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In this conversation between John and Ann, an archetypal dream scenario unfolds. (This recording does have some difficult passages, in terms of audio quality, but the text is provided to clarify any uncertain wording. It’s a journey worth pursuing! At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: It was another active night of dreaming. Did you dream actively too?

Ann: Well, I wrote it up here this morning because I finally was able to put my finger on it. The dream theme has been organizing. It’s like there are three parts to the organization and every night it’s been different dreams, very in depth, but organizing, and it has to do with three.

Like one night I was dreaming and organizing people into these three groups…

John: When you’re working with three you’re shifting something in. One step links to the next step links to the next step and what’s really, really unusual, that even a lot of teachers don’t notice, is that there actually is a fourth step. But mostly it’s three steps over and over again.

The first step is good for your foundation, the second step puts you into an aspect of how you correlate a motion with it, but aren’t necessarily conscious, but are unfolding nevertheless in that regard, and the third step is generally a breakthrough.

So let’s see how you did it.

Ann: Okay. In one of the first dreams I just remember that there were groups of people and I didn’t necessarily know the people, but I had to organize the people into these three groups. And so at one point I remember shifting some of the people around and moving them and thinking well no, that’s not quite right, and then finally, towards the end of that particular dream, I’d stand back and think okay, now that’s the way it should be.

John: It is said that on this path we are the designers, and what you’re doing is you’re shaping something. You’re attempting to tune in to a center of listening that knows how something is meant to be.

In other words, how it’s to be contained, or how it’s to be in the overall. That’s the general motif that you, so to speak, feel in your bones, or in other words, whenever I say that one’s feeling this so to speak in their bones, and so you go around and around to try to get it to come out or to flow or to come together, it’s like something that’s felt in the bones is like an inner vibration that is trying to live through you.

In other words, the way you live in the outer is one thing, identifying with your senses and how you perceive off of that and such. This other is like a whole other dimension that has you taking on, if one was describing it in a shamanistic way, your spot, your point in the whole. In other words, how it is that everything cycles. It’s like you being the essence and everything’s cycled around that, is perhaps another way of saying it.

That’s not quite right because everything is the wholeness. Nothing is distinguishable, but it’s how it kind of can be inclined to feel when you are trying to pull it all together.

So how does it work in the second dream?

Ann: The second dream earlier this week, I had lists of things and I had files and lists and I was trying to organize these things into these three lists. I just remember three kept coming up.

John: That trait that you’re describing is what the teacher says is the greatest problem for the feminine. The masculine is another word for it, that its greatest problem, and there are actually two things that are considered the big problem for the feminine, and you’re doing the second here. You’re not able to stop your doingness.

In other words, the feminine is a container energy, but then it can get lost in the minutia of its doingness, where it’s got this and this and this and that and that and that. So you have this central thing that is pushing you, the essence of something trying to come through that’s pushing you, and the way you’re working with it is you’re making your lists to try to pull it together, thinking that the list will pull it together.

Actually what happens is you kill the energy that way, but you make it so mundane, you make it so tight, you make it so dense that you put yourself in a mud puddle of suffering. You know, in trying to make the list work because the list format won’t work, because the list format is based upon how all of this needs to portray itself in the outer.

See, the vibration is an innerness coming in, and the list is an attempt to orchestrate that in the outer. I mean, this is the best you can do to catch up with it. I mean, you’ve done your best to try to contain the whole essence of what it is that’s in your bones so to speak, and because you’re in the outer your faculties come to bear then, and try to make lists to help it, but everything is being done in relationship to the outer, which is the reflective deadness of things.

And once in a while you get a break and something actually kind of works, and that spoils you. Because it’s kind of like maybe more by accident, because the inner is what is alive and the outer is the reflective or the dormant, and most of the time it’s on a slightly different tango. So, that’s how you are trying to work with it. Now let’s see if the third aspect shows you making the breakthrough.

Ann: Yeah, this is the last dream I had last night and so I’m kind of like sitting, I’m sitting at like a table or something, and I’m looking up at this great big screen and it’s like you know how you have documents on your computer and you have them in icons?

I had these icons and I kept moving them around and moving them around and thinking okay, I can’t quite get this but I was moving them around knowing that they were supposed to sort of be in a sequence or something, and all of a sudden it was like I moved them and I just sat there and I said, “Oh, I got it, I got it,” and then I woke up.

John: Huh. Now that would be different for the masculine than for the feminine. No wonder I created such a reaction when I was playing with this idea of the mystic versus the alchemist.

It’s the masculine needs to figure out how to be the alchemist. The feminine is naturally the alchemist. It’s the feminine that needs to figure out how to be the mystic, how to see.

That’s what you’re doing is you get to the point where aha, you see, and… I don’t know, this is so simple. I am surprised I didn’t make this correlation before, because a lot of times when I’m talking to the feminine, suddenly there’s the aha moment, the light bulb moment.

It is really pronounced with this little old lady that I talk to that’s like 70 some years old, and she’ll quibble and struggle with how it is that she perceives because she’s had a lifetime of experiences. And often times I’m just trying to get this to come through, trying to get this to come through, and all of a sudden maybe I trip through whatever the barrier is.

Usually it doesn’t work that way to try to press something through, but she’s got such a good heart that it can happen that way too. And so when it does, it’s like you just hear this huge in-breath, ahh, it’s an aha moment. She got it, and it doesn’t mean she can hold onto it. It was a very fast flash. It’s a sight. It’s a seeing.

And then the tendency is her basic nature is so slower and so she could fall back and it can veil right up again, and so I’m learning to try to figure out how to do this more smoothly because I have to jam it through. It runs counter to a person’s assimilation process.

So what was happening in your particular case was you were going at this at a pace, where first of all you are confronted with what it is that is your greater responsibility in terms of who and what you really are. That’s your first dream, where you are feeling it in the bones.

But because you’re in the outer, and not on the inner, because you’re in the physical body, you’re trying to sort this out by working with the outer characteristics, and so you are trying to rearrange that. You’re making your list. You’re thinking that this way you’ll catch up with it.

But that approach is disrespectful to the inner, because it’s the inner where the attention needs to be placed, and not in the outer. The outer is reflective of the inner. Yes, on some level you can say that the inner and the outer come together, but that’s just like light and sound are, you know, a way of looking at it they’re just at different speeds.

And in the last, you pull together the inner and the outer with your aha moment, with that flash that you got. That works that way over and over and over and over and over again. You need that inflection. You need that sight.

This is something that I pondered, and how funny I never made the association with the masculine and feminine like this before, I’ve made the association in terms of thinking, feeling, intuition, and sensation.

And I identify in myself the sensation being the imbalance, and when it’s in balance I have more of an alchemical side working. I’ve often noticed that when a woman is very subjected and holds something inside of herself as a great knowingness, that needs to be jostled through, that it’s almost like her thinking function is jumping around and when it suddenly hits and then out through the intuitional flash comes the knowing, that’s like a sight.

And that works for her. The trigger being the thinking, and in this case, the intuition being the knowingness that just comes through. And then can you hold that pace, that speed? Because the tendency is, because we live in the 99.9% world of senses, is the tendency then to go back to that world of sound, so to speak, instead of the world of light, the world where you mystically see it and get it. You mystically seeing something and getting it, causes it to come through.

The masculine being able to take what it sees and somehow or another function with it, in terms of the outer, that’s the alchemical linkage. Strictly speaking the alchemical is the feminine, but she doesn’t have the masculine. Strictly speaking the masculine is the mystical, the mystic, that doesn’t have the alchemical.

It is very interesting. What happens is you tend to have to, if you’re a woman, you have to find the masculine side of yourself, which is that light, that spark.

In other words, it is like it comes down. It’s like a seed thought or something. It comes down and it finds its correspondence on the plains of wholeness. Now, if you don’t have a greater relationship or connection with that, then you fiddle around and with your moods and mannerisms you make your checklist, and you’re caught up in your doingness.

And it ain’t gonna go very far. Well, you know… It nauseates you. I mean, you know, usually you find yourself all worn out. It should have worked. I mean, you know, you took great care in making these lists, and these lists made sense because you did hear something in the bones so to speak from which to generate the list.

Now, where one gets into trouble is it’s a little bit like the gambler, like the gambler that goes down let’s say and he gets on the slot machine and he hits the jackpot. He shouldn’t of course, statistically he’s going to lose, but once he hit this jackpot he gets to imagine he’s infallible and so he thinks he can repeat this over and over and over again, and now he’s hooked and now he’s lost.

Well, the same thing can happen when you feel something in your bones and you start to make your checklist. Sometimes something is still kind of alive yet, in the outer reflection, that does correspond a wee bit to this inner thing, and when that hits then you get to thinking that it works that way.

It was only by accident that it worked that way, that that something at the slower vibration hadn’t been left behind or something, that things had moved on or whatever, in terms of the speed of things, and so you then are inclined to indulge even more. And you’re inclined to put up barriers, hissy fit barriers to fight to make that work.

I mean, you’re right – these lists have gotta make it work. You’ve done your thing. These lists is where it’s at, and it’s only when you settle back that you can come to recognize that it’s this light bulb flash.

There are other ways of describing it too. Take for example dream interpretation. It’s almost somewhat of a list orientation, if you take a dream and try to understand it in terms of its symbolism.

However, the light of it, or the flash of it, comes from a knowingness that is on a mystical level. You just know it, and if you take and apply the symbolism, sometimes you’re right and sometimes you’re wrong.

And so what happens is most places where you have dream interpretation you have what this means and what that means kind of thing, and you have that kind of twisted perception.

It never jumps to the inner. It jumps to the outer correlation, which sometimes is okay and sometimes is not, but if you really feel it, it’s always missing something. It’s missing the overdrive. It’s missing the greater meaning. It might have a bit of a lesser meaning, and sometimes it misses that completely too, because things have passed it by. It’s dead energy, because it’s reflective.

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Today, John’s dreams highlight the energetic difference between connecting to what we see around us, or reaching a deeper level and connecting to the energy behind what we see around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, that [Jeane’s dream, see Part of the Equation] was a good way of doing it, and it causes me to have to tell my dream last night, that I had when I went to bed, first, before telling the meditation dream, because it has a similar kind of chemistry about it.

It does it slightly differently but, because I’m the masculine, I tend to often times not see what it is that is right in front of me, that should be obvious for me to see.

The feminine nature just finds itself in just some sort of state that exists in the outer, and whether it has an inner connection or not to begin with, the feminine just doesn’t make that distinction because its concern doesn’t tend to function that way and, as a result, the way its attention does function it has to do more with how it feels the overallness of the space, or not, and the masculine’s attention functions in terms of the specifics, the detail, the way something comes down, or the way something is impacted, or affected, as a kind of almost a discriminatory way of being, but what you’re discriminating is hopefully conceivably the dropping away of the slower limitations of the outer, to adhere to the only thing that is real which is the inner coming into outer flow.

This is the role, the responsibility, of the masculine, which is often times said that it of having the passage rite of bringing in the clarity. This in a way is almost so simple that you have to keep saying it over and over again because it’s so easy to miss it. And the reason why it’s so easy to miss it is because we live in an outer world, and so the perceptions are based upon the senses and when the perceptions are based upon the senses, and maybe that occurs say 99% of the time, and the senses then correlate to how we think, the inclination then is to make reflective decisions based upon how the outer is unfolding, instead of from the faster energy that is tweaking all of it.

So, to show how one gets spoiled or dumbs down or loses clarity or how all of that kind of tweaks back and forth, I have three aspects. You had three aspects. I mean your third aspect was bringing in the Led Zeppelin. Your middle aspect was recognizing how to not have to be in a hillbilly mode, which has got to feel absolutely horrible because you don’t have any energy there, and everything is just getting by day by day. At least the second part had more interest to it, but it too would get nauseating at some point based upon the fact that it did and you recognized that something more from an inner level was needed, thus came the Led Zeppelin music.

In my dream I start off with, first of all, kind of being in a recognition of the inner into outer flow, I mean just kind of naturally there. I don’t have to be told. I mean maybe if everything is left in its perfect state of coordinated ordination, it’s going to work like that. And so, the first part of the dream is reflecting the fact that I’m settling for an old energetic habit.

In other words, that becomes the message, and it becomes the message because the way I notice it is as follows: I start off with the dream making a choice that on the outer level also makes sense.

In other words, I know what the inner level is saying, but it just so happens that the outer level is also kind of in a kind of cohesion. It’s still somewhat quickened, or alivened, or affected on a one-to-one direct correspondence to the inner flow. So you could actually, to begin with, spoil yourself by actually settling for making a decision in relationship to what you see as outer quickened events that are happening around you. And it will work out if you do that.

And when it works out like that you tend to get spoiled and you tend to think that that’s okay as well. It’s just like a person who takes and goes on a gambling machine and wins the jackpot and even though they intellectually know that the odds are designed to beat them in the end, they somehow or another go into an active imagination inside themselves that thinks they are above and beyond that scenario, and that they have some sort of rights based upon how something worked out in the outer.

But the whole design of things, that has been designed from the inner, that was designed as an outer mannerism, they lose that recognition and then you beat up on yourself and you get delirious.

Well, to begin with, this is something like that. I’ve gotten spoiled because it just so happened that you could make this decision based upon an inner into outer, which requires a little more consciousness and a little more attentiveness, and you could have been a little bit stupid and made it based upon the outer consequence of what was unfolding – and it would have been just fine. It would have just happened to work out just fine.

Well, when you do that you dull yourself down. You’re dropping yourself to the lowest common denominator, so the next thing you know that when you see the next sequence of images, you dulled yourself so you don’t necessarily know which is the inner and which is the outer.

So everything, the distinction, everything seems very, very hard to decide, very, very hard to know which is the inner and which is the outer, because you’ve dulled yourself.  You no longer have a ready access to the subtler inner inflections, and you have lost touch of the overall connectivity. Now you’re relying more heavily upon the outer senses, and so you put yourself into kind of a…

Without a succinct clarity or subtler adherence to the inner coming into outer awareness, you’re hit and miss, you’re all over the place, you fall back into the fog and the delirium, in other words, which is easy to do because, as I indicated, your surroundings support that because it is 99% awareness through the senses of the outer that you’re in, so it’s hard for you to hold a consciousness that adheres to a general overall vibration, which is what is alive that comes through, and that is what we are.

We’re created in the image of that inner into outer vibration, and that we need to adhere to that. It can be described in various ways as a raging wind, or light, or however you want to say it, but it is where the attention needs to be placed, because the outer is nothing more than a reflection of that in a slower way.

And because it’s in a slower way it sometimes can be in the past, and this other vibration, this raging wind or light or whatever you want to call it or a fire or inferno or whatever you want to call it, of an innerness, can be in the moment. And because it’s so much faster the outer consequences can be left behind. Thus if you’re reflecting and making decisions based upon the outer consequences, you can get it wrong because you’re not where the attention and the focus is supposed to be, which is this… well, as I describe, which is the secret substance.

In this phase where I have lost the clarity and need to be able to discriminate to what is real, I place myself into scenarios in which I suffer, because I’m making decisions based upon the outer. I suffer because I’m not complying with the inner into outer overall knowingness; in other words settling for outer nuances.

In the third phase of dreaming, I have reawakened to how I need to be. There isn’t much to report because when I recognize and adhere to the inner into outer flow, everything works out as it is meant to do. In other words, what works out is what is intended, and I come to just readily embrace and accept that because the other is not the real way of going – that’s the deviations.

The reason that everything works out as it needs to be is because I am following a conscious inner knowingness that is connected to the overall energetic that predominates in all of creation, instead of the denser outer reflections that often times misrepresent what is really going on.

The reason the outer sense perceptions get it wrong on many occasions is because that which is the inner, Will of God, is like a light, and the outer reflections are often left behind are more like a delayed effect that correlates more to that which is in the past, thus being too slow.

Your dream correlated to this. Do you see how it was, one, two, and three? You said more simply though. I had a big long deal there. You didn’t have much going on, but every sentence there changed the energetic and I was afraid that if you cued the third in, I might not have the ability to take all three of those and distinguish them as they needed to be distinguished because they were a process.

In my meditation dream, I am seeing myself able to maintain, in other words whatever the maintaining means in terms of what is going on around me, even though it isn’t easy because the situation where I am not moving, or doing anything to… it’s not easy because I am in a situation in which I am not moving, there is no motion, kind of like your hillbilly scene, and not doing anything to affect the dull state that I’m in.

I guess what I’m saying I’m doing is, I’m holding onto a condition that is fixated, and there’s a fine line between being fixated, in terms of caught up in the outer, and being caught and fixated upon something that lets go of the outer and just adheres to the inner, that’s transcendent.

In this particular image I’m doing the flip side, I am fixated upon the inner, and I can tell I’m close to waking up, in other words where I’m going to have to come out of the inner back into the outer. I’m doing my best to maintain my support for the prevailing condition. The prevailing condition is I am in a place where the inner is quickened, and when I awaken, back into the outer, how much of that am I going to be able to sustain and maintain – as the deeper part inside myself?
When I do awaken, open my eyes, I realize that I am letting go of a focus I had been in deep within as I am coming back into creation. And in doing that is when I realize where I am at and why. By that I mean I realize I’m in creation, which is in an outer, and for a split second there’s the inflection of what there is as a deeper purpose in the outer, but that’s such a fleeting inflection that it quickly evaporates because I’m back in the outer and whatever the burdens and the mannerisms and the traits that are going on in the outer, that dominate over me, is all picked up.

So what I am saying is that, as I’m maintaining the inner state, when I’m in my deep sleep, and therefore situated in its energetic, intertwined focus, on an outer level there is an imagery, more or less a designed condition to that occurrence, but it’s reflective and it can be very slowed down.

What happens as soon as I break the inner link, I come back into my physical senses. In coming back I automatically lose the focus to a deeply entrenched inner awareness. What I’m able to barely remember is what I write up each evening as my meditation dream. I am always amazed by what comes up each time.

In other words, reflect upon, or still carry as some sort of wavering essence, from deep within. And to catch up with it, it has this dreamlike quality so that I can sort it out from the symbolic of the dream. I’m amazed, over and over again, that what is really going on is this inner energetic flow from deep within.

This inner energetic flow is what shapes creation. The effect from this innerness appears to remain unconscious when I fail to notice the deeply symbolic dream images night after night. In other words, if you just fall asleep and nothing is going on then you are just affected by the affairs of the outer and this other is so deep within that you are amnesiac to it.

As a consequence, of essentially addressing this mannerism, a mannerism between distinction between the inner and the outer, I am now realizing that what I am able to notice, which comes across as a dream, is the result of a secret inner substance and its inner message.

I mean, what else is it? It’s something that’s going on from somewhere really, really, really deeply inside, kind of like a teacher would call it that we’re created in the image of a thought of God, so to speak, and that then has a consequence of an action and out of that arises all of this innerness that is quickened.

And then you find yourself in the outer trying to figure out how all of that works out in the malaise where it is dumbed down and hidden.

The subject matter of my correlation to this inner aliveness, or awareness, is unlimited because what I am able to perceive more and more is this deeper and deeper awakening inner consciousness.

In other words, I perceive more from the epicenter to all that there is, and that all that there is takes in this entire plane of manifestation. When I’m in manifestation, relating to my senses with the mind then correlating itself to those senses, I tend to look at things in such a microcosmic way that it’s very easy for me just to not catch this big picture, or the perception at the epicenter.

What I know by the inner vibration and its corresponding symbolic images stems from… well, you could call it a thought of God, or you can call it the secret essence behind all of manifestation. Without this inner secret substance that is at the core to everything, there would be a nothingness.

Perceiving this causes me to notice that the energetic vibration which we perceive to be the inner aliveness originates from within our inner being and is feeding corresponding outer images on the plane of manifestation.

It’s like feeding them, or you might say that the slower denser part of our self is throwing off that kind of remainder effect, in a slower way instead of the faster way, in which it’s all there in the moment at the time, as is this raging wind or something. If this inner energetic vibration were to ceased to exist, there would be no awareness, and without a sense of awareness there would be no creation.

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John: I didn’t realize until the end of my dream that it had something to do with getting into life, as your dream did, but in a particularly straightforward way (see Getting Into Life).

I guess I’m too adapted to my environment in that my relationship to it has become established, in terms of my perceptions and the way that I carry myself. I’ve come to adopt a certain way of seeing things.

When it’s like that, life is like a small town with a certain set of characteristics. After awhile it gets so mundane and boring that I lose an inner energetic. It gets to the point where I’m just going along with things – completely uninvolved – because it’s so mundane.

When that state becomes too much, and I no longer want to comply, or go along, with what’s presented, a voice inside says: “OK, change it,” and I suddenly have to take that on as an option.

Just as you were looking at different aspects of the breath – going up, down, and around at different speeds and at different levels – that’s what I started to do, in the form of working with various options. But then I realized that I wasn’t sorting things out very well, because I didn’t know what to change to make things different.

When we don’t know where we’re going, or what’s meant to be, we end up going along with the general flow of events even though we might not necessarily be fully involved in those events. It’s like we’re just observing, but even that becomes frustrating. When we reach the point where we can’t stand it any longer, we feel ready to scream.

And that’s what I tend to do: I’ll reach a point of frustration and have a big reaction –  just to see what will happen. Yet all my reactions do is estrange me further from the scenario I’ve been watching, because it generally doesn’t make sense to other people.

For me it might have felt liberating, but in looking at it from the perspective of the whole, it’s really neither free nor a conscious act. In order for something to occur that can be effective, i.e., in order to listen to the voice seeking change, I need to bring in something more: holding back as a watcher or reacting out of outrage doesn’t solve anything.   

What I come to realize is that I first need to accept and be able to relate to things as they are. So the dream is suggesting, more or less, that I haven’t actually been doing that and, therefore, I’m holding myself back, or distancing myself, in some way. The image shows me this contrast because I haven’t made the necessary connection; I’m not actually taking in the issue, or the situation around me.

In your dream you were naturally getting more into life than I was, perhaps because of the way the feminine is designed, being more with the spirit energy in Creation. You have the Mystery within your chemistry, and so you started probing and looking for that and experimenting with the various states of your self. You did that by way of acknowledging the importance of the breath.

In that, you learned something that enabled you to make a difference – to be able to work first with one aspect of yourself and then the other, as if you were broken into two parts (masculine and feminine). Yet ultimately you were able to work with both parts.

In my case, because I (masculine) naturally find myself with my spirit energy off the ground, I’m able to sit back as a seer (so to speak) and watch. If I don’t like what I see, I can attempt to change it, but I can’t really change anything if I don’t get into it.

If I just stay ungrounded, what I do may seem interesting, but it doesn’t make any difference. I can scream all I want but all that does is highlight even more that I’m estranged from life. In that state, I’m not able to change anything because I’m not actually in life.

So, I’m dreaming the predicament of the masculine, and you’re dreaming the feminine. You’re discovering that, as you break out of any amnesia, you have an access to what’s necessary to be effective in your surroundings.

I’m finding out that, as I tend to see myself, I can have a perspective about a whole bunch of things, and I can react to what I don’t like, but I’m not necessarily grounded or getting into life to actually make the change. That’s another step beyond just watching and reacting, and involves a higher octave of focus and attention, in a grounded way, which can then make the difference.

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