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Why do we get angry? Well, there are surely thousands of books to explain this, but at its core isn’t it a disconnection from a flow – whatever flow we might be on? So much anger seems to arise from being stopped from where we want to go, whether that place is an emotion, or a resolution, or an accomplishment, or a relationship, or a connection. Perhaps it is disconnection that is the trigger, because something in our system naturally doesn’t want to be disconnected. This might be useful to keep in our conscious awareness. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The theme of the dreaming has to do with getting cut off from the stillness. Well, the meditation dream, and getting cut off, was the result of an accentuated conduct based upon me reacting and carrying on the other day like if I did, for all to see. An accentuated conduct that cast a spell upon my heart, that was the result of a reaction that was purposefully disrespectful, because I had my righteousness.

So, in this dream, I find myself taking a test in which there are 10 questions. I have four hours to complete the test. The test is based upon a natural, inner, heartfelt knowingness. I do the first seven questions in about two hours before I reach a point where I am cut off from what is naturally known. I’ve taken this test before and not gotten very far; the time would run out. This time, I have three questions left in about one and three-quarter hours; in other words, it took me just a shade over two hours to do the first seven just based upon an innerness that just knew.

So I have about one and three-quarter hours left to do the final three questions. I’ve also been given the Book of Life to refer to. I haven’t needed to use the Book of Life for the first seven questions because I have made that journey; I don’t have to go through the reflective repeating and this, that, and the other. There’s no veiling: the access was direct. 

But now, with these next three questions, I’ve reached kind of what was meant to be, so to speak, I’ve gotten to the point now where I will have to contend with where I am still stuck to catch up with those answers.

I don’t know if this is possible in the approximately one and three-quarter hours that remain for those three questions, even though the first seven were done in two hours. In other words, I’ve reached the point where something is veiled in regards to those three questions, in terms of my awareness, or connection, my access to the stillness, behind the journey, outside of the journey, or the Book of Life that is the manifestation of things. 

So I must do my best, and I’m about to adopt the viewpoint that this isn’t possible, when out of the corner of my eye I notice that you just finished, so it proves it can be done.

So the significance of the dream is, you might say, it has this quality of being able to note, feel, and hopefully let go. Those are like challenges for stillness to be there. However, if one is caught on the breath, in terms of some intensity, or rigidity, or righteousness, that stuns the overall oneness from mirroring out of the heart. Thus, stillness is lost.

When shut off from the stillness, you then get caught up in having to endure reflective patterns that accentuate a quality of hopelessness and bewilderment. So, in other words, you’re caught on the journey, some aspect within the journey – it’s on the breath.

This dream and meditation somewhat redeemed me from most, but not all, of the anguish associated with not fully adhering to the stillness of it all. I must walk through the door, so to speak, or not. That is my choice, it seems, at this point. 

In other words, I can tell how much I’ve been pulled out of this quality that I fell so deep in, but I can easily see myself go back into it again, too. It’s almost like I reserve the right to be outrageous, outrageously reckless. Or thus to repeat and repeat the same old patterns still holding me back – which are dumb and demeaning. So it’s almost like this is resulting in a type of seeing that is much like: what shall it be?

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