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Jeane: In the very beginning of last night’s dream, I felt like I was wandering around the parking garage in the building of the condo we are looking at in Las Vegas. I’m going back and forth in a circular motion. 

The dream version of the parking garage had circular islands, and I’m trying to either locate something or I’m trying to move between that garage area and somewhere inside the building.

That motion seemed to go on for a long time and then I had another dream.

In this dream I’m with a younger man – I don’t know him very well – and I’m going to visit a woman who’s living in a place in the city. My parents are there also. Then we decide to leave for a minute.

When we return, everyone else has left and the woman is sleeping in bed with a very muscular man. We realize that we’re in her space, without her knowledge, so we decide to just quietly sneak out before she knows we’re there.

In doing so, we set off an alarm. There’s a back area with a wall to climb over, but the woman and man find us. We then have to sit and talk with them, so I say we’ll pay for the expense of setting off the alarm. It turns out it’s going to be quite expensive.

Next I go somewhere with her. She’s apparently in a dance troupe, and we go to where all the dancers are, including the director of the troupe. They are all wearing red and this interests me.

Then the director comes over to me and indicates that he expects me to try out for the dance troupe next year. I joke about it because I feel like I’m not really a dancer, and I’m older, but he still seems to have the expectation that I will be joining next year.

John: What this woman represents is a greater wholeness in life that takes into account all kinds of levels.

In the dream you’re trying to conduct yourself in a way that limits you in terms of what is possible. When you do that, then you don’t dance with life or follow the flow of life. We’re meant to be able to take in everything that’s possible to experience. Your dream has you confronting this choice.

In other words, you’ve come into a space and you’re seeking to proceed only in accordance with certain established veils or mannerisms that you have told yourself are important. The nature of them is to “not disturb.”

You take the view that you’re only allowed to do certain things. What you fail to realize is that the images, what is visible to you in the outer, are something that you’re meant to experience in an all-inclusive sense. In finding yourself in the parking garage (underground), you’re attempting to go to the depths of yourself, to a place in which there’s something to be understood or figured out about the greater context.

As you move around (circular motion), you are trying to catch up with something that you can sense or feel about yourself that’s just out of reach of the perceptions you’re trying to work with. Those perceptions – as you understand them – have to do with the personal, and then what your mind is able to make out of that.

So you’re trying to understand something, but you aren’t quite figuring it out. Still, you have a perception that there’s more to it than what is readily apparent. Thus you go into the second dream to help you sort that out.

There you see yourself trying to understand something with a more masculine approach, represented by the young man accompanying you. Instead, you learn that such an approach actually conceals and veils things from you, and you find yourself in a state that sneaks around and fails to take into account the actual space you’re in (the other woman’s apartment).

This shows that you’re choosing to carry with you a particular set of definitions for the space you’re in. When you get shocked or surprised (the woman is asleep with a man, everyone else is gone, the alarm goes off), it shows you have been caught short because these set definitions have now been introduced into a much wider space in yourself. With these self-limitations, you are unable to answer the greater call of the overall – that’s when you realize that there’s a dance you have been invited to, which is the flow of life that you need to respond to in yourself.

The dream describes a process that can lead you out from your set definitions (letting go), into a space that you normally exclude yourself from by (unconscious) choice. If you can be free and let go and find yourself able to accept that space without having to tread lightly (not disturb), that’s when the space can open up to a whole (dance) flow that you hadn’t imagined you could participate in.

This is the sort of dream that’s a precursor to coming to an understanding, a knowing, about something that isn’t generally possible, and isn’t possible at all when you set your personal definitions upon a space and try to keep things in check, i.e., just the way they are.

Once you stir something up, you set off more than what you wanted to handle; you were more comfortable and in control in your hidden way, able to duck out of sight and to keep certain things outside of your comprehension in terms of the overall.

Once that got set loose, once that came to the forefront, that’s when you become overwhelmed. On another level, though, you have to now take into account even more of what is going on than what you would have been inclined to accept and appreciate.

When you take into account a greater whole, it leads to the threshold of an understanding as to what is really going on. You can’t understand what is going on when you are carefully controlling the way you approach or view something. That takes you out of a flow. That takes you out of the dance of life. That keeps you from allowing a process to unfold.

When you allow a process to unfold, you’re invoking the information needed to be safe within that greater overall space. You’re invoking an inner sense of knowing that is outside of your personal perspective.

Once part of the greater overall, you can actually come to have a sense of what is transpiring, of what everything is about, and what something is meant to be. Or, as it is said, you’re starting to catch up with the signs of God.

Everything is meaningful. When you limit yourself to your personal perspective, it is you who is deciding what is meaningful and important, and therefore shutting down everything else you choose not to contend with. When you do that, you stifle your own gain, you stifle your own growth, and your suffering becomes greater.

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John: In this next dream I see an image where I’m standing on a busy street corner trying to determine in which direction I need to go. There are four directions, so I’m confused. I’m kind of out of it, actually imbalanced, standing there on the street. 

In reality I am actually returning to a place where I was once at ease with everything around me. I have taken a job there, but a lot has changed since I was there last.

It starts off with that image and then I see myself back at the job I had a long, long time ago, trying to simplify. It’s an ancient memory inside of me that I feel I no longer need to do.

As before in this job, I am deemed a utility person, which means that everyone in the company recognizes that I naturally know what needs to be done. If I am shown everything, I can just free-flow in terms of what is important, directing others and doing things that they might not have the naturalness to do. 

The last time I worked there I was left alone to do my work and I was promoted right to the top of the whole department. This time a lot seems the same, but I’m no longer producing something that’s deemed important. There is a different expression of it within the company, although the old supervisor is there and he is also doing the same thing.

The supervisor leaves me alone, even when there is nothing to do, because it’s known that whatever I determine needs to be done, will be done, and I don’t have to fake or pretend to work. Even though I feel like I should try to stay busy, he doesn’t feel that I need do that; from his standpoint, I’m always busy.

However, in this particular state, I have a conversation with him where I ask about the past and the owner of the company. I feel a little sorry for my boss, who’s someone who hasn’t gone anywhere and is still doing the same things. But times have changed and there isn’t all the attention on producing something special. It’s more general in its expression now.

Over the passage of time I describe to him the way it had been in the past. I say, “You know, back when I left I was a bit of an agitator. I reached a point where I couldn’t be like that anymore.”

Then I point out that there was some confusion over what needed to happen, which had to do with a special product that they were putting out. And that created confusion because there was a conflict as to how best to do that.

I had my idea, he had his idea, there was a third person with other ideas, and then there was the owner of the company. He was a really a nice guy who wasn’t overbearing because he trusted that things would come together. I was always supported in my work by the owner.

The owner’s approach was, perhaps, a bit casual, because I think there was more that he had to take into account than he was capable of. So I’ve come back and all of those other aspects have fallen away; the situation has sorted itself out.

In the past it had emerged with confusion, but now it’s just naturally understood. I guess the sense of the dreaming has a lot to do with knowing how to hear something in a space that has just emerged – just like you were doing from the standpoint of a container quality that was in a solidness, that could hear the space emerge from the setness (see Set in Motion).

This dream is showing me that I’m not able to see something directly, based upon feeling ease in the unfolding that guides me along. When I struggle, that’s when I go off on a tangent and get confused. I think I’m using this pattern in my dreams to help sort out this decision about moving to Las Vegas.

I’m being given a glimpse of the peacefulness and ease that is available to me if I’m in the flow of things. It’s when I see everything as a struggle that I get disconnected.

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John: In the first dream I feel like I’m in a waiting area, where I see a father and his son hanging out. I seem to be there to play games, and the young son wants to play ping-pong. I’m there wondering if I can find a pool table.

In this peculiar dream, even though the father and son seem to be separate from me, it also seems that I’ve given a pool cue to the father as a gift, although I can’t remember anything more than that.

As I look around the room, I realize that in the area where I thought there was a pool table – I have the feeling of waiting around for them to finish so I could have a turn – there really isn’t one. I’m waiting for no reason.

When I realize this, I go down a hallway and look through a door and that’s when I see there’s a racket ball court. 

As I return, the son whines about wanting to leave because there isn’t a ping-pong table. I hope they will leave so I can move around and find the pool table and have the whole place to myself.

Before they leave, I suddenly realize it’s 4:30pm. My flight arrived at 3:30pm, and now it’s 4:30pm and I have to leave again on the plane at 6:00pm.

I haven’t eaten yet. I don’t have time to play pool. I only realize this after going to all the trouble of getting set up to go to a separate room where I could shoot pool for 25 cents an hour. I haven’t got time to do that. I have to leave.

Isn’t that interesting?  Strange dream.

This dream indicates that I’m not fully taking in what’s around me – all that’s there before me. As a result, I’m missing out on the full experience. Part of me wants to leave if I can’t do what I want to do. Another part of me realizes that, even though I’m able to visit this rest and reprieve area, I cannot hang out because I’m scheduled to go to a new place.

So, this is kind of the precursor imagery for going to the new place. The next dream tells about it.

A person is telling others that, this time, what’s being set up is on my terms, referring to me, and not subject to others as before. In other words, the time before was over – it was, perhaps, screwed up in some way – and now is a new time.

The person who is announcing this is the person who’s involved with what I’ll be doing later. This announcement had a wonderful feeling. It felt like everyone was put at ease; everything’s okay now.

Then, in another image I see myself going down an escalator, just willingly going down an escalator and when I look up I see, on a kind of a scaffold and walkway up above, my sister and her husband hanging out. 

He’s on a computer and she’s sitting there. Suddenly she points me out: there I am. I’m leaving and they’ve come to see me off to wherever it is that I’m going. They may not see me again for a long, long time. Out of respect and honor they have come to say goodbye and I wave at them as I go down the escalator out of sight.

What’s the sense of all this? These recent dreams (including The Lost City), have been showing that I’m struggling to take in the larger schematic of life. I’m moving around, but I’m not taking in the important information, which means I’m not really connected to the wholeness.

So these dreams are emphasizing the importance of being open and awakened, and therefore realizing what’s possible. So I’m being reminded before I continue my journey.

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