Posts Tagged ‘meditation and dream work’

i22esSo much effort is expended in trying to control things in the outer, yet what we overlook is the concept that if we control ourselves on the inner, the outer will proceed accordingly. This is not control in the way of suppression, but in the way of letting go, and being with, the energetic flow. In the same way that our anger, or stress, can affect the environment around us, so too can our inner calm, and groundedness, allow for an improved unfolding of events. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream I had had the effect of something, in terms of a quality being somewhat different, in relationship to the heart breath, in that I had access within to information that I could use – and I don’t readily access this information.

And so, because I don’t readily access this information, what I was seeing was like being in a vehicle in which, as I’m relating to others, I suddenly fall back with my vehicle, or start going slower, as they continue to keep going at their pace.

What causes that is that I have a tendency, the tendency that I have is I’ve developed this sensitivity that speeds up, but isn’t grounded, because it doesn’t hold, or adhere to, the ability to hold that quality in an appropriate heart breath, and so it doesn’t hold the presence.

And so when it doesn’t hold the presence, it speeds up. It has an insight that seems to be flickering, but it doesn’t bring it through in a succinct way – and so the insightfulness that I have always seems out of reach. It seems out of touch.

It is out of touch as a result, in terms of bringing it through. So what happens is other people who don’t have that kind of quickening to the same degree, as they are going through something can, in terms of a certain way of balance that they see in terms of themselves that they know to be important, they can take and hold to that better – because they don’t have this kind of inner, overly sensitized awareness kind of quickening.

And so the way this continued like this in the dream was, as I energetically would fall back, I am able to focus as an “I am.” In other words, my beingness, groundedness, imbalance, that I know, when I settle back takes the vehicle that becomes disregardable because it speeds up and whatnot, or goes over the top a bit, and enables it to drive right back up to where they are at, and I can, actually, at that point when I am more stabilized, can give them something, can exchange something with them at that time when I am by them.

And then I proceed by and, in proceeding by, holding this condition, I’m able to mirror even more. Isn’t this interesting how that’s done? By holding onto an inner acuity wholeness of being, I can take what is awkward and imbalanced energetically, that is a falling back from others, because even though they might be more speeded up and affected by what’s going on, they are able to handle it, or fall back into a space that handles it, so I catch up because I do somehow or another go within and let go.

And so I go beyond their appearance of a wayward bifurcation, and, in this way, I access more of the natural, soar to heights with inner connective acuity, and propel beyond such a quality of the collective. Apparently this is possibly because I assimilate imbalances in myself, in the environment, with this process which is with the breath. So that’s the meditation dream.

So what is going on is the access I have to a depth within, if you don’t have the magnetized breath over the top of that, it’s unstable, it’s ungrounded, and seemingly imbalanced. And so consequently the energetic flow doesn’t come out into life in a way that others can handle, nor can I pull anything together when I am in this kind of askewness, which is like a shattering because you don’t have the heart breath there.

The reason why you can’t pull anything together and that it is like this is that the vibrational energetic lacks any magnetic alignment to a flow. The kundalini, which is what it is, to put this in another term, comes across as if out of sync.

What was happening was an attempt to cause the heart breath to go deeper, to hold onto something deeper, and we have learned how to take and stare at those various states that one’s in, and, when the heart breath is inclined to go deeper, and you don’t know quite how to hold the abiding, aren’t catching up with it, aren’t sustaining it, you can be askew, not able to sleep, let alone dream.

So also the meaning of the dream is it’s saying that I have an access that affects life in a casual way. In other words, I fall back if my over-sensitization is such it doesn’t come through, but if I hold that quality of the breath then it can affect in a casual way. In a casual way what it does is it enables everything that they’re going through to come through and be okay, and then there is something that tweaks it.

However, that casualness loses its hidden knowingness, and direct access, if I become energetically overwhelmed, in other words, overly speeded up, over the top, and do that as an easibility and fail to realize that that’s just being overly sensitive and mutable – and then it doesn’t ground things.

So the deeper meaning is, when I am able to hold the magnetic of a, we’ll call it dhikr breath, this being a breath that lets go of outer energetic influences, what opens up for grounding purposes, what opens up is this dhikr breath, we call it grounding purposes, accesses to the all-pervasive wholeness in that there is a meaningfulness I am able to reach in an inner into outer way, as a mirroring from within. In other words, you don’t have to say anything if you hold the space. Something in the energetic of your being kind of touches that whole space. It’s done very, very invisibly. You can just sit there and your presence can cause something to be incredible.

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1-780101There have likely been more words written, throughout human history, about spiritual and religious pursuits than about any other subject. And there’s only one reason that would be true: because we’ve lost our innate understanding, and our natural connections, to help us on our way. No form of life requires an instruction book, which is what most religious tracts actually are, because everything needed to fulfill their possibility is already born in them, is already part of their design. Perhaps, then, it is best to trust the system that created us, and to also trust the body, mind, and spirit we have been given to fulfill our birthright. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So it feels like I kind of left pondering the design I could see, of how the sewer was supposed to run, and whether people wanted to try it that way, or try it another way. And then I had a brief dream where it feels like I’m in a house, and I feel like I’m more of a visitor, but I have some laundry I have to get done.

And so I go over, and I don’t know if it’s my mother or just another woman there, or somebody else in the background, the people that live there, they’ve already put in a main load of laundry but there seems to be a little space on top of the laundry machine where I can add in some extra clothes. So I’ve kind of stuffed some clothes in there, and I guess they’re going to fall down into the laundry machine to get washed at some point. That’s the way it works with that laundry.

I also see that I can go next door, or several doors down, and that’s where my cousin and his wife are living; maybe I could try putting some clothes in the laundry down there. But I look at that scenario and then I realize, then, I’d be kind of running back and forth between even two or three houses, because there’s several other laundry machines around. It’s probably better for me to stay on the one and see if this is going to work out, or not, so I would be there to take them out when they needed to be taken out. And then it feels like I go back to looking at the four line dots, and how they get hooked up again.

John: So what you’re doing is, again, when you’re trying to take and hook up all these dots and whatnot, you’re doing something in kind of an aloneness way. And when you’re taking and you’re looking at how everything intertwines, in other words, where you can take and go out into life and play with things in an intertwined capacity, in other words, putting laundry in that all mixes up with the laundry that’s there and whatnot, the only way that you know how to do that, the only way that you can naturally do that, is if you hold a particular quality, depth note, depth space inside of yourself where that innerness is able to then flow.

You could do all of that as part of a listening to an inner flow, an inner quality, and you can take and mix the clothes up, put clothes in there and go into a very complicated scenario in which you could have your ideas about what would be an answer, just like you could have your ideas about how to play with those dots, but it’s better to have a vibratory sense and try to permeate that into the atmosphere. And when you do that, then everything can fall into an order.

You don’t have to be the person that bicycles this way and that way to figure things out. It’s not going to work that way. The human condition is important from the standpoint that the human condition is something that we embody, and that we carry, and we don’t take this human condition as if it’s off to one side and try to steer it back into things. What we do is we just accept the human condition as it is, automatically, almost like in an osmosis of the overallness. The only way to do that is to adhere to something inside one’s self that sweeps a vibration.

All of these things come together: the prayer comes together with the meditation, because you’re kind of in a constant state of prayer, you’re in a constant state of meditation, you can be in a constant state of dhikr – which is a holding of something energized. But you kind of work at those as if there’s those three things that lead to the fourth, which is the wholeness, in which all of that comes together, and so you’re going back, you’re trying to take a step back, in your dreams, to try to find your way, so to speak, in terms of how to be – and you’re not allowed to do that without getting lost.

Jeane: Then it felt like the very last dream I had, when I fell back to sleep this morning, I’m in the same section of houses, the three houses that seemed not too far from each other. And, in the main one, it feels like I’m trying to find clothes now. Maybe the clothes have been washed, but I’m trying to find some clothes to wear for where I have to go.

And then I look in different places, because some clothes have been pressed and are neat, and some clothes they look neat but they’ve been worn before, and I’m trying to decide, like some of the clothes that have been worn before they don’t need pressing, but I do know they’ve been worn and they haven’t been washed yet. But they could be put on right away, but would that be appropriate to wear to the place where I’m going? Because I have to go back to a school, or somewhere, and I’m not sure. That would be the fastest, but there’s other clothes that I have washed, but are they pressed enough? I have to go look at them, and I think that was what I was dreaming when the alarm went off.

John: So in this dream you were spending most of your time trying to figure out how to attire yourself?

All of that still is working with the same energetic motif, or vibration, of a spirit energy, in which you’re trying to ascertain or sort something out in relationship to the overall.

At one particular point it was probably a pretty interesting step to be able to see the Ley lines, or the vibration lines, and then to see the depth of things included in the overallness – and how you could delve into that. But what happened is you developed a pattern in which you didn’t just delve into that with the right vibration. In other words, it’s like which comes first, the chicken or the egg? You’ve got to hold the vibration. You’ve got to hold the sense, and then it’s all there. And so you don’t quite have the right sense, and so you’re trying to figure something out in the first dream.

In the second dream, you’re still trying to figure out how to blend the clothes together, as opposed to realizing you could just throw them in and hold a particular space and they will all come together, in other words, having a trust in terms of a quality of how it is that you’re able to feel something in a manner of reverence.

That way you’re adhering to this inner, as it is in the outer, because the outer place is it can flow, is for it to flow in. And, in the last dream, instead of you having a sense that automatically knows, that dresses according to the vibration that you automatically feel, you’re trying to steer the vibration around to help you make distinctions in relationship to what would be appropriate as an attire.

And the thing that doesn’t jar other people is when you hold the invisible quality of this vibration behind the breath, and when you hold a quality of light, or softness, of the prayer meditative state of yourself, that doesn’t jar other people. What jars other people is when you’re caught up and bicycling around in your way, as they’re bicycling around in their way.

This just kind of leaves something in kind of a general overallness that can leave them a little bewildered, because they don’t get the edification necessarily that they seek. And if you’re trying to attire yourself to what they would like to see, then you’re very close to having to appeal to the edification of what it is that they seek as well, and you’re not able to hold this quality, and this space. It’s the only real thing going on. The rest of it is all kind of a waywardness.

So what your dreams were doing was showing you how you would step back. The process that happens is we have trapped in our synapses patterns, and mannerisms, that we readily fall back upon. And you can be speeded up to a particular point, but then it can be over the top – just like it takes awhile to make a soul pregnant, or however that expression is – you then find yourself, when you take a step back, you find yourself then where you come to see where you resort to how you sort it out – as opposed to realizing that there doesn’t have to be any sorting out on your part. It’s already sorted out. You can trust in the system, so to speak.

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0022xxsMostly we think of ourselves as feeling “normal,” or as feeling tired, but we actually are changing speeds all the time. Sometimes we are the tailgater, other days we are the meandering driver. It’s good to have an awareness of our speeds, particularly in relation to the people closest to us, because they will have shifting speeds, too, which will affect one person’s ability to relate to the other person. And, in our spiritual journey, we are also learning to incorporate the quicker speeds of higher energy into our system in a balanced way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I had to look at this in terms of having to look at it as an overall spatiality. I have to look at the polarities, the ends. In other words as if, in a masculine way, you’re still looking at something going from one point to another point – instead of just holding an overall space.

The stillness and the holding of the overall space is really where it’s at, on some level, but the masculine way still flaunts about. That’s its nature, just like the feminine acts like it’s being left behind, or rejected, in some fashion.

So, in the meditation dream, because of the way my Kundalini energy was speeded up at the party that was in the building here, and during a very engaging day with our water leak and all of that stuff, it actually solved itself interestingly when one didn’t get thrown asunder. So I was having trouble, in the meditation, of quieting myself and I decided to lie down to see if that would make a difference – and that’s when an amazing thing happened.

Once in a while I’d have to do something to break up a pattern, or routine, and the only thing I know how to do, when I’m not just going somewhere, is to sometimes lie down or change my position. And, when I changed my position, I was still attentive to a focus, the idea of a focus of a letting go, and so suddenly I was dreaming that I was paying attention to an energetic focus in which I left the raciness in one place, and focused on a pointedness of being still. Almost as if there’s the arrow inside of myself as the prime directive, an arrow to the stillness, and yet a link and connection to the raciness yet.

In other words, almost as if I was feeling the polarities, and the result was a sense of both places I guess is where you’d say that. I had a sense of what I was leaving behind, the Kundalini energy, and there was the adherence to a thread that delved into the letting go.

Normally, if you go into a letting go, you’re in a letting go and all of that other is gone, and then something emerges out of the letting go and that’s your meditation dream. But, in this case, it was like an experience in which I had a sense of both places yet, which means that the depth of letting go is compromised because of the nature of which the senses had come alive in the outer.

And I observed the thread of letting go as if I was looking at myself lying there in a quandary, and the experience was profound because my natural awareness was enhanced by the focus that I could see and what I was like in an uncontrollable aliveness, out of control subject to getting lost in an outer flow. In other words, both states were experiential.

In other words, when you get carried away and speeded up in the outer it’s easy where you get too over the top, yet I’m aware of a type of stillness that I was able to maintain a kind of auric spatiality of beingness, that I was able to maintain yesterday. And so, in the dream now, I’m looking at it from the inner. You might say this outer was like a scenario that points to what that is like in terms of a depth from within.

Now what I found profound in observing this is that, even though I may not have gone somewhere real profound to the degree of where you let go and you’re just gone; I mean it’s not like I wasn’t gone. I let go, and then I was aware of this other. Normally I’m not aware of anything when I let go, and I could appreciate the letting go, and the essence of an excitable inflating fire and air energy being able to put this into an attentive spatiality.

So what is going on is I am able to be in the inner and the outer if I hold deeply to the thread of singular focus letting go. In other words, I can do that in a letting go. Now what I’m talking about is what it is like when the senses in the outer are afire, and then directed to stop. When the Kundalini energy is taken on in full force, and then brought to arrest, it is possible to be able to note the expanse as a spatiality – which is opposite of getting consumed by an out of control outer vibrationalism.

So the meaning is, to bring inner into outer in a meaningful way it is necessary to take in the outer vibratoriness and, in doing so, place it into the heart as an experience of inner stillness. In doing so, I am breathing the outer senses as a Kundalini energy to be absorbed as an inner space of heart stillness.

In other words, the outer is louder, it invokes and follows a lot of the mental reflective and all of that side, and it’s denser, and then the heart is stiller and subtler. This is done in the outer when the engaged energetic senses fire up, then are breathed in as an in-breath light.

The opposite condition, in other words, to point out what it’s like to talk about it as a density, the opposite condition is to pay attention to and react to the outer senses, compelling the heart to shrink defensively, you know that’s when you go stupid. But I am able to be truly vulnerable by not having to react in this human condition pattern when I am able to exact an inner focus of stillness as the in-breath takes in the liquid light of a divine sense array.

The result is a joyful dance like inner exhilaration in that in this in-breath so much gets healed. Everything around you gets healed when you do that. That is what awakening to the intertwined wholeness is all about.

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