Posts Tagged ‘masculine and feminine in dreams’

arnWhen no one is listening to us, what do we do? Often, we raise our voice to be heard. Or we make our text ALL CAPS. Well, our systems can feel the same way in their conversation with us, on the inside, through our dreams. That’s when we get jarring or unsettling images that can throw us off for the whole day when we wake up. In this example, there is a murderer, and then the killing of a murderer. But we are all the characters in our dreams, so the image is an expression of a deep fear or resistance to what needs to occur. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I didn’t seem to like my dream last night, I only remember one of them. In that dream, I’m living in a house, and there’s someone that’s going around town murdering people. And I’m trying to find, or capture, that person.

And I’ll go out, and I’ll be looking at people and following them, and then coming back. And people come to the house, and I’ll be looking at them. And, at one point, I have three people sitting in a room with me, I think it’s three men, one person I know from high school, I forget who the other two are. And I become convinced that’s it’s one of them.

And I know that the characteristic of this person who’s killing people is that he’s compulsive, because he’s killed successive people. And, anytime anybody comes through, it’s like I’m looking at them, I’m examining them. I’m trying to figure out where they were and what they’ve done. And everyone does kind of keep moving. So it’s hard for me to get a sense of them.

At one point, I have to leave these three people I have in the house where I’ve kind of narrowed it down, I think it’s one of them, and I ask some friends to watch them, and describe that I think that whoever it is will be compulsive.

Well, when I come back to the house, they’ve captured the person that was murdering everybody. I even thought it might be one of the ministers, but it ends up being a woman. So I have two of my women friends holding on to her until I can get back into the house. But as I come into the room, they take some kind of a cylinder and push it into her arm, cutting the arteries, so she’ll die. And I’m like shocked that they did that. And maybe they just thought that would stop her killing anyone else, but I’m shocked at it. So that was the dream.

John: The dream was triggered by the fact of an energetic inside, or a kind of awakening, or awareness quality, that you’re moving towards inside, in which the idea is one of letting go of everything.

So the idea of letting go of everything is scary because it triggers the impression of a kind of death. And so you’re trying to figure out how to observe all of this, how it is that you can take and observe, or notice, what is changing. Because this whole schematic of a type of death is a schematic in which a quality where you’re used to trying to make something meaningful – you can’t quite do anymore. And so it’s like the flip side of that, is that something is killing you.

It’s a peculiar sensation. The first time I had the sensation like that is I actually had something physically wrong with me. And, of course, I carried the sensation in terms of waking up and there being like an emptiness, where there was nothing alive, which meant that there was something dying.

That isn’t what you’re doing, what you’re doing is you’re carrying this sensation of something like this, because there’s a sense of a stillness, or a quietness where you let everything go. And that has an impression of death. So the oddity of this thing is, no matter how you look at this, it still looks like something has to go. And there’s always something that has to be let go of.

And so, in terms of your view of the overall world, that’s like something is dying, only you’re dying in terms of the way you’re caught, or held, or tied up in terms of the world. It’s a scattering sensation. You feel scattered, you feel discombobulated, when you have a dream like this. You feel like you can’t trust your sensibilities, even, when you have a dream like this. You feel like you’re overwhelmed, and it’s because you’re coming dangerously close to something in which there isn’t the aliveness that kind of keeps things going.

You carry something like this to the farthest degree, it’s almost as if the stillness goes back to the Demiurge, which is supposedly a vibration that came and ultimately out of that is the evolution of the species. And first there was just the Demiurge, and then came something as embodied as life; as human existence. It’s almost as if that’s where something like that is going; in other words, where it’s going, how it’s going, what you’re scoping to find, how it’s to be, is still like a mystery because it involves having to let go or sort something out.

And the attempt to do so causes these images that are kind of terrorizing, because it’s easier to keep something quickened in one’s nature, than to adopt a state that is more empty, because that is scary to the sense of oneself, that holds on to this quickening, that’s like an aliveness or vibration. It’s scary.

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OumDo we realize that we are energy processing beings? If we feel restless it is because we have energy that needs to be expended. If we have anger or other emotions, those are energies that are in a state of being processed. And when we have a hard time of it, it’s because we are unable to process the energy quickly enough to prevent it from becoming toxic to our system. It’s not a mystery, it’s the way it works. When we are healthy and rested, we process energy better. And, best of all, when we are conscious of this process in us, our systems can work even more efficiently on our behalf. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I’m looking at what is a kind of evolvement in which there are aspects of kundalini. And I started off exclusively looking at it from the masculine standpoint, and then it flips to the octave of the feminine. But the subject is perceived from the standpoint of the other side. Kundalini energy perceived from the perspective of the other side.

And so my meditation dream involved the schematic as being impressed upon a sense of tangible experienciality, that was before me, as a condition, but not quite reachable; in other words, it’s off the ground. Or, in another way of saying it, it’s like an image that I’m seeing myself that is inside a container, and I am outside, or not able to touch this state. 

I’m trying to contend with everything therein that is going around and around, and I am unable to touch this to cause it to be still. Consequently, because I am unable to quite reach and touch the projected outerness, that would be still if it was pulled together, by being in-between like that, my kundalini energy is racing, and I am unable to shut off this synaptic-ness.

The way you could recreate this, in this kind of effect in a physical way, is if you take magnets that oppose each other, like a type of opposing of each other, they really attract, but that requires another flip at something. If you take two magnets that have a like kind of vibration, they tend to push each other apart, and that is a reactive zone that’s pushing like that. They really attract.

And so there’s always the apprehension of something more. And then there’s that repeller, and then you end up with going through, when you’re experiencing it in an outer way, you’re going through repeats and repeats and repeats of patterns, as you’re continually trying to break this trance – because there is a wholeness; we are all same same. There is just a One Being, and you pull the likenesses together; the magnets are pushing, trying to keep it separate. You gotta break that, and that’s breaking the kundalini entrapment.

So because I am unable to quite reach and touch an outerness to be still, my kundalini energy races and I’m unable to shut off this synaptic-ness, because you’re striving to have the likenesses. It’s an awkward way because it’s the condition of manifestation to have something set up that way. To not be able to stop, and be still, is to be restless.

This is more or less a description of how the masculine struggles to bring things all the way through. They run into that. And the feminine pulls something. So the masculine energy is like an “I need” energy, and the feminine energy is like an “I want” where it pulls something. Again, as if there is an opposite between masculine and feminine, and thus a magnetism. So when something is seeking to absorb, it’s an “I need.”

So, because I am unable to ground what lies as an image before me, my efforts to touch the reflectiveness so it will go – poof! – into a letting-go stillness, is a bewildering state. You’re ever so close, yet just out of reach sensation is the effect of kundalini racing.

The stillness is to stop, or go through, to let go to hit the stillness of this outer condition, that’s reflective, where there is that zone in-between. And that, to do so, is a letting go that is naturally quiet and still. For me to meditate is to be able to come to an inner stillness. That’s transcendent energy.

So, as a raciness inside that is just there, which was the scenario when I sat down to meditate, is to be caught up by an energetic, and from the perspective of focus, thus, unable to be quiet, unable to be still, unable to dream.

So it’s interesting, the idea of letting go leads to the quietness and the stillness because you you take in, or you absorb, something comes together there instead of repelling and creating this peculiar thing –  and that condition is kundalini, it’s a power there and you pull it together. It’s pulled together as the masculine is trying to come down, and it’s pulling together as the feminine pulls something in.

To be swept up energetically, yet unable to bring the energy into a reflective dream, is a condition the masculine complains about it when it knows it dreamt but isn’t able to pull out the dream when it opens its eyes. This is the want, and the need therein is to be grounded. And the feminine is to pull it to a closeness, i.e., to bring the transcendent vibration into an immanence.

So you have the subjective, embedded knowingness that isn’t quite accessible, because getting it to come out requires almost like an objective something occurring. And the objective something has to occur in order in order to see the subjective embedded knowingness.

And, to repeat, the energetic out-of-reachness is the condition more prominently experienced by a masculine trying to come down in an attempt to be complete. And the mood and subjective rootedness is the condition more prominently aspected by the feminine unable to break free – so she longs to be free.

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imaxxgesWe have noted that intelligence comes from our higher connections, and, when we feel we have an insight, it is quite easy for us to take that insight and run with it – all the way to being disconnected again. So it is important, in our processes, to continually check-in with the higher reasoning of what we are trying to do, the intentions behind our efforts. That is how we can stay in the connections while we are actively doing in the outer. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Similarly, in my dreaming, something was stifling. In other words, in the dream it starts off in which I’m in an atmosphere, a workplace kind of atmosphere, in which there is something obvious that I know that should be done, but even though it’s obvious there are constraints, or protocol, in terms of how something is able to come out, and, no matter how obvious it looks, I need to go through the protocol or it won’t come out properly.

So this is a place with a lot of different departments in it, like a manufacturing place, and I’m kind of a person that free flows, you know maybe not just complete manual-labor type, but a type that has another kind of freedom to do things. But I do have my parameters, in that I just can’t willy-nilly do whatever I darn well please. I have to get permission.

So to get permission I go looking for the boss, the big boss. And normally if I feel something properly and passionately, and I can feel it in a free flow way with inside of myself, I’ll find the boss. In other words, I will find what I need to hear in order to be able to do what needs to be done.

But, in this particular instance, I cannot find the boss no matter where I look, and I look and I look, and then I conclude he must be in another division of this company, in another area, because he’s not where I would’ve expected to find him.

Now I know that if I find him I will get the permission I need, but it’s inappropriate for me to act out on my own. No matter how good of an idea it is, and no matter how much it makes sense in terms of helping the situation, it’s not something I am allowed to do.

Now what this is talking about is a type of seeing from a listening center way. One of the main reasons why we can’t catch up with the hearing that is a seeing is, we really don’t want to know. And it is often said that this is a bigger feminine problem than it is a masculine problem.

The masculine will go along and will really stab its heart trying to solve something, because it’s just got that kind of nature where it’s always trying to bring down an energy – as if it has the solution at hand to solve something. And so in doing that when it’s out of balance, because it doesn’t have the connective flow, it is stabbing itself.

But the feminine energy can feel the same stifling, but rather than necessarily reaching for all kinds of solution ideas, will try to put herself into a trance where everything is deemed to somehow be okay.

Well it’s not okay. It’s a mood then or it’s an emotional mannerism, and when it’s like that you can even say, for example, that the person would even prefer to be lied to, even them knowing that they’re lied to, because it’s a sense of relief that they’re looking for. And so when it’s like that they’re not ready to bring together components. They choose to maintain some sort of trance.

This is molecular again. It’s a thought-upon-thought, a dilemma, and then you don’t get outside of that. You’re still caught in the mood of some aspected vibrational thought-upon-thought. And that’s monotonous, that’s stifling, and then you can actually adopt the idea of kind of a controlled waiting, that there is something that’s going to break the spell someday, somehow, as if there’s some latent promise that things are in the works that are changing, that are becoming more conscious. And you could sit in that modality, and maybe if you face it directly you realize that you’re carrying an imagination, a boil, which you’re not popping – and how long does one keep that up?

Well the masculine, by comparison, goes around and acts as if it can try to find its relief, instead of trying to sit and make the atmosphere sensate better, the masculine will go along and try to get the permission, or find a means by which it can act, but it will never find the means, or the permission, by which it can act and effectuate a change for as long as its feeling the heaviness about something, or is stressed out in some strange fashion, manneristically.

And so when it’s like that it can’t open itself up, and so the atmosphere aspect of the dream shifts, in which I am there, and I have this whole place.

This is my place, and even though it’s my place, I still have to function like everybody else, or so it seems. But everyone else is functioning in a way that is silly, you know, that doesn’t really flow. Because I carry a tone or a mood that feels reactive about the fact that something isn’t properly flowing, I’m not effective, so I kind of sit off to one side. I slink away.

I look at this and look at that, and finally someone who is kind of in charge kind of complains and says, “The problem is that someone won’t check in.”

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