Posts Tagged ‘meditation and dream work’

0022xxsMostly we think of ourselves as feeling “normal,” or as feeling tired, but we actually are changing speeds all the time. Sometimes we are the tailgater, other days we are the meandering driver. It’s good to have an awareness of our speeds, particularly in relation to the people closest to us, because they will have shifting speeds, too, which will affect one person’s ability to relate to the other person. And, in our spiritual journey, we are also learning to incorporate the quicker speeds of higher energy into our system in a balanced way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I had to look at this in terms of having to look at it as an overall spatiality. I have to look at the polarities, the ends. In other words as if, in a masculine way, you’re still looking at something going from one point to another point – instead of just holding an overall space.

The stillness and the holding of the overall space is really where it’s at, on some level, but the masculine way still flaunts about. That’s its nature, just like the feminine acts like it’s being left behind, or rejected, in some fashion.

So, in the meditation dream, because of the way my Kundalini energy was speeded up at the party that was in the building here, and during a very engaging day with our water leak and all of that stuff, it actually solved itself interestingly when one didn’t get thrown asunder. So I was having trouble, in the meditation, of quieting myself and I decided to lie down to see if that would make a difference – and that’s when an amazing thing happened.

Once in a while I’d have to do something to break up a pattern, or routine, and the only thing I know how to do, when I’m not just going somewhere, is to sometimes lie down or change my position. And, when I changed my position, I was still attentive to a focus, the idea of a focus of a letting go, and so suddenly I was dreaming that I was paying attention to an energetic focus in which I left the raciness in one place, and focused on a pointedness of being still. Almost as if there’s the arrow inside of myself as the prime directive, an arrow to the stillness, and yet a link and connection to the raciness yet.

In other words, almost as if I was feeling the polarities, and the result was a sense of both places I guess is where you’d say that. I had a sense of what I was leaving behind, the Kundalini energy, and there was the adherence to a thread that delved into the letting go.

Normally, if you go into a letting go, you’re in a letting go and all of that other is gone, and then something emerges out of the letting go and that’s your meditation dream. But, in this case, it was like an experience in which I had a sense of both places yet, which means that the depth of letting go is compromised because of the nature of which the senses had come alive in the outer.

And I observed the thread of letting go as if I was looking at myself lying there in a quandary, and the experience was profound because my natural awareness was enhanced by the focus that I could see and what I was like in an uncontrollable aliveness, out of control subject to getting lost in an outer flow. In other words, both states were experiential.

In other words, when you get carried away and speeded up in the outer it’s easy where you get too over the top, yet I’m aware of a type of stillness that I was able to maintain a kind of auric spatiality of beingness, that I was able to maintain yesterday. And so, in the dream now, I’m looking at it from the inner. You might say this outer was like a scenario that points to what that is like in terms of a depth from within.

Now what I found profound in observing this is that, even though I may not have gone somewhere real profound to the degree of where you let go and you’re just gone; I mean it’s not like I wasn’t gone. I let go, and then I was aware of this other. Normally I’m not aware of anything when I let go, and I could appreciate the letting go, and the essence of an excitable inflating fire and air energy being able to put this into an attentive spatiality.

So what is going on is I am able to be in the inner and the outer if I hold deeply to the thread of singular focus letting go. In other words, I can do that in a letting go. Now what I’m talking about is what it is like when the senses in the outer are afire, and then directed to stop. When the Kundalini energy is taken on in full force, and then brought to arrest, it is possible to be able to note the expanse as a spatiality – which is opposite of getting consumed by an out of control outer vibrationalism.

So the meaning is, to bring inner into outer in a meaningful way it is necessary to take in the outer vibratoriness and, in doing so, place it into the heart as an experience of inner stillness. In doing so, I am breathing the outer senses as a Kundalini energy to be absorbed as an inner space of heart stillness.

In other words, the outer is louder, it invokes and follows a lot of the mental reflective and all of that side, and it’s denser, and then the heart is stiller and subtler. This is done in the outer when the engaged energetic senses fire up, then are breathed in as an in-breath light.

The opposite condition, in other words, to point out what it’s like to talk about it as a density, the opposite condition is to pay attention to and react to the outer senses, compelling the heart to shrink defensively, you know that’s when you go stupid. But I am able to be truly vulnerable by not having to react in this human condition pattern when I am able to exact an inner focus of stillness as the in-breath takes in the liquid light of a divine sense array.

The result is a joyful dance like inner exhilaration in that in this in-breath so much gets healed. Everything around you gets healed when you do that. That is what awakening to the intertwined wholeness is all about.

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BS-Inner-GlimpseWe don’t often realize how much of our spiritual journey is a training, or a retraining, of ourselves and our systems. Everything we have done in our lives, with consistency and focus, has raised the level of our instincts, our intuitions, and our knowings about that subject. Whether we are artists, musicians, surgeons, parents, or street sweepers, there are intelligences that will come to us when we do that work – that is not there for those who have never done those jobs. The beautiful aspect of our spiritual training is that it is universal, so it can begin to give us insights into everything we put our focus on, not just on singular pursuits. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream I was noticing that I was okay in a quiet, still way that I had been okay, meaning that I was sitting in my quiet, still way, when suddenly in my quiet, still way, there was a commotion in the ethers of things. Because I noticed a shift, I didn’t know what the shift was, but it was like something in the outer conditions – even though it hadn’t registered to the senses yet – that something in the outer conditions was causing an effect and it had to do with what was emerging in the outer.

Usually when I sit and go into a meditation, and close everything off, I’m in such a deep, inner, still state that this state overrides from deep within. In other words, the stillness takes hold. So, in other words, my attention is in the stillness in which I just wait around for something to come out of the stillness to which I then come back.

And, of course, to get into this stillness everything around has to subside. And as I was waiting for it to subside, as I was in the throes of it all subsiding, all of it suddenly got really, like I say, it got really intense. And right about the time that you came in I was floundering in this in-between zone, going through the sense that what was going on in the outer was ten times greater than the inner. Or, in other words, at a magnitude of importance, or a magnitude of loudness, or however you’d say that, that had this number to it, that was ten times more than the inner – which was really strange.

I almost popped awake; I didn’t get a chance to pop awake because all of a sudden I’m coming out of my grog with you standing there indicating that we had a problem, a big water leak.

So the significance is, I guess there is an exception, in terms of the inner coming to the outer, when it can be overridden based upon the fact that one’s attention is needed on this side.

And so then, in my dream, I dreamt that there were four things, in other words four qualities, and these four qualities existed on two levels. The two levels are an inner level and an outer level. And, on the outer level, what came across was the need to pull something, a glimpse, out of the background.

In other words, there was something in the foreground on the outer, and something in the background, and because of the depth of the knowingness on the inner, I’m able to use my eyes to not necessarily stare directly at what’s in the foreground, I could see what’s in the background. I can get a glimpse of something, and the glimpse I got was I was making a comment to myself that others don’t see that as complete, and I was seeing that to be complete. And I realized I don’t note that others note that to be complete.

That was kind of what I was noticing, but I was only noticing the one of the four like that, one of the four meaning the four senses. I was only noticing the part that involved a seeing because the other traits hadn’t emerged out of the knowingness yet, although they were kind of held and imputed as being right there with the seeingness, to be recognized, or taken. In other words, the sense of them taken into a way of experientially in manifestation.

Now the two levels were kind of interesting in that, on the inner level, it was just a knowingness. There was no breaking it up. It was just an overriding knowingness. In the outer it was like four senses of which the sight sense was something that had a quality to it, in which there could be something brought through in a way that was in the here and now, as opposed to on the other side, or in the higher self. And that the density is the density in a separate capacity, outer way.

So what’s going on is the dream is indicating that my challenge is in being able to denote the inner in the outer. I am able to perceive the inner with a natural overall knowingness, but in the outer I have to denote it by going beyond the literalness of the senses and, in so doing, glimpse it in the outer – and know it is imbued in the outer from the inner.

Well, in the dream, the only thing I can report with any certainty is that the seeing sense could be, in a glimpse, visualized. The other three were there, too, but you could tell they were with the seeing sense in the background as well, but I didn’t have a way of bringing them out.

So the meaning is it would seem that I need to have an inner sense experience of smell, hearing, and taste, in other words, as if that’s all an inner sense merged into one, broken up into the outer so that this goes into the myriad of things as a kind of inflective background, you know basically a shaping in the background of the outer. Meaning I am attuned to the knowingness, experientially, in the day-to-day outer, as having a quality of, at least in terms of sight, a glimpsing beyond appearances.

I hadn’t realized that awakening consciously involved directing the senses from an inner knowingness to an outer inflectiveness, meaning the knowingness of the inner acted out in an outer was like an inflective to the reflective done so as a sense reorientation.

In the dream I only noticed in the outer the seeingness quality. I could tell the other three senses were there, but I hadn’t brought their subtle beingness into the outer in what I would call a livable, superseding way. But the fact that there was that there, meant that the background, even though I couldn’t quite pull it out, the background was still more intriguing than the foreground.

So, it stands to reason, that the inner knowingness, with regard to the divine, inner, higher self of the senses, has a way to go to commute from the inner into the outer – without being compromised by the outer.

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231sAs we make our way on our journey, there is always a new and further point up ahead. And that’s okay, because what is important is to be on the path itself. And at each stop along the way we can get a glimpse of what awaits us, as we come to understand that what we thought we knew was just a partial view. In the fullness of time comes the fullness of the whole picture. But we are a long way from home, so we just keep putting one foot in front of the other as we cover new ground and refine our navigation skills. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, what I’m experiencing is to begin with deemed to be of little significance. I am told that the specifics are stepping stones on the path, and the experiences can seem sensational to the part of me that is ready to give up.

I realize that it is not possible from where I am at, at this time, to have any appreciation for what is yet to be. Again, I’m talking about a sense of something, aware that what’s going on in the outer has little significance, but I guess what I’m saying is, I haven’t quite bridged the divide to something else. And so, apparently, I must be having to have an appreciation for what is yet to be, without actually having the experience of it – because I do know that the outer isn’t where the significance is at, in terms of something that’s aspiring to come through.

So from what I have already experienced I can sense the experience to be part of a passing wind, in other words, again, of no significance, which means that what that is is out of reach to what is so much more.

It is about this time, that coming from the perspective of the higher self, I am able to shift my attention to being receptive to that which is to come. I mean, I’m receptive to it, but I don’t know what it is. That’s the meditation dream. Isn’t that interesting?

So the significance is, to denote this latent inner depth as yet to be humbles me in the here and now, in other words, because I know it’s there, even though I’m carrying on the way I’m carrying on. And then I notice that any plan to do this, it doesn’t get you anywhere. In other words, if you looked at your condition as dire, and had grief about it, you could have all the prayer and watching you want, but can this lead to the recognition?

And, yet, maybe it can. But it is not done in my dream this way, as I have a sense of so much more. In other words, I don’t have the grief. I’m able to do this outside of that. I just naturally have, instead of sitting there in some sort of helplessness, I have a sense of so much more already and do not need to be smashed to let go, which is what a type of grief does. Everything about you is smashed. Being receptive, being accepted, and being still is opening me up to an inner awakening process that knows no bounds.

And, of course, I portray then as the meaning here. What I am experiencing is a precursor and threshold to so much more, which is there for me to appreciate, pre the fact. In other words, it’s like a sense of it. I mean it’s like a hope. I hold out for it, so it’s like pre the fact, and when I yield to the sense that what I am going through now is barely the start of the awakening process, when I yield to that, then there is hope. In other words, there’s not despair, or there’s not grief, because that doesn’t help me any.

And if that’s an aspect of prayer, well, okay, but prayer has a distinct definition to it, too, so that can create a stigma in terms of it being something that is reaching for something outside of one’s self. That’s what prayer kind of tends to do, when everything is within, so in that regard it’s a bit of a deviation. And, as far as watching, I’m already aware of my plight, I just don’t have the other, the higher self, that I know is outside of that, I just don’t have that at my disposal.

Or, to put it another way, what I am talking about is portrayed in the image that I have slid down a banister, in other words, this is a house that has multiple levels, and it has this spiral staircase coming down, and I’ve slid down the banister from the upper level floors all the way to the ground floor. And, in doing so, come to realize to my surprise, how wonderful life is.

In other words, it’s almost like coming to the bottom is scary, and it’s like staying up above in some sort of expansive space, and so I had pushed off from that because I guess I felt that I needed to avoid the myriad of things, and that the ground floor was lesser in some capacity. And when I came down, I found it to be wonderful. Of course this image is not possible if plans unfold in terms of how to do this. Such plans will be in the way.

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