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Nurturing the Relationship

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John: Well, your dream yesterday (see Going Hollywood) begins with you having lost your connection with your boyfriend, which symbolizes, in this instance “the beloved.” Once the linkage with the beloved is dropped, then you’re basically on your own, designing whatever experience seems to be the most appealing or the most interesting to you.

But because you’ve had a connection to something greater (the beloved) none of your actions amount to anything, no matter how hard you try. In trying to do it “your way” – as if you really have the freedom to do as you like – you realize that you don’t have anything to offer that you can cause, or make, happen.

Even though the new “beloved” (Jack Nicholson) looks interesting conceptually, you can’t make it happen, you’re unable to sell it to yourself. When you realize this, you wonder about it, and in the wondering you realize that, in order for something to occur, it’s going to have to be something that has a degree of relatability in the physical world. In other words, it has to occur outside of how you perceive yourself.

So, when you had a connection with something that was like the beloved, inside of you, you had a certain awareness of it. Any attempt to try to recreate that on your own won’t work. Ultimately, what you’re meant to be shown, or to see, about that is an acknowledgment that what is awakening in the outer is something divine, or something distinct from the limitations of the ways of the outer world. The dream shows you being able to perceive that when you connect with the little girl and the baby boy.

That is the beginning of what is real. Now, what do that little girl and baby boy really represent? They are a quality of the divine that’s inside your heart, which you can catch up with. If you catch up with that divine quality, that’s what gives life meaning, because that is what is real. Everything else that goes on in the outer world (of your dream) – the elevator, the hotel room, the crowd of people, is just presented to try to distract you from that. So, if you can keep your attention on the idea that you’re coming back to this divine quality (that you were separated from at the beginning of the dream), a feeling of closeness emerges in recognition of that.

If you didn’t know any better, you would be trying to make the best out of your relationship with things in the outer world, and would be continually going around and around, driven by the sense that you can’t catch up with it or you don’t recognize it. But in the dream you do know better, and therefore whatever it is that you try to do, or see yourself doing, to make something happen in the outer on a relatability-level (because the feminine has to take everything into account like she is the container), isn’t really acceptable to you.

Within your heart of hearts, you recognize that something is trying to emerge. So you find yourself having the responsibility of caring for the little girl and baby boy – in the final analysis, that’s the only thing that can make the connection you’re interested in. And the little girl and boy are tiny, and it is your journey to protect them and allow them to grow, rather than putting your efforts into the growth of the outer world, i.e., appearances and relationships based only in the material world. You can see that, even though nobody else you come across can see that. It may not fit for everyone in the world, but it fits for you, because you know that this is how you’re supposed to be.

In other words, it’s kind of like going back to basics. You’ve gotten an idea of how something inside of you works as a relationship, as a beloved trait, and now you can’t settle for anything in the outer that doesn’t include that. You’ve gone back to that world and you’ve tried to do without it, but you’ve seen that all of the plans or intentions that you pull together might be curious and interesting, yet they all leave something to be desired – they’re empty relationships. They don’t compare with what you have already been touched by, i.e., the beloved.

So, the scenes unfold in the dream as a somewhat distraught state, because the universe is not happy when you seek to take it on by yourself, i.e., you get no outside help and things don’t come together smoothly. This is a very Sufi-oriented dream, because there comes a point where you suddenly see that there’s something inside of you that’s like a little person, which needs to be cared for and nurtured. The dream shows you that that is where your attention needs to be.

Going Fast to Go Slow

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John: It‘s hard for humans to look at events from a standpoint of wholeness, because of the seeming duality, where it always seems that someone has to lose in order for someone else to gain. It’s a fundamental misunderstanding of how the principal of energy works. Energy just exists – you don’t tilt one end of it into a higher wave than the other end. It’s tranquil and peaceful; trying to tilt one aspect higher than the other just creates unnatural distortions. And that’s what creates the overall disharmony we experience in the world today.

When one gets to the point inside where they can be in that tranquility, it’s quiet; it’s experiencing a deep level of the creator inside one’s heart. And at the same time one can work within the realms of the outer so that creation can respond, based upon the images that are constantly being streamed through and changed.

That’s where it’s described, for a Sufi, who begins to see humor in everything, because they know what’s really going on beyond the illusions. If you don’t recognize that, and you take things too literally, which creates separateness, you’re not actually participating in the universe any longer. You’re out of touch because you’re not speeded up like you need to be speeded up.

So this is what’s been going on with us. We’ve become more able to help usher in this new reality of inner awareness. Humanity was not meant to live the way we do, being tossed around and stressed by the events in life. At the same time, humanity is not pure light and isn’t meant to be that either. So for a direct connection with the creator, it still requires an ego because it takes an ego to live in the physical world.

Out from that ego come images – given to you by your physical senses while you are awake. When you dream, those images can be caught up to and reshaped, and then can come back into your waking life, slowed down again. So when something happens in the outer, we don’t fight it, we flood it with this quality of heartfulness – we create the mirror. So those images from the outer, they just die and fall away if they are not connected to the divine.

So this process brings in something that is felt and carried inside of each person as their own unique connection to the creator. And they themselves then have the ability to live in life with everything speaking to them – it’s an aliveness, or a dancing, or a rejoicing.

That’s what is meant for humanity to live equally instead of individually, to strive for spiritual gains instead of material gains. It’s an experience of oneness instead of an “us or them” distortion.

Taking this into an outer example, the present world economic crisis wouldn’t become a way for the public to subsidize those who have the power. We would use this as a way to transition toward the wholeness of a global family, not the haves vs. the have-nots that we have now. In other words, no bail out that doesn’t include all. There is no such thing as a “bail out” – it’s an illusory word, and it’s a dead image.

The new images for the future show what charity or compassion is all about, and what it has always been about, before it got distorted into a lifeless expression. So what I dreamt is what I find myself living and doing in the outer, when taken out of the literalness of the outer. It’s about changing the images from the inside out; from the plane of light that’s going real fast, right down into the plane of matter, that’s going real slow. If you use that which is going much faster to give that which is going much slower (as creation itself does) a tweaking, it can catch up, and change everything.

The Watcher

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John: So this begins with me trying to break a trance. The dream scenario is one where there are options in terms of how to flow. And there is also a watcher who has an overview of the process, from within, which gives it a knowingness regarding the situation.

As for me, I am hoping for the best in observing the situation as it unfolds. I would like to interfere or be involved, but I can’t. I must let what is unfolding unfold as it is meant to do. Confusion seems to dominate the situation. The watcher is aware of the choices that are made and the potential outcome. I am torn because I am aspiring to catch up with that which is meant to be (in other words, I am in the outer).

The watcher has a sense of something in a quieter way. For me, being in the outer, it is much more difficult because I am thrown around and pressured and I don’t know where anything is going. My uneasiness exists because of the suspense that I feel. I can’t access the knowingness that I carry; it’s gotten lost. I can sense it, but I could be wrong.

In other words, I am gauging this back and forth process inside myself with something other than the mind. It depends upon the way I am able to listen to my heart. If I have a good connection with the heart I may get it, but if the mental faculties or the way that the inflections from the heart are heard are wrong, then I am apt to do it wrong or get it wrong. So how do I break the trance and get this to come through? The heart has a memory, but the awareness is not conscious to me in an outer way.

So the best I can do for guidance is note how the heart is undulating back and forth. Of the choices that exist, some step has been taken. That step sets in motion the potentialities. They are set in motion, and the watcher has a sense of where that can go, but the watcher is a watcher and it can’t interfere and it can’t help me out, and I’m sitting in a state of delirium about this. So the combination of that choice seems baffling to me, in the outer, but from within there is a sight. From within I am able to close in on what is meant to be. I am able to see how the choice that was selected correlates to the intended end result. In the outer I struggle to grasp what the heart knows is right and screen that out from the options my mind presents. To the degree those options come strictly from the mind instead of from a direct inner knowingness is the degree to which I see myself under a lot of pressure.

One of the reasons I am under pressure is that mental ideas have a manner about them that tends to cloud the clarity. The heart seeks the clarity. The mind is reaching for what it thinks is right. To go from thinking into knowing is a big step. It is automatic when one’s attention is able to be on the heart first and foremost. From deep within that is possible.

On the outer level for me, the scales are still tipped towards my perceptions and thoughts. The result is a kind of an amnesia and bewilderment. A part of me wants to just sleep and swim unconsciously in the unconstellated knowingness, but I can’t. I just go somewhere else so far away that what I am shown and what I am able to experience tangibly become the issue. In other words, much of what I am shown is lost, and that is an issue of negligence.

So I fight to somehow bring it through. I have to struggle to remember. Remembering has phases to it. There is a remembering that is readily eclipsed. This is a memory in which the inner connection is obliterated by a single thought. To a large degree I have made it through this phase. Where I am now is having to deal with a memory that needs to access more energy in order for the knowingness to become outwardly more conscious. The problem that I have in seeing this from within and bringing it forth in the outer is associated with wanting to go within and, in so doing, give in to the outer tiredness and fall back into an amnesia.

The watcher is caught in the middle. The watcher is both in the inner and in the outer. The watcher is a kind of lightbody. From its inner connection it is able to remain still. In this particular scenario, the watcher has caught up energetically with the information embedded in the lightbody and there is a direct, not tangible, connection to what needs to evolve. To a degree this leaks through to me in the outer, at first as an intuition to the degree to which I am able to connect that innerness to the outer. Very weak, in other words. The idea that there are ideas to be grasped and taken into account only confuses us; that is when the mind comes in.

The knowingness exists directly as a function of connecting to what is meant to be, and that is not a thought process. It is a process of energetically catching up with a knowingness embedded in light; a light of the whole. Because my light is pulled to that in order to see what is going on, rather than only intuitively sense it. The new information revealed is that in the early parts of the process you sense what is going on, you intuit it, and you can kind of catch up with it with meaningful coincidences so you know there is some validity to it. Then you learn to protect a certain quality of your own nature, of your own light as you are using that to discern things.

But you are doing this by feel initially, because you are still addressing and looking at your light as something that has a lot to do with who you are and you still, in spite of what you may hear, you still don’t have the perception to not see yourself as separate. Then when the time comes when your light has to be recognized as nothing more than a part of the whole, that is when the seeingness takes place. That is when you can actually start to see what is meant to be going on. Up until that particular point, you are only getting it by a type of inflection; what you could say of it is intuitive, or just a sense of it.