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This dream scenario preceded the dream John described yesterday (see The Speed of Gravity). Here, he finds himself wading into an ocean that seems so polluted he wonders whether he could walk across the top of it. Yet the image is showing him how his attitude toward the outer world has a profound effect on his ability to connect with the heart to all of creation. To be with the universe, we have to love everything in it, not pick and choose. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So prior to this dream, I had a dream image that was even denser, showing again that I’m aloof or off the ground, I’m out the body in some sense, and you’re like that when you go around with a kind of lightness.

There’s a way of feeling the heart that we tend to ignore, that is very grounded in the vibration, but we don’t maintain that, and it’s easy to get that lost or to lose it. Overindulgence in anything is inclined to chase away, first of all the presence of myself that can sit in a chair, that’s masculine, and hold the space. I lose the space and therefore I lose the means of something that is able to touch creation.

In this prior dream, it starts off where I just am able to kind of let go, not necessarily paying attention to what I do, and I can walk out into the ocean of life. And I can go out maybe a quarter of the way, or a third of the way, and then I stop and I notice what I’m doing because, to begin with, I’m just wading out. 

At some point I’m going to have to start swimming if I’m going to go to the other side. And then there’s a lifeguard who is watching me do this, kind of wondering if I belong, I guess, not sure what to think. 

After going out a short distance, I realize that this is so polluted I can’t even swim in it. In fact, I don’t even know how I got as far as I got; it’s so dense and thick around me that I don’t know how I push on. 

And then I realize it’s rubbery. If I were to lay on the surface or on the top – that’s assuming I can get myself extricated from how I’m sunk into it with my lower torso – maybe I can lay on the surface and somehow go across.

Now somewhere, before I get to the other side, is a particular tribe that didn’t come here to communicate that sort of thing, came here to reveal something else. In other words, this image wanders. 

In my particular instance, I guess I am not keeping up with that because I’m even more ungrounded in this image, because in the water of life I can’t really get into it because I treat it as too polluted. And therefore it is treated as something too dense and I can’t free flow in it, I can’t let myself be in it, and I can’t wade in it because that attitude does make it seem too dense. 

Now, what kind of attitude are we talking about? It’s like in this second dream it was more of a way of knowing how to work with gravity in a free flow capacity, which leaves you lighthearted in the heart, but that sort of thing doesn’t actually relate or touch everything in an intertwined way in the outer.

And in this dream I’m even further removed that I take an ocean or lake of water and treat it, and deem it, to be too solid for me to be able to float in, to get in, to even move around in as if it is getting set up by the contaminates in it to becoming more solid and more solid.

Initially, wading out in this was possible, but I’ve now reached a point where I have to be even more heartfully grounded if I am to continue, because I’m meant to be able to go way, way from shore to shore. And here I’m only able to go out a little ways and I find myself stuck because I can’t immerse myself; that’s assuming I could get myself out of the stuck, half body in, half out condition. 

I don’t believe I can even lay on this rubbery-like surface now and somehow or another propel myself across. It’s as if that won’t quite hold my weight that way either, although in some instances it looks pretty bouncy and I can almost see myself bouncing off of it like it is rubbery. 

But somehow I know that this isn’t going to do the trick. I’m not going to get across by treating it as something dense, or have an attitude or mannerism about it as if it is that way and, therefore, I can’t heartfully touch it. 

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Shifting our way of being from responding and reacting to the outer world, to responding to a guidance from within, is truly fundamental in the journey away from the apparent separateness of ego identity, toward becoming a part of the connected Wholeness. Today’s dreams delve into this struggle. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The dream I had, what I remember of it, it was like there was an energy that would come down. It came down straight like a line, but at an angle, and then it would refract off. It would hit below and refract off.

The energy was alien but it would set something off, and so then we would be trying to figure that out, I think. I just can’t remember that much of it, but it was followed by a little image and in that image it’s like maybe you had visited your family. And you had a shirt, and in the pocket of the shirt you found a folded piece of paper, and I saw it was a message from your father but maybe it’s kind of a hidden message because people just think it’s a piece of paper that you had.

But I can see on the back of it there’s some writing, even though it looks like an address and a number, but I know it’s a message from your dad.

John: We’re both playing with the same thing, and that is: how the energetic needs to be. What is off, what is not working, in your first dream, is the dependency of an energy coming down that takes and awakens and keeps something viable and alive, and a person has gotten dependent upon it being like that, only the energy is refracting off. It’s not coming through.

What the dream is indicating is that the normal flow that one has to work with, or depend upon, is not properly reaching the source, in terms of the ability to flow creatively. And when situations get like that they spin more and more reflectively out of control, and less and less connectively within.

It’s really, really important that one connects within and goes to an inner depth, because you can’t subsist any longer trying to take and be balanced from the situations that exist out there because there isn’t the customary usual feeding type flow that comes in.

That is what your first image is doing, and the second image is indicating, and was your way of pointing out, that there is a guidance or a knowing that one has, as a light that comes through from some place at a deep inner depth inside them, and that unless you are connected to that, unless you find that, unless you hold that, unless you honor that you have something like in the first image. You will end up with a situation in which you’re guessing, in which you’re acting but don’t have the ability to make a proper access, and therefore you become depleted. You get depleted and your energetic is drawn out and worn out by the reflective conditions around you.

The oddity of something like this is that the only thing that measures this is the heart, and the heart has to have a longing or a yearning that pulls for something to be a particular way because the mind and the senses, this never makes any sense to the mind or the senses. The mind or the senses bifurcate off of the energetic in terms of how they go into the outer and deal with the reflections, but the heart doesn’t.

The heart starts with an overall and finds that the mind and the sense is limited to a narrowing, and if you’re trying to function by way of connecting to a transmission that is bifurcated and not there, to where you’re only thinking that you’re getting the memo. In other words, the feminine nature is such that it sits in a world in which it has gotten accustomed to having the energetic come down and awaken things.

But that awakening that is happening around in terms of appearances is bifurcated, it’s off, but there is an inner light that one can have – when you look at the second dream – that one needs to be careful to stay attentive to. And if you stay attentive to that then something will be okay.

What you’re doing is the scenario that’s triggering these kinds of dreams is you realize that I’m kind of going away, and what I’m going away into is something that has its own different separate kind of reflective energy. And you kind of know that that is bifurcated in some fashion, but I’ll be okay if I hold to the heartful inner energy, which is like my father’s energy.

But this is your dream so you’re using me as an example of what you have to do to hold onto something inside you, that you have to find that inner linkage that feeds you and exist there because the energy coming down and through, that you may have been able to get along with in the past is bifurcated, it is distorted, and therefore not giving you what you need.

Now, my dream describes more in detail as to why that is.

I’ve been seeing this and not understanding what it meant before when I would see myself like on a job and kind of lost in the job and not remembering what it is I was supposed to do and where’s the foreman and where’s all of that. This time when it repeats I actually get it because now I see why it’s like that. There’s something that’s been dissipated or lost.

So this starts off where I’m in a warehouse where the shelves of product are getting empty and I’m losing my memory all the time, or as the time keeps progressing, in terms of what should be on each of the shelves in terms of the large pallets of wood that stock the shelves.

In other words, what we have is we have these huge shelves or bins that hold pallets of various sized wood and ordinarily if you’re really, really connected to this place you’re connected to something in which those shelves are full and also you know a means that if they need to be filled, what goes where.

In this dream, because somehow or another I am not making the proper connection to that linkage, that part that I use as a resource base, I find that what I am doing is I’m taking certain sized wood and loading it off to one side. And those piles that I make, as time keeps progressing, they keep getting smaller and smaller and less and less stable because I’m starting off with one set of confidence, but I’m not able to sustain it because somehow or another I’m going back and forth getting disoriented as to where I’m finding what I need.

As a consequence, I’m getting less and less done, and more and more black workers are being hired and they walk around with their shirts off and I’m told that they are the real deal, meaning that they would be good hard workers that seem to be able to stick to the basics and know what it is that needs to be done, and I seem to be pretty drifty. They can work harder. They are more consistent than I am. I don’t have any direction anymore. I know that this can’t continue. There’s no supervisor around. Eventually I will become helpless at this rate.

The meaning is I’m becoming less and less capable of self motivation, and am relying more and more upon subjectively feeling my way around. That’s why I’m dreaming this dream. This too only goes so far. You can’t just subjectively feel your way around.

In your dream, of course, the energy coming down is bifurcated, and so in your dream if you’re going somewhere to do something you have to have an inner linkage or you’re in real trouble now, because why is that? That’s the means to hear and to remember. The energetic for that is not found in an outer way.

The dream is showing me that I am losing the inner connection from which this is all made known. I lack the inner guidance that is there and then I’m losing the connection to what it is, and what it is that I should be doing, and when I should be doing it, and how I should be doing it, and where I am to find things because I can’t find them reflectively and I got to know that they’ve got to be built there as a resource that just sits there inside me in an unlimited capacity.

So I become more and more dissipated in terms of the inner condition, is what I’m seeing, because the thing’s on the shelves. I shouldn’t have to load those things on the shelf. I just need to support their existence there because they are naturally somehow there.

It’s the part of me that I don’t know that is the real deal, that takes and has the handle on the shelves, and product that fills the place up, from which I can then take and do my thing. But only if I have full access to shelves that are full of product in this warehouse, as opposed to the shelves getting empty.

What the dream is saying is that there is a means or a mechanism or connection inside that is dissipating and this is a dream that is after the program, which means that the program builds you up to a degree and then you kind of slide from that, and as you slide from that the shelves go empty and then pretty soon you’re caught in not knowing how to flounder your way around.

In other words, a heartfulness is needed to link me to the inner space or inner source. Without this I slowly fall back more and more onto a delirium of not really having a good way of knowing what I’m doing. The best I can do is reflections with a memory shot, and no guidance, and no listening center.

The scenario of that of course is the dissipation that happens when you just sit back and you don’t have that real deep connection that you had at the program, where you suddenly got full and then as you’re sitting back you’ve been adjusted and pointed in terms of the means upon which you need to be at this point in time, attuned to that, and that’s at that space where the inner turns into the outer. And so instead if you’re sitting there thinking that you could somehow mutate from that, and that other is just going to be there amnesically, you find out that something goes whacky in terms of how you feel your own heart and it is the heart that you have to hearken to.

It’s the heart that you have to pay attention to. You can’t have your attention focused into the outer and how the outer looks and responds and is because that will just take you into a type of delirium because, as much as it wants to know, and thinks that it knows – it doesn’t know.

We exist at a point in time where everything has to come from this empty space. And, also, as a scenario for the future is I’m going into a situation in which those I will be with, like Rick, who is going to give me a ride to the airport and my mother that will be there, they’re all going to be acting out upon outer reflections and my challenge will be to reside in the inner in order to be able to sort out what needs to be done and what can be done.

Look to the inner, feel the inner, hear from the inner, as the place for heartfelt inflection, and not get caught up in any of the outer nuances.

In other words, function from within, the aspect of my own light, in terms of how I hear it. Otherwise I’ll be pulling from the outer reflections and I can never do that anymore. I can’t be doing that because that just depletes the shelves to the point where you’re in a total delirium – and what a strange feeling you get when you don’t have that connection to reside in.

 

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John: Last night, because of my fever, I didn’t think I was going to have any dreams. All my attention was on the fact that no matter how I bundled up I was cold and, as a consequence, I consumed myself with trying every sleeping position so I wouldn’t create any additional aches and pains.

It wasn’t until 1:00am that I had this image. I was trying to figure out how to carry the image back to what was going on before, but I was blocked by the fact that my attention was also on my fever, aches and pains.

So, in this glimpse, or image, I see a woman who shows up from time to time at the dream group. She is accepted as part of the group; it’s as if she lives in the area.

Somehow I come to know (no one else seems to know, they just accept her), that she doesn’t really live any place in particular. She just flows freely and with ease. 

If I didn’t know that information, nothing about her demeanor would cause me to think she didn’t live locally. The image of this woman, the quality that she carried, had a great freedom and elegance to it. She would just show up.

There was no way I could draw any conclusions, or quite put my finger on what it was about her. All I knew is that she seemed to be around at important meetings or events from time to time.

So this image is creating an energetic space, and freedom, to move about at will. It’s an expression of composure and elegance that feels natural wherever it is. It’s an image that shows that there is more meaning and freedom available to us when we are not limited by a need for definition. This woman defied definition.

We see this in waking life, and it has been a theme in our dreams since we went to Las Vegas, that when we find ourselves in situations that are completely out of the ordinary, completely different from what we are accustomed to, it stirs things up inside us. From an inner (dream) world perspective we are shown, and can experience, that if we’re able to just flow freely and with ease, we’re much more alive.

Flowing freely allows for more amazing images and states to open up, which also gives us a greater understanding of all that’s going on. Whether waking or dreaming, this free-flow state is almost impossible when we see ourselves in terms of how others might see us, whether friend or stranger. That ego-perspective isn’t good because it defines us – it limits us – and therefore shuts down the magic.

A dream like this causes me to wonder, how does one do this in relationship to the home community? In going to Las Vegas, we were far from our usual dream group (meetings) and unlikely to find similar ones there. Maybe this is a dream with a hint to show a state, or a value, that exists when we’re not in any place in particular?

The dreaming has been showing that there’s a much greater dimensionality to things when we’re able to be at peace with, and accepting of, all situations. Whenever we (humans) find ourselves in an uncomfortable predicament, we quickly begin to put limits on our senses and we adopt old patterns – we focus on the particulars and details, and lose the bigger picture.

When we do that – begin to limit things by defining them – it causes hurt to the heart, because it’s a disconnection from what really is. If we can keep things outside of the specific, or not view them so personally, we can actually have a greater perspective of what’s transpiring.

We’ve been dreaming that, and noticing that. It’s might seem like human nature to want to define everything, but that narrows our experience into the predictable, when our real safety, and joy, is in the spontaneous, or in the aliveness and uncomfortability of the unknown.

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