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It is often said that the full journey of a human being is to return to its maker. But, most visions of the afterlife don’t bring us that far back, they seem more of an interim place, or state. Yet if we consider that the whole of the universe is in process, and is in evolution, and is refining as it goes, the return of the human to its maker would be as a pure energetic state with the distillation of all it has learned. And if everything returns to the source of its arising, we will all get there in the end. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So I am shown, in the meditation, that there is a way of dreaming, in the outer, to a recognition of a greater consciousness that is able to be reached within when one stops identifying with external projections.

This virtue is recognizable in that it is not a foreign projection. So it’s recognized as being possible, even though we are in manifestation and our real essence is a higher self that is on the other side. 

So, to be more specific, mankind is able to relate to the principle of timelessness and spaciousness as being important. In other words, this is something that can be understood. I mean, you could say that a good Christian aspires to this in the afterlife. In other words, we all have a sense of something that’s outside of the modality that we exist in. I mean, there are things to talk about this being like a dense plane, and that when we get beyond whatever it is that impacts us, we find a higher and deeper quality of our own being. 

But there’s something missing. There’s something missing. In other words, what I’m saying is that you can have this whole sense of a timelessness and a spaciousness and I think you can have this as a part of what is noodling around at a depth inside of ourselves. And it is something that has been aspired to forever and ever by man. And that’s what these religions are all about. They all look to this sort of thing as the end all, be all to some sort of process. 

But they miss a step. They miss the next step afterwards. In other words, it’s as if mankind evolves one baby step at a time. And this step is closer at hand, but that means then that there’s the next step that’s opening up. And that step one didn’t have much information about; one can see this step, but one can’t see the next step. 

And so all I can say is that this next step in consciousness – it remains kind of hidden. It’s not possible to talk about it, or to take and denote it and give it more consciousness. The reason why we can tell that there is a timelessness and a spaciousness is we can see a certain actionability. We don’t know how to sit in the stillness with that. 

We find that, in terms of everything resonating against the heart, that we come to a point where we can function with a sensitized heart that takes in more, and more, and more of a wholeness, we learn to deal with time, which is thoughts, and spaciousness, which is matter, which is the parameters of things, the container energy, which is manifestation. We learn to work with that in a way that doesn’t impinge the heart. 

And the way that we try to work with it so that it doesn’t impinge the heart is we try to work with it in an actionable sense. And thus the heart notices it, but isn’t, because something about the way we are approaching it is empty enough or something, the heart doesn’t feel any pangs, or remorse, or moods or something. That’s how we try to sort this out, which is to say that a human being can accept the principle of timelessness and spaciousness, and seems to incorporate various conceptual tools, such as forgiveness, in order to drop the clutches that we may have that are too dense in the time and space, or the recognition that there is a redemption through grace or something that kind of takes us out of our spell that we’re living out.

Or, to use another way of exampling it, a Christian is able to know that there is an afterlife and aspires to this as being accessible upon going to heaven. The idea of salvation is deemed to exist when a human being accepts God, as a home within, beyond the plane of human existence. Or to put this in other words, to talk about an actionable consciousness, free from the chains of human existence, is not a foreign principle to mankind. 

A human being has a sense of the existence of a greater omniscience and omnipresence of a creator. The one word that is fouling all of this up is “actionable,” you know, doing something, a doingness. I mean you can have a certain kind of doingness in a timelessness and a spaciousness – I saw that a few nights ago – and that the heart can accept that. But that has to go, too; there’s something about that. 

When that goes, that’s the next step in consciousness. This is not really understandable yet because there isn’t a frame of relatable reference for this to be identified. In other words, you can actually kind of see yourself in a timelessness and spaciousness in an actionable way, but take the actionable way out then what do you have? Because you can’t make something experienceable for understandable purposes. 

So in the timelessness or/and spaciousness of the higher self, there is still an actionability we hold on to for identification purposes. And the step to so much more, beyond timelessness and spaciousness and the actual vibrational manner we still hold on to is a foreign idea to our consciousness at this time. 

To endorse this next step we must drop all actionability to have a relationship to the stillness. We don’t know how to do this because we do not have tools to discern stillness, which is deemed by a human being as intangible – and we work with something that’s always tangible. 

Emptiness, non being, nothingness, just falls into this intangible area, so that therefore it’s kind of unfathomable. Even though the concept of a timelessness or spaciousness of the soul is something we can note. The principle of stillness, a whole way of referencing it, is as an emptiness, or a nothingness, is foreign because we see ourselves in existence as something that is actionable. Thus the idea that there is an afterlife, which takes us out of our conundrum, into a home where we belong.

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8652Do we consider ourselves guests, here, on planet Earth? Or do we consider ourselves guests, here, in the universe? Because the nature of a guest is to enjoy the visit as much as possible, but to not take any real responsibility for the maintenance, upkeep, or ongoing improvement of the environment they find themselves in. And, pretty much, our species thus far has adopted the attitude of a guest. But we are not guests here, we are the only ones that are capable of the refinement and improvement of everything we interact with: meaning refinement and improvement on an energetic level, not just the idea to add a new coat of paint. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, first of all, I describe what is going on. In my meditation dream there were brief, inflective moments of stillness from which I had a sense of incredible insightfulness. Because I am unable to hold on to the stillness, an obsessive back-and-forth quality that seeks to reach a resolution and does it kind of as you are in the environment that you’re in, predominated over my demeanor.

This loud dynamic was a try-as-I-might means to try to reach a stillness within. And thus, it was a dynamic that kept me probing about. I’m probing about by bringing in the masculine element of trying to figure out how to break the projection, the loudness of the projection, so that the other side can be seen.

So I present that as a challenge. What is going on is I am being affected by an energetic focus and attention that is seeking an outer resolution. This is a prevailing state which has a lot of inertia behind it. This is affecting the stillness I seek as a relief from reflective upheaval.

So, because I am empathic, in other words, this is almost like a condition that gets you in trouble when you’re empathic because you can sense this sort of stuff, I am impacted by this outer, raw energy loudness in the ethers. To me, this is a kind of food, in other words, when something is haywire, that haywireness can throw you around. But you come to recognize, instead of blocking it out and whatnot, that you are able to process that and bring it into a kind of better cohesion – which is the challenge, to still it – and thereby cause the reflective to see within; the outer reflective to glance within. That’s what it’s really seeking, but it’s doing it all in the noodling in the outer.

So the quickening I am taking in and having to contend with in the outer is intriguing as a challenge, but demeaning as an attitude. If you look at it as the attitude, then it’s demeaning, it pulls you down, it’s stifling. So, this is the barrier that I am not able to put to rest; in other words, I’m spinning around on it. The usual approach is an approach in which a person sees something, a haywire mannerism, and you just kind of turn your back on it, you just kind of ignore it. In this particular case, one’s not really turning their back on it because it seems there is more involved here. It’s reached a kind of crescendo, you can’t just ignore it. It has its parallels; it’s all paralleled and connected in a way.

So, consequently, I keep perpetuating variables and each variable has the illusion of getting close, but is instead a deviation and unending movement from an at-easement that I seek. This is in the etheric atmosphere and I’m choosing to bring this to a stillness.

The alternative is to block off that transmission, but I know if I do that, I seal away a deeper meaningfulness seeking to come through. The need for a peacefulness, an acceptance, and a stillness opens the window to catalytic change. That’s why you do this: opens the window to catalytic change.

So now I talk about what’s called the loudness. There is a flip side in terms of outer Kundalini raw energy, in that it needs to absolve to the quieter stillness corresponding within. That isn’t possible when an outer reflective loudness presides unremittingly.

So what I found interesting is a deep inner heartfulness for the world, and the surrounding environment, that is camouflaged by the outer nuances that predominate with an outer responsibility. And this has me thinking, when you feel it like this, I’m in a predicament.

To drop that conceptualization is to effectuate a natural shift that corresponds to an abiding sense of completeness. Probing an abiding sense of completeness is a stage; that’s a stage towards the all-pervasive stillness that is yet too much to bear for the collective conditioning that resonates in the atmosphere. I’m fortunate that I do not give up hope, and step aside, because, if I do, outer woundology nuances will predominate and that will make living here miserable. You can’t be doing that.

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im51wsOur experiences each day trigger different aspects within us. And, in the internal processing we do because of that, our dreams can give us a status report. Here we have a little fish – too small to keep – that must be thrown back into the water, back into the unconsciousness it arose from. When we see a child in a dream, or anything young and in a state that still needs to grow, or needs protection, we are being shown another inner aspect that needs further nurturing. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the other dream I remember it felt like I had taken somebody, I know it’s a guy, and I’m taking him down to this glen and gotten into a rowboat. I know there’s some seaweed in the water, or something that looks like that.

And it feels like I want to catch some fish. But my line goes in the water a little too soon, and the fish I pull up is a little too young and looks too much like a sucker to me. So I want to get it off the hook because I do want to catch fish, but it feels like the timing was off there.

And that wasn’t quite the fish I wanted to catch; it didn’t look that edible. It was more like just an accident. And we’re kind of gliding through the water, which has a little bit of seaweed in it. That’s all I remember of that dream.

John: Well, if you were to take that image as a type of revelation, what you’re basically saying is that you’re capable of feeling parts of yourself that don’t quite feel copacetic to that of the heart.

And so the heart is reaching to something bigger and so much more. And that you have to keep letting go of the little nuances, and the little things that have you abstracted, in some degree or another, which in this case is the little fish. Because you’re dealing with fish, you’re dealing with consciousness. So you throw back that which isn’t a completeness, or wholeness, to your being, or an essence of your being.

Now, this is also an in-between dream, it’s an in-between dream because you’re talking about the subject of consciousness as opposed to stillness. And consciousness still has an action, or a motion, about it. It still has an identification orientation, in that there’s such a thing as the big fish. And there’s such a thing as the little fish.

And so it’s like the type of journeying yet where you’re opening up to more, and more, and more of a depth inside of yourself. So you’re still on an aspect, in this this dream, of the in-breath where you’re still in a process of going, so to speak, to a home or a stillness. And you haven’t reached that, yet, you’re aspiring towards it.

It’s an interesting image, though. It’s used in the Bible and whatnot, and that’s probably why you pulled all of the symbolism out, in terms of the fish. Well, the theme of the dreaming was kind of a nature of a step back, a step back in relationship to having to contend with what’s going on, so to speak, almost as a whereabouts, based upon, you might say, a scenario. And the scenario you could portray to be like the scenario of Lee’s family, and the congregation, you know the event that we did at church.

And so that was the loudness, so to speak, that was in the outer, that when you take to the inner, you spin around to see what is going on in that. Ordinarily, we don’t spin around that sort of thing. But, in this particular case, it was the food, or that which we invibed to take into account, to absorb, so to speak.

Ordinarily, we have a sense of what is outside of the breath, of just the stillness, the emptiness, but the environment that we were in, yesterday, the scenario of what we were in yesterday, is caught in some aspect. The aspect that they’re caught in is all in the in-breath. It’s not an out-breath orientation. It was an in-breath orientation.

And so, in taking a step back to deal, or to be, with that, because you couldn’t sit in a stillness, you can’t sit in an absenteeism, to take a step back to deal with it. And one doesn’t know how to maintain something that’s completely reflective, so in taking a step back with that, your approach was to spin it a little. My approach, rather than use the word spinning, was probably to contend with the vibration of that, in terms of how it had its motion, and knowing that the motion was pointing to a nucleus, or to a center of things, and to try to have a mirroring, revelational inflection that did two things.

That, number one, enabled them to look at where they’re at, because they’ve been through a lot and so you take that in a neutrality. You don’t take and beat up on it by the fact that it is holding them in a trance, in a tone, in a mood and a bewilderment, in kind of a confusion. You don’t beat up on that. What you do is you notice that it is pointing to something, they are traveling towards something, they haven’t yet caught up with that.

And so, the actions that they are in, or the moods and whatnot that they’re in, are like verbs and adverbs that modify towards something that they still see as a principal thing, which is like a noun. Now we know this to be better than this. We know that what it really is about has to do with a stillness that is outside of the breath. And that this is still something, and everything about the congregation was still something, that had to do with trying to accentuate a quality of a traveling in the in-breath to a sense of something, the sense of something being more like a essence, that’s more like a noun, yet, instead of the stillness.

The minister did say, however, something very profound, in that he said that after each song try to notice the stillness.

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