It’s a fine line to know when to flow with and allow our natural tendencies their outplay, and when those inner mannerisms, which we think of as natural to us, become a detrimental tangent that we are indulging in ourselves. These are decisions, choices, and responses that we must make on the fly, which is why the best consciousness is to understand that, ultimately, we must let everything go. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: To catch up with it like this I had to go through some really radical, a very radical intense meditation, in that what I saw, on the inner, was kind of exquisite. How that translated across into the outer was one of sheer devastation; it was almost as if the world could come to an end. And yet, on the inner, it wasn’t like that.
So, these extremes had to be reconciled, and to reconcile them in my usual way, in terms of the effect of that state, that would have caused me to have a calamitous perspective – how to pull that together? In other words, there would have been something on one side that would have been okay and something on this side that would have been horrendous, and the conclusion would have been diffused.
But the time has come where my nature, that has a reactionariness, needs to be worked around and set aside in terms of what impels and comes across to me, in order to take on a greater and greater dimensionality, or, otherwise, the reactive quality will always keep something held back and shut off in some capacity. A capacity that needs to be overcome in order to denote even more.
So, it was almost like this was a type of “the jig is up,” kind of thing, in that what has been an inhibition, an over reactiveness, the time is up – that needs to go away. And so a means is devised that I do seem to ground, I do seem to align, but not necessarily as succinctly as a given moment in time when a state, or vibration, first comes in. I can be thrown for a shock.
That’s why a teacher takes and is constantly catching a student off-guard, on purpose, to see if they can take that sort of thing in and immediately allow it to fit into the overallness of their being. Or do they go off on this propensity or that propensity?
So think of the dilemma the teacher has in terms of even as he had to introduce a lot of things about Sufism, and had to introduce vibrations, and bring through energies, and do stuff to intertwine a person to the inner connections that they have inside of themselves to something so much more. He had to contend with the fact that there is this natural propensity to have a reactiveness, and that reactiveness gets in the way and causes, then, you to go off and see something in a distorted mannerism.
And the secret is to be present, to let go, and allow this and take in this something more instead of having to be caught up in a part of yourself that is still sealed in some sort of negative capacity way, or, in other words, defense mechanism mannerism that seals you away from the taking in of this greater quality.
And this is true of everyone; this is true of teachers, too. They have a certain propensity or mannerism upon which they have developed impressions that they follow, and are they taking those impressions and incorporating them fully into their being? Now, in order to incorporate something coming from inner into outer you have to ground it. And in order for something that rises up from the feminine, that is grounded, it has to make sure that it is properly accepting the bigger picture of a oneness, or otherwise what rises up in the feminine will go off in its tangentiality.
So it’s like everything is susceptible. The masculine is susceptible to the input, the feminine is susceptible to what rises up, and what needs to occur is they both need to recognize that, because the feminine doesn’t know the other side as much as the masculine knows the other side, and the masculine doesn’t know grounding as much as the feminine knows grounding. And if you don’t work and put those two principles together, then you have like a cracked egg all the time.
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