Posts Tagged ‘listening to inner guidance’

quietnessWhat do we really hear when we get truly quiet within ourselves? Perhaps it is the sound of the universe trying to guide and help us, its most precious flower. Just as everything we see around us is programmed to succeed in its destiny, so are we – but with a special feature: we have freedom of choice. So the guidance we receive has to be requested by us, and importantly, we have to be able to receive it when it comes. That’s when we need to be quiet and listening – inside – even if we are physically busy on the outside. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: You crashed in the middle of the night. You knocked everything off the table, and I said I lost all the dreams that happened before that, because they were so wispy last night.

John: Well, I have crashes all the time, because I’m investing in the markets and stuff. I wake up and my heart just literally drops to the floor sometimes when the market drops out from under me. But I have to function, and I have to remember dreams.

Sometimes someone will call me and they’ll want to know something, they may even tell me a dream or something, and I’ve just looked at the computer screen and I’m in bad shape. I’ve had a crash, yet I have to hold it together. And, in fact, my mind can go racing off at times, and then I go and I sit and I meditate and I have to pull it together.

Now fortunately, I think what saves me is I’ve discovered that there is a correlation between light and sound, and that sound is a lesser octave of the light – and yet they are correlated. You speed sound up and it turns into light.

And I’ve learned that I can sit down and no matter how chaotic something is inside of me, if I can just listen to the sound of the universe, which because everything was created—creation was created out of sound—and you can hear that, and if I just listen to that and go into the stillness of that which is of the whole, the oneness, I can leave all that behind.

But of course, if I can’t, and my mind just goes racing this way and that way because things have crashed, and because everything has gone tipsy-turtle every which direction, then if I can’t pull it together, come back into that space in some capacity, then I’m a wreck. I crack, and I can’t find anything.

I don’t know where you go back to, but you go back to something that’s pretty dumb and pretty out of it, and really shut off, and it requires a holding of this listening center, because that’s what the sound of the universe, that you can hear, that’s what it really comes down to.

Maybe you can’t hear it, in so many words, but that vibration, as a listening center, carries guidance within it or, I should say, maybe, using a better word, a type of knowingness that pervades. And it is from that that one is able to understand, to know, and to grasp things that you can’t grasp with your senses, your mind, and your ego. Your senses, your mind, your ego, all of that stuff that jerks you back into a limited perception, happens when things crash.

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purpleheartWhat is not always talked about in spiritual development is the way a person can begin to feel like a stranger in the world around them. It’s a natural part of the process of deepening our inner connections, yet it’s also a challenge for us to continue to let go of those external attachments – to ultimately make the transition complete. In this way, development is a continuous action of choosing the deeper path rather than the shallower path of external life.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dream, I kind of have to report on what it’s like to have to be strained with kind of a focus and attention upon an innerness that one knows is important and that, until it comes through, it’s almost as if that is at the expense of an outward understanding.

Because it’s as if I’ve gotten the inkling that that is what is real so, as a result, the outer things that one would normally do and think nothing of it is no longer possible because I have come to know that it goes nowhere.

It’s not that I judge it. In fact, I find it kind of interesting as a flow, and find it interesting how the collective seems to be quite fine with all of that, but it doesn’t reach into the beyond of the beyond and, as a result, I’m somewhat estranged from it.

In my dream, I have gone back to a gathering of high school friends, and these are all guys that I’ve gone back to see, and they’re all grown up and accomplished in whatever it is that they do in the world.

And it’s as if we are getting together in a place which has a setting that’s able to be casual enough so that we can all just go about being who we are, and portraying our individual interests to each other. And what is amazing is, each of these interests, because they’re all outer interests, there’s a cohesion or a collective flow that comes together.

I’m impressed and pleased to see how easy going these guys are able to be in relationship to each other, because what they have in common is this outer linkage or, in other words, a linkage to the reflective. But I don’t have that, and so I’m feeling off, or out of place, not able to fit in.

But they don’t see life like that, that there’s something else going on in me that’s different. They see everything in an outer context, so they just accept me. They don’t see my problem. And I like what I see in terms of them and how they seem to flow nicely with each other. But I can tell, at least in terms of looking at myself – because I’m looking at something of the innerness instead of just the outerness – I can tell that I stand out because I am identifying with this innerness. Or at least am trying to.

And my identification with that has me listening within and, therefore, I am estranged energetically from them. I have lost a freedom in the outer that they still have. I am stiffer in that regard. I look and carry myself as if I have a responsibility that they do not have to relate to. I cannot help but notice that there are many things they each can casually do individually and collectively that I seem to struggle with.

The separation I carry is because I find what they are doing naturally to be awkward for me, and it’s become awkward for me because of the indulgence of my attention is somewhere else.

So the meaning is that at first glance these others, who represent the collective outer, I look at them as the way to be, or something, that there appears to be something wrong with me. And that gets accentuated as possibly so because I can’t help but note that I come across, at least in my own eyes, I mean they accept me because they don’t see this other part, but I come across in my own eyes as being too serious by comparison and not able to free flow, or casually relate, to the outer aspects in life like they do.

They collectively fit in with the physical world. This is what they know so there is no confusion for them. Each is putting forth, in a casual way, the appearance in the outer that best portrays who they are, and what they do, and that then all fits in a collective way.

It’s kind of like how it is when you go back to a class reunion or a reunion of some sort. Each person, they don’t go around complaining about how bad life has been to them, they all try to put their best foot forward. They give each other permission to all put their best foot forward; they don’t complain a lot.

It’s kind of like an ego thing a little bit but, in relationship to that, I stand out because I don’t have a best foot to put forward. I do not identify with life in this manner. I see myself as being separate from them in a way they aren’t able to perceive, and so I can’t even explain that to them. Although they know that I’m somehow in the outer so they accept me as I am, but only to a degree of how they see things in the outer on an appearance with myself; I’m trying to relate to something else.

They’re each going about doing what they do best and integrating in a collective lull. And I am touched. I’m impressed, even, by the fact that there is something sweet about that free flow. It just isn’t for me. I can’t help myself not being like that.

Even though they look at me and are ready to accept me in an outer way, I am not able to reciprocate because my attention seems to hearken to something that is another kind of pressure, or inner responsibility. They can’t see that, and where they are at collectively I must leave alone because that is for them.

In other words, I can’t tell them, I can’t explain the gap, I’m just at a point where my focus is upon an inner attention that has caused me to see myself as estranged in a world that relates only to outer appearances and mannerisms.

I’m no longer able to be temporal. I therefore lack the outer understanding which, for them, is meaningful. In that regard, I’m a bit helpless. I am distinguished from them in that I carry an inner responsibility, which affects me from within, and invokes a responsibility I am still seeking to reach.

It’s not like I’ve reached it and so, in that regard, part of the awkwardness is my bewilderment. In other words, for as long as this remains more than I’m able to access I remain a bit tense and stiff.

If I were able to live the inner aliveness, as a oneness, I would be able to fit in with the collective reflections as well of my high school cronies. I haven’t gotten there yet because I’m still trying to get there, still trying to attune to it, so I’m bewildered between this and that.

So I haven’t gotten there yet, in terms of being at home with the inner aliveness, so there is an imbalance that causes me to see myself as being out of touch in terms of everyone and everything in the outer.

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Jeane: My dream last night started out with me wandering through the desert with a group. There are people that are guiding us through – they’re like Bedouins, except that they’re wearing indigo colored robes.

Initially, we just follow them. As we get deeper into the desert, there are areas with rising rock walls that we go between. I move closer to our guides, getting right in behind them. When I do, it suddenly feels like I’m under their protection, or it feels like I’m one of them. I don’t have the sense of being separate.

I can feel that I have a certain protection from them that allows me to stay out where they are, even though I’m not a Bedouin (or whichever tribe this group is from).

As the dream goes on, we come to an area where there are caves, and I think people are flying overhead in helicopters and hunting. It’s almost like there are military exercises going on or something, so it’s important that people know who’s on their side and who’s not.

At this point I realize I can make certain sounds, and even run through the caves, and be recognized by the Bedouins and even by some of the people in the helicopters. I can also find my way back to the group or be separated out if that’s what’s needed.

I have to remember the songs, and also remember the way back and forth. It seems like there has to be this form of signaling because otherwise the people flying above, and just seeing everyone in the desert, wouldn’t really be able to tell who was on their side or not.

John: The Bedouins, a nomadic desert tribe, represent, in this image, something that sits in this huge overall spaciousness – the open desert – and opens up perception and awareness. The Bedouins, as a tribe, also represent something connected into a period of time that stretches back thousands of years, flowing in an overallness in which very little has changed.

In coming to recognize this overallness, through this vibration inside you, you are also becoming aware of things that can cause you to get a little disoriented (feel hunted), in relationship to this greater overallness that has opened up. But you have your guides, and you’ve found, because you have a comfortability in Creation, that you can use songs to move about in order to make yourself known.

In other words, these songs or sounds create a connection, or a linkage, through which you can be just fine in this overall greater spaciousness, i.e., you can be just as at home in the desert as a Bedouin, knowing how to safely come and go.

In other words, you have found the means by which you can better appreciate this expanded space that you have opened up, which has an orientation to the past, and a sense of freedom. You have gained an understanding of your whereabouts within this space and, if in doubt, you have learned to use sound to orient yourself.

In a sense, you have proven that you are not an outsider in this greater space, but an accepted participant who belongs there. That’s an important idea in a spiritual journey: a human being who lets go of personal ego and cultural, planetary attachments, does so in an effort to join with something else, something much greater, which is already in progress.

The idea of joining an already ancient process, which is playing out at a universal level, requires that we humans get to know Its ways – that we learn to fit into It, and to be like It. It is a truth of the human journey that Creation will never exclude us from participating, but we can (and do) exclude ourselves by being out of alignment with its ways and purposes.

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