The Full Circle

68617We have said that the universe is incomplete: it’s not finished. But part of what it is doing as it unfolds is seeking completeness. Things that are matter seek to return to energy; energy seeks to be released in matter, and humans awaken to their purpose and make their journey back home. So the process happens at the universal level, the human level, and even at the level of the breath: breathe in, breathe out, a full cycle. This is the process that we are trying to join – at a higher level than the physical, because that won’t last forever. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my main dream I’m sleeping, and I’m in this bed, and I’m coughing and it’s like I can see that there’s like four balls that represent the pillow on my side, and there’s four balls that represent the pillow on your side, or circles, whatever they are.

There’s a certain way that I can cough that causes these balls or circles to kind of collapse into each other, and pull together. And I can do that on my side of the bed. I kind of get that to happen, and that’s what’s supposed to happen, but I just can’t quite seem to get it to happen with the fourth and on your side of the bed; the pillow that represents your side of the bed.

And I’m trying and I’m trying, because sometimes I have to start over on my side if I can’t get it to do it on your side. And I’m trying and I’m trying, but I just can’t seem to get that last step to pull where things kind of collapse in a way where they pull together. I can only seem to do it on half.

John: So what you’re doing is you’re trying to access a level, or a part, of yourself. In other words, instead of talking in it as levels, you have to talk in it as masculine and feminine. And instead of talking it as masculine/feminine, you can even talk about it as in-breath or out-breath.

And so from an in-breath standpoint, which is the feminine breath, it’s where something is accessed. It’s where something seeks to go home as an in-breath. It’s where something rises up to free itself from the chains of physical limitation – meaning a type of subjective clarity. That is working, and is reached fairly naturally.

However, the pulling down of the sight and the will, the recognition of what is, from a seeing level, meant to happen, designed to happen, as an inner into outer or out-breath will, that’s the part you’re still trying to bring clarity to. In other words, a part of you is functioning from a part of yourself in manifestation going back to the crown or, in other words, a type of rising up to touch light.

But that whole kind of connection, which is moving towards bliss, which is what is accentuated, when the in-breath turns to the out-breath, that whole aspect is fairly unconscious – meaning it’s subjective, meaning that it’s not something you put your finger on, and you can image it, but you don’t necessarily understand, even though it is a completeness in and of itself.

Credit tends to be given to the seeing of things, and you’re in a zone in which there is something going on that is right, okay, in the unfolding, in the awakening, but it’s a subjective awakening. It’s very much like the feminine nature can tell when something is true or not true, but may not be able to then turn around and explain it back, because it doesn’t have the faculties of a type of clarity that catches up with things quite that way. Yet it knows it and can feel it in its body, so to speak, a body that is correlated to the physical nature of all of life, to manifestation.

The masculine has a problem in that area or, I should say, rather than calling it the masculine, the out-breath has a problem in that area because the out-breath has struggled to come and become grounded, and in touch, with the creation. And, if it can do so, if it can come all the way down and through, it can bring in the divine light or the will. It can bring it straight through, and in a knowable and more visible way, that then is embraced by the feminine, that then renders the effect as an in-breath, as a carrying back.

So the full effect is kind of like a will, or an impulse, or a design coming down and manifesting itself as creation, and then the recognized acknowledgement of what has happened, when it isn’t lost because it’s gone so far away from the so-called home at the crown, is reconciled as the in-breath goes back.

So what you did is you imaged this as a kind of in-breath. Your dream kind of portrays the dynamic that the in-breath goes through as a function of itself, in that it pulls together a completeness from within. So the two pillows on each side make a completeness. When they come and work together it’s the full breath.

The pillows that are on your side, that represent the in-breath, the half of it now, find their completion when there is the catching up with the four balls that’s within them; which means then that the in-breath finds its completion as it goes back to home, goes back to the top. That’s the symbol. That’s the image.

And as far as this being a totally effective cycle of creation, and manifestation, from beginning to end and back to beginning, and it all being a type of pure energy or something, nothing going on just one image to the other, I mean flip sides of the same coin, above and below, in terms of that you don’t have the direction of the will, the above coming down, and you don’t have the access to that. You’re not in touch with that.

You’re in touch, however, with what is waking up, or a part that is then rising up and going back and handing back to the top as a means of facilitating what needs to be recognized, and seen, as a hearing and seeing from the top. But you don’t have the perception of the sight from the top coming down into manifestation that starts the whole process off, because it’s not outer to inner, it’s not the progression. The progression starts from inner into outer, and you don’t have the start. You don’t have the inner into outer. If you could pull that together then you would be in touch with seeing the pure light. Instead you bring it back. You bring something that awakens and inflects. You bring it back.

So what you have is only the one half. You have the rising up of what has been absorbed, the awakening of what has been absorbed. So what you’re trying to do is, if you can find the masculine side of yourself, with the feminine side activated, you will have made the full circle, the full breath.

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Medicine to the Soul

tree_of_life2It’s easy to understand the problems that arise when we break a leg or sprain an ankle. But at the level of the soul, we can have similar problems caused by imbalances. And one of the key imbalances that is epidemic in life today is the relationship between the masculine and feminine aspects within a person. When these are not in sync or harmony, we find ourselves always in a state of unease, and that is magnified by the pressures of the world we live in. Still, by balancing these elements within ourselves, we can heal on an inner level – which is our best immunity from everything else. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In this meditation dream I am in a place in which what is going on in the setting is a melting pot of diverse activities. In other words, it’s like nobody is projecting or putting anything out on anyone. There are a lot of people or activity that’s there, but no one is laying a trip on anyone else. I mean, on one place you have maybe a livery stable, about as bland as bland can get. Who cares about a livery stable? It has a certain quietness to it. And in another area without a wall is a person who’s just busy working and building and doing something, and he is just maintaining a focus of whatever his little workshop is about.

Now all around you have this and that and this and that, and then you have people kind of coming and flowing through this that just kind of glance at this stuff and everyone that kind of comes into this area, there are no tricks played on them, everybody is left alone. Normally what you experience in life is, no matter where you go, it’s about something. Everybody has an agenda, everybody’s reaching for something, and what they’re reaching for all has to do with some aspect of themselves that’s out of balance, and so they work to try to find a balance with it in terms of whatever it is and however it is that they do things.

And it all gets down to this expansive/contractive quality of the masculine and the feminine, and to whatever degree it is off, or lacks a coming together, is the degree to which there are these projections and then there’s the lack of spatiality. And to have the proper spatiality you have to have the feminine energy that is in manifestation. You have to have that spring free. In other words, it can’t sit in an amnesia.

And then you have to have the masculine energy that has the clarity. You have to have it come together to where the clarity can make sense because it touches something, so that it can feel itself, or recognize itself, and get aligned – that has to do with the feminine quality in manifestation. When you pull these two images together and you create the completion, then you stop all of the various projections and whatnot that are going on continuously in all the different ways, and you don’t try to solve those because that isn’t what needs to be solved.

What needs to be solved is the inner and the outer coming together. And so in this dream I just see myself able to be in this place for no particular reason. These diverse activities do not interfere with each other, nor are they projected upon anyone. And there can even be bizarre activities that happened in the setting but nothing is scripted and everything is natural.

What impresses me energetically is that everything in this setting is nonchalant. In other words, there’s no established order, or intentionality, or anything behind it like you find in everything in life. In trying to explain why I like the place the only thing I can put my finger on is that the setting is neutral and natural. No one who is here has to concern themselves with having this space interfered with by some projection or another. Those who come here are able to simply hang out and not have to maintain a defense mechanism to protect themselves from intrusion or whatever, or anything being pushed at them for some reason or another. And the reason is because everyone is focused upon just being themselves and no one is paying attention to anyone else.

In other words, whatever the one thing is that needs to be done, that each person needs to be kind of contending with, that’s where their focus is at; no one is interfering with the well being of another. And this is something you rarely come across. I am drawn to this place because there is a lot of diverse energetic activity unfolding naturally that isn’t trying to affect me in a purposeful way.

This is such a rare thing for a second I don’t know what to do with myself. In other words, my synaptic nature is used to having to struggle with something, so I am so used to having to contend with being affected by something or another wherever I go, to suddenly find a place where none of that exists and you just have the melting pot of life wherever you look is uplifting and a positive revelation. I didn’t know that this could be, because that is something that you just don’t experience no matter where you find yourself. You’re always jockeying for a position or a way of being.

When the setting is like that, I am able to let go of defense mechanisms, and I am able to appreciate for no particular purpose the surroundings, and I am not nauseated with having to be sophisticated or maintaining any kind of image. This is a simplicity in which there is no care at all coming from the surroundings to interfere with my space that I am able to appreciate.

So the meaning is, to be able to be in the world and get free of its effects upon a person is liberating. It gives you the spaciousness that you need to function as opposed to always some sort of disharmony to some degree or another. I’m able to be more myself when I am able to naturally take in life as it is and nothing more. The environment is naturally at ease and quiet. As a result, I am able to appreciate the spaciousness of the setting in a healthy and free-flowing way.

This is like medicine to a soul that is used to having to contend with issues so it is always on guard against energetics. The subtler energies of life do not have a chance to come alive when a person is unable to simply be. And when they’re able to simply be, their beingness, without having to have these defense mechanisms or be on guard, is able to naturally soar into the spaciousness of all that there is. It is refreshing to note that such places can and do exist.

The purpose of the dream is to show me that when I am free, and not having to be in any particular way or contend with any particular projection, I am able to carry a spaciousness to the whole and in the whole to which all I see is embraced as an inner beauty, as an inner and outer beauty. This is possible when all is at ease and no part of my attention has to be diverted to contend with or offset the fact that something is watching and projecting upon my beingness, an interference, in other words, with my overall natural free will.

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Experiencing Completion

15bdAs we can see, it doesn’t always have to be a chase sequence for one inner aspect to catch up with another inner aspect. Here, the main character is serendipitously led into a situation that puts his own inner struggle on display, as a way to illuminate the issue for the dreamer. The intensity and drama of dream images is often a measure of inner resistance to what is trying to occur. When we are open to it, or less resistant, the images can take on a more magical quality. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I should probably do my second dream first, because the second dream coincides with the theme that you’re hitting more directly. My first meditation dream is such a mystery to me: it still talks about how to catch up with the quality of a spaciousness that is needed, but the second dream doesn’t get into that so much, but gets directly into a peculiarity of things, and it does it in kind of a bizarre way where you don’t know what’s going on.

Because in the dream, the beginning of this is to try to show how there is some sort of feminine imbalance in my nature, and it has to do with some sort of internal pressure or something that I’m holding in a way that isn’t quite right and, therefore, creating a barrier or conflict in terms of myself with it.

The first dream portrays that barrier in that I have a tendency of trying to feel that everything is always about something and therefore I’m not able to just sit in the spaciousness in which there doesn’t need to be anything going on. And as long as I perceive that there’s something that I have to defend, or withstand, it limits and keeps me from bringing this quality together of the inner and the outer. The dream of course is showing this evolving quality.

In the dream, I’m in a hallway waiting for my mother who’s in the doctor’s office. To begin with I see a painting up on the midlevel of the wall, and I look at it. It’s kind of interesting and then it disappears. And then I notice another lower one, and this lower painting that I look at is that of a woman’s foot with the toes and kind of something around one of the toes and stuff like that.

Suddenly there’s a woman who comes out into the hallway into this waiting area, and I notice that she has the same foot that’s in the painting. So I ask her if she painted that and if she has any other paintings besides the foot and the other painting that disappeared. I’m not really sure that I’m interested, I’m just making conversation. But she directs me to follow her, and I figure well, my mother could come out at any time but this shouldn’t take long, she’s just going to go and show me what she has in her gallery or something, and instead she wanders around, and she can’t seem to find anything, and she’s in a communal area where she lives like a gypsy.

And first she goes to one workshop that’s more in the outer and there’s nothing there to be had, and then she goes to her other sanctum which is amongst all of these other gypsy-like people. I don’t really see them, I just know that this is kind of a communal area where they all seem to somehow live or coexist together, which takes away the ability to have a certain kind of spatiality because there’s no privacy and, as a consequence, all of her paintings are in storage. She looks in various places including under a house, and all I need is just one because from that one painting I can replicate as many as I want.

I ask her about how she is able to get by around so many people. How does she have a life of her own? Her bed is separated from others by a couple of drapes that she has hung and she says she has a boyfriend who comes and visits her at 6 o’clock. And then something happens and everything disappears, she disappears.

And now I find myself shifted and I’m in the country. A person has driven this car out into the country as if we’re looking for something, maybe looking for her. And we look at what we thought we came to see, and then we’re to go back to the car and everyone else takes… you know, there’s a couple others, they all take and follow the driver back under one particular route back. But I seem to try to do this, go around a different curve or something, and go back quite a little bit different route as opposed to following everybody else, and I run into running water and stuff that I have to delicately bounce around to keep from getting my feet wet.

And before I realize it, I’ve meandered even further away from the car, and I come to an area where this woman is with this guy, in a room of some sort, and she is leaving out the window as if something just isn’t working out or isn’t right – because the guy isn’t understanding what she wants.

I’m able to see this and I suddenly just become the vibration as if time is displaced and I’m in her, or intertwined as being her, so I can tell what she feels and I could tell what I would feel as a guy separate. And when I notice this it’s like such a completion of coming together, but I have to leave because I do not want to miss my ride. And I realize I’ve wandered way south so the person driving the car, when I finally get back, he describes the phenomenon zone I was in and he gives it a name. I can’t remember what he called it, something similar to Kryger. And so I go back to where I live and try to understand more about this, this phenomenon, how it comes to pass and whatnot because it actually is a real thing that can happen in life – and that’s when I wake up.

The meaning of this is there is an aspect of my soul that has gotten lost. Glimpses and experiences of it are fleeting. To have an experience of completion, just one taste of it, puts me on a mission to reach this again and break the trance I am in. Such access enables me to penetrate barriers that hold everything in manifestation in a state of suspense, and I am able to make things happen in manifestation, or in other words, touch manifestation, work with manifestation, as kind of a spaciousness as opposed to some sort of disharmony – which isn’t otherwise possible when I make this kind of connection because there’s a knowingness in this connection.

In other words, one can function, then, in manifestation as a reciprocal effect of bringing the soul quality energies together so that they complete the kundalini power needed, the full power that’s needed.

And so then there’s like an outer example as I settle back, and the outer example I am shown is that I am able to gauge the up and down cycles in life, such as like maybe my commodity account, and recognize the possibilities here-to-fore not recognizable when I am functioning in a connected way instead of separate from the wholeness that exists in such a union.

So that shows when you bring the two together you create a possibility and then you actually hear something, and that’s where I started to realize that maybe you could say that the kundalini energy has one other little power to it because you can actually then know something. First you reach the state of spaciousness. Now, to understand this one keeps having to understand the full meaning of spaciousness, and that’s where this meditation dream comes in – and it’s very confusing in terms of seeing it.

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