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Psychic-Mind-Powers-MeditatTo be born, as we are, in the physical realms tells us something about our purpose here. The human plays a role in processing higher energies here, in the physical. That’s why we need to be here. We are not meant to forsake the physical, but rather let higher essences come through us into this plane – as a service to creation. Nothing else but a human being can provide that service – it is our high calling. Yet to do that, we must let go of our personal view of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Oddly enough, we are working with the principle of expansive and contractive.

In other words, one takes and they develop to a particular point, and then you change. And then you develop to another point, and you change again. And each is a process of awakening. 

When you developed and got to the point where you understood the tunnels and stuff that you got to a point where something more was now needed and then you had to shift again and had to leave that behind. 

In my dream, I contrast this as expansive and contractive characteristics. And to start off with, I look at these characteristics almost in a way which doesn’t initially have any context to it, in other words, as vibrations. And then, of course, to make the vibrations make sense, in order to pull out a greater meaningfulness, I have to bring that into some sort of symbology reference, or otherwise I’m not going to get it.

And so I have this meditation dream in which I’m in a restless state to begin with going into meditation, and it has to do with some sort of turmoil in terms of how it is that the world is. I couldn’t get still.

And I contorted about and, eventually, when I did finally go somewhere, I found myself having to contend with these conditions of expansive and contractive. And what I was seeing was that there is something happening in a greater expansive context way that is, well, it’s way too much. 

In other words, I see it as like a huge drop is coming in terms of what is expected, but it’s also a bigger picture energetically and vibrationally. It’s going to be a drop in a whole quality and standard upon which people live life. It’s going to deflate, or depress, instead of maintaining its usual ways that we’ve gotten accustomed to. 

And this huge contraction is short lived. It swings us first in one direction in which everything kind of collapses or falls apart, and then you have an extreme outer event where it just explodes from a deflated way to an inflated way. 

In other words, first comes the contraction, and then comes the expansion, only this time it’s like an inflationary thing that’s just as impossible to deal with. And so, essentially, what’s going on in the outer is things are transcendent and almost inflationary in their energetic mannerism, even though the manifestation conditions are being manipulated to disguise that.

And that disguise is going to drop away and then everything is going to smash that expansionary, inflatable, transcendent quality. It’s going to smash that and everything’s going to contract. It’s all going to crumble. And then from the crumbling is going to be a breakdown, a greater breakdown vibration, in which everything then is going to have the sensation of what it more truly is – a type of strange inflationary imbalance – which you have to contend with because that’s what’s been secretively, or hiddenly, going on as latent behind things. 

The purpose between both of these ways is to try to get you to expand, to break out of your linear perspective. A human being keeps resorting, and stepping back, and dealing with, and taking on whatever is left to them. We’re so adaptable. 

And the key is, it’s no longer acceptable for us to shrink when something causes us to shrink, or to expand when we have the liberties to expand. It’s important for us to recognize that we are supposed to take into account a wholeness, not just dovetail back and forth, and weave in and out. We’re meant to be a fullness of who we are.

And in order to get us that way, what is designed is to accentuate this expansive/contractive characteristic and quality to where a person is going to be compelled, or they’re going to go insane, or crazy, or really fall apart, since they’re so good at adapting to all kinds of changes in their environment that take things away, and pretend to give them things that are called advancements to society.

They’re going to have to learn to contend now with all of that. This sort of thing has gone back and forth and back and forth. Now they’re going to have to contend with it in a much more magnified way, because man is meant to take on a much bigger wholeness than he had ever imagined was possible – and he can’t keep hiding.

So in this state that I am pondering is, how do I gauge the event and its vibratory effect upon everything? And I see this as two components. One component takes something down significantly, and another component is hardly affected at all. It’s like a derivative, or it’s an inner of the inner of that, and it’s hardly effected at all. 

And so this is the energetic that I’m left with in my dream state – but what do I make out of all of that? I need some sort of symbolic reference in order to pull it in better.

So, in my sleep, I’m confronted with having to contend with variables in which there are the extreme, diverse conditions vibrationally. And this is not something I am good at doing because I’m used to conditions that are defined. So, as a result in the first part of my dreaming, because I’m used to things being defined, orchestrated, or pigeonholed or however it is that we reference our way of perspective, I was unable to pull out a lot of what I dreamt about at the very beginning because I couldn’t keep up. I couldn’t expand. I couldn’t take it in.

And it had two variables to it, and I couldn’t get myself around either of the issues. In other words, there was one issue and it was up against another. These were expansive and contractive energies going on, and it didn’t matter which position I took I couldn’t handle either of them.

Because I couldn’t handle either of them, therefore I can’t relate, or report, what was taking place because all I know is that both involved life, and invoked a greater perspective than what I was capable of bringing to bear, or to carry inside myself, to handling in terms of who I really am. 

And so, because it’s like that, I couldn’t handle the two variables, the contractive and expansive, I couldn’t take either position properly. It’s like those energetic vibrations had no choice but to walk away. I was given a chance to be able to relate and carry them as a flow within, but couldn’t do it. 

So, in order to help me understand it in an outer way, in a symbolic way, the dream then repeated with an example. In the dream I was having to relate to a person by the name of Ron. Ron is a person who goes very fast, faster than other people, actually has a certain rudeness he carries in terms of other people because they don’t relate to him. He doesn’t give them the time of day. He just walks away from them. 

I was talking to him and apparently it wasn’t according to his perspective relating to the picture in a way that kept up with him, or was on a level that he wanted to talk about, or was not broad enough – so he walked away. 

Then it repeats again, only this time Ron’s pointing out – and he gets more personal so I can remember it better – he points out that there’s a condo in the building that just sold for $630,000. And Ron did some quick math in his head and determined how that property sale would be effecting the taxes in the future. 

Well, instead of keeping up with where Ron was coming from in which he was taking that as a lead-in to a bigger point, I make some idiotic comment that is off the topic and indicates that either I can’t keep up, or I’m not listening properly, or I’m unable to stay focused and attentive to what is going on in front of me. 

Upon making this out of place comment, Ron just turns around and walks away, walks around a corner and is gone, as if he has no time for this. I am left about to say something else, also off the subject, but he’s gone, he’s left abruptly. So, I do get that shock.

So the meaning of this is that personal indulgences cause the synaptic impulses to go off on a tangent from time to time, and these tangents are away from the greater picture of life, which has so much more going on. 

I get caught up in a dense wound, or it’s like a groove in my synaptic cranium, that triggers over some inflection or another, and the comments or the points that I see myself having to gurgitate have nothing to do with anything at all that’s in the equation. It’s just that I have not figured out how to be properly focused and attentive and present. 

These responses are correlated to some dense pattern, personal habituation that cycles and cycles, and thus I lose what is really going on because I’m caught in that. And so I’m at this point where I’m realizing I’m caught in a reverb, and it’s unacceptable, and I’m not keeping up. 

The greater aliveness of life is unable to get my attention so, you might say, that I was shorting out, in a manner of saying it, as my listening center indulged upon some latent inflection that consumed my attention instead of what was right in front of me. 

The paradox is that I have to be grounded in life, but not consumed by what is going on in order to grasp creation, or the divine hidden in manifestation, or however you’d say that. If I am too linear I am caught up in my own insular world and not present. If I am wounded by some characteristic, or affect, I also shut down to the big picture before me as I indulge in that mannerism. 

The greater role of a human being is to be able to take in everything that lies before them in manifestation without indulging, reacting, or personalizing the scenarios. Of course that’s all kind of saying the same thing using different words. Only in this way is a human being able to retain and maintain a greater soul awareness, which takes in the bigger picture and, in doing so, is intertwined consciously with the whole. 

It may be a paradox to do this in manifestation, but that is what is required. The essence for all that is cannot be caught up with in a pure transcendent way, because creation was created as a mirror image to all there is in the world of light, which is reflected in manifestation as an octave of sound. And of course sound is a derivative of light. 

This means that a human being is meant to catch up with all there is by being truly in touch with the eminent imbedded in all of manifestation, because it’s all the same/same. It’s in the same image. Yet the human being, instead, dwells upon personal neuroses, attachments, or linear indulgences based upon synaptic woundology to name a few states of avoidance – the greater energy of the whole just passes them by. 

This applies to my dream image as follows. My dream image is portraying the effect of the predestined general will of God imposed upon life, and I am left with having to contend with that to see if I can take this effect in graciously and naturally. 

If not, there is going to be some form of reactivity – that’s my manner of responsive indulgence. The reactive relatability is seen in the dream energy as an interaction of expansive and contractive forces, instead of just handling it all in a stillness.

Because, ultimately, it really all is just a stillness, but our indulgences make it seem as either too expansive, or too contractive or, in other words, too much to handle either in terms of too much light, or too much linearity or denseness. 

Sometimes that is described, in other words expansive and contractive, is sometimes even described as up and down energy. Sometimes it is viewed that way or you can view it as money, like having to open up a certain power, and money is the symbology of an inner power. 

The dream itself took this general vibration and placed it into an image to create a symbolic reference. I am able to relate to symbolic images with a better understanding than through pure energetic. 

And, of course, that’s how we still are. We’re still so slowed down that this is how we get it, and that’s why we live in manifestation. It comes to us that way. It’s too transcendent as pure energy. So I’m still learning about having to bring the inner vibration into life and connecting to the overall, accordingly. That’s the process. 

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fractal8In this series of dream segments, Jeane experiences what can be called a new schematic. What has changed is her ability to be more fluid with sudden changes in her environment. Being able to maintain a flow, no matter what comes up, is a fundamental aspect of experiencing the world of the Whole, rather than our much smaller world where personal involvement and old reactions cut us off from the overall.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My next dream I think it has two little segments in it. In the first I’ve gone back and I seem to be staying, or living, in an apartment complex I’ve lived in before, which has several room compartments to it.

But while I’m in the back part of the apartment unit, talking to whomever is there with me, I notice that the landlord is letting some people move in to a front part of my apartment. At first I go up and look and I can’t quite tell if maybe there’s just a room that opens up to another unit and that room is open, so I’m seeing it, you know, the door slides open, or is she actually moving people into the front part of my unit, without having talked to me about it?

So I can’t really quite tell what she’s done, but it seems to be done anyway. It’s kind of a wealthy couple. I don’t know them. I’m not quite sure how to relate to all of that.

It seems to be a done deal, however I feel about it.

John: So, the key to this dream is that you should try to relate to whatever that is that’s the couple or whatever who have moved in, is because it’s just like in my dream. What’s happening now is, the dynamics by which you blocked, or stopped, a certain thing from being able to happen, or changes and shifts to be able to occur, you’re no longer doing that because you don’t have the shadow dynamics and the peculiarities that get in the road and keep you going around and around.

And so the dynamics of what this young couple is all about is important for you to look at, because it’s now depicting an aspect of you in an overall way, which you’ve been able to catch up with as a consequence of not having those barriers, and those resistances, and defense mechanisms sitting in the way.

Because this is something that whenever there is something that is just suddenly there, like in your house, you have to look at it and recognize it as something more about you, just like you can have dreams in which you discover other rooms, and various sizes and shapes, and dimensions and peculiarities about the house.

Well, now it’s not a question of those kinds of dreams so much as it’s that you’re opening up to a greater beingness that you have to now accommodate about yourself, which may have been veiled from you – your ability to see it, and recognize it, and appreciate it before, but now that it’s there, you just need to embrace it for what it is, and how it is, because that’s you in a way that you had veiled before.

Jeane: I remember a little segment then where I try to go somewhere, and I’ve gone out and it seems to me like I’ve gotten on something that’s almost like a ship. I’m going for a picnic. I seem to have invited my ex along, and that means that one of the Basenjis is coming, too. At the same time, I’m trying to relate to him and keep a distance, you know, he should understand it’s just for the picnic or something, not really a relationship here.

It feels like I leave for a second, and I realize we’re on a ship, and I look over the ship’s side. It’s like maybe a storm has come up, and I see this, and I’m trying to balance like I was sitting almost like on what was a picnic table, and so I can feel like I can slide over the side any second.

So I’m looking over the side of the ship, and I see suddenly there’s like this huge, some type of mammal that’s been caught and brought up alongside the ship. It’s almost as long as the ship is, like a whale, except it’s flatter and broader. I mean, it’s something I’ve just never seen before.

It feels like when the ship stops, that I even can get down and walk on dry land, and go over and touch the animal, or some other huge animal showed up now, a turtle, and I can go over and actually put my hand on the lip of the turtle and get close to it as we walk by.

That’s just a little segment I remember before the next dream.

John: So, similar to the first dream that you just told, you’re again contending with something that is changed in terms of something inside of you. You only have the slightest inflection that it has to do with the Whole and the fact that the creature of things that has shown up, also looks like there’s something else there that could be a turtle, and turtles always depict the overallness of the world, the affairs of the whole of life.

And so you are having to accommodate and contend with that as part of your overall universe, which ordinarily, in prior dreams, would have been such that if something like this was introduced into your scope of attention, you would have grumbled, and complained, and been felt peculiar and weirded out.

And you would have had your reactions, and the reactions would have been what the dream would have been about, as opposed to now when you have the dream like this, there aren’t the reactions, and instead there’s the situation and then the situation is having to be accommodated and what that is about in terms of how you adapt and adjust to that in relationship to the greater aspect of it being in the Whole, of all that there is, is the schematic of how you’re coming to see your being, which is extremely close to this whole idea of being merged into a Wholeness.

Jeane: Then I just have a little segment where it’s like I’m staying at a resort of some kind, and I’m trying to go somewhere, and when I go up and go across a passageway, suddenly the passageway is filled with some kind of a meeting that’s going on – like a Lion’s Club meeting.

There are all these tables that just start right where the door is, and chairs on each side, so it’s almost like I practically fall down into a chair at the table, about two or three seats in. And then suddenly someone is serving me a plate of food, and I’m looking, I think there’s turkey and some rice and something else, and I’m kind of regretting that there are no mashed potatoes.

And then this woman across the table points out to me that there are also some mashed potatoes somewhere on the plate. It feels like I take a bite of something, but then I’m suddenly feeling like, I really don’t know if I’m supposed to be eating this meal. I don’t know if this is my meeting for sure. I feel like there’s someplace else I have to travel to.

So I get up and I start to move away, but then I suddenly realize, well should I have paid for the meal, or at least tipped someone? I’m confused, but the room is so crowded that to try to go back into it there’s no place to move. I’m just not sure what it is I’m supposed to do, and I’m not even that clear on where it is I’m going.

John: Yeah, it’s similar to the last dream that I told (see Forward Motion), where the first aspect in my dream was that there was the flight that I would normally take in which everything is all orchestrated and laid out and planned out to the point where you don’t have to contend with any peculiarities or variabilities, and so there’s a certain control that you have over the situation.

And therefore you find comfort in the fact that it’s going to unfold in a way that is predictable and therefore there’s that creature comfort that you now have. Now, that of course is thrown away, and I have no idea about the new schematics of how the second flight is going to be, so much change has been now introduced into the Wholeness of things, so much shifting has taken place, so that even the flight doesn’t necessarily leave on time, and that you have to be prepared for whatever the peculiarities might be that come up in a moment’s notice, because everything is subject to change.

It’s no longer as established as it used to be, and so you have to prepare for the total unexpected, and you have all of that going on in this dream. It’s distinct from how you would normally expect an overall dream to be, in that you now have to contend with this whole other set of schematics that’s taking place.

And that’s just the way that it is when you open up yourself to an overallness that has more subtle changes and variabilities that are taking place. You’re going to have all of these other schematics that are now part of your consciousness, which weren’t there, and weren’t even factored in, which you stayed separate and away from, you now have to absorb, or contend, or work with.

And if you can’t do that, then you’re going to suffer collateral damage. And what you’re doing is you’re noting that, somewhat affected and bothered by that, but not to the point where it keeps you from being able to be, and flow, and take on, and function.

The key is, is you’re noting the idiosyncrasies through the dream world. And then in the outer, whatever the idiosyncrasies are, they can seem much worse, and much more complex, and much more in the way, and all of that, but because the pace of the inner is going at some huge multiple more than the pace that you’re functioning and flowing with in the outer, you’re now at that point in the dream process where you make major strides just by being able to have that happen inside – and pull it through.

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John: In Jeane’s dream yesterday (see The Support of the Whole), the image showed that part of her had made a connection to the overall, while a part of her still had hesitations about that aspect of letting go.

When we see ourselves as part of the whole, it means that the events in the outer no longer have a certain type of validity; they no longer dictate how we respond in ourselves. It means we have a way of seeing and understanding everything that’s happening around us that’s less personal and more universal.

When we view the world from a separated, personalized viewpoint, it’s like we take some aspect of life and we dwell upon it and dwell upon it until it becomes our anguish, our pain, our heartache that we’re going through. It becomes a big drama.

But, in a spiritual development, once we get through, or let go, of the personalized drama, then our attention can shift to everything else, and we can view events in life as part of the natural dynamic. We no longer see ourselves as separate, but part of an unfolding process.

Until that point, we’ll still be coloring, or adding personal bias, to whatever we perceive around us. We’ll still be coloring it with some aspect of our drama and, therefore, keeping everything separate because we’ll be sorting it out in relationship to this non-empty state that we still choose to carry. So everything will still be evaluated, or filtered, in relationship to that.

You might say your dream has asked you the question: can you go off and be okay without having a particular, defined presence, functioning as if to reflect things to you as a mirror? Can you now do this for yourself – in relationship to everything in life? A part of you says yes (you’re moving) and a part of you still says no in the dream, and that’s the part where this guy comes in and starts going through the closet.

So that’s the neurosis. I mean, you’re still not quite fully believing it and so you’re still having to go and sift through the evaluation forms in the corner, as if there’s still some sort of reality in its own separate, distinct way.

See, in an emptiness, in a state in which you lose yourself, there’s no evaluation left. I mean, there’s only an evaluation left when there’s the idea that things are separate and distinct, i.e., you have to look at something over here, and then you have to look at something over there, and there’s a distinction. But you only see these distinctions when you’re looking at reflections of the truth, not the real truth, because reflections take something out of the flow of what is real and they suspend it out.

As a reflection is suspended out, it’s almost like a motion picture on a screen. It’s set and fixed. Then, if you relate to the image that’s set as if it’s real, and that’s how you approach and react to things, then you have to evaluate that setness. There’s no aliveness in that.

If you go back to when the image was first created, all the aliveness exists there and it’s fluid and it changes and it correlates and it relates and it includes and intertwines, but the projection itself doesn’t do that. The outer world we see and experience is such a projection.

So if some part of you is coming into the office and grabbing forms for evaluative purposes, that’s the set quality trait that’s still there: some aspect of you is still taking the reflection as literal. So you have to contend with that aspect in you – there’s still work to be done.

The key to this dream is that you have two energetics going on, and you have to try to feel the both of them. You have to feel the energetic that has the bravado that’s able to recognize that it does have this independence and freedom and linkage and connection upon which it can fall back and be okay.

And then you have to feel the part that still has to knee-jerk and go through a reaction in some sense, and then has to evaluate where and how all of this is and what it’s all about. That part is the part that’s still working with the outer reflection, as opposed to an inner essence.

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