Posts Tagged ‘maintaining a heartfulness’

2771048_f520A constant thread along any spiritual path is the heart connection. That’s because being connected with creation is not an intellectual thing, it’s a feeling thing – because creation is a living organism. So no matter where we may find ourselves on our development journey, we must keep a connection through the heart, through the feeling life. That’s how we keep ourselves from getting off-track, or lost. The heart connection keeps us homing in on our ultimate destination.

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Jeane: The earliest part of my dream, the only thing I remember is kind of going through a basement area in a complex and people are going in and getting clothing, the right kind of outfit that matches and they wear.

But it feels like every time I come by, I don’t really have time to try on the clothing. I think the last time I go by I pick something up and I realize it’s the right size, but I’m still not going to have time to try it on. I think it’s kind of orange in color, orange and white. 

Then in the main part of the dream I seem to be staying in this fairly large complex. I may even be teaching a class, but it’s almost like in one of those really large estates that’s run by a dark-haired woman. 

Some storm that had been going on has kind of broken and I realize it’s time to leave, but I also realize the lady that runs the castle or the large estate, she really never likes it when anybody leaves. It’s always going to be too soon in terms of her time.

And so she has her staff lined up out on the lawn and I’m looking towards where they are, and I know that I’m leaving and I’m leaving with some other people. And I’m kind of sucking it up because I know if she’s out there on the lawn she’s going to make it a little bit harder because she really doesn’t like people leaving that well. 

The impression I have that followed up on that was there’s something that I’m given as I’m leaving. It’s almost like maybe it fits in the mouth, but it really has to do with people and how they’re positioned, and how something goes forward. And someone else is expressing the concern about that, but I’m explaining that maybe because I had the implants or things were configured a little differently for me it will be okay. 

It’s like there’s a certain way they’re used to seeing it, but I know it’s a little different right now. That’s the best way I could remember that.

John: There is something occurring in the general overall and you no longer have time to indulge in the usual ways that you have been able to indulge, or go about things in the past.

So, in other words, it has to do with the fact that one’s attention has to be placed slightly differently now in that you can’t take the energetic that you naturally feel and direct it into activities and such like you had been able to do in the past because you don’t have the time to do that. 

Something has changed that quickly that the mannerisms, and the traits, and the perspective and the viewpoints and the way you see something unfolding – you have to drop all of that because there’s no time to be in that mannerism anymore. It has, somehow or another, passed one by. 

It’s not that it has necessarily passed one by, but it’s obsolete in relationship to what’s about to happen. 

The matriarch or the domineering thing is the pattern and mannerism that you carry about yourself, and that pattern and mannerism holds you back, keeps you from being able to make a shift, or from being able to progress, or to go somewhere or, as the thing indicates, to leave. 

In the first part of the dream it’s indicated that you have to do something because you’re out of time. You can’t keep hanging on to whatever it is that has been something that would be your normal way of putting your attention, and thinking that that’s okay. In other words, maintaining the maintaining, so to speak. That isn’t going anywhere. That can’t happen even. 

In the second part you’re shown that you’re having a problem shifting or going somewhere because you have this domineering quality side that’s like a domineering matriarch that’s holding you into having to be a particular way or something, holding you back. 

And so you feel that, and that is keeping you from taking and stepping out on yourself like you need to be able to do.

The danger when you have inner experiences is that you can become dependent upon them, and the danger of you becoming dependent upon them is you slowly shift to where that becomes part of your natural demeanor. 

In other words, you take and you conduct your life with this additional energy that you have, this additional balance that you think you have and, as a consequence, you lose or you lack a kind of graciousness that needs to be there naturally because you have been leaning upon the energy, the increased vibrational energy that is awakened inside of yourself. 

You’ve just kind of shifted. In other words, you’ve gone from one state of plight to another state inside of yourself where you have a greater quality of being, but that greater energetic quality of being is not what it’s about.

So you’re more speeded up, so you’re faster, so you have something more about yourself that makes life seem a little easier, and you’re just accepting that for what it is – and it’s not about that. In other words, it’s not about you becoming something slightly different than others. You can have that only if you can hold and maintain yourself. 

In other words, there’s something that’s gotten lost, a certain kind of heartfulness, a certain kind of graciousness, a certain kind of balanced demeanor, a certain kind of overall kindness, or something that has gotten lost in that one feels themselves to be more vibrant. 

And in this particular case, it’s like having taken on a demeanor as a consequence of what one has been able to experience inside. But one can carry a demeanor just because they cycle energy through them in a particular way that is slightly different than the way other people carry the energy coming through them, and one can tend to see themselves as different as a consequence of that, as blessed or as different.

And, if you do, then you have a whole other problem. The reason why it’s like that is that there is something that one is able to experience that really is invisible, that really cannot be communicated. And if it could be communicated, then it can’t be alchemical.

And the change and the switch and whatnot that needs to happen has to happen as if nothing took place, as if there was no difference that was effectuated, nothing that anybody can visualize or put their finger upon, because if it is something that they can do that, if there is a way that one can sit and reconcile themselves and look back at themselves and say, okay, this is this, and they lose a certain quality or heartfulness, or a certain sense in relationship to this versus that, or something like that as a general overall quality, then something gets lost. 

It kind of reminds one of the story of where the king elevated this person to be head of the treasury and he was just an ordinary person. And this person would go into the vault room where all of the treasury was held for the kingdom. And there there was a mirror and he would put on the old clothes that he used to have, and he would stand there and look at himself in the old clothes having taken off the regal clothes that he had been given. 

He did that every day in order to try to not let himself shift away from where he had been. The difference was just a matter of putting on different clothes, that really there was no difference about him at all. And he did that not to develop any airs, or characteristics. or qualities that would take him and make him somehow or another distinct or separate from others.

What I have noticed, this is a pattern in terms of experiencing something inside, is it seems to be a dilemma that a person just cannot seem to help. You get to a point where you can go for weeks, months, whatever, feeling something in a particular way that is a better condition than how it was that you used to be in – and you become dependent upon that feeling that something in a better condition than the way it used to be. 

You tend to lean on that, and it’s very subtle, and if you start leaning on it the next thing you know that happens is that if it goes away, or suddenly diminishes, or something happens in the outer that flips it on its head, you become a sick-o again. In other words, you lose it completely.

You can’t be dependent upon even that. And if you become dependent on that, then you lose a certain heartfulness and a certain graciousness that has to also be there in relationship to everything else. And if you don’t have that heartfulness and that graciousness in terms of everything else – and able to experience this something as well – then nothing can happen because you’re not quite grounded. 

You’re still experiencing something in an aloof way. It’s subtle, but it’s still aloof. As a consequence then, you are then subrogating the energy, meaning you’re taking the energy you’re experiencing and utilizing it in some capacity that makes something more happen than what would ordinarily happen. 

You’re making that something more take place. That’s a condition that’s like blasphemous in terms of it makes you some sort of creature or something, it’s like an empowered creature that has usurped the energy in a certain way so that they can pull off and get away with things – and you can’t. 

You need to be vulnerable to whatever the forces are out there, always vulnerable to the least of the forces. To the degree that you push yourself beyond the least of those forces, you create and make a problem.

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man1The past two posts delved into the territory of groundedness as a way to connect to creation, as triggered by Jeane’s dream (see As Good As It Gets and Touching Creation). Here, the images in John’s dreams touch the same ideas from a masculine perspective, pointing to the importance of operating in a grounded way, yet incorporating the speeded up aspects of higher connection. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream starts off almost seeming absurd because I keep looking at very grounded scenarios, and first of all I described it as I dreamt about the trait of being rooted and grounded.

First of all, I start off where there’s kind of a recruiting at a college campus of those who make the best players on the football team, and I’m looking at it more from the perspective of comparing colleges and why does one college have a better football team than another college?

That’s the one scenario. In another scenario, I’m observing a recruiter employer who places people in a workplace, and how do you place a person in a workplace so that what can happen happens in the best way, in a focused way? In other words, what constitutes a groundedness and a work ethic in a workplace that is rooted and stable?

First of all, in the dream, I’m just observing this campus scenario, and I actually see it from the standpoint of a football team that’s really, really basic, and focused, and grounded and plays within the context of themselves. And essentially they have the field covered by not becoming over the top in terms of how they are.

And so the other school is a school that has more euphoria, more hoopla, more pizzazz about their nature, yet when you put the two together, yes, the pizzazz once in a while can really shine and shine bright, and that which is stodgy and basic can look stodgy and basic, but that which is stodgy and basic that can accept, and can work with, and can contain the energy of that which is speeded up, can stay rooted and grounded and within itself and take into account the greater Whole.

What I saw was like the game was played, and it was like closing seconds of the game and the team that’s all speeded up, and has this pizzazz, and the whole fastness to them, suddenly gets this long breakaway going. And it’s not going to make any difference, because the game has been won by something that has stayed very basic, and solid, and grounded.

It wasn’t at all flashy, but rooted, and they knew how to play in the trenches. Anyway, this breakaway play happens, and that which is very basic and grounded and rooted stays basic and grounded and rooted, and even though this breakaway play looks like it can go somewhere, it can’t because that which is very basic and grounded and rooted, even on the breakaway player, has defensive players always in place down field to stop the breakaway. And if it was two teams playing with pizzazz, then obviously one breaking loose like that the other wouldn’t be grounded enough to stop it, and you would have these big flashy plays.

You actually have this dynamic, when you think about it, you have this dynamic set up in life. You have this trait that everybody admires, and that’s the ability of a quarterback to pass and make the big plays, and go pushing up and down the field, but you don’t really have a championship team if you don’t have a ground game, if you’re not rooted in being able to grind it out.

It’s not at all flashy. It’s not at all something that creates the outward memories, the glitz that everybody likes to race and get caught up in, and yell and scream about, but over the course of taking and putting those two forces together, you find that the basic stodgy football team, the ground game team, has a lot to offer.

Now, if it has both things going for it, both the overdrive and the rootedness and the groundedness, now you’ve got something that’s truly, totally exceptional.

And so what I was looking at, of course, wasn’t both traits. I was just looking at the one trait. I was looking at the trait of something that stayed within, and played within its means, and didn’t get euphoric and carried away, and how that tended to stay stable and steady and have things covered.

What I kind of wrote is that a school that goes for the flashy type, extrovert player, can look good and appeal to the speeded up observer even that thinks that maybe this is what it’s all about, does not do as well, over the course of a season, as the team which is contracted in its focus to doing the job at hand, which is very basic and rooted and grounded, and staying stable and steady.

Then I take this into the workforce, and so it’s like I’m somewhere out there in the factory and then there’s the recruiter employer who passes through and brings in people that he puts to work.

I’ve developed a habit of being able to spot the person, as they come in, who has a strong work ethic mannerism in their nature. In other words, is capable of being grounded. There are always those who have the nature that’s just putting in their time, and would rather maybe do something else, or be somewhere else, and you can see those as not being necessarily a solid worker, but employers can’t discriminate, so they bring out the various ones that need to be placed and look around to place them.

And the employer comes out with this one person, and I could tell he instinctively knows that if he places him near me, that that’s not going to work because this guy is off the ground.

Actually, it’s not with me, but with someone that I know, and I’m even suggesting that maybe he be placed there and this guy knows better. Then he kind of winks and indicates he’s going to be placed over here, which is more with someone of his nature and kind, because if you place him with somebody that’s grounded and rooted he will destabilize that. He will break the focus of it. He will bust up the space of that.

I even have a way of being able to feel and tell, and if they have just one part of themselves going, and especially if it’s the speeded up part, you don’t want to have anything to do with this person because they can never ground out. They are always going to be off the wall. But if they have the two parts going, they have two components, then there is something amazing that can happen.

I’m noticing the characteristics in various settings, as part of looking at what causes a person to evolve in a grounded, practical way. You also find it in the setting of a campus where a school that has a good program has a lot of pride about that. They put a lot of heart in something like that. They hold something like that as having value.

A school that’s all about the grades, and the appearances of the flash and the glitter generally has a poor athletic program. And the school you want to go to for the most solid and basic and practical of educations, is not a school that’s all speeded up like that, but the school that actually is rounded and best portrays this roundedness by actually having a certain respect and honor for its athletic teams even.

So this is a rule of life that is imperative in all regards, and I am comparing the trait as an essential quality that functions best if it is overlaid over an expansive Wholeness, which recognizes the big picture. But the big picture is recognized by the grounding it.

Many people who have a larger overall perspective cannot ground the energy for all to see in the outer, or in creation. That overall perspective just stays too off the ground, too transcendent.

To the degree they remain conceptual, always reaching out in a driven capacity that cannot hold a space, and are readily excited over things, these are people that tend to not be able to get any job done in a basic way.

In other words, there’s always something else, there’s always something else, they’re always looking to something else, so things just kind of continue to slip by them, and they continue, in other words, to miss what is really going on, that is in creation, which can tell them so much more.

In other words, they’re not applying themselves in as focused a way as they can, which a focused way is a thread to that inner linkage.

This is actually also a quality that has gotten lost in America. The Native Americans naturally carried something that was rooted to a groundedness and basicness of life, and the white man came along and he attempted to try to make it all about himself, gaining control of this and control of that, and treating it as holding and having and possessing something, and the Indian recognized that you couldn’t possess anything.

An Indian would walk away from land if it didn’t serve a definite distinct purpose for that, at a given moment in time. If it didn’t serve the purpose, then it was meaningless for him. So then, in the face of a white man, who felt that just holding on to it, and grabbing it, and possessing it was nine tenths of what was important, he didn’t have a chance.

So a white man usurped everything, but he lost the heartfulness. And the Indian tries to hold onto the heartfulness because it’s the heartfulness to the Great Father that is capturable and recognizable by the way creation feels to the Indian, and it’s importance, which actually is what is more real – but that is not where we put our value.

We put our value in this whole raced up sense of accomplishment, of establishing something that stands out. An Indian quality nature is more one of trust and to try to get them caught up in the white man way is unnatural for them, and they actually crack up and fall apart because they do not get caught up in that. They stay very rooted and basic.

So something of the divine gets lost in this speeded up quality, and something of the divine only goes so far in the Indian who is subjected to the abuses of the white man. You have this dynamic, and this play, going on again where there is a type of desecration that takes place.

For me only when I ground the energy in a more compacted way, and am able to reconcile and see the faster side of life as well, am I able to excel. Otherwise I have times when I am off the wall, and can’t get things done, and other times when I am so focused on things I do not appreciate the big picture in which I am part.

The purpose of the dream last night seems to be to show me that I must never lose a groundedness if I am to be effective in creation. It’s through the rootedness you see the qualities of the creator, in a groundedness in creation. You don’t see it in the aspiration.

It’s like a paradox. The paradox is that you actually somehow or another get to this quality of something so much more, but you don’t get to that quality of so much more by focusing your attention as an aspiration towards it, and leaving everything else behind.

You get to it by something that opens up inside that creates a greater appreciation of life, and a greater connection and touching by life. And it’s the touching of life, and the getting into it, and the feelings that well up inside with the nostalgia, with the memories, with the trust, with the faith that comes through from somewhere else.

That is what pulls you forward. That is how you catch up with something way bigger than yourself. But you don’t catch up with something way bigger than yourself by trying to go directly at that which is way bigger than yourself – you only get lost.

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John: Last night, my shoulder was hurting. In sleeping, I contend with it, or try to accommodate it, so it doesn’t wake me. Part of the reason I accommodate it is that I refuse to accept that it can’t get better. So I continue to probe beyond for a solution, and I’m attentive to this idea that there’s still hope.

I’m not having any success, but at least I find it interesting that there’s a place beyond to explore. What I’m saying is that I’m searching for an inner solution to an outer (physical) problem. I can’t let what others say hold me back. I know they mean to give me good advice, but that doesn’t resolve the problem, so I keep probing.

I suppose this is the condition, too, I find myself in, in relation to the outer world. I’m at a point where I can recognize how there can be a deeper attempt, from within, to try to touch and change things in the outer, but I don’t actually see it working.

When you get right down to the core of things, an energetic could, and is intended (in its highest development) to be able to shift and make changes. But I’m not seeing it as able to make the kind of difference that could alter or change the continuing breakdown that I see unfolding in the world today.

And yet, I also don’t believe that there’s any other way to do it, which is a matter of everyone getting more and more toward the epicenter of their being. In other words, the only thing that can affect a change at this point is a state of inner being that has a greater universal understanding and an intertwined connection to everything.

The key to this is found by getting out of the way in every regard, in terms of one’s approach to life, on a practical level. Then, with ourselves out of the way, we’ll find that we’re connected to the overall flow of things. Somehow this conscious response is capable of altering what’s unfolding. What we currently see unfolding is a consequence of the inner dynamic of the human race, as a whole, and its inability to be at this state of depth and power inside sufficient to make a difference.

Perhaps this is why it’s felt by some that there’s no longer the light of the individual. Usually there’s an energetic resource in the whole that’s like a collective mannerism in terms of a change agent, a kind of light or value that simultaneously awakens and opens, to which the individual can link and connect.

That causes things to change. But the sense is that the overall collective light, to which the individual light can connect, isn’t able to reach that kind of epiphany of awareness, that collective spark that can trump and go beyond the prevailing situation.

The hope and heartfulness that can be found in an individual can no longer find its correlation in the outer, because the outer is so strongly warped that it blocks out that essence from flickering.

Do I actually believe that, because that’s portraying a fairly hopeless scenario? If it was really that hopeless it would be like a type of dying, in which there’s no conceivable hope anymore. I think things are going to change radically, but there’s little evidence of the transitional energy that’s needed to bring humans to this change gradually – so they can handle it.

Or, perhaps, what’s meant to unfold is working at a level of nothingness and heartfulness and depth, which hasn’t been caught up with yet, it’s so subtle. And, in that, there really is the means provided in the collective flow that an individual consciousness can touch, which can trigger change.

I’m inclined to believe that that’s the case. In the past, humans as a whole had the ability to turn a little dial here, or do a little something over there, to effect a change, but that doesn’t work anymore. It only serves to postpone the agony of things to come.

So it’s easy to draw the conclusion that when the fine tuning no longer works, it’s because some light of the overall world soul has gone out. I don’t quite know how to believe that as true. Yet the situation right now in the outer, no matter how you look at it, and no matter what is done, nothing seems to be averting it.

Perhaps we’re just observers to something coming apart? It hurts to see it coming apart because there will be a lot of suffering and confusion still to come, caused by the defiance of the human to its natural awakening.

This creates a state of helplessness, where we can’t do anything. Yet I have a deep sense that something is missing in that, that it’s not necessarily the full answer. There’s still something more that’s noodling behind the outer appearances.

What that is is something new, unknown to us, and there must be those who have a better sense of this, who can see this moving about, but in an unconstellated state, still forming. But our ability to work with something in transition, that part seems to be missing. We’re not able to see how the light within can touch that, because for it to touch that there has to be a recognition, a mutuality, and the problem is in finding that.

These ideas go along with some dreams I’ve had that indicate that, because everyone believes that the outer flow of things, this outer illusion, has such a profound meaningfulness that there’s a deep problem in keeping that attachment from getting in the way of the inner coming into the outer.

The inner that needs to come into the outer can only happen through a state of emptiness or nothingness, so that really redefines, in these times, the role of a human being.

Before we were part of what could be called a kind of co-creator mode. Now I’m not sure just how this is meant to be because attempts to figure out how to define that, in order to figure out how to be in a state that’s conductive to that, seem to be out of reach.

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