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John: Last time we ended with a voice in my dream saying,You have a call from all sources of what is going on, and a minute amount of awareness about it .” (For the background to this discussion, see A Touch of Mink, and Seeing the Light Beer.)

So I seem to have a minute understanding, based upon comparative experience, to know when something needs to be poured out (the beer), versus when it is to be ignored and remained bottled.

My first dream had to do with having to contend with mink energy, which is set in its nature but tends to be fairly refined compared to squirrel energy, which forages about in life and tries to make the best of a situation.

And squirrel energy is progressive. It might be a little frenetic as it accumulates things. It can even tend to hurt the subtle unfolding, but it definitely gets the attention of that which is old guard and trying to maintain the status quo.

That which is trying to maintain its status quo  – the mink energy – sits behind its established security (the gated area), but tends to lose, over time, its connection to its surroundings. In other words, what is peripheral starts to fall away, and the old guard energy becomes more and more isolated in how sustains and maintains itself.

That’s what old energy tends to do – it gets isolated and disconnected, whether we are speaking of old patterns, old leadership, or old civilizations. New energy coming in, which functions on a similar parallel but is still active and vibrant, tends to create a stir energetically, and instigate change while the status quo tries to maintain its perimeters and resist any change.

In life today, what is going on is that at the very top echelon of things we have an attempt to maintain a status quo, and to some degree that defense of the established system can be vicious. And the mink is one of the most ferocious of all the weasels, even though it’s not often thought of that when it’s admired for it’s beauty. It’s viewed as something to attain, to reach, and then to maintain and protect and ward off other aspects in life.

So the squirrel is viewed as something that creates a disturbance that disrupts the tranquility of things, yet at the same time it can bring about greater awareness – if it’s doing it consciously instead of chaotically. It can cause a greater awareness of the aspects of life that have been neglected for so long, but need to be awakened to and appreciated, i.e., the spiritual aspects.

So that was the first dream and then it progresses to the second dream in which there are two qualities, or states, of life – the spiritual and the cultural, or the inner and the outer – that have been separated, and if no action is taken they will stay separated. But if we learn how to press on something, to instigate an awakening, we can cause a change in the flow.

Then something new and different can occur. How do we know when it’s time to do that or not? Well, the imagery of the third dream, with the beers, offers us a clue: a Budweiser is considered a beer of the present, of the common man, and the Miller beer is a beer that used to be seen as common and then became somewhat more sophisticated before it fell out of sight.

No one thinks much of a Miller beer anymore. Anyone who used to order a Miller beer, now orders a Bud. A Bud under most conditions is fine but if you’re dealing with something that’s a little more gentrified, a Miller is actually a better tasting beer. Nobody thinks of that. Most don’t make that subtle distinction.

This is some sort of pun in my dream, where I’m drinking that which is common in life and then I realize that that which is uncommon in life remains bottled, unopened. Then I progress to where I pour the beer into a glass (to bring it back into an aliveness instead of it letting it remain shut off), and it seems to create a possibility where it can be appreciated more.

When it becomes something that’s more appreciated, and I’m able to know the difference between the two, that’s when it’s assumed that I’m developing a sense of what is going on in terms of various energetic levels, because there are different stages of things awakening.

When we develop an understanding of what is going on then the next thing that needs to happen is for us to pull out some “minute amount of awareness about it.” In other words, it’s going on for a reason in terms of that which is designed, and we need to be conscious of that process.

I guess that’s the sense that I have inside, that somehow we need to find a way to be able to keep shifting, and accommodating, that which is important to a situation, and to an occasion in life. No matter where we go or what we do, we need to keep that awareness and stay with the flow. We need to balance the guidance of the inner to what is happening in our outer lives.

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John: In yesterday’s dreams (see Structural Integrity), I was shown that the old way of doing things – human history and culture – pushes a certain raw energy over everything in its path, seen in the image of the cattle herd. So when I’m going against the grain, against the herd by choosing a spiritual view of life, in order for it to be effective I have to have an inflection from within – a radiation – of my intentions.

Only such a radiation, or intention, originating in my inner self and connected to the whole of the universe, can cause an epiphany, or realization, that can allow the flow of raw energy to shift. The cattle drive cannot be stopped just by wishing or hoping, only an energetic signal, which directs the cattle to behave in a different way, can effect a real change.

That’s why it is said in spiritual pursuits that one must hold within them the energy of the change they want to see. Then the sensitivities of others can pick up that signal, whether consciously or unconsciously, and be changed by it. That’s what it means to be in service to god and creation – to radiate what they are, and what we are within them, to the things around us.

The movement of a herd mentality, again representing human culture, has lost its inner connection and moves only by the signals and energy of the surface aspects – TV, Internet, news, advertising, etc. But no one of us can run headlong into it on our own, unless we have the potent energy of our own inner connections to creation.

So, those dreams were something of an introduction. Everything doesn’t get sorted out in a few short dreams or in one night of dreaming. Since coming to Las Vegas, I’ve started to realize that I’m experiencing myself completely in an awkward state and condition, both in dealing with the crazy energy of this city externally, as well as the effect that energy is having on my inner life and balance.

I find myself feeling irritated and upset during the day, and in my dream images I have the same sense of disorientation, which my dreams are trying to help give me insight into and show me the way to rebalance myself in this new environment.

A person could easily be swept away by what goes on in Las Vegas, or anywhere in the culture, so it must be an inner choice to maintain the connections that have already been established through spiritual work.

I have to admit that the whole scenario of what I went through in my dreams felt pretty dramatic, but I know there was a lot going on in terms of an attempt to align, and to adjust, and to reach to something inside that could handle all of this. At first blush the external world of Las Vegas seems overwhelming.

Even in my sleep I was pondering, as I would drift closer to waking or fade back into sleep, if this was a type of raw energy, or a dark energy behind which could be an amazing thing. To find out, one has to, at some point, face all of this in order to get through and see what might be possible.

This caused me to ponder the idea, considering that Las Vegas is the brightest place on earth when viewed from space, “Am I trying to hold together something that is completely dispersed?” Because what I notice is that people seem to have no sensation as they walk around. They don’t know how to flow. I have to get out of their way because they fumble about as if they’re in a trance.

They’ll bump into you! It’s not just that everything is bizarre and over the top, there’s also a tremendous sense of disorientation in terms of how people seem to be. For us to be able to maintain our inner lives in this environment requires us to stay conscious – to not sleep walk within the circus – and to regain our inner balance when we are challenged by the sweep of raw, unfocused energy.

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John: In my dream, I notice that when I introduce something into the scene that I can’t alter, or can’t flow with, I literally start to sweat in my sleep. In fact, there was a whole part of this dream that I can’t remember the details of, but I can feel that I was actually flowing somewhere. When I woke up, however, the part that stood out was the fact that I was sweating from it.

What I conclude from this is that as long as I’m with the flow, or maintain the flow, I’m okay. But as soon as something obstructs it, or if I continue on as if nothing has changed, denying it, that’s when I break out into a sweat. I’m having a physical reaction to the dream.

There were times during the dream that I could see that I had a lot before me – as if I was in a huge space full of things. Yet it seemed that I was able to handle it all in a natural way. I wasn’t necessarily identifying what I was coming in contact with, I was just there with it.

What I noticed then, was that the degree to which I isolated out something from the flow, that would become the problem. It’s not unlike what we saw in your dream, where you were in a huge warehouse and basically were stopped by the first item you focused on – it prevented you from getting any further.

So it’s similar for me here – I’m able to handle everything until I begin to isolate, or separate, pieces out from the whole. As soon as I do, whatever it is becomes fixed in its nature. That fixing causes me to be unable to flow with it, and feeling the stress of that blockage causes me to physically sweat.

So I find myself catapulted from a crowded, flowing space, into a vast emptiness with one particular, immovable, thing. It’s like a contamination, or something that still needs to be worked out. It causes a disturbance in me, and because I’m unable to get it to shift, or move, it causes stress.

In other words, I’m left to cope with the fact that I have no answer in terms of how to deal with this particular problem. At times I try to shift it. Other times I treat it as irrelevant in terms of the overall, expecting it to simply go away on its own. But nothing works.

My inability to resolve this causes a breakdown within; the outer manifestation of that is me sweating, as if I were running a fever.

What does all this mean? In this dream imagery I’m not actually seeing specific items, it’s more about certain energies that I’m dealing with. And what I think this process is showing me is that I’m unaccepting of certain things in me, or in life, and that creates a blockage and a great stress.

It’s interesting, because out of the huge diversity of life, whether outside of me or internally, getting hung up on certain small details that, in the scheme of things are totally irrelevant, can still bring the whole process to a halt. It’s amazing, but we’re all are doing it all the time.

What I’m being stopped by is shown to be immovable. How does one deal with immovable things? They accept them, as part of the landscape, so to speak. But for these particular aspects of life, or me, I’m not quite able to take that step – yet.

Consequentially, I react as if I have a right to dictate that something should be this way or that, instead of flowing comfortably along with what I cannot change. But the time has come for me to be okay with this trait, or condition in life, and to stop trying to think that it’s “in the way,” or needs fixing. I can’t keep generating this same reaction (sweating, in the case of the dream) over and over again.

What I’m understanding too is that this particular stumbling block has a pattern to it. It keeps coming back as some little thing. This pattern could be nothing more than being bumped into by a stranger and getting irritated. The pattern is the automatic irritation that always follows once you’ve been bumped.

How do you get to a point where someone can bump into you and you’re indifferent, or you don’t get irritated? Until you find that point, it will keep coming back over and over again. And you might even be thinking that getting irritated makes sense when someone bumps you – you might defend it. But that irritation is actually evidence that you are holding onto something, and it’s holding you back.

So this is the type of irritation I’m suffering from in my sleep. I can pretend it’s insignificant, or that it will go away, or that it can be shifted, but that isn’t facing the issue gracefully. I need to be embracing it as part of life.

I keep saying no to it, and as long as I refuse to budge, and I maintain this unshakable attitude, I’m resigned to my suffering (and sweating).

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