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The masculine perspective, in dreams, often deals with the smaller details of situations, compared to the feminine perspective, which often relates to the overall nature of a situation. Here, John has an image involving changing trains, yet in making this inner shift, he finds himself disconnecting from the flow.

(At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: We are kind of on a theme in which even the dreams that we’ve had before have led us up to kind of like this point of unfoldment, in which there is a captivation to the essence that lies behind what is normally just a projection.

And for most people it still remains just a projection to which they identify within an outer context, but for me there are particularities that may now seek, to access or reach, in order to come to grips with this inner meaningfulness.

And in your dream (see The Big Fish), you’re shown it in a general context, and in the general context you’re seeing how you’re doing in relationship to the expansive wholeness that you are meant to catch up with and embody. And in your dream what you’re seeing isn’t yet complete. It’s formative.

That’s best portrayed by the final image, but even in the images leading to the final image, it’s the final image is the clearest because I have the familiarity to what a fish means, and over and over again it seems to have this universal symbolism of a consciousness, or an awakening.

And so you can take the fish that you see, okay here comes the consciousness symbolism, and how that symbolism looks or comes across in terms of you. And you can see the surprise and the shock of you noting that, and then appreciating that in relationship to finding it behind, or within, the essence, as an essence to what is ordinarily just a reflective image. And yet there it is as something more significant to come to grips with or to just take in. Your dream has that whole outer context.

In my case, I’m trying to deal with the inner. I have to address little things that keep me from quite getting it, or from staying in sync with it, which again is the more masculine nature – the particularities. You have the generalness of the overallness, and I have like a particularity to the same subject.

This dream begins with me seeking to be a person who gets off a train and onto another train, because the train I had been on, which provided a nice casual ride, now something has shifted in which the next train has particular other qualities that I have to take more responsibility for, and I have to access directly.

And I have a whole sense of that, but that doesn’t mean that I have the stability and balance for it to happen. And so what happens is I see myself move up to where the door is, and before it is announced where it’s perfectly safe to get off, or everyone can now leave, it’s kind of like you have in an airplane where you’re not supposed to get out of your seat until something gives you the notice that you can do so, or otherwise you’re being rude or inappropriate to the way something is supposed to unfold.

Well, that’s kind of what’s going on here is that I’ve moved up to the door before it’s timely, and then I even push through the door to try to get an edge in terms of finding a seat on the next train and, in doing so, I don’t realize that I am out of sync with the flow, and a naturalness from within.

On this train there are seats that connect you to kind of an inner unfoldment as you ride. Once one gets off on a tangent like that, even though I have a sense of what it is that I need to recognize, I can’t find them. I can’t identify them.

And yet here I am jumping on this train early. It’s as if somehow there are others that have gotten still ahead of me in some capacity, or if I do see seats, I’m continuously looking for something that’s in a different rail car, or something that’s better, or more succinct. And I end up finding myself in this condition, or state, or mood, or mannerism, that I’m carrying, which has gotten exasperated, and not found a seat at all.

The reason for a dream like this is to show that in one capacity or way inside of myself I am able to recognize how there is kind of an interesting way that something unfolds, and that you can connect with that and be fed by that.

But then at the same time, when you get to indulging in the importance of that, as if you have something to say about that or need to adopt a higher degree of control or peculiarity in relationship to the unfoldment, as if there are things in the outer that can get in the way, and so now you’re taking what had been perfectly fine as an inner essence and now putting a seriousness spin on it in terms of outer reflections.

What this does is this throws you off. It throws you kind of on a tangent. And once you get on this tangent, you don’t shake it. And you project this tangent upon other people. And you could sit there and deep down in some state you can know that this is how you would have liked to have done it, and wanted to feel, but you can’t because you went off on an indulgence instead of just staying in the inner flow.

So as a consequence you’re now communicating that reflective imbalance, and if you really look at it it feels horrible, but also at the same time it’s a type of clutchiness. It’s a type of grabbing. This is what tends to cause this sort of thing to suddenly pop up.

You can know the flow. You know that it’s there but you could be repeating over and over again, that the fact that you’re acting out a reflective mannerism – as if it can affect or do something to the inner flow – instead of being in a state in which there is an emptiness and a letting go feeling that has this auric trust and wholeness from which whatever unfolds is what is meant to be.

As opposed to suddenly getting to the point where you catch up with the fact that there was the flow, like this other train, and then now all of a sudden you have to take on a more engaged relationship to that because you have caught the flow, and now you’re in a reflective outer, and now you’re trying to put two and two together.

And when you function like that, that is when you start to become disoriented. That’s when you’re blinking, as if the outer actually has a consequence over the inner – and it never does. It’s you trying to take and do a deviation as if that’s important; taking something and drawing out of it that which isn’t there, imagining that which isn’t there, glowing too much in outer circumstances and having reactions according to those outer circumstances – inside.

And then eventually getting to a point where whatever those reactions are rub off on you, and so you emote that. You hate the fact that you’re emoting that, but you can’t stop yourself. This actually then keeps you from being in tune with that essence that you can just be flowing with, and feeling, and carrying, and transmitting, and watching it from a withinness, do its creative magic or creative thing. The degree to which you carry some imbued trait of tangentiality is the degree to which you compromise that. And it feels horrible, but you do it.

I wrote up a kind of meaning to it that might help too, because it’s a dream about indulging: to do so is to kill the magic and to get in the way of the natural flow. I’ve been fortunate to have been on a train that got me to this point with a flow that I was able to enjoy. Now I am shifted as a next step to a new train.

I carry an energetic entitlement. I’ve taken on this energetic entitlement that has me imposing myself without the composure and graciousness I know is imperative to my wellbeing. To do so doesn’t work, because while you’ve taken on this awkwardness – it is not about me. Yet you’re somehow making it more like you have a piece of the action or something. I will not find the inner into outer connection if I violate the natural inner trust that acts from, and for, a natural inner knowingness.

What the dream is doing is causing me to see how my raciness keeps the natural linkage and flow from unfolding, and takes me away from the inner into outer recognition I need to be abiding in.

Of course as a scenario you could say that I find myself in a state of subtle desperation, and in doing so I lack the usual graciousness I normally carry in my aura. And once you get off like that you tend to stay off and be on a spin, which is away from the inner path. You then, in terms of reflections, reflect that as a denseness, instead of the inner quality that keeps things joyful around you and happening.

And I was unnaturally sharp with people. You get a unnaturally sharp with people, which isn’t one’s actual nature but depicts and points out that you have allowed this raciness vibe, or something that’s pressing you, to take that on as if that is actually real.

And then that vibe gets imbued into things and causes a loss to occur, which becomes a blockage, or a veil, or an attitude that stands between the inner flow, with the appreciation and naturalness, which is imperative in this phased way of compressing to seeing the inner flow in its importance.

Before I just needed to be on the train, now I’m required to hear this a little more succinctly, trust in its meaningfulness, and take care to not get off on the wrong foot and end up imposing an outer pattern. For me to be who I am meant to be, I must remain attentive to the natural inner unfoldment.

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Today we continue our look at the dreams Jeane described in The Unawakened.

John: So, the first dream began in a dark and desolate place, with you driving around in circles, not getting anywhere. In the second image we see that something has awakened, which is depicted as the baby, and you can either get closer to that or not.

We humans have that freedom of choice. This image is showing that, imbedded deep within you, an aspect of you knows that there’s something more to life than the surface reality. And something has awakened that knowing. Then, the question becomes, will you respond to it, i.e., will you keep this newborn baby?

Humans aren’t required to respond to the call of Creation. If we were, we’d be no better off than programmed robots. So we are given the right to choose to be a part of what is ongoing, or not. In the dream, you’re wrestling with this decision.

Interestingly, in the first image you were driving in circles in a dark landscape, which depicts a robotic life as well. In trying to decide, you begin to deal with a person who is like a robot, assembled of different parts and who needs to be put back together, right?

Jeane: He’s recently been put back together and I’m helping to stabilize things.

John: This deeper part of you has awakened to the fact that the situation around you is not what it appears – it’s a wholeness, not a separation. You realize that you’ve lost a natural connection, so you’re trying to use your limited faculties, plus this quality of the heart that you’ve reached, in order to sort things out, in order to stabilize something or bring something back to life.

So, you’re clawing your way back through the illusion that, in and of itself, is like something that’s desolate and dark, in which you had few faculties with which to deal with it. You were living a robotic-type life.

Suddenly you developed some faculties of an aliveness within, and from that aliveness you’ve come to have realizations that can regain wholeness from separation. You’re on the verge of turning the mechanical man back into a human being (getting him dressed and ready for the outside world). That’s what happens when we choose to honor our human purpose in life: we shift from a robotic, animal-level existence, up to a true human existence.

Of course, that’s where the dream stops. But, if you continue this whole process, you’ll come to link up with an energetic flow that’s behind everything that exists.

It’s the flow that’s real, and in connecting to it, you begin to find out who you really are. I suppose you’re given this opportunity as a way to see just how miserable it is when you don’t have this connection to the aliveness in all of life.

When it’s awakened and alive, then everything can be understood for how it is, as opposed to it being dark and cold as an image that’s devoid of any inner meaning. But you’ve found the depth of the inner meaning and from that you’re able to hear and to listen to that which is meant to be, or to that which is real.

You could say that this is a dream that points out that you’re more than what you think you are. At one point in time you may not have been aware that you had this inner connection and linkage to all that there is, from which you then could nurture or give birth or create or bring about changes in life.

You learn to find the bits and pieces of what is real, you learn to sense the inflections, the hints. To begin with they’re just little bitty inflections and little bitty insights, little flashes or something that hits, because the rest of the time the senses kind of keep you disoriented in terms of an identification with the outer.

Of course, if all you’re capable of doing is identifying yourself in the outer world and you have none of this other awakened inside, i.e., you choose to give up the baby, you’d be back to the very beginning in which something is inanimate in terms of its realness; it’s desolate and dark.

Isn’t that an interesting dream?

Essentially what your dream is telling you is that if we don’t have that cognition inside, how is it possible for us to really understand anything? Otherwise, we just identify with something that’s empty and devoid of meaning.

Unfortunately, this is kind of true for most people out there in life, although they usually have some inkling that there’s something more and, from this something more, they rally around religions and whatnot.

But they do so in a way that has the meaningfulness of the religion conceptualized, and they can actually become dangerous because, if you throw something at them that disorients them from their concepts, they’ll have to fight. They’ll have to crusade. They’ll have to do something to maintain their power and control over their concepts.

You’ve got people like that, who have such a faint, faint echo of light inside them, but that’s the best that they can get. In your particular case though, this has taken on an aliveness so you’re able to work with the whole of things, because of this ability to link to this part deep inside, and that’s a pretty profound step to take.

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John: In my dream, I look at myself and see that my demeanor is changing to a more set way of being. I’ve stopped and I’m looking at myself the way I’m going to be a week from now, or a month from now. I’m surprised by what I see. I expected to be changing to a more carefree demeanor, but what I see is that I’m getting more set in my ways.

Deep down I know that this isn’t the way I’m meant to be. I’m able to faintly recognize, repressed within, what I consider a meaningful and open state in terms of a beingness. However, in the outer, I see no sense of the openness, joy, or free flow that I believe to be important for my overall wellbeing.  

Instead I’ve become more rigid in my demeanor and less fluid in my expression. I take this image seriously because what I see suggests that if I continue withholding, over time I’ll become more withdrawn. What I’ve admired about myself, in my heart’s eye, seems to have gotten repressed.

Interesting, right? It’s said that a human being is like a chameleon who can adapt to their environment. If the environment is closed off, though, we tend to change to accommodate it. But it doesn’t have to be that way. Deep down we know a better way of being.

The purpose of a dream like this is to cause me to take note of how I’m reflecting my surroundings. But I’m meant to take responsibility for what I bring into life, not to subordinate myself to the ways of the outer world just to be comfortable in, or to fit, my environment.

The outer, waking life, is an environment that’s removed from what’s real; I can still see deep within a greater freedom compared to how I’m becoming outwardly.

That’s the first dream.

The second dream doesn’t get any better, but it is more poignant.

I see myself in a warehouse, feeling out of place. The space is filled with machines that look like lathes and punch presses. I see two men working on the machines and one man is congratulating the other for getting it right. I know that I have no idea how to operate them.  

Then I realize that I’ve been in a room for quite some time and I’m not sure what I’ve been doing – looking at a computer or something. But I’m not staying busy. Part of me tries to justify this, but I can’t because I’m there for a reason and that calls for me to be able to do certain things. I’m wondering what’s happened to the boss, and why he hasn’t wondered where I’ve been. He hasn’t seen me and I haven’t seen him.  

I mean, something’s got to take charge of things and yet I’m left to hang out. I look at the room I’m in: it’s small and very dirty. There’s dirt in the corners and even weeds growing up through the concrete floor.

I realize that part of my reason for being there is to keep things clean. I find some gloves and put them on, but I’m not going to pull the weeds. I need to sweep up, so I have to find a push broom. I find a broom handle but no broom head. I’m walking and thinking that if the boss comes he’ll see that I’m trying.  

In an isolated part of the warehouse I find a push broom, but it’s worn out. The thought crosses my mind that maybe this business has fallen on hard times and that my job might even be in question as well.

As I start to leave this area, at a loss for what to do, I decide to go back and get the beat up old push broom. But now I can’t even find it.

I turn around to leave and another worker starts rummaging around where I’ve just been and he pulls out a push broom that’s fine. The shock of seeing this is like a wakeup call. I’m so taken aback that I jolt awake.

Meaning: I’m not being how I’m meant to be in the place where I am – in this life, on this earth. I’ve quit doing what I need to do and the environment has gotten dirty. Weeds are growing where weeds don’t belong. It’s as if I’ve been left in this place on my own for too long.

I need to start doing what I’m meant to – on my own. I don’t need to be told. I can see what’s needed. I’m not properly focused. If I were, I would find the right tools to do what’s required.

This points to the idea that on an inner level, we all know that there’s something else we should be doing, rather than just conforming to the culture. Humans are here for a much greater reason, but most of us don’t acknowledge that fact. It’s an inconvenient truth. That’s why there’s often a vague feeling of being adrift, or lost, in our lives. These dreams are trying to get me back on track.

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