun. It is more ornamental than real, so this could backfire on me. It’s not like I can bluff my way if there actually is something that I’ve imagined that is actually so.

So I finally conclude that I need to just pull back my heebie jeebies and take on the house in a demeanor that is fitting to the occasion. In other words, I pull back my imagination and therefore in a state of being able to face what is meant to be, and not what is imagined.

Now we do this over and over again. Do you know why we do this? What happens is you have a soul, and the soul is infinite in nature, and then it’s trapped into the confines of a human body and so in the delirium of in the human body it has a sense of something more, but it can’t grasp that something more so it makes up all this imaginative in-between because it’s in the confusion of the dense human body. That’s why horror shows, the heebie jeebie, all of these paranoias and worries come about because deep down the soul doesn’t have that, yet it’s trapped in a human body so in a sense it has the simulation of it. It has to get beyond that.

The meaning is this dream is showing me that I have the capacity to create the world I choose to live in. I mean we do that. We create this upon ourselves then, the heebie jeebies. How I feel energetically in my inner being is powerfully creative. I seem to take responsibility for that, and most of what afflicts me will fall away.

In other words, if you take responsibility for the fact that what you perceive in an outward way is manufactured as a bifurcation of the inner energy, and if you can catch up with that it will fall away and you won’t be creating the imaginative, or the heebie jeebies, or the nuances, or the attitudes or mannerisms that comport with being in a confusion because of the fact that you have this infinite thing and you’re cramming it down into a density and then reacting according to the density.

In other words, if you aren’t able to get beyond it, then it is meant to happen and who am I to say no? In other words, you create the heebie jeebies, and that heebie jeebies can actually create something. You do that more than you realize.

So I am to simply surrender that in terms of what is intended from deep within. The key here is for it to be that way, and not some other way because I’m caught up in an energetic nuance mannerism I superimpose whimsically. Or to say it in a deeper meaning way, to keep from taking responsibility for who we are, which is the higher self, we manufacture heebie jeebies.

The world of stillness is not easy to sustain. In this loci we are in the game of manifestating our separate illusions and living them out as figments of our imagination. Such conduct seems to be a byproduct of a soul that is infinite suddenly confined to playing the human body association game. Isn’t that interesting?

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