Into the Mud

Jeane: In my main dream last night, it felt like I could speed very quickly over a forested area, almost like Central Park. There were stands of trees and then a grassy area would open up where I could see people.

I was traveling in a certain way and moving very fast, but I was also having a dialogue with myself about how I should go down into the meadow. I was feeling the need to put my feet in the mud and to spend some time down there before I continued my speeding along.

So there just seemed to be a dialogue going on about this shift between moving fast above the trees, and being in the mud and grass and walking along, and then going fast again.

That seemed to be all I dreamed.

John: What you’re describing is a condition of being lost.

Jeane: Really?

John: Yes, you’re speeding around, off the ground and disconcerted, and at some point you know you have to get back down into the mud. You’re sensing a gap between the two aspects and that’s an aspect of being lost.

The speeding around represents a particular pattern or mannerism in you. It’s a habituation, or a routine, where you go about your business. In that regard, it represents how you normally perceive yourself. That’s “how it is.”

Yet at some point you feel a duty, or greater sense of responsibility, where you want to come to grips with something in a greater capacity. That’s the desire to go down and get in the mud.

A dream like this can cause you to recognize that you’re spending a lot of time in this state of free flow. You’re not tethered to anything. That may seem like a good thing, but it’s a state that lacks consciousness. If you were to put a reference to it, you might say that you’re free-floating three-quarters of the time, and you’re down in the mud one-quarter of the time.

We all have a predilection to free-float in our lives – it’s kind of casual and comfortable and easy to do. Then we realize that we have to deal with the consequences that were pushed aside while we were free floating. But you’re able to see all of this as kind of okay, because at least you do realize you need to get down in the mud.

So, the dream has to do with wanting to catch up to an even greater dimension of your self. Over our lives, we get used to the way we perceive the world around us. That band of perception becomes a kind of filter that screens our experience. Eventually, everything begins to seem humdrum, or mundane.

And you may not even see anything necessarily wrong with that, because you’re not seeing what is being lost as a possibility. Getting into the mud is like a process of addressing something at a greater depth inside, and that can only be done through a quality of the heart trying to bring everything into alignment.

When you have a dream like this, you might sit there and ask, “How do I feel about this?” Well, it feels like there was recognition that your free floating was bringing information to you in a biased way. I mean, even in free-floating you have a connection to the whole, but it’s one that’s tailored to a particular pattern or mannerism that you’ve come to adopt.

What you fail to realize is that you’re trying to have it both ways, free-floating and getting into the depth of yourself. So you’ve worked it out through an inner dialogue that concludes that everything’s okay because you do plan to get down in the mud.

Do you see how that works?

The Boomerang

John: In this first dream I’m being shown how to take and use a throwing disc. It has a hole in the center and is like a Frisbee; there’s a way of using it as if it’s a type of perpetual motion object.

There’s a person who’s showing a few of us how to do this. The others are really just there, I guess, because it’s ultimately going to fall upon me to have to pass along this understanding. The way it works is you throw the disc at a wall, it bounces off and hits another wall, and then bounces off the corner and comes back, like a boomerang.

In between, there are all sorts of obstacles. Some how or other, the disc works its way through all of the obstacles without getting stopped or slowing down. It comes back with the same energetic force no matter what it bumps into – nothing is lost. That’s why I’m describing it as a “perpetual motion” object.

So when it is thrown, I don’t have to worry where I’m aiming, because the nature of the disc is that it will find its way back. On my first attempt I throw it out very weakly and slowly, not with a lot of force or power. Even so, it seems that no matter what force I throw it with, it still comes back at the same speed, without losing its energy.

Now that I’ve been trained, I have to take this skill into my (outer) life. Only I’m not playing with the disc any longer, I’m just playing with energetic force. The energy needs to be sent out into the universe, and I don’t know if it is supposed to return or just be encompassed within the universe.

All I know is that it’s not supposed to change. It’s supposed to maintain itself. I’m supposed to be able to look out there and see that however it has affected or touched something, that effect remains unaltered.

At first I see the energy penetrate, and it seems to be going through all that I can see in front of me. However, when I take a look more closely, I realize that what I’ve thrown out there has changed. It has been altered and distorted.

This is very disconcerting because I had such high hopes that this could be done and somehow saw that it could be done. Yet when it really counts and is projected out there as an essence of one’s self, as an impulse of one’s self, it degenerates into this appalling distortion.

This result is unexpected and it tears me up inside because I know and feel within that it wasn’t supposed to happen. I start sweating again during my sleep because of this. My whole sense of what I was shown was taken in so literally, I hadn’t expected that this could even happen.

In my sleep, the stress of this causes me to sweat profusely. I’m unable to realize what has gone wrong or how something designed to stay intact has fallen apart.

Tomorrow we will look at the second dream in this sequence and discuss the overall theme and how they the two dreams are related.

Inside Ride

Jeane: In this last image it is night, or twilight. I’m not sure whether it’s night and the moon is out, or if it’s twilight, but I’m able to see where I’m going. I’m wandering around some hills, looking for something. I go up on a path that runs along a cliff and then heads inland a bit.

At this point, I look over to my right among the hills and I see a man. He was the object of my search; he’s someone I knew in high school. Even though by profession he was a doctor, he became well known later in life as an artist – he makes bronze sculptures. 

What he’s doing, and my impression is that he does this every night out in the hills, is ride these wild roller coasters. I think he even takes me on a brief ride because I can see the roller coaster hop up and down above the hills as it goes along.

After the ride, he tells me the real way to take a ride on a roller coaster is to be naked. I’m having my doubts about that when I wake up.

John: You’re really doing an interesting job. In this dream it’s like you’re seeing the consequences of what is happening when you go on a journey, in your inner self, at night. To make that journey, you have to let go of everything, and that can throw you around in who-knows-what kind of roller coaster fashion.

In order to get the full essence of all that, because you’re in another plane of existence (when dreaming), you have to completely let go, which is the sense of being naked. You can’t hold onto anything, even in your sleep, when you enter this whole other domain. You can’t bring any limitation across into that domain; you can’t clothe yourself in any capacity if you want to really do this right.

If you’re able to do this – to let go of everything and be “naked” – then you’re imprinted in some way that makes you artistic, or creative, or the creator, in terms of how you’re able to be in your outer life. You’re then able to carry something across – you’re affected by this whole adventurism from within – and take it into the outer where you can freely design and sculpt your existence.

So you’re getting a glimpse of yourself from the aspect of the creativity and design potential of your own being. And that has to do with being able to truly let go of your ego, and your senses, and your mind, as you journey your way in the inner while you sleep.

This enables you to enter into this helter skelter, scary, unbelievable roller coaster ride of the inner, that takes you to who-knows-where. As a consequence, being able to traverse this playground of the inner, you gain the knowing that allows you to come back into the outer and sculpt and design and shape things.