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ige99sAll energy is also intelligence, at any level we can consider: the energy of the sun which feeds everything on this planet in many ways, enabling its growth; the energy of motherhood which has the intelligence of how to care for a child; or the energy of youth, which urges a new life to explore and learn. These energies, these intelligences, cause what we witness during our lives. And we can connect directly to such energies, thereby gaining the intelligence of them, when we begin to let go of our personal view of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, my world for a long, long time was comprised of dense outer objects that held my attention. I came to accept my fate as being an outer way of perceiving. This changed when I learned to shift my attention to a consciousness in which the outer way of having to identify things could fall away.

I can’t explain that to an objectifying mind, because that sort of thing just spins and spins the thought-upon-thought and so on, but I guess the way I would catch up with this is I would flicker from the state of outer to a letting go, and, when I would be doing that, I would be making observations as almost a type of intuitive inflection of something in a stillness. And then I would get more into the stillness, and actually more into watching and seeing how the denser things could just fall completely away, and that was more into a light.

In using a freedom of my focus and attention to go back and forth, from the outer back into the light, to the breath, I notice that I had a tendency, because as you’re doing that you’re not necessarily purified to begin with, so you have other levels that you have to catch up with and go through, and so for me there was still this tendency to indulge in outer reflections under certain conditions.

I should denote that the back and forth between a concretized plane of physical existence, and an inner plane shift, which occurred when the objectification falls away, and there is just light, is based upon awareness of breath. Or, in other words, talking about the breath of consciousness, or the breath of cycles of creation. And the out-breath, with its need to objectify the world by following thought into matter, embraces the outer with the linear momentum amidst it all.

The in-breath has a primary focus upon my essence being, concerned more towards the light of things and the letting go, causes the opposite to occur. In other words, they’re contrasts to each other. The out-breath is one thing, and in-breath is another, and generally for the longest period initial time, the average person is not because they’re geared with senses that are all outward oriented, and learn how to work with that in terms of how they see things in a dense way. They work with a momentum that is out-breath concentrated, but from this out-breath/in-breath, over and over again, back and forth, you come to notice the heartfelt magnetism of the in-breath and how it alters your attention in the outer, how they expand and contract between each other. You start to notice that.

And then back to the tendency hook for me is the idea that I can bait my buying and selling hook in a memorable way. In other words, it draws the attention of something that causes something to feel good. It causes a sense of a breakthrough kind of cutting through things kind of accomplishment, and you could get lost is the thought, and the momentum, of such action.

In other words, the image is like I knew how to bait my hook just in such and such a way in where I could go to a stream, for example, and pull out the fish, and knew just how much time to spend in each spot because I understood the ways and the mannerisms of working with a certain quality and momentum, to reach into life in that way, which is the out-breath falling, is the out-breath sense.

Then with the in-breath there is a letting go, as you want to not have to do this, and that, and the other, and want to reside in something that’s gentler, or softer, or more of an essence, and then you eventually let go of the fascination, in terms of what you’re doing for yourself, you know where you can catch the fish and stuff, and there becomes a sense where you actually start to work with facilitating the in-breath of another.

So, in the out-breath, instead of a good deal orientation for myself, I would now be excited for someone else, and find myself actually helping them get what they want. And that’s a level of consciousness. That’s a level of awareness.

And in this meditation dream not even that satisfied the outer schematic. In other words, the outer schematic is bigger than that. In other words, you can quit doing it for yourself, and you could start doing it and helping others, and yet it’s still bigger than that because the out-breath, I came to realize, that there still is a type of buying and selling.

In other words, we’re going out-breath to in-breath, out-breath to in-breath. Each level is shifting and becoming more awakened and conscious.

So, in the next level, I had the tendency to want to say goodbye and move on. In other words, not contend with the trance that the person is in, just leave them there, but the tendency to say goodbye also demagnetizes one’s energy because it really doesn’t make sense, because to do something like that actually drains you. So that means that there’s something still going on inside of yourself. You know, you’re not really letting go.

That’s a step, and that doesn’t work. That actually creates a lot of moods and anxieties and stuff like that in your nature. That has you jumping around with a lot more thoughts than you need to because you’re constantly having to do battle in that kind of inner subtleness. And then, eventually, that too, in the back and forth of the breath, falls away, and when it does there’s kind of an emptiness of being. You stop the portrayals. You just walk away. You don’t say anything, you just walk away. But you walk away holding an energetic almost to the heart in an all-pervading way. To embody that is to put, in my heart, everything around me embraced as it is, as me, and in doing so a greater awakening in the oneness of everything occurs.

So what I’m describing in the awakening process, all of which is founded in the breath, and is the condition of man, in terms of constantly breathing in and out as cycles of creation, in terms of where they’re at on the various levels, and on and on it goes until there is an overall oneness and a nonbeing therein.

To reach this level is a shift in which I am you, and you are me, and I am everything, and everything is me. When this occurs that is when I don’t exist, except as an all-encompassing nonbeing, because everything is the same aliveness, and it all goes into the oneness.

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aws232It is nearly impossible to make a spiritual journey and never experience spiritual doubt. After all, we are asking our brain and all our systems to let go of the physical reality that sits before us, and to put our whole trust into unseen aspects of life. No matter how strong our belief is, we will be tested. Yet it is just these tests that can deepen our belief, if we don’t derail ourselves completely, by helping us to realize that, without our beliefs, what we are left with is an emptiness that is unquenchable. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I also had something that kind of sat in a limbo, and so not really a meditation dream, per se. In other words, I was grappling with thought-upon-thought upon the plane of manifestation. It’s as if I had chosen to try to play act in this thought-upon-thought, as if there’s a way of finding relief that way, but I wasn’t able to do that because I know this to be futile.

And I tried and tried, as if, maybe, I had missed something, somehow, and that there really was a way to go somewhere this way. You could say this was like a due diligence dream, in other words, going back to see if you actually were too adamant or something, when I adopted the idea that manifestation, being a plane of sound, is just a thought-upon-thought reality. And, is there something more to it?

In other words, it’s an aspect, it’s a part, per se, in and of itself. It’s just thought-upon-thought, but I had to kind of go back and re-look at it. And so I was trying to prove, in a contrary way, a validness that, deep down, I knew didn’t exist.

And it’s kind of an approach. The reason why I was able to take this approach, and go back and do this, is because that’s my pattern. That’s the approach that I took a long time ago. I basically decided, like I say, by being familiar it’s the pattern in which you kind of, so to speak, go down the Jinn side of things into life, instead of stay in the angelic.

Or, you could say, it’s a type of declaring war on God, so to speak, by stepping on the momentum gas and project thought-upon-thought into the unknowingness plane of manifestation, pretending that I could sort out such a delirium – even though deep down to do so was to step upon a better judgment, in which I knew I was probably in trouble in having taken such a step, and, therefore, found myself in kind of a type of controlled waiting game.

In other words, there’s nothing I can do about it, that’s how I find myself. Once I did it, now I have to contend with it; to live it. So everyone was in their own way, when I look at others now and everything else around me, they’re all acting up as if there was something meritorious to be found in such an approach.

So instead of being odd man out or something, I threw away an inner sense of apprehension and went out into the outer flow, and, in doing so, I kept telling myself that the apprehensiveness within was getting in the way of the momentum in my thoughts. In other words, I really knew that all those who had gone before me in this way had failed, but perhaps this time I would make it work, being a God upon myself, and not let the projection of others about a higher-self phase me.

In other words, it’s like those kinds of mannerisms that people have, that they project, are kind of like an opium of the masses. That’s what religion is. That’s what I concluded, and so even on higher-self levels I concluded that it didn’t necessarily go anywhere. So this attitude, this demeanor, resulted in a battering and stabbing of the heart, knowing that something was going to have to rescue me from my plightful research project.

I knew I was lost and was messing about deliriously, so to speak, as a kind of price of readmission, in which I was going to keep on keeping on until it was proven to me the jig was up.

I’m basically describing how I came about making the Jinn side choice of the breath, and how I pushed the angelic side in the corner. The thought I held onto was that if there was something to the angelic side, it would have to prove itself to me – and I could wait. I would just wait to see.

If it didn’t, it didn’t. It’s not up to me, because I ended up coming out of the Jinn side, so you can’t go back the same way you came down. So I was going to deny the manifested environment. In other words, I find myself in kind of the plane of manifestation, in that environment, and so I wasn’t going to deny that. I was going to just go ahead and be purgatoried into it and give it the opportunity to prove itself.

So I plunged into thought-upon-thought, as if there was a missing piece, or way to find a stillness in the center of it all, when deep down knowing that such efforts would just be for naught, given the fact I was purposely here.

In other words, once I had done it I don’t go back with the same kind of Jinn approach. So it took me a long time to realize that I was always stabbing the heart when I dabbled with reflective thought, this being analogous to how smoke is a veil from the flame. To redeem and forgive, I found this to also be analogous to turning to the flame.

Or, said another way, I found that to truly be in the magnetism of an all-pervading breath I had to be with a heartfulness, free of thought, seeking to abide therein. Apparently I had to go on a sound-level journey into manifestation to consciously realize that the thought plane level is a bifurcation that veils the heart from truly seeing and hearing.

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Heart-2What does it mean to listen to the heart? On a spiritual journey we come to understand that our brain alone cannot get us where we need to go. And that’s an issue, because almost everything in daily life is governed by our use of our brain. But we are a wholeness, not a single organ, and our instincts and intuitions, and our heart, are part of how we need to “feel” our way forward. This has to do with a trust in the unseen, but also the belief that our systems, as a whole, know what is best for us – in terms of doing what we have been designed to do. The more we can listen, and respond, to the intelligence of our wholeness, the more we will live in the flow of energetics. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now what I dealt with, in terms of my meditation dream, was a little bodacious to try to write it up because you can’t really do justice to the subject matter trying to write it up in a couple, three pages.

So I start off with manifestation, in which, as a being, I’m in a slower and more dense condition, and that condition is based upon things having gotten condensed upon what is called the plane of sound. In other words, sound was used, like it’s described in the Bible, out of the word… beginning was the word, and now the word things were created. And it says something similar in terms of how sound was used to create things, out of the Koran. And so we live in something that’s considered dense, but it’s dense because it is sound compressed, which means that light is something way something else, then there’s the sound, and in it, it is compressed. And within the sound might be the higher self, instead of just the lower self, but that’s another story.

So, outwardly, I experience in everything in manifestation a form of sound. Sound is a compressed substance. It’s compressed into a substance that I am able to physically hear, see, touch, whatever with my physical mind and senses – and the mind follows the senses. So manifestation, when experienced as sound, is reflective. It’s reflective to something that is the higher self, that’s more than that, that’s the deep inner, that’s the other side.

In this loci you live out everything that is on the plane of light. You live it out, though, in a condensed format called sound. So hearing and seeing predominates in this outer reflective, but it’s a hearing and seeing with senses that are sound-oriented. They are disassociated, based upon the way the mind senses are, from the true and higher-self light.

And then there is the universe of everything. Within the planes of light there is manifestation, of course, but there’s the planes of light, or the higher self, that embodies this – even though we are stuck in the plane of manifestation, and are sorting out accordingly, and are caught with a physical dense nature that’s in accordance with how manifestation is, or the plane of sound is, and we just call it a lower-self nature. Or I would call it the sound loci octave, and the world’s soul of a manifestation in a sound-oriented octave is, in and of itself, in kind of a dire outer condition state, kind of on a life support, because over time it has gotten to the point where it has lost track, or does not know how to reach, the inner light that’s necessary to shift the lower self on a mind sense orientation to the planes of light.

So in my meditation dream I saw the collective consciousness state as being where sound, and the momentum of condensed sound, is a spellbinding condition maintained by a mind trapped in the five senses. In other words, condensed sound makes the senses.

To access the higher self, such a mind must let go of the reflective five-sense orientation, because what has happened is that the vibration has come down in a way that is traveling farther and farther away from the light, and, in doing so, it spins more and more in terms of trying to figure out something when it has lost the natural aspect that enables it to know.

And so we are kind of left with a few tools to try to play with, you know, in terms of trying to awaken the higher self. Prayer is one, meditation is another, in that they point to something more, but we have such a feeble connection to that because we exist in the manifestation loci in which our senses point out, 99.99% of the time, a certain way of having to function, and if we don’t function that way your body will suffer because it has a physical orientation to this kind of dumbed-down, lower-self nature. So, to begin with, that something more that is more is just deemed to be anotherness that we can’t hold onto, or even see.

Now a means has been devised to try to help bridge the gap more than just through prayer and meditation, and, for the Naqshbandis and the Chistis, they use the dhikr, that is energized, or magnetized, to the breath so that the human being is able to find a way of being energized that is outside of the flickerings of the mind senses.

Or, I call it, the Jinn out-breath because we all are so much bigger than what we realize, and we come down through, and have in our nature have fallen with thought processes that are aspected to the Jinn out-breath, and then we’re taking that and finding that we are playing with thought-upon-thought, as an orientation on the plane of sound, as opposed to light-upon-light. And so we need the light-upon-light to get back to God.

The out-breath that comes down into a reflective denseness finds this lower self, as a plane that it has created with the thought-upon-thought, as a sense orientation which is self-limiting and, as a consequence, because so much of who we really are has been estranged, we go into distress. The distress is accentuated when the heart vies for a greater inner angelic plane experience of light, but can’t find it.

Consequently, if the heart, in our orientation in the manifestation, can’t find it, neither can the so-called world’s soul of manifestation get out of its strange predicaments being on a kind of breaking down because it sits just reflectively, instead of inflectively, to where a change can happen on the plane of light.

And the plane of light is considered a plane of the angelic, so on the in-breath you could even say that, at the higher part of the in-breath, is the angelic, just like you could say on the higher part of the out-breath you go through the thoughts that come up that keep pulling you down, down, down that goes through the Jinn quality.

So the mind senses of the Jinn out-breath must stop and reach a magnetism, or access, because as they’re coming down they lose the magnetism, and the speeded up, and the light and whatnot, from which they come. And when you become dull, and dumb, and asleep enough, you have no idea of what you left behind, and thus the consequence of what has happened is that the light has become hidden in matter and needs to be freed, and that quality of something hidden in matter is considered feminine.

Just like the in-breath is considered feminine, the out-breath is considered masculine. When we learn the magnetism, how to magnetize back, go back to a greater speed, more light, we do that by charging the breath, instead of just taking the breath and letting it be slapped around unconsciously as we fumble about in the plane of manifestation. We have to bootstrap ourselves by developing something that takes us outside of the constant thought process by magnetizing something of the breath, and that magnification takes us back into the plane, and points us back to the plane, of light.

A traveling that finds a home, at the in-breath/out-breath interval, then becomes the cycle of creation, although first you have the traveling away from God as the out-breath, the traveling towards God as the in-breath, the traveling in God when you get to the point where you’re hitting the stillness.

So such a journey takes in all of the levels of our beingness, and frees us to follow the heart that, in the inner, is accentuated more and more by a magnetism in-breath to angelic light freed from the out-breath momentum of thoughts. I mean you go beyond just the angelic, too, because the angelic still is like a light-upon-light in reverence to something, but then there’s the stillness that’s above that. Or, as is commonly said, the place on the breath where the in-breath turns to the out-breath. To be able to go back and forth through the various planes of light and sound is all there is.

Sensation of meditation dream: The sensation is that there is an emptiness in which everything is everything, and it is as it is, and there is no need for more or for less. The heart embraces all there is as being all there is, a soothingly, still peace and rest. Thoughts do not exist. And then I suppose you could say, you know, before the in-breath turns to the out-breath, who knows what that’s like, but along the way there’s a light-upon-light.

Such an exercise is an attempt to use the laws of the heart for guidance.

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