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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

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Jeane: My first dream seemed frustrating. It feels like I keep opening up computer files and all I see are numbers. It feels like they open up in batches and I keep looking for something that I can actually read and understand, but all I ever get are numbers.

John: Well, the theme of recent dreaming has been about energies that are either too expansive or too contractive. How do you work with energies that are too expansive and too contractive?

The feminine is contractive and the masculine is expansive. It’s interesting that in my dreams, I began with the contractive (the feminine) aspect first. Here, you are beginning with the expansive (masculine) aspect first.

So your first image is of batches of computer files opening up at once (expanding) and the information is more than you can grasp. Let’s see where you go next.

Jeane: Okay, so this next one I call my Prince of Persia dream. It’s kind of absurd. It feels like one of those musical comedies where the story is told through singing.

In this dream, I’m in what feels like an ancient, eastern country. A young man about my age comes to stay with my family and we realize that he’s the one who’s supposed to inherit the kingdom from the emperor, who has died.

He had been out wandering the land, but now he has come to us. We will help him claim the throne; it’s expected that he will succeed. Yet when my mother calls – I guess they have a telephone, even though it feels like ancient times  – whoever is in charge of appointing the next emperor, instead of him automatically getting it, people are doing all kinds of shenanigans so that they can rule the empire.

They first tried to put a young child on the throne, and now they’re plotting to put someone else on as though this prince doesn’t exist. My family is working to get the people together who will allow the prince to be on the throne, but meanwhile he has this delay so he and I can spend some time together.

It seems like part of what he needs to do to gain the throne is to win a horse race, and beat them at poker, because it will show he has good strategy. He could even disguise himself and actually ride the horse. So, we’re playing around with those ideas and I know the family may also want to marry him off, which I’m not so keen about.

It feels like the people who are going to appoint the emperor have arrived and are having a meeting. The prince and I are in another room when suddenly two people come in, a man and a woman, who look a little like pirates.

I know they’ve been planning on marrying the prince off, but I think I’ve got my eye on him too. The woman pirate is attractive – she wears pants and she does have a little mustache, though. She starts talking with a British accent and I can tell she’s playing some kind of a spoof on us as she bursts into song.

I rush up and hug her. She’s somebody I know but haven’t seen for a long time. Then it feels like I go into a room where the prince is playing an electric guitar. He looks at me and says he doesn’t think he was well suited for the sitar. That’s where the dream ends.

John: Actually, the reason the dream is a little odd to you is because you’re reconciling something. But what’s missing in this dream is the other extreme.

In the first dream, everything was expansive, but you couldn’t make any sense of it. Either before or after that dream, you must have had a dream, that you’ve forgotten, that showed a contractive aspect, because what you’re doing with these images is trying to bring the whole back together.

So this dream has taken whatever it needed to learn from the contraction and then the expansion, and it shows you consolidating the overallness. You are trying to bring together what is appropriate – in the idea of installing the rightful prince on the throne.

There was no balance in the expansive dream and likely none in the contractive dream, yet here you are adding an element of balance to the events that are taking place. You have resolved this by bringing the two variables together, and formulating a change in tone – in terms of how something is being shaped into life.

It’s an interesting process. In my case, I had the contractive, then the expansive, and the two extremes required me to let go to enable a consolidation. In your case, you don’t need to let go. You’re able to anoint, or instate, something as a consequence of the two energetic variables.

Was there more in your dream?

Jeane: I just hoped I was going to get to marry the prince, like in any good fairy tale.

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Today we continue the dream John began to describe yesterday in The Subdivision.

John: What happens next catches me totally off guard; all I can do is watch. My attention is completely fixed on getting the first post aligned in the hole, while this other energy is walking off. The energy packets are affixed to the post and they have to be aligned before the post will sit properly in the hole. I am working on this when suddenly another black man awakens, this time from the post I am putting in the ground.

In other words, that energy comes alive and immediately, without any hesitation, because it’s not limited by time or space or anything in the physical world, it goes over to the parcel where the other energy is needed that is trying to leak and disappear. It turns out to be on a lower parcel that I haven’t paid any attention to. I was going to work on those last.

So in a split second he cuts out a hole in the side of the boundary, puts in a driveway to the natural building spot for all to see, and then seals all of this up, so it is visualized and complete for anyone to look at. This is done so fast that I can only stare in shock and amazement. This man then explains to me that the other post was from an assistant to the main boss. This energy, without seeking permission, got into my truck on its own. It wanted to be with me. That is why I don’t recognize it and why everything is so confusing, but that is now fixed. It is placed in its home.

I stare at the lower parcel and it’s incredible. It’s larger than expected, about 80 acres. Most of the parcels that I am trying to bring to life are at a higher elevation on the property and they are only 20 acres or so. This parcel is now awake and I am impressed. The grass is ankle deep wherever I look. It’s a beautiful field. No one is going to have any trouble appreciating what this is.

Now I must turn my attention back to the other energy. That energy has gone back into the post where it belongs and is waiting patiently for me to finish the job, now that the confusion has been resolved.

Quite a dream, huh? And it’s meaning is very interesting, too. What we can see is that I have done a certain amount of the work necessary to subdivide this area. It’s quite large in size and has been carved up into useful parts that when put together become the whole. Still, what is lacking is the aliveness and I’m supposed to make that happen.

But I don’t know how, because I’m overwhelmed and I lack what it takes to handle all of the aliveness – the pure energy that is needed. The best I can think to do is work with the energy little by little, one post at a time. In other words, I’m limiting myself in order to go take baby steps. But that isn’t good enough. Whether I like it or not, I have to handle more energy. It’s as if the aliveness is seeking me out and I haven’t expected that nor am I able to contain it.

This results in me being overwhelmed and unable to handle the one post at a time approach. That’s not going to cut it anymore. As a result, I’m going to need help. What is most unexpected about the help I get is that the energy is one that I’m experienced with, it comes from the post I am working on in a one-on-one basis. But this energy has gotten quite mature and it’s able to help out.

Because it’s an energy, it doesn’t have the physical limitations I have, or the clarity still unfolding in me in those physical limitations. It can, in a split second, make itself known and cut through my overwhelmed condition and confused position. It’s not like another energy came in and did it, it was one that I know.

What the dream is really saying is that there is a part of my development that has reached a particular kind of maturity, such that it no longer needs to couch itself as much as it has been. It is showing that it is ready and able to actually stretch itself out. It can take on more. So the dream is telling me something about my own development that I haven’t understood yet. And the message is good, telling me I am ready for a new phase.

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