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peacockToday we have a great example of how our dreams, in the course of a single night, can lead us through an awakening process. Jeane describes three dreams, beginning simply and then expanding to incorporate more and more energetic space within. As new energy is awakened, the challenge is to incorporate it within ourselves, without getting thrown off balance. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My earliest dream is I’ve got my beading loom, and I’ve strung it and I’ve started working on what’s called a split-loom necklace. And the thing about a split-loom necklace is that you weave a pattern and then at the top of it you split it in two. If you’re making a necklace, one would go around one side and one would go around the other side, so you’re no longer doing a straight line like you do a belt.

I just seem to be spending a lot of time working on that design in the very first dream.

John: You’re establishing a new kind of dexterity. You’re familiarizing yourself with a new kind of dexterity, and you’re using the image of what you’re doing to indicate something else. In other words, there’s an energetic in terms of what you’re doing there, and what you’re indicating, you’re discovering, or opening up, or approaching, or recognizing, or realizing inside of you, which is reflected by this image your other [following] dreams will talk about.

Jeane: In the next dream, while I’m home in my hometown, and my folks still seem to have the department store there. At home I’ve made myself two beaded skirts, one of kind of jade-looking beads, and the other of black and white beads of different sizes; like some are round and some are a little different design.

But when I put the black and white skirt on, some of the beads haven’t been anchored well enough so they fall off on the floor, so I realize what I’m going to have to do is to go through and fix that. So I just hang the skirts up and then I have a little dressing room at the store where I also hang up some clothes that are of a little different design.

And then I’m kind of excited to be able to show these skirts to my family. But I can’t show them to them yet until I get the one fixed.

I go down to the store and my mother’s there, and she suddenly wants to show me a new jacket that she’s got that’s a very summery jacket like with yellow and white. It’s kind of very spring looking, and she thinks I might like that too, and I’m looking forward to showing her and a woman who shows up, whom I know, who is this woman who’s very stylish that used to lead seminars.

I know that I have some clothes hanging up in a dressing room, yet I haven’t really looked at them. I know that I want to get into a certain design of clothes, but I haven’t done that yet. And it’s like I’m just talking to the two women. That’s all I remember of the middle dream.

John: So from the first dream you’re learning to access and go into something different and new, and not only are you having to go into this, but you’re having to wear it, or live it. It’s a dimension of you that isn’t well established yet, isn’t put together, but you still have to wear it. You have no choice in the matter.

You now have to take this on. In other words, it’s your two skirts, and the green is kind of something that’s a skirt that you have that’s established in life. This is where you’re at, so to speak, in terms of a certain way of being. But now you have to go into something that has greater extremes to it, both black and white, black being a color of feminine depth, and white being a color of masculine expanse.

And you don’t handle that very well. In other words, because you are having to wear it and the beads are breaking to some degree.

So, the fact that you’ve taken this on means that it puts you into a different state and that different state involves you having to probe a part of you that has more of a masculine orientation, because it’s a white jacket that you now have to get, which has the ability to see things more directly on an inner level, more directly on an inner level with the yellow.

When you put the two dreams together you’re basically exploring, or have opened up, a part of you, where what you find yourself doing that is different than your usual approach, or the way that you’re familiar with and, as a consequence, first you’re playing with it, and then you’re having to wear it, and it’s another dimension like going through into another zone.

And in having to wear it you also are finding out that there are greater extremes to this, both up and down, both black and white, both masculine and feminine, and taking on this different kind of motif, things aren’t quite totally together yet, beads are breaking.

You have that at home as a base that you have to work with, but then as you probe out into this newfound awareness, causes you to probe on out with your feminine quality nature, and when you do you find yourself able to access a jacket – more masculine again – a white jacket, with the ability to see things or to open something up with an innerness about it with the yellow in it.

And so this is a dream portraying an unfoldment, or an overallness, that’s more or less being depicted. There’s no detail in it, other than this is what’s depicted. Let’s see if you have more detail. Well, it’s interesting. You’re opening up a masculine quality because it wouldn’t surprise me if you get detail.

Jeane: In the next dream, I seem to be working as a therapist again, and I have an office like almost in a daylight basement of a building, because I feel like it’s on the ground floor or lower, but it has light and there’s a secretary right outside my door as well as a few chairs where people come and sit.

I’m counseling someone in the office. It’s the end of the day almost or early evening, but for some reason I’m counseling them with the door open. So I see there are several other people waiting, and several of them are new people, but my session must run on overtime because the people leave.

Well, I get up and I pick up the forms that they’ve filled out, and I go down the hallway and must go to a Xerox machine or something. I don’t know what I did, but I did run into one of the people, a man, and I realized he works in the building so I tell him if he wants to he can come on down now.

I think he wants some counseling on a work issue. I’ve gone on down to my office, but he’s not there, but then the woman who’d left that had been waiting has come back, so I decide since she’s there I’ll go ahead and see her.

I see the man come and look in, and then I think he leaves, but I realize he works in the building so I can catch up with him the next day.

John: That’s the detail now! This opening up is best depicted in terms of how you’re then able to flow differently. And so usually you have to maintain certain boundary controls, and boundary controls are essential for a person to feel like that they’re not getting thrown askew in every which way that they can’t possibly handle.

So people develop these boundary controls. Well, what you’ve done going from a certain way of living and a certain way of following the element of life, what you’ve done is you’ve opened up something different. You’ve learned to do different beadwork, so to speak, as you were describing, or you found something more interesting in this whole process of the way energy can unfold.

It results in, of course, things breaking, collateral damage, but you work to resolve that because you have to wear it. You don’t have any choice in the matter and, as you’re inclined to wear it you come to grips with a better understanding of both the masculine and the feminine.

You’re able to go with your mother. You’re able to buy a jacket. It’s a white jacket with yellow in it, so you have a depth that can open up. But then what does this all mean?

Well, it means that in terms of your functionality you’re able to look at things in a more overall and inclusive way without having to seal things off behind doors. So this door that’s being opened is ordinarily considered like something that causes a violation of one’s self because it can break the continuity of a steadiness or a stability of your nature.

But in this particular case, you’re learning how to handle that. It’s not easy. Things can break, but you’re comfortable with the way things break that you can resolve it. In other words, instead of having a definite order to things, and a definition of things, you’re able to take on more. And in taking on more things, it’s harder to hold things in the container.

And so that which is in the outer room of your being can go flittering and fluttering off, but you are developing a greater depth, and a greater range in yourself, in that you can find that, or it doesn’t get totally lost. That you can hold two spaces at the same time, that you can do your counseling, or do your work in the room, and at the same time be aware of things outside of the room, and aware enough of an energetic connection to the things outside, that you can pick up those pieces, that you can maintain them within the peripheral.

You don’t have to have clear, distinct, dividing lines like you had before, you have both parts of you able to work. As the first image, you can do a greater, more interesting degree of beadwork. You can address the feminine side of you now better, and you can catch up with the masculine side of you because you are holding onto it in a more grounded and rooted way.

The dreams last night had us having to take on, and go into, and find a comfortability, and let go to the working with a type of energy that normally we consider too much. Or normally we set up parameters so that we’re not overwhelmed. This is a type of energy that has to do with a greater expansiveness of one’s self.

Now, there’s a spiritual concept: that you can’t grasp what is really important. You can’t grasp it in the overall, and yet you use an ability to peak around the corners of things in the outer, you know, in creation.

That is where the longing comes in, in the out-breath. The interval between the out-breath and the in-breath is the longing state, and in that longing state you can get a sense of the divine in the contractiveness and density of creation.

And in the expanse, there’s too much for you to grasp. The interval where the in-breath turns to the out-breath, that greater expanse, that is the place where you have the greater dimensions of you in the overall. To aspire to that place without having the grounding is impossible, in other words without catching up with the longing, or your part in creation.

However it is the more important part of the breath, because it opens up a whole degree of being able to shift, and to change, and to adjust to things differently.

However, to experience that without the grounding, without the rootedness, is not very functional because that leaves you off the ground. It’s inclined to cause you to get disoriented, to get too airy.

A person has all kinds of dilemmas when they get to racing out too much as a general rule. However, there comes a point when you have to be able to do that too. You can’t just limit yourself to the pain of things, meaning you’re in creation so you go into the density of yourself. You go into the density of yourself in order to go into the expanse at the same time. You use the density of yourself to create the blackboard effect, the rootedness, the ability to see, and to grasp, and to understand the expanse so that you don’t just get blown away.

You’re describing yourself doing this in just a general imaged way. You’re not looking at the ramifications, which I’m describing. And the reason why you tend not to do that is because things aren’t as easy to hold together in a container. Things can fall apart.

And the reason why a masculine doesn’t do that is because they get too top heavy. They get even more off the ground and, as a consequence, they set themselves up for what is known as a prideful fall.

 

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Jeane: In the next dream, it feels like I’m in a large house with a lot of people of all different ages. I seem to know many of them from the days when I did seminars in New York City. There are only a few things I really remember from the dream because of all the people coming and going.

One is that I have a son who’s very young. It feels like I have to carry him around part of the time, but sometimes he seems able to walk. One of the peculiarities is that, now and then, he would find some hand grenades and he would pull the pin out of one of them. I would just be waiting for it to blow up, but it didn’t blow up.

Then my son would place the grenade in different places, perhaps tucked in some blankets, where someone else might come and find it. I never knew what was going to happen. I never saw the grenade blow up, but I didn’t know what to do except pick my son up and hold him, or get the other kids out of the room.  

I kept thinking maybe I could pick up the grenade and throw it, but what if it happened to go off at that moment? I never knew what to do about the grenade.  

The other thing I really remember about the dream is that, at one point, I went into a backyard and there was a stream that ran through the area. It was actually almost like a canal of green water.

At first I thought the water was dark green from algae, when there isn’t enough oxygen and it’s sort of scummy. Another time I went back and I thought I saw a dead water bug there except that it was much larger – it looked almost like a huge dead spider – but it actually started swimming underwater, so it was okay.

There were two of them. Someone picked up a frog and I thought it looked dead too, but then it started swimming away. At that point I noticed that the water had become all cleaned up and it was a really gorgeous green color. I could even see a little sand at the bottom and everything. It was all okay now.  

Those are the only things I really pulled out of that dream.

John: Again you’re playing with the polarity of something that’s ordinary in the outer, in terms of how it effects things, and then what’s divine in it, or the greater meaningfulness of it, can come through and bring about an inner alignment.

So here you start similarly to the way you did in the last dream (see Coal into Diamonds) where you’re removing the coal from the basement. This time you’re again dealing with the darker aspects of your inner depths and, as you do, you’re stirring up issues or aspects that can upset you in some fashion. Yet you’re still proceeding because you know that that’s what you need to do.

You (the feminine) don’t think twice about it. The masculine might think about it, but you don’t. In pushing further, you’re going to run into situations that are potentially explosive, where you can reveal or unearth aspects that are deeply buried, which can disturb you to a degree where you can become reactive.

In other words, these specific elements, that sit at some depth inside you, are like bombs (grenades). When you touch them (awaken them), it can set in motion some very explosive events. In other words, when you dig deeply and touch these issues, it’s like you’re pulling the pin out of a grenade.

Ordinarily (whether a grenade or a suppressed aspect), it’s an energy that’s kept in a state of balance because of its suppression (the pin is still intact). Because you’re not facing it, it stay’s dormant. But when you do face it, it’s like it becomes alive. It becomes more potent.

Rather than let this affect you or hurt you in some way, you have enough sense to know how to handle this energy in an almost prankster way, by putting it under blankets, or hidden in a bed or something. In other words, you’re buying some time to make the process of taking it in – re-absorbing it and updating it – easier.

Initially, when you start this waking up process… Well, it’s like when you first begin meditating, you can stir things up inside that can actually make your life seem more miserable than before because what you may have suppressed inside rises to the surface. When it does, it’s no longer in balance (through suppression), but active and at play in your current day, outer consciousness. It can then sometimes cause knee-jerk reactions as you try to regain, or attain, a new state of balance.

So, what your dream is saying is, okay, you’re in a process where you’re digging up the coal aspects in your nature, some of which are pretty explosive and potent. And, as you proceed, you’re going to have to deal with them. You’re going to have to address these issues, even if that means “putting them under the covers,” i.e., sitting with them a while to ease the transition, so that ultimately they can change.

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