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Taking It On

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spiritualityIn this dream image, Jeane lets a job opportunity pass her by – all while complaining about how things are being done. On a spiritual path, taking on more responsibility means becoming more conscious of what we are doing and why we are doing it. In other words, it is our responsibility to steer our inner lives in the direction of our yearning. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, the main dream I had I was working in an office and there’s a reorganization going on. And the man in charge indicates to me another man that he’s going to put in charge at a certain level.

It’s a position I could have tried for but I didn’t. It was kind of a brunette guy that takes that position, and then he kind of sits a little distant in another area.

And I’m studying what’s going on with the organization and I can feel that, ultimately, at some level I’m somewhat disappointed with the organization that’s going on right now, on the outer, that it’s almost like it’s paying attention to things on a certain level. And it seems too shallow to me and is not how I’d hoped things would go or something.

So it’s like I’m just studying that. That’s all I really remember as far as dreams last night.

John: Well, the dream even portrays a bit of what is meant to be if a part of you wasn’t as sluggish, in terms of having lowered the energy of yourself in some fashion, like we were talking about earlier.

Of course, in this case, that has resulted in the outer in terms of you coming down with this horrendous cold. And when I usually come down with a cold sometimes it sharpens my clarity, but for you it acts reflectively, in terms of an imbalance, in terms of how you’re carrying yourself in the outer.

In other words, it has a different reflective effect. And in your dream, you portray this condition a bit in terms of something that is important that isn’t living itself out the way that it needs to be able to live itself out.

What you’re indicating is that you know that you could have been, or should have been, directing, or steering, or in charge of something in the place where you are situated. You know that. You knew that that was there as a potentiality, but you didn’t take it on. And, as a consequence, things are not… I mean where you find yourself instead complaining and disappointed in how it is that things are unfolding.

And the thing about an image like that and it actually is actually a teaching type dream that I have to take into account, in terms of myself, is that when you find yourself grumbling and complaining about how something is when you had every opportunity, in terms of the potentiality, to be involved in the directing and the leadership of what was unfolding and turned it down, that in the complaining, in that mannerism, you actually even veil yourself from the answer that could open right up in front of you.

And the reason is because you were at the cusp of being able to steer or direct something and didn’t take it on means that you’re now plagued by having veiled that role or that station that you’re meant to catch up with.

And so what the dream also indicates, in the case of me, is no wonder I am so grumbly and uptight and disturbed by how it is that I see things in the outer and it’s because it’s a precursor to having to take on a more direct way of steering it, or journeying, in terms of the unfoldment.

In your case it took you to the point where you apparently, as far as one could see, you had all the qualifications and yet you said no. And whenever you do that you become more sluggish when your energy slows down and a part of you can’t get happy about things, or content about things, or can’t find its cadence and orientation because life unfolds. It doesn’t go backwards very well.

When it goes backwards there is often times a type of cringing effect that is somewhat memorable, although 95%, or something like that, kind of suppressed and unconscious is still there kind of nickering about. And so you have a sense of a knowingness inside of what is being asked of you, and is waiting patiently for you to get back on track. Isn’t that interesting?

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Upon Deeper Reflection

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spiritual-journeyWe are born into a physical life, yet we have a spiritual life. Part of our process here is to make these two lives one and the same. We do that by putting the physical life in service to the spiritual life, meaning that the world around us is merely the theater for our spiritual journey. That’s why a true spiritual journey is as unique as we are – no two of us will do it in the same way. But this journey begins by seeing that physical life is merely the opportunity for something much greater. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: That [Jeane’s dream, see Up-Tempo] was a good way of doing it, and it causes me to have to tell my dream last night, that I had when I went to bed, first, before telling the meditation dream, because it has a similar kind of chemistry about it.

It does it slightly differently but, because I’m the masculine, I tend to often times not see what it is that is right in front of me, that should be obvious for me to see.

The feminine nature just finds itself in some sort of state that exists in the outer, and whether it has an inner connection or not, to begin with the feminine just doesn’t make that distinction because its concern doesn’t tend to function that way and, as a result, the way its attention does function it has to do more with how it feels the overallness of the space, or not.

And the masculine’s attention functions in terms of the specifics, the detail, the way something comes down, or the way something is impacted, or affected, as a kind of almost a discriminatory way of being, but what you’re discriminating is hopefully, conceivably, the dropping away of the slower limitations of the outer, to adhere to the only thing that is real which is the inner coming into outer flow.

This is the role, the responsibility, of the masculine, which it’s often times said that it of having the passage rite of bringing in the clarity. This, in a way, is almost so simple that you have to keep saying it over and over again because it’s so easy to miss it. And the reason why it’s so easy to miss it is because we live in an outer world, and so the perceptions are based upon the senses. And when the perceptions are based upon the senses, and maybe that occurs say 99% of the time, and the senses then correlate to how we think, the inclination then is to make reflective decisions based upon how the outer is unfolding, instead of from the faster energy that is tweaking all of it.

So, to show how one gets spoiled, or dumbs-down, or loses clarity, or how all of that kind of tweaks back and forth, I have three aspects. You had three aspects. I mean your third aspect was bringing in the Led Zeppelin. Your middle aspect was recognizing how to not have to be in a hillbilly mode, which has got to feel absolutely horrible because you don’t have any energy there, and everything is just getting by day-by-day. At least the second part had more interest to it, but it too would get nauseating at some point based upon the fact that it did and you recognized that something more from an inner level was needed, thus came the Led Zeppelin music.

So in my dream I start off with, first of all, kind of being in a recognition of the inner into outer flow. I mean just kind of naturally there, I don’t have to be told. I mean maybe if everything is left in its perfect state of coordinated ordination, it’s going to work like that. And so, the first part of the dream is reflecting the fact that I’m settling for an old energetic habit.

In other words, that becomes the message, and it becomes the message because the way I notice it is as follows: I start off with the dream making a choice that on the outer level also makes sense.

In other words, I know what the inner level is saying, but it just so happens that the outer level is also kind of in a kind of cohesion. It’s still somewhat quickened, or alivened, or affected on a one-to-one direct correspondence to the inner flow. So you could actually, to begin with, spoil yourself by actually settling for making a decision in relationship to what you see as outer quickened events that are happening around you. And it will work out if you do that.

And when it works out like that you tend to get spoiled, and you tend to think that that’s okay as well. It’s just like a person who takes and goes on a gambling machine and wins the jackpot and even though they intellectually know that the odds are designed to beat them in the end, they somehow or another go into an active imagination inside themselves that thinks they are above and beyond that scenario, and that they have some sort of rights based upon how something worked out in the outer.

But the whole design of things, that has been designed from the inner, that was designed as an outer mannerism, they lose that recognition. Then you beat up on yourself and you get delirious.

Well, to begin with, this is something like that. I’ve gotten spoiled because it just so happened that you could make this decision based upon an inner into outer, which requires a little more consciousness and a little more attentiveness, and you could have been a little bit stupid and made it based upon the outer consequence of what was unfolding – and it would have been just fine. It would have just happened to work out just fine.

Well, when you do that you dull yourself down. You’re dropping yourself to the lowest common denominator, so the next thing you know that when you see the next sequence of images, you dulled yourself so you don’t necessarily know which is the inner and which is the outer.

And so everything, the distinction, everything seems very, very hard to decide, very, very hard to know which is the inner and which is the outer, because you’ve dulled yourself.  You no longer have a ready access to the subtler inner inflections, and you have lost touch of the overall connectivity.

Now you’re relying more heavily upon the outer senses. Without a succinct clarity or subtler adherence to the inner coming into outer awareness, you’re hit and miss, you’re all over the place. You fall back into the fog and the delirium, in other words, which is easy to do because, as I indicated, your surroundings support that because it’s 99% awareness through the senses of the outer that you’re in, so it’s hard for you to hold a consciousness that adheres to a general overall vibration, which is what is alive that comes through, and that is what we are.

We’re created in the image of that inner into outer vibration, and that we need to adhere to that. It can be described in various ways as a raging wind, or light, or however you want to say it, but it is where the attention needs to be placed, because the outer is nothing more than a reflection of that in a slower way.

And because it’s in a slower way it sometimes can be in the past. And this other vibration, this raging wind, or light, or whatever you want to call it, or a fire, or inferno of an innerness, can be in the moment. And because it’s so much faster, the outer consequences can be left behind.

And thus if you’re reflecting and making decisions based upon the outer consequences, you can get it wrong because you’re not where the attention and the focus is supposed to be, which is the secret substance.

So in this phase where I have lost the clarity and need to be able to discriminate to what is real, I place myself into scenarios in which I suffer, because I’m making decisions based upon the outer. I suffer because I’m not complying with the inner into outer overall knowingness; in other words settling for outer nuances.

In the third phase of dreaming, I have reawakened to how I need to be. There isn’t much to report because when I recognize and adhere to the inner into outer flow, everything works out as it is meant to do. In other words, what works out is what is intended, and I come to just readily embrace and accept that because the other is not the real way of going – that’s the deviations.

The reason that everything works out as it needs to be is because I am following a conscious inner knowingness that is connected to the overall energetic that predominates in all of creation, instead of the denser outer reflections that often times misrepresent what is really going on.

The reason the outer sense perceptions get it wrong on many occasions is because that which is the inner, Will of God, is like a light, and the outer reflections are often left behind are more like a delayed effect that correlates more to that which is in the past, thus being too slow.

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Healing a Rift

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Closing-the-gap7In our last post (see Causing a Rift), John found himself cutting a long line, losing Jeane in the process, and having words with a chef and his supervisor. Yet it all works out in the end, as the imagery shows that John has brought all the involved parties back together, as a process of higher realization and forgiveness. By letting go, the elements that have been separated can be rejoined at an elevated level of consciousness. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, there are two adab problems. One is the abandoning of you, and then the second creating this blindside where I’m not cognizant of how all of the flow is different and changed, and that I’m now out of place and at a different motif with myself, a different edge with myself, when before I was just calm, cool, collected, and accepting.

So that sets in motion something there that I continue to carry as a blindside as I get up to the cook, the area where they’re dispensing the food, they dispense it out a window, and as I get up there, of course, I’m feeling like I got away with something because, my gosh, this was a big line and it will be hours and hours before everybody gets served.

Where we were at was way back, so instead of realizing that I’ve violated the flow, I’m instead thinking about the coup of having gotten up there.

Jeane: Yeah, that would be you.

John: And so the window’s open and the cook has brought out a new tray of mashed potatoes. I’m to get the first helping out of this new tray. And so at first I thought I had just a big normal plate, but I have kind of something that’s partitioned into sections, where you put different food in different spots, like you have on a paper plate.

So I stick my plate out there and he puts the mashed potatoes down on it, and I look at these mashed potatoes. They don’t look right. They look like they’re imitation potatoes or something, they’re made out of flakes or something, and as he scooped into it it looks spongy inside. In fact, I’m not even sure if it was heated up properly. 

What he puts fits into this particular part of the plate, but I want more. And he says, “Have you seen the line?” It’s like, there are other people here. Well, I want more, and so it creates this big disturbance. And you could tell everybody else in line was calm and collected, and there I am creating this big disturbance. 

So to ameliorate that the cook wants something from me, like maybe that I will acknowledge that his food is good or something. I’m not going to do that because I’m not sure I even like the potatoes yet. I haven’t tried them. These aren’t mashed potatoes like I expected. They’re some sort of imitation potatoes. I don’t know if this is good, so I leave in a huff. 

And all of a sudden the supervisor catches up with me, and he has his plate with him. He’s going to follow me to wherever I go to eat. I don’t remember how I got any of the other food on my plate, probably shorted myself out with my reaction and I didn’t notice, because all I remembered was when I glanced down at these potatoes and was kind of shocked that they weren’t what I expected.

And so I look at him, and he says, “Well, you’re stuck with me whether you like it or not. I’m coming with you.” And so as we’re walking along, I explain to him that the cook wanted a pat on the back in exchange for me getting another scoop of potatoes, and no way I was going to do that. I said, I looked at those potatoes. I don’t even know if I like them. I mean, they weren’t real potatoes even. 

The supervisor says, “Okay, okay, well that clears that up. That’s all understandable.” And then I flinch, and I realize, oops, I remember blowing up before like this. Hopefully that doesn’t come up, and I don’t notice this until it blurts out of my mouth, that I think the cook should be fired.

Then all of a sudden, because that’s not an attitude to take, then I flinch because I realize I did this before. Now that I took that adamant position, this is apt to come up. Maybe the cook even knows about it or something. And so that shocks me back and I start to retreat inside. I don’t say anything, but I retreat inside in this big flinch, that I have no right to be imposing my willfulness like this. 

All of a sudden here comes the cook. I mean, you know, you have to have the full story, so here comes the cook, and he’s a giant. Both of these guys are big guys. And I look at the cook and he doesn’t have his plate, and I say, “You have to go back and get your food.” 

“Oh,” so the cook turns around to go back to get his food. The supervisor and I walk along and we go down into this lower corridor area in kind of a dark, out-of-the-way place, and that’s where we sit down to eat. 

And suddenly I remember, I forgot something, and as I get up to go out I figure I better look closely at where we’re at because we went down this corridor and that corridor into this dark room over here. I have to be careful here. I’ll never remember how to come back to here.

And then I realize, oh well, it’s probably a good thing that I am going back because there’s no way the cook is going to find us, and at least I can catch up with the cook – I’ve kind of forgiven things now – and catch up with the cook and bring him back so we’re all reunited, the supervisor, the cook, and myself.

Isn’t that an incredible dream?

Jeane: You never did find me, huh?

John: No, no, no. You don’t get retrieved in this situation, but you get covered in the summation of it and what it means, because the end is present at the beginning kind of thing. And so all that has to be reconciled, too, in order for there to be proper forgiveness.

The scenario is that I walked away from you when I realized that you were about to go in circles; that was in the store yesterday. By walking away that created a rift that the higher-self flow in life noticed. I also broke the cadence and flow of family members I am working with when I pressed forward on my own, in other words jumped in line instead of a natural flow of things, and selected this piece of property that I knew was the best piece of property, but it doesn’t work that way. You have to work in the cadence of things, even if it’s awkward, so this is like cutting in line at another level from where things were still unfolding.

The meaning of the dream is, I’m abusing a position I have in life. I am not integrating with an accepted flow. A rift is created that compromises the future. This dream points out where this first went awry. It seemed innocent enough at the beginning to take liberties that no one else had thought about, or was doing, when I move myself up in the flow of life.

The result was a sequence of cascading events that caused me to become catatonically out of control. I got conceited and righteous and became like a monster. Fortunately, I surrendered, and in doing so, before the dream was over, reintegrated at the end with the cook and superiors. I suppose that because the end is present at the beginning that I also accepted my bit and lot in life, and quit elevating myself forward, just because I can abuse the liberty.

Can you see how this is a little bit like Moses and the shepherd? You can see how that fits in there in terms of looking at it in another context or parallel?

So again in terms of your dream and my dream, in case I didn’t get that put on there correctly or properly or fully, your dream was an in-breath as the ball is hit somewhere else, and then it’s purified and becomes the white, regular baseball, and then it comes back down into creation or back down into the ballgame.

And my dream, was the opposite. Mine was an out-breath coming down and getting catatonic and out of skew, and somehow or another recognized the imbalance and realized there had to be the integration. In other words, all parts had to come together in a wholeness, and that’s the cook, the supervisors or superiors as they would call it in a Sufi language, and myself.

And in doing so then that is the in-breath able to go back, in other words not just out-breath confusion, lost and skewed from things. Somehow or another something was kind of reflected and taken to heart, and remembered, so that then you could have the in-breath back to a state of deeper inner consciousness.

And so because yours was in-breath to out-breath, and mine was out-breath to in-breath, that flip facilitated this image of Moses and the shepherd, Moses’ directive to the shepherd was an out-breath mannerism, and the shepherd’s response to that was an in-breath realization.

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