Breaking Free

Jeanne: In my first dream, which recurs again later, I’m watching some women dancers. They’re surrounded by diamond-like strands that come down in a V-shape all the way down to the ground.

There are 6 or 7 strands that run from head to toe, almost like a little diamond cage. I’m trying to figure out how to shift those strands into something that I can use to surround something else. Perhaps I want to surround the car a friend wants to buy, or maybe surround a person, but it might have to be in a different form.  

I work really hard at it and cause a shift so that the dancer disappears but the strands are still there. Then it seems there needs to be another shift so that I can use them to surround whatever needs to be surrounded.

I’m trying, but I can’t get it at first. Then it feels like I have a second dream before I come back to this image.

John: What you’re doing is looking at an outer condition (in life) that carries a note or counterbalancing vibration into other expressions that are being choked off or limited.

This image describes a type of feminine flair. It’s a flair that’s breaking free. In dancing, certain qualities exude or radiate out from the dancer. To radiate like that is the opposite of dwelling upon the pains, concerns, or the indulgences of the world, or forming a righteous opinion about how something should be.

Instead, there is a free flow that has a quality to it that feeds life – in an inner way. In other words, dancing is an expression you can easily perceive in the outer, but some part of you sees that behind this expression is a quality, or a trait, or a note that’s important. And that note can be fed into the whole. If you could thread back to see where this is coming from, you could pull out that note more succinctly and, in doing so, support something greater in life.

I had a glimpse of an image that I just wrote up and it goes hand in hand with your dream. In this glimpse, I’m walking in a corridor and there’s a woman behind me in high heels. All of a sudden some part of me reacts, because to walk in high heels is to walk with a certain demeanor – just like a dancer can have or portray a certain air.

In trying to put my finger on what’s going on, it seems like the woman is projected back around the corner from which she came, and her high heels are now broken. Therefore, something is lost in terms of that flair and freedom that had existed.

What I notice about this image is that it’s an expression that counterbalances an attitude, or dark energy definition, that the masculine imposes. The image is breaking free of that. It’s exuding something free of that.

In other words, it’s an energy that attempts to cancel out the negative limitations of the outer world. A person who dances is listening to something within, and they’re using that inner help to become free of something else that can limit, or define, or control them. A dancer is trying to be free.

A person walking in high heels, something that they might not ordinarily do in an environment where there’s pressure to wear the same shoes as everyone else, is attempting to break free of barriers that are imposed on them that carry a judgment or righteous opinion.

It’s hard to present an image like that to the world, just as it’s hard to be a dancer where your focus is primarily on the dancing and the flair and carrying the note to a level of perfection. You can’t achieve that if you’re constantly dwelling upon what others think.

Instead, you have to dwell upon the note you feel inside. You have to be focused on breaking free from the surroundings and limitations to which others are oriented. To do that you can’t dwell upon the ordinariness or the excesses of others (though you may be seen as excessive by them). Instead you know that it’s a freer way of being that enables your soul to soar, as opposed to being broken down (like the heels) in some fashion.

So, it’s a path. It’s a way of breaking out of an energetic, in the outer, that’s suffocating you. Not that it has broken free in the image, but it’s portraying something deep within that’s seeking to break free.

So, again, things aren’t what they appear. A person who accentuates a feminine mannerism is doing so for the sake of something that they recognize is important to the whole, even though they may not have thought it completely through.

The teacher once said he was very confused when his teacher had a woman in the group who would dress up and stand on the street corner in a bad neighborhood. She would inspire the catcalls of the men who would see something like this as out of place in terms of how the world is; they would hoot and carry on.

His teacher explained, however, that what she was doing was accentuating the feminine. Now of course, in our world of judgment one would see this as asking for trouble or give it some other label, but deep down, behind all of that, there was something much more important that she was introducing into the world as a counterbalance – to be able to absorb, to transform, and to intertwine with that other aspect.

The Energy of Place

John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

In Plain Sight

John: So, what’s the meaning of the dream described in Hide and Seek? First of all, the scene shows me hiding right in the middle the trail that my pursuer is using, and even though I’m right there, I’m not exactly visible. But my presence there is knowable by sense and intuition – by the vibrational feel.

So, by hiding on the path and working with the energetic of the hidden, it represents a kind of playing with the other side. There’s a type of magic to it, and there’s also a “red herring” element in the way the energy is being portrayed.

A red herring is an attempt to divert attention by offering up a seemingly obvious choice so you’ll miss the real aspect. So I’m lying right in the path, but under the straw. It should be obvious, but I’m counting on the limited senses of my pursuer to help me get away with it.

In order for this trick to work, the result has to be in accordance with a larger purpose of the Creator and Creation. In other words, that larger purpose makes the decision. It instinctively or intuitively knows, and I have to trust in my natural sensitivity and awareness.

If I don’t have that trust, then I will try to affect the way the scene unfolds – between my hiddenness and my pursuer. When I do that, I will change the energy of the situation, and thereby create something that is much more perceivable.

So, how is it possible that I might pull this off and escape? What I need to do is trust in life in a consciously energetic way; I need to embrace that. It’s about trusting Creation.

The rider of the horse that’s pursuing me is using his senses and his mind, but the horse has a different kind of awareness – it’s connected to life. In this dream it’s not the rider that will find me but the horse that can give me away. Yet because of it’s natural connection, the horse will know that something is under the path and will just step around it.

To give an example of this, people have seen a small baby crawl out amongst wild horses, just crawl around between their hooves. The horses walk around the baby and never step on it, because the baby’s in a state of total innocence and they’re in a state of knowing.

The real danger is when the mother becomes aware that her baby is out there and her stress and alarm upsets the naturalness. These are wild horses and yet the baby is perfectly safe because the baby is in a state of a natural innocence.

So for me to be successful in my hiding under the straw, I need that natural innocence. I need to remain uncontaminated about what is going on, and give up completely any idea of controlling the situation. I need to stay in a natural state or I could get hurt.

To say it another way, “I must support what is invisibly visible, because if it is made visible, it won’t happen.” This is a level of awareness that I’m generally not that familiar with. On this level, energy relates to itself directly as a vibration within Creation. It doesn’t have the denser outer awareness, because that would disrupt the process. I just need to lie there and trust in Creation.

When I woke up with this dream I wrote, “To properly work with the inner awareness, it’s necessary to not compromise life by dwelling upon what one sees.” In other words, people who walk around in their unawareness are almost better off, because if you have some awareness and think you can actually affect things, you can upset the natural balance and create more damage.

So, the key is to keep one’s actions innocent. For our actions to be innocent, the personal connections – and personal interest – must be set aside. When there is no ripple effect that is visible, in terms of the overall, then there is no disturbing the naturalness.