Posts Tagged ‘one with god’

Jeane: In the earliest dream, I live in a building that has an enormous space around it. The building is circular and the space around it feels circular, or, at least, semicircular. Within that semicircle there is an inner circle where I live or walk around.

There are a number of tables set. Somehow it can be coordinated that a meal is available at any time. I seem fascinated by this. I don’t know quite how the system works for everybody that lives there, but it does seem to work. I don’t know how it’s coordinated.

John: What this dreaming is revealing is that, in the past, when you used to look at how the energetics felt in a certain area or place, you would sit and you would say, “ This feels good, or I like this area and I don’t like that area.”

In other words, it’s almost as if you were identifying with the spirit of the place. When you do it like that, you’re trying to catch up with something or trying to realize something that you needed that was in the environment that corresponded to something inside you.

Now the tables are set differently. You conceivably have gotten to the point where you can see some part of you at a higher heart center to it all, and that everything around you is like a great big building, a round circular building and the tables are set and you have an awareness to that. You’re observing it differently now – you’re a part of it, rather than feeling separate from it.

In the past the awareness you might have about a time, place, or people was almost as if things were generic – meaning you could appreciate what you observed as if it was in that particular place in that particular way. Now what you observe is a receptivity within a place, and you see inside yourself an identification to this greater innerness. And the tables are set around you for that innerness to infuse with it.

The way I tend to look at this – what I call a spirit energy or an innerness that just radiates out – is flipped now. I remember talking to a spiritual teacher about an energetic in the area in which we live, and I asked if we should try to form a relationship with it. The way he fidgeted about I realized that, “No, I am the energy of the place.”

So, a person is meant to catch up with their own energy in relationship to a place. At first you can denote where certain areas feel better in the outer. For example, when the teacher was in Boulder, Colorado he realized something about him could touch that environment more easily than in NYC, for example. As he put it, which was more in the outer sense, what goes on in NYC is denser and Boulder is more receptive. Another way of saying it is that there’s a greater similitude, or connection, that he’s able to relate to, or to touch, or to note in Boulder.

What you’re dreaming… you have turned the tables now in terms of a certain sense that you have in life. You can sense that you feel something as an epicenter, and you can see the tables, or energetics, as if it’s part of one great big circle, and you can tell there’s a greater depth that resonates out.

It’s like the idea that when you’re walking in the casino (in Vegas) you can hear the jackpots going off and the peculiar thought is, to what degree is that happening just because you’re walking by? It leaves you with an interesting sensation. It’s as if some part of you is making something happy, or tweaking something, just by being there.

Perhaps the jackpots happen in relation to the need or expectation of someone else? It’s a crazy thought but it’s not completely untrue. Obviously one cannot do it for themselves – as our little episode of gambling with one or two dollars showed. That was miserable. I just shrank in that; I lost some sort of essence in even bothering to see what was going to happen in that regard.

It’s subtle, but what we radiate affects our surroundings. The environment around us affects us as well, but it’s an intertwined relationship between the inner and the outer, not a one-way street. So the dream is pointing to a greater integration with the environment – in the sense of being joined with it rather than an observer who feels a stranger in it.

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John: So from your dream yesterday, and now into mine, the ongoing theme is about developing oneself to adjust according to what is unfolding (for yesterday’s discussion, see Another Dimension). That’s very different to the way most of us behave, because we are accustomed to always being headstrong and coming at life in a way that we imagine it’s supposed to be. That headstrong, ego-based approach is, of course, due to our cultural conditioning, i.e., personal experience, education, family life, and social norms.

My dream starts off with me having to contend a bit with my conditioning. The feeling I have is that I’m in a scenario that is far more than I’m used to experiencing. This is pushing my senses to an extreme, which is out of character in terms of how I normally see myself. There is a feeling in the dream that everything is over the top. In other words, my defense mechanisms actually make me think that I know what’s going on.   

The problem, however, is that how things are “supposed” to be, in the living organism of this universe, is actually dictated according to the flow. I am (we are all) more hardwired into this flow than I (we) care to realize. I’ve forgotten it because I have held onto my internal buffers.

These buffers are, of course, defense mechanisms, and without them I have to contend with the aliveness of life more directly. In the dream I saw that as so outrageous that it was unnerving. So it made me feel disoriented.

In the next dream a question was raised regarding what is to going happen. Someone asks the question in relationship to something in the outer: they ask, “Is the stock market going to go up or down?”

It’s like they’re taking a poll to see how different people react. Those who feel more defensive think the stock market is scary and could easily come crashing down. In other words, they fear they will get hurt.

I break through the issue by saying it’s going to go up. There are a whole group of people standing around (including your dad) who agree. But rather than just leaving it as a matter of opinion, it’s important to understand why it’s is going to go up, so I say that it’s determined by one thing: either the money supply – the supply of currency – is going to increase, which is inflationary, and will send the market up, or it’s going to decrease, which is deflationary, in which case the market is going to go down.

So what are these dreams really about? In both sets of images I’m examining how things are meant to unfold. To see things from that vantage point is to get away from personal involvement or personal opinion. I’m being shown that the safest path is to let go of feeling separate from it all, and instead get into the aliveness of the flow and see where it leads.

Of course aliveness here means everything that’s alive – taking into account all that exists – and of course separating out my personal desires, hopes, or hidden agendas, because those only serve to separate me from the flow and cause a hurt to my heart. Humans can’t steer the flow, they must go with it – they must be aligned to what it is doing.

When I try to contend with things separate from the flow of life, that’s when I hurt the heart. And of course when others try to do the same, they will hurt my heart as well. It may seem like human nature to try to direct things away from struggle and hurt – to always try to make things “safe,” but it’s more natural, and in keeping with the aliveness of everything in life, to be in tune with the rhythm. In so doing something from within can then be revealed.

In other words, something is trying to rise up, which means that there’s something hidden that is touching the veils that keep reality hidden from us. To develop, or utilize, the coping devices we have adopted is to hide behind the veil. In so doing, neither our process, nor the process of the universe works very well.

Perhaps another way of saying the same thing is that people try and create an environment that suits their self-image. That act is in contradiction to the flow, and actually causes a contraction in the heart. Anything that veers away from the inner flow of the whole leads to suffering; the inner flow of the whole comes down and touches us from above. Then our light awakens within the greater light and it’s able to rise back up.

The challenge is to take in everything without expectation or judgment, and to be able to flow with that. That puts us closer to the heart of the world and enables us to follow the will of the Creator at play.

The will of the Creator is behind everything in Creation. Access to this flow is not possible when we deceive ourselves in terms of what is really happening.

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John: In this dream, I’m affected by everything in the environment and it slows me down. When we are affected by things in the dream environment (just as in the outer reality), we become what is known as being in a state of “amnesia.” It’s like a state of sleepwalking, where we are carried along by events but have no control over them.

The effect is that it slows us down. If we are always trying to manage the environment around us, meaning we think it should be this way or that, rather than flowing with it, we get bogged down in the details and lose our connection to the flow. In this imagery, I don’t have the spontaneity to know how to keep from being thrown around or affected by the influences that I encounter.

Said another way, everything outside of us has an effect, because everything has an energy to it. When we come in contact with that energy, we can either flow with it or we can react to it. It’s our reactions – the patterns of response that we accumulate over a lifetime of experience – that cause us to spin out of the flow.

You might say that what is outside us moves at a faster speed, because we are continually trying to catch up and regroup while it just moves on. This constant state of trying to catch up weighs us down, leaving us feeling worn out or even depressed.

Then it seems as if everything is too much for us – it’s too big to handle. But there is a way that we can maintain ourselves in the flow in terms of just going ahead and touching everything in life, and letting it touch us. The outer energetic is bigger and moves faster than we do, and it can take into account more things than we can. It’s important to understand that relationship and just let go within it.

Of course we can avoid it, or hide a little, but it will eventually catch up with us.

So, in the dream, I have figured out how I can contend with those energies that can easily overwhelm me and prevent me from doing what I’m supposed to be doing (in terms of how I’m living at that moment). So I have to shift my attention.

What I do is I shift my attention to being the type of person who is able to postpone this inevitable catching up. I do this by leaving fliers behind me as I go. These fliers say certain things that signify that I know something else is going on as I proceed through life. I’m also able to touch people, as if in touching them I can change the note just a bit so that the force doesn’t have as much speed or way with me.

I can stay ahead of it that way. There is a tension that exists when I look back or think about the condition that I’m in, but that tension seems to fall away if I put my attention upon leaving inflections behind and touching people. 

My observation is this: The imagery shows me in the outer world, but I’m observing myself from a higher place and can see that I’m unable to function on my own. I’m barely getting by, but I’m able to maintain because I let my energy clear the environment. I stay just ahead of the collective outer forces.

The meaning is: I’m being shown how I must be, within myself, to exist in the outer world.

The subsequent dream indicates that if I touch something in any way, even if it’s indirectly, I have an effect on it – something has been changed.

So, in this dream I have some tillable acreage. A neighbor has a lease on a large section of land that borders my property. He’s an expert farmer. Because he’s located next door, or has a direct connection to my property, he is allowed to exert an influence and effect over my outcome in terms of how I’m farming.

The meaning here is: We are all interconnected. To know that is to have an effect upon what transpires. 

This is another way of portraying the depth of the human heart, only in this case there seems to be an assumption on my part that I don’t know exactly what I’m doing (the other farmer is the expert, not me). So it shows me tending to rely on the judgment of another who has more insight.

I don’t seem to understand yet that I am he, and he is I. Perhaps I can get this understanding when I become “less than the dust at the teacher’s feet” as the saying goes. Or when I realize that my neighbor’s freedom begins where mine ends, in terms of the personal notion of things, as I come to see everything as being intertwined, interconnected, and I’m able to simultaneously touch and be touched.

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