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Physical Fitness

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Jeane: The thing that I would note about my dreams last night is they always took place in the dark. It was always night out and they seem to involve men I knew from my past, when I was in college or shortly after that.

In one dream one of the men is pursuing me. I’m always trying to stay out of the room where he is so as not to end up having to interact with him, but I can only prevent that so long.

Then a woman friend and I go into the room and there is no way that I can avoid him. I approach him but also ignore him a bit; I don’t want him to think I’m avoiding him, but at the same time I don’t want to give him too much attention because I remember him as being possessive. So there was a little maneuvering that went on between approach and avoidance. 

That evolved into a dream that involves another man I know who is very accomplished and talented. He is with a redheaded woman who has a lot of power. They are sitting in chairs, almost like thrones, in a room full of people.

He approaches me and I do a little dance to stay out of reach until at one point we’re together. It seems like we’re going to make love, but I want to make love while being on top, kissing him, but also maintaining a certain distance.

In terms of the energy of the dream, I would say it felt like I again could move around in a slightly circular way, as I moved in and out of the different rooms.

John: Whenever we experience dreams where something is trying to get our attention, in the case of these two images that’s represented by the men, it has to do with the way we take on moods, mannerisms, or patterns that suppress or block out the information that is trying to come through.

These patterns end up creating a situation where that information, or energy, becomes stifled, or pent-up. So it tries to get our attention – it wants us to acknowledge or recognize it. This can apply to physical aspects as well as emotional. Our patterns tend to shield us from issues that we’ve already concluded are more than we want to address or take on.

The schematic of this dream, though, is a little different. This information is coming alive – it’s awakening and opening up. It’s still searching for its parameters in terms of what is right and what isn’t.

The subjective side of the feminine nature knows what the flow is by the way it feels in the body, and what you’re doing is you’re finding yourself fighting that flow (i.e., you’re avoiding the encounters). That creates a veil to a potential greater sense of awareness.

If you think of what is going on in your waking life in relation to this, you could say that you are speeded up because you are out of the comfort zone of your home and in a new place (Las Vegas). That means that certain avenues of connection, within yourself, are able to come out now because of the timing and the place. So you are trying to go through new reverberations within to determine what parts of you are connected and what aren’t, in terms of what you need in this new situation.

So this dream develops your ability, on a sense level, to tell subjectively whether something is right or not right, in such a way that it can open up and you won’t repress it. It’s coming out anyway, so now you have to maintain your sanity in relationship to it.

My dream centers around the scenario of being sick and feeling miserable to a point where I’m unable to put my attention on anything else. As long as I’m dwelling on that, it only enhances my suffering because I’m only looking at things in terms of how they personally affect me. The sickness is consuming me.

At some point in the dream, my soul let go and I stopped focusing on my specific ailments. I just went into a state of emptiness, dropping back from my physical condition to something deeper within. That’s when I notice that I’ve reached a stillness that assimilates my condition.

I wouldn’t have been able to sleep if I hadn’t reached this state. As soon as I start to look at my miserableness again, my condition consumes me. 

What this shows is that when a person transcends dwelling upon particular conditions – anything in life – they’re more able to find a natural flow. The flow comes out from the wholeness, from the overall, and not from our specific details and idiosyncrasies.

I felt a wonderful sensation of allowing myself to be swept along in the overall. There was a peace and quietness that went beyond my physical condition. This was a state where I could experience myself as a part of the whole.

When I start to cough, because I think I’m sick or need to cough, etc., my attention goes back to suffering with my physical ailments instead of letting go and being in a state that’s naturally able to be nurtured.

Inner Resources

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John: These next dreams literally take me back to the question of buying a condo here in Las Vegas.

In this dream, I own a condo unit in an exclusive building. My real estate agent is interviewing a young lady who’s interested in renting the space. She has seen the unit and wants it.

The broker says that she needs to present a financial statement that shows that there’s $4.1 million in the account and then the deal will be a slam dunk; in other words, she’ll be qualified. 

She says to him, “We need to talk.” She has a different proposal for him to review. I don’t know how this came about other than I’m told that the “triangle approach” was used. The woman took on more debt as she augmented her position and, in the end, the fact that she did this maneuver disqualified her. 

In other words, she was encouraged to do whatever she needed to do, so she came up with another approach and that was something that wasn’t appropriate. It was disqualifying. I get the report back that she used the triangle approach, which allowed the offer to unfold and it had three legs to it. The woman proceeded to do what was required to fit the criteria, but in doing so she was no longer acceptable to the place.

In this dream everything gets deferred. The number that comes back, way later, is $646,000. I’m still pondering this as I wake up as you are offering an interim suggestion: “If you want to.”

The meaning here is, I need to be guided into following a simple flow, rather than getting sidetracked by more confusion. What I’m looking at in terms of the negotiation results in even more that needs to be sorted out. I don’t need more to sort out, with triangles and all of that.

The next dream covers similar territory:

I own a condo that is situated energetically above a casino in Las Vegas.

In order to redesign and make this condo viable requires the use of an internal corridor that lies between my condo and the casino. The top step of the staircase in this corridor is broken. 

On an energetic level, the casino is affected. There is no rational outer reason for why this broken step affects the casino, but from the aspect of an interconnected aliveness there is a linkage between the casino and my space. 

In the dream, I have resources at my disposal stored in a room that only I have access to. This room, like the staircase, is also located in this inner corridor. The resources I have stored enable me to fix (and this is the other odd part), and oil, the step to make it more flexible. I mean, the step is solid but I oil it.

I see myself fixing the step without involving the casino. What I do, however, does have an indirect effect upon the casino. I become aware of the connection when I notice that my joy is the casino’s joy after I fix the step.

So this imagery is showing me that I have access to inner resources, which are stored in an inner part of me, and can be used as needed. These resources are necessary to complete the next “step” in life.

In other words, I need to utilize these inner resources to continue my progress. The casino of me is overjoyed.

The Energy of Place

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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.