The Underlying Essence

3333nloadWhat is a spiritual journey? Before one makes it, it can seem that it’s just living life with a deeper consciousness – which is true. But it also entails continual change and letting go, so that all the aspects of a life that are not in alignment with the universal purpose are set aside. This is how a life connects to the whole, and also how it gains the intelligence to proceed because the process is incremental and we need inner guidance all along the way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in September 2017.

John: My last two dreams dealt with what you dreamt with, but the precursor dream to all of that, the meditation dream, is quite interesting in terms of the journey of the human being.

The meditation dream kind of sets the table of it all, or the consequence of it all, in that I was shown last night in the meditation dream the way the underlying essence dynamic, how this underlying essence affects manifestation – kind of how it works, in other words.

The process refines a human being into intertwining with manifestation. The inner essence vibration goes into physical existence, in other words, that’s how the intertwined essence comes to pass is it goes from inner into outer, eventually. The more a human being is consciously aware of his role as the Crown of Creation, the more readily and succinctly this works. But that’s not how it is to begin with.

To begin with in life, a human being sees everything as separate. Chance and nature are deemed to be in control. What happens is deemed to be unpredictable and generally disconcerting, so you’re always on guard, because a human being who is unconscious sees himself as separate from his environment, and sees himself to be kind of a victim of circumstances.

Slowly this changes. To begin with, the effect seems more coincidental, that you get a break or something, that something happens that seems to go along with how you are, or something. In other words, little by little a human being begins to see themselves intertwined with life in some mysterious way.

And then, eventually, you come to recognize and learn that this connection seems to stem from the heart, not from the mind, because a heart that is awakened is able to touch life, while the mind, which is a function of understanding, is based upon input such as the five senses that interact with manifestation. That way of being is seen to be a shallow, lower-self awareness.

The higher self opens up as the heart center intertwines, and, to begin with, that intertwining is seen as something that has kind of a type of natural and instinctual quality, much like animals, to it, and over time this awareness deepens and is able to touch and affect even dense outer objects.

And as man becomes more aware of how the principle of oneness exists, the alignment through the heart deepens. When the heart opens up the brain, a knowingness from deep within awakens simultaneously. The insights flash automatically. There is a sense of being able to operate outside of time.

This occurs initially as a split second, in a split second kind of thing, in which you are both inside and outside of time. In such a moment a person is able to see vibrational outcomes. You have a sense of what’s going to unfold for the future, bringing the future to the present, in other words. This insight happens so quickly that, to begin with, the human being calls it a flash of intuition. Until a human being is able to realize that they are able to affect manifestation continuously, they explain the instantaneous inflective knowingness as an accident, or as a type of intuition, or as something that varies and sometimes comes together as a meaningful coincidence or synchronicity.

As the separateness caused by the mind ego is even further set aside, or let go of, in terms of the need to control the physical environment, and the need of seeing manifestation as being separate from them, the inner into outer relationship awakens. I believe that the veil that separates mankind from arriving at this conclusion is getting thinner and thinner. I believe that there are souls born into this world who, at a very young age, already understand the principle of life deep within. For such a person who is born this way, the awakening process is just a matter of alignment.

In the dream, I saw myself affect an outer event. What happened took me by surprise. I also noticed that the effect could arrest the flow, just from the way an inner presence was able to emanate. What I saw is that I have a huge responsibility in that the changes that are effectuated need to be positive or, in other words, the effect is to an overall well being consciousness.

I also notice that the intertwined simultaneous effect arose from another level of my being, in other words, not the one that’s associated with the mind, and the senses, and the ego. For lack of a better word, I am caught in this connection to the world soul and, as a human being caught up with a Crown of Creation flow, the transformation comes from deep within into life. When this is possible, the outer is seen as being an extension of the inner. When this is natural, the differences between inner and outer fall away.

As this further evolves consciously, time and space fall away as the essence for all there is opens up. It is hard to believe, from our mind ego senses that keep pointing out separation, that when the separation goes away, time and space dissolves, and it is as if nothing is going on. The closer we come to this consciously, the more we are able to see that everything that our mind perceives to be separate is but an illusion.

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An Illusionary Way

Spiritual-AwkenigIn the shift from our personal view of life to a more universal connection, we can often sense, or feel, that what prevents us from a deeper letting go is a type of holding on: to our ego, to our idiosyncrasies, to our psychologies. Even as they prevent us, or hold us back, we find safety in them, grasping harder sometimes when we are closest to a new freedom. At a certain point, we must realize that even after we let these acquired aspects drop, we will still be there. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I’m looking at an energetic nature that needs to awaken to a feature of itself, but is in an illusionary way. I’m looking at my inability to let go to a deeper inner experience, within, that exists in a kind of hiddenness because I’m attached to an energetic affliction, that, in the outer, is my manifestation. There is manifestation that is the collective of all of that, and my place in manifestation is my particular affliction. 

In other words, behind that is something more, but I am carrying on in a certain illusory way that I see myself. So in my dream, I observe various scenes in which whatever is expected of me is in an outer scenario, which, when unremoved, get in the way of deeper inner awareness that is possible. 

Often this inner awareness, a supposed aliveness that, in the outer, is actually something that’s insipid and lifeless, even though I may act like it’s not insipid and lifeless, it’s because I’m not getting behind the preconditioning that exists and properly letting go; I’m not letting go. 

So this acts out on the plane of collective projections, called manifestation; see, we each carry who we are like that. So for this acting out to unfold from its trance means that I have to somehow let go of the projections – and that letting go isn’t possible yet.

So the way I saw myself, and the way others see me, is whatever my spellbinding schematic that is how I am, they see that as the way I’m lost. We’re now just zooming in on how it is that I have something that is veiled. Only from an emptiness resulting from being able to let go of a profile, am I able to be still and non-tranced out.

The theme of the dreaming was to not have a profile, or projection, per se, which is an identification that dictates over one’s ability to hold on to a stillness. In this theme my dreams involve being unable to let go of what exists as a bifurcation, or whatever you want to call it, in a created collective outer illusion. And, of course, the sum total of all of that is what makes manifestation, and there I am caught in that in an outer capacity. 

So, in the meditation dream, I am shown that I’m living this out in the illusion that is called manifestation. And to take away the dream is to take away the fabric of the breath that sustains the illusory state, and has various identifications upon a breath of images. In other words, whenever you have something in the breath where you pause, there are images pent up in that, that call for a reflective projection into manifestation, because the breath itself is the sum total of manifestation. And then you’re some aspect of that that bicycles around.

So to do away with having to contend with such dreams is to do away with manifestation. To say I don’t want to obliterate manifestation, per se, is to say that I am… In other words, if I want to maintain manifestation, if I like the way I am, it’s the same thing as saying that I am addicted to the illusory spell and identification that is a mind and its imagination. 

Or, if you want to say this another way, the outer collective of all of the thoughts, whims, wishes and projections of mankind have come together to create a way of co-creating, and living something out, in what is called manifestation. So that was my meditation aspects.

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Illusory Thoughts

M. C. Escher

Have you ever been all dreamy and in love, and then, one day, you saw the other person clearly, and it was over? That dreamy phase is the relationship we have with the outer world. We’re so enamored that it doesn’t matter what it does to us, or how it treats us, we keep doing everything for it. A spiritual journey is the moment of clarity when we say to the outer world: “Enough! I’m not getting what I need in this relationship.”  And “what I need” really translates to being connected to, and in service to, something much greater than the outer, which is the inner, which is where we can create the relationship that we were designed to find. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My sleep dream, meditation dream, was quite a bit like that, and then I had to understand really what it was saying through the sleep dreams, because in the meditation dream I find myself unable to experience myself from an outer flow.

In other words, I can’t do it in the outer flow, from the outer flow. In other words, it’s not like it is the outer flow. So, as a result, I’m unable to break the effect of projections. In other words, the outer flow and the projections are just there. I’m not going to break that, I’m not going to change that, and they impose an effect that is part of a waking up, I guess, or however you’d say that. I come to know that that’s not actually real, but, nevertheless, there’s still nothing I can do about it.

So, in the meditation dream, I am aware that what is being imposed upon me is not real, and is, you might say from one way of looking at it, therefore kind of basically unacceptable. Nevertheless, even though I know that I am supposed to be able to get away from the projections, try as I might, I’m not able to do it.

So in the meditation dream I’m appalled. You know, in other words, when you look at things you’re appalled, and the sensation is that of being continuously abused because things are just always in flux, which is frustrating because one is trapped by that, which you know isn’t right. You know that there is something else.

I know that I am not meant to be a person helpless to the momentum of outer projections. That’s like the dream, and within this meditation dream there was this whole sense of the other all the time – even though this was my condition.

And the meaning is, if you look at it really closely, this is a dream that’s exemplifying the bewilderment associated with being caught in the momentous intensity of the out-breath. Because it’s the out-breath; it’s in the chaos of things. It’s away from the stillness. And I know that the out-breath, per se, projects illusory thoughts.

In the meditation dream, over and over again I am compelled to accept the fate of the projected thoughts. So this is my condition in manifestation, even though I know the projections are imposed. I cannot free myself from such outer projections. I know that I am being victimized against free will; a deeper will.

In spite of being thwarted to having to contend with this plight, I know better. I never lose the sense that I have that there is a primordial stillness which makes everything right. I know this to be so, so much so, that I am shocked when the projections keep predominating. I know the projections are powerless from the echo of a stillness I am not reaching.

So what I am really talking about is a wonderful sensation that comes from the in-breath to out-breath interval where all is as it is meant to be, which is peaceful and still, and yet that has to be experienced, and is experienced, and caught up with in the chaos. The in-breath and the out-breath is the chaos. So that’s the meditation dream.

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