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On a spiritual journey, it often seems that there are so many things to think about, and remember, and understand that it can seem overwhelming. But the truth of it is much simpler: we are designed to make this journey, and everything that is natural is designed to support us in this journey. The difficulty is that we have been born into a situation that is completely detached from this truth. So our work is in dropping all the acquired concepts that separate us from what is natural, and that begins with our view that the universe is here for us, instead of us being here for the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So I do something quite similar to what I did the other day, which was I look at something one way in the meditation dream, and then I took and I flip it over and look at it almost as how it would look in the outer in which it can have an absurdity to it. And so there’s a depth in one way of looking at it and an absurdity in another. There’s something in terms of how to see the flip side of each.

Well, in the meditation dream, I am shown the state of beingness needed for a letting go to naturally be there. In other words, I’m trying to describe your third way. In other words, you don’t just retreat into a deeper innerness and then utilize that as a tool, just like there’s some people who can retreat into a wealth effect, and use that as a vehicle or weapon of modality.

The state of beingness needed to experience a more expansive reality requires a letting go of the way we carry ourselves. There’s five or six steps and one of the steps, after the concentration, there’s the Dhyana step and then Samadhi. In other words, these are various steps in a process of unfoldment and, when you really look at the definition of Dhyana, Dhyana incorporates this concentration.

And so Dhyana is both inner and outer, and it’s the Samadhi that gives you the altered states where you shut down the senses then for something more. But Dhyana, strictly speaking, is a type of meditation that can be done with eyes wide open and you do things in the outer, as well as eyes closed and doing something, and going somewhere, and being somewhere on the inner, with the higher states of the shutting down of the senses being the Samadhi component.

In other words, we already know this as something that normally isn’t talked about because then that gets confusing to a person who has to have a conceptualization of what the spiritual path looks like.

In the meditation dream I experienced and dealt with being able to hear what is going on, in the overall universe, by dropping expectations or basically dropping the concentration. For example, in the dream I am on an elevator that has 18 floors. I am on the 11th floor. The elevator comes to the 11th floor. I want to go into a vibration and letting go that will take me to a subtler level, which is the levels above the 11th floor.

I don’t push any buttons. I have to be in that state, and then the elevator will have a tendency to go there. Otherwise it will go to a lower level that is denser.

So in this dream each floor level is a subtler, and subtler, inner surrender, in terms of each upper floor level. Such a letting go touches the vibration behind going to an even more subtle level. This is again trying to put words to how you do it this third way that you had in your dream.

If I am in an indulged state, and am unable to let go of a kind of motif, that energetic will cause me to drop, and influence my beingness, and cause it to go down. In fact, this is interesting that I would dream it this way because this is also described in the Upanishads. One of the oldest Upanishads indicates that what happens is that a human being’s soul gets to a level of a type of freedom, in which it can like take and go into an overallness or an aboveness or something like that, which is a level of being that has a whole greater sense about itself.

As it flows in this zone, it is said to be burning up its good works. I mean this is the way the Upanishad presents it. Again, it’s not necessarily true but it’s trying to portray a system in terms of the creator and manifestation. So as that happens, as its good works or whatever its qualities are that it has released, and broken free of, as a certain heaviness is still there and it comes upon one more, and more, and more, then it’s said that you start falling. And it’s like developing a gravity, or a heaviness, and you then descend back into the physical.

And then, of course, the Upanishads is trying to lay this out in terms of thousands of years and how all of this process kind of works and whatnot, and it’s kind of an interesting portrayal. And here I’m dreaming of this in a type of similitude, in that if I can let go and be in a naturally let go state I have access to the subtler levels above the 11th floor. Or otherwise if I get on the elevator, the elevator is going to go to where my weight and burdens still carry me, which will carry me back down, down into the density, or into a south direction rather than up, or a north direction.

So if I’m in an indulged state and am unable to let go, the energetic will influence my beingness and cause one to go down. However, to awaken to a greater perceptive beingness that is able to take in more of life, I need to let go of a set conditionality that affects my state of being.

The meditation dream is introducing into the overall the state of being required to experience the existence of subtler levels of beingness. A person cannot experience subtle levels of beingness when stuck in a modality in which the demeanor is being conceptually restricted. What is needed to go to more subtle levels, in terms of being able to go above the 11th floor, involves a letting go to a deeper emptiness within which there is a natural free flow able to be there.

So the punch line is, the meditation dream in which I pondered what it took to be receptive to an above the 11th floor inner adventure, in a type of outer world, too, was provided as a healing image to experience subtler levels of beingness on the path of an intertwined oneness.

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iPXWe know well that it happens in waking life, but it’s interesting that we can be frustrated and annoyed in our dream life, too. But the frustration is with ourselves, because we are all the characters in our dreams. And that’s why dreams repeat, or why images can go from walking casually down a street to running away from a zombie as fast as we can: for us to really make progress toward what we are trying to accomplish, we have to have full agreement within us. For every part of us that doesn’t agree with the “new” agenda, we’ll face a struggle in the journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in my dream, it feels like initially there is something going on in the dream, but there comes a point in the dream when I want to pull an energy through. It’s almost like I want to pull it through sideways, like it would go through the heart, right, but sideways. But there’s a clairvoyance missing.

Because of that clairvoyance missing, I can’t pull the energy through. So then I start trying various things, whether it’s a setting, or a dialogue, or changing this or changing that, but even though there might be something I can do I seem to reject doing it because, without that clairvoyance there, it feels like it’s not really going to work.

And I’m so frustrated with that, and all the things I’m trying to do to shift it, that I forget the details of the dream because the annoyance at that point gets in the way.

John: You’re using the word clairvoyance to describe the condition that I would call a kind of letting go. As you were telling the dream, I was thinking of the question: what is the purpose of meditation and the dhikr? And the whole purpose of that is for it to enable a person to be in a space in which the connection to the greater parts of themselves can just flow through.

And so the flowing through can be an energetic flowing through and, to the degree to which that might be inaccessible, there will be some degree of barrier then, or veil, that one will experience as an impediment, or burden, or weight, or mood, or tone or something that is abiding, so to speak, upon the heart.

When that is let go of, when the dhikr breaks through that, when the meditation is able to take you beyond that, all that it’s really doing is causing a letting go. That’s all that’s taking place is you’re dropping some way that you’re carrying yourself and, when you do, when the loudness of however it is that you carry yourself goes away, something else is able to be there. It just kind of fills that space.

It fills the space. It has always filled the space. It’s just that you pushed it out. It’s just that in a loudness of one’s self, or a mannerism, or a quality that you can’t shake in terms of a tone or mood, you’re pushing something away. And the contractive nature always does that, too, and so it seems especially difficult when one has to contend with, and identify in a way with, the effects of a contraction which means that when you have contraction there is something dying, or going away, in terms of life itself, or isn’t meaningful any longer and so is on its way out.

You have that, too, you can get all contangled and wrapped up in that, as opposed to just being able to let it go. It’s hard to let things go when they have an indulgence, when the indulgence of that is so overwhelming.

So the dilemma you’re creating is that you’re sitting in a spatiality in which there is this quality of flow, and you’re trying to relate that, or denote that, for yourself with the dream elements, or the whiftiness that exists in a feathered way, that portray the same thing. It’s those aspects that tend to add a symbolism, that tend to make it palpable, because it can be maybe too transcendent to be experienced energetically.

Yet it can be understood energetically, as well as symbolically. It’s just that the tendency is the story, or the symbolism, tends to make it more alive in terms of one’s graspability. It does that up to a point, but there comes a point when you function without that. And so you’re functioning more closely to what is coming in, as a connectivity, from these levels of yourself – because that’s really what is in flow.

That’s really what is sweeping over you. To begin with it’s a type of mitigation, but if it’s totally swept away as it’s swept away, as you come to recognize more and more qualities of yourself opening up, it can come across as a kind of clairvoyance where you’re still trying to steer it in some fashion, but it’s not a clairvoyance, it’s the natural flow of your beingness on some level that you hadn’t noticed before. So, as this is happening, as you’re seeing this, there’s a note of frustration instead of ecstasy in this.

In other words, a heart that is afflicted in some fashion is going through a definition, is still holding onto a separation. Whenever the heart feels an affliction, the way that affliction is to be understood is that it is something that is over, that’s meant to be let go of. Yet when a human being tends to feel the affliction, they contract and try to contend with that. They don’t have a quality by way of letting go or, you know, they haven’t chopped through that effect, so to speak, that a dhikr helps do; when done properly, you’re holding yourself in this other spatiality.

Now what is this other spatiality that you’re holding yourself in? It’s the spatiality in which the soul resides. It’s an overallness that takes in the whole, but you’re not able to be in that if you’re caught in something else, and are finding yourself sorting things out in relationship to the something else. And that something else would be whatever it is that is touching the heart, or causing the heart to have a certain blur about it. In other words, it’s not as effulgent as it could be.

That’s the key point. When you get into a condition where you’re having to contend with something in which there’s an aspect of frustration, or an aspect of trying to sort something out yet, where you don’t feel like you’re quite getting the full memo, and you’re acting, up to a certain degree, conditionally, then a part of you dwells on that, and gets caught in a reverb of that, and isn’t able to take the vibration and let everything that can flow through that vibration – in terms of all the levels of inflection. It’s not quite able to let that happen because you’re caught in the reverb of it.

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7essIt is said that a spiritual path only ends when your time on the planet is over. And this dream analysis digs into the fine details of how that works. Because it’s often not understood that, as we develop, while more things become possible for us, those new possibilities also have new requirements. So the process is one of cleaning and clearing as we go, with always more to discover and work on, and new elevations to reach. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So now I’m explaining how it is that this process works, how the shift is like and how you do this shift inside. In other words, it’s like in the outer it tends to be experienced in terms of its miserableness, and you don’t get beyond the miserableness until you let go. And when you let go, it goes away.

So, in order to shift to new levels, you have to, on an inner level, let go. On an outer level you suffer it, and you suffer and suffer until you reach a point where somehow you come to grips with enough of it so that you just let go. And when you let go, you go into a stillness.

This is how you make the shift. You go into a stillness, and in that stillness, in that stillness you heal. It’s like when you sleep at night you go into a state where you let go of the mind, and you let go of the attitudes, and the anger, and the mannerisms, or whatever the burden of the day has been, and you go into a rest. And in that rest you are released from all of that – and you heal.

Now you’re not going to heal if you don’t fully let go. In other words, you’re going to wake up and you’re going to be exhausted from having been exhausted when you went to bed, but normally the purpose of sleep is you go to sleep and you rest and, in that resting, the body heals and you’re ready to face the next day again. That’s a degree, that is a level, that’s working with a level that is naturally given as a cue, and as a hint, in terms of something so much more inside of us, and how you work with this process.

Well, you have to learn how to use just the way that it is when you supposedly get a good night’s rest and sleep. You need to use that as a hint, recognize that as a hint, and apply that in a constant way. In other words, when you sleep your mind is not active, your senses aren’t active, and so your breath is not regulated in some sort of motif way that has to do with a neurosis and mannerism that you are clearing, and so then you go into a naturalness. And that becomes an emptiness that you’re not aware that you’ve done, and you heal, you heal in this zone. So, all healing is conducted by going into this emptiness.

But then there are steps of emptiness, and that’s what this dream is about. In my initial meditation dream I went to a place of stillness within, but this time there was a part of me that looked at me in the stillness and wanted something more to happen.

In other words, once you hit the stillness, then you can take on something more. In other words, you keep opening up and opening up. You go into a stillness, and in the stillness comes an awakening. In other words, it works that way in the Dhyana meditation, for example, in that when you meditate in the Dhyana meditation you go into this quietness, this emptiness where you’re just soothed, it’s a stillness and you’re just soothed, nothing is there.

At some point something is there, and that something there is something that you then have to bring through, and flush through, that has opened up from inside of yourself. You have to bring that back down. And, in doing that, you’re living out then yet a trait that has to be lived out.

Now, what you don’t realize is what comes out of the stillness, and the stillness works in a very interesting way, you can have a stillness where you could be gone and gone and gone forever and then all of a sudden this gets hit, and then you have to bring it back out, you have to contend with it. And when you have gone through this level of a stillness to where you own that and you can be like that, and then something more then can arise that normally couldn’t arise otherwise that had been repressed, then that is an action, that is a motion, that is something that quickens, that has a visibility. And that visibility throws you around, and that visibility then that comes out, that awakens as a consequence of the stillness in which it couldn’t come out before until you had gone into a depth of yourself to where this could now come through, you now have to live this, you now have to experience this and you have to take it into the outer.

So, this is really a tricky little thing in terms of how consciousness works, because you can sleep at night, you can hit the stillness, and in the stillness you can hit you might say a type of guidance, or information, and that guidance and information has to do with being able to have accessed and pulled out a higher consciousness side or part of yourself in a whole other level, a level that is far superior than how you are in the denseness of yourself – but still is something that also has to be surrendered or released, because if you just took this guidance in, as if it was black-and-white and absolute, you’d have a spiritual illusion, because it too is a level, and there are still levels after levels after levels.

So you have to take this in and do what? Live it through, process it through. You bring it into the outer, and bring it to a stillness, and you repeat it again and again. And this is how you catch up with each level.

So the way you experience this, in the dream state, is you get to a point where before when you first initially would go into say the Dhyana meditation you just disappeared. There’s no memory, there’s no nothing of anything. And then, eventually, something can come through as a dream within the meditation, or a dream within the stillness, and a quickening within the stillness that is still going on somehow, still a motion. And the way to look at that, when it first happens, is it’s like a guidance, it’s corrective.

It’s a byproduct or attribute of the stillness, yet at the same time it’s also the next barrier. And so then you have to take that and you have to noodle with that. You have to throw that out there, and because it’s like a spiritual illusion, it’s a little harder to let go of because it makes more sense, it’s more practical, it is an aspect of the higher self. And you have to get to the point where you let go of that, and you bring that into a stillness, only to find another depth, a whole other way of being able to relate.

That is why it’s a big mistake for a person to think and say that they can do more work on the inner. In other words, they get tired of the yo-yoing in the outer and just finally say enough is enough, and think that they can be more productive on the inner. No, they then have resigned and given up on the idea of accessing, and therefore penetrating, and therefore bringing through the levels. And you do this by absolving all of this within.

So in the dream, when you come to a point within the dream where you aspect the stillness and then you start to very subtly see a double yet, and the double is a part of yourself that still has something going on. You have this total stillness and then it’s almost as if like a boredom to the stillness because then there’s this other going on.

Now, this other is interesting to you. It’s also nauseating, but it’s also very liberating. But the way you reconcile this inside, the way you feel this is, where the stillness was once the end all be all, the stillness is now boring, because you have been in the stillness long enough that now you want action. And so then there’s this little action and it’s almost like an inner double inside of yourself to have to live that, to bring that to the same place again, but to a deeper stillness.

So maybe this is easier to understand when I read it. So from this state of stillness that, to my surprise, was now deemed to be bland and ordinary, a motion now was observable again. This was like having reached a whole other new level within and I was starting over therein. I was going to have to take in this motion, be thrown around by it all over again, to eventually bring this to an absolved stillness. So that’s the first aspect, and then still staying within this dream, there’s a shift that shows that these are all states.

See, this is how the levels were. So now I’m describing it. What is going on? I’m accessing another level within that exists beyond the stillness, that had been a wonderfulness, that had absorbed my denser beingness therein for a long, long time. I got accustomed to going there and letting go.

To my surprise I have exhausted my welcome in the state, and have pushed on to a whole new level. In this level there is a motion that has now emerged, a kind of uneasy boredom within, a boredom exists with regard to the stillness of the prior state, as a new uneasiness that I must go through opens up.

Like I say, it could be like a spiritual illusion until you absolve it, until you learn that the process is to keep taking it into a stillness. So I’m finding that I am not as empty anymore and am going through something more now that was not possible before. I know that this is a new level based upon this newfound sensation. I no longer reside in the prior soothingness like I had on prior meditations. I am affected by what goes on at this other inner level, and come out of the state after a bit of it, because I am starting anew and can only take so much of it.

Until I experience this within, I wouldn’t have known that there was a different sensation and beingness to have to contend with anew, that had been asleep and unconscious until now, that until now it had been suppressed within so deeply so that I did not know that it actually kind of existed, you might say, because it was too much for my psyche to handle. But now I am ready to face this, face to face, as the next step. This is a whole new level that is opening up for me that I will have to come to grips with inside of myself, and bring this innerness from its latent hidden amnesia, into the outer.

And so it goes over and over and over as level after level become accessible, there is an awakening in which it comes from a hiddenness into this plane of manifestation. In other words, you learn to live it. See how important it is to bring it through? That’s what magic of a human body. It can do this, and it all has to work all of this in conjunction with what is considered the lowest plane of existence – which is manifestation. You might have heightened senses and whatnot that you can catch up with, that you can sense inside, but they’re not valid, they’re not real, unless you can own them in this lowest plane as well.

What I am saying is that the inner world process comes alive and knowable when made conscious and livable in the outer. This has a sensation of being in which an awakening occurs based upon bringing the innerness into the denseness in order to break an amnesic hold and spell, thus opening to greater degrees of oneness.

Now of course what I also described in your dream is, you can actually know this, or understand this, or it could be taught, but it can’t be lived without a certain kind of getting it that has to do with the way the outer is the greater teacher.

So when you suffer in some capacity, and learn to then hold and go to the stillness and the letting go, you make the breakthroughs. But if you suffer and then get righteous, and attitudinal, and everything else, and instead adopt and act like, you know, you can manipulate the outer aspect of things in order to make something better, in other words, you can move the deck chairs of the Titanic of yourself around, then nothing changes and, instead, you just go around and around in the karma of the trance that you’re in.

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