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John: The thread from yesterday’s dream (see Time and Space) is interesting in light of our shift from the northwest to Vegas. What Vegas represents, more than almost any other place, is the removal of a kind of tightness (which generally translates into lack of inhibition).

In the northwest, perhaps due to the weather and the rain, etc, people hold themselves in a more separate way, and they struggle to maintain that sense of separation. It’s like that, too, in harsher environments even further north.

But Vegas as a place does, for whatever reason, accommodate what’s in the surrounding environment. Maybe it has to do with the naturalness of the sunshine. However you might describe it, it has reached some accommodation.

Thus, what goes on here can reach some sort of zenith, in terms of its expression, because there isn’t the clear-cut rejection or dampening of a process. It’s a much more naturally evolving process and, because of that, it allows for the intertwining between person and place, and between inner and outer.

It’s cute to make the statement “What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas,” because somehow or other, when we go back home, we feel the need to put back on all of the veils again, and all of the separation, and all of the mannerisms that have to do with how we see ourselves in life – in a separate and unique capacity.

Being in Vegas is like stepping outside those barriers, for a moment in time. Actually, as I spend more time here, I realize that I communicate differently. I don’t hide things about myself as much as I do in the Pacific Northwest. I allow myself to be more open and social because I don’t sense that people are involved in the usual pigeonholing that goes on elsewhere.

Here, people have learned to flow more naturally. In the Pacific Northwest, you have to hold your cards close to your chest because everything is, in an outer capacity, weaponized. In Vegas, it is what it is. Therefore, if you’re open, you can find a free flow more easily, more readily, and you can intertwine with people more naturally by just being who you are.

When we allow our true selves freedom, then other qualities inside us (ones closer to who we really are) are able to communicate without us having to say anything. It just occurs.

In the northwest, it doesn’t work that way. There will be a moment of contrast, followed by a light-bulb moment where something can pop through the contrast. It’s as if you have to shake or jar things loose.

In Vegas, you just try to go along with the flow and you’ll find that the other just happens naturally, in its intertwined mannerism, because the atmosphere accommodates it. It’s interesting to be able to see that.

You were dreaming about reconciling some quality or characteristic, in a way that’s open and receptive to seeing people who were not on the schedule, who were, on some level, meant to be taken care of by someone else. So in your dream you’re realizing that you’re not bound by the usual time and space parameters that you usually adopt.

Was there more?

Jeane: Just this last image: Before we started going over our dreams I had an image where I was standing to the side of a walkway. It seemed like a walkway in one of the casinos. It wasn’t like I saw gambling, but I saw the carpeted hallway.

I’m standing to the side and I glance over and a small yellow sports car, like a Mini Cooper, is coming past me down the carpeted walkway and it has a license plate that says “Bismillah.”

John: What’s that mean?

Jeane: It’s an Arabic term. I think it’s: “In the name of Allah,” or “In the name of God.”

John: So it’s a type of letting go, or personal surrender, isn’t it?

And it’s the opposite of what occurs when people encounter something different and distinct in, say, the northwest (as a contrast to the Vegas environment.) They tend to be upset by it, or angered by it, or disturbed by it. That’s usually the first reaction.

Here in Vegas people tend to just let things drop, because otherwise they could be overwhelmed by all the energy and the over-the-top nature of things happening around them. People in Vegas realize that what’s happening all over the place just is what it is. They don’t need to hide from it.

To a degree people do cloister themselves here, but not as the dominant expression. The dominant expression is one that enables a person to be more naturally natural, as opposed to trying to figure out how to be natural. In that sense, something great is possible here that we don’t see in other places.

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John: I think it’s worth continuing the discussion from yesterday (see Full of Myself) because it’s such a fundamental and important topic. What we are delving into is the constant battle we face, as humans, to let go of our personal expectations – our vision of how things should be – and to see life as it really is, in all of its multifaceted outplay.

So to recap the dream images, the best way I can describe them is that I would see something that was easy to define, easy to look at, and then I would consider how those images left me feeling. The simple images may have allowed me to feel safe, in the sense that nothing was being challenged, yet at the same time they left me feeling stifled, never really knowing what was going on because they were too cut and dried.

Then I was also seeing images in which there were three, four, five – who knows how many – possibilities and combinations, and with those I couldn’t feel comfortable. I couldn’t dumb them down to fit my worldview.

And it was the more complex images that, when accepted by me, enabled me to take something into account in a greater way. They were all intertwined, and I understood that they had to be intertwined, rather than minimizing them in order for me to feel more comfortable with myself.

In being forced to accept the multiplicity of images, knowing that they all fit and had something to do with what was really going on, I saw myself developing an ability to see the greater truth that is always available to us. I had a sense of the past, the present, and the future – especially in terms of what was designed to unfold.

We human beings cannot easily sit by in situations that confront us with circumstances that seem overwhelming. We can’t help but try to control the situation, or make choices, in ways that soothe our sense of wellbeing; when we do that, we deny things (information) that we don’t understand.

When we feel that sense of being overwhelmed, or that feeling of discomfort, we have one of two choices: we can either get away from it because it’s too chaotic to assimilate, or we can somehow allow ourselves to go with it and, in the process, gain access to a greater dimensionality.

Take, for example, our move to Las Vegas. It would be very easy to dismiss this city just because of its reputation and all that comes with it. Yet to do so would be to reject what is the underlying cause that has given this space in the desert an energy that is known worldwide.

The simple view would be to think that gambling and casinos are what give Las Vegas its energy – its pizzazz. But it’s really the fundamental energy of this place that allows it to happen. It’s unlikely that this city could have succeeded, in such a way, anywhere else.

So to dismiss it outright is to cut us off from the underlying energy that gives it life. A more complex view would say that there’s something more deeply significant going on here that draws people from around the world.

Examining these dreams has helped me to understand what it means to be more inclusive. In the simple dream images I felt some security, and dismissing Las Vegas as a place to live because of a simple view of it would have the same effect – I’d be closing myself off to the greater possibilities that brought us here in the first place.

So when we “bottom line” things that we encounter in life, we likely gain a fleeting sense of security – we risk less. In taking into account the multiplicity of life, we may feel momentarily confused, but in that scrambled condition we can develop the sight to perceive, and take in, and understand things that aren’t possible when we’re functioning only according to our own personal judgments and biases.

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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

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