We’ve all experienced the feeling of not being able to get through to someone – it can be frustrating and upsetting. When we get personally involved in the unfolding of events, meaning we are upset, or deeply emotional, making it all about “us,” we become the person whom it is impossible to reach. Who or what is trying to reach us? All the energies and signals of the flow of the universe seek to nudge us into a greater alignment. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So then I try to meditate again, and I go deep inside but can’t pull out the dream. Instead, I’m left with the impression that I’m not ready to know. In other words,, there’s something about me that is still a little haywire. Or maybe it is more like, at this time, I can’t handle the truth. I can’t handle it. In other words, I guess I’m still too reactive, or something.
And then I come to bed and I have a number of dreams. In the first dream, I’m out strolling, trying to determine how I feel about a particular situation, a situation that I need to find a balance towards, or a better understanding, or way of dealing with it, that I’m trying to sense in a natural way.
And so I seem to stroll into kind of a courtyard area, all paved and people can mill around out there. So I stroll into this courtyard area and that’s where I meet Doc Bruner. He is preoccupied with something. And what he’s trying to do is to find the perfect flower.
Well, it seems a little strange because it’s a concrete courtyard – how is he going to find the perfect flower? I don’t see how that’s possible. But I try to look beyond the abstractness of his demeanor, which means that I’m excited to see him. But it doesn’t change his demeanor. He’s still reserved.
So I go up and I hug him from behind, as if to get his attention, and he isn’t receptive because he is deep in a separate frame of reference orientation. In fact, what it does is it might have broken him a little bit out of his trance because he walks into a cafe. He’s still ignoring me because of the trance and state he’s in. And inside the cafe he meets a colleague named Dr. Lecter.
And so they greet each other, doctor this and doctor that, and I realize I don’t measure up apparently to this good doctor’s frame of reference. In other words, he’s not catching a quality by which I’m communicating to him. He’s just operating in his own motif. So that leaves me kind of standing out there silly, so I pick up the remnants of an old newspaper and act like I haven’t been slighted.
So what’s going on is in trying to get to the depth of a matter, I need to be able to bridge the divide between simplicity and sophistication. I’m searching for simplicity, which is also Doctor Bruner, when he is just on his own, being his natural self trying to find some perfect flower in the courtyard, even though I don’t notice that I even saw any flowers in the courtyard. So he is doing what I am living, in his way, when I come by him, because I had been wandering about trying to catch up with where I am at in terms of a natural understanding.
But a gap exists here, as exemplified by Doctor Bruner, who upon distraction goes into a sophisticated mannerism, ignores me, shuts off the connection, gets linear, and goes into an indoctrinated focus when he goes into the coffee shop, where there it’s customary to just dwell in one’s dignity. So I don’t measure up and I retreat to the old newspaper, meaning I lose the clarity and heartfulness, simultaneously, as we both trance out from the subtle meaningfulness.
And the meaning is, this is about a stalemate veil that exists between receptivity and perturbance. Without the openness of receptivity, a person remains closed off from an intertwined simplicity that is in the environment, and is the means to experience the wholeness; the essence. To ignore this naturalness of being is to trance into a sophisticated demeanor, incapable of perceiving the subtle and sensitive needs of a greater beingness.
Here John continues the discussion caused by Jeane’s dream in Diffusing the Energy. One can almost get a glimpse of the kind of inner connection it takes to relate to others from a place of oneness. That is how we are meant to relate: to let the spark of the higher self in us communicate with the higher self of another. We have to keep remembering, we are not the smart ones – what we can connect to through our higher self knows what we need or what another needs. In this way, we are all capable of profound, genius-like intelligence. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John:This dream is about diffusion and it’s probably one of the biggest, hardest things that there is to do – is to be able to function in the outer and not be diffused.
A person uses all kinds of techniques to try to create the shortcut to the very infinitesimal echo that they hear from a power base that is bigger than themselves. They may interrupt, they may change subjects, they may try to shift the energy, the whole bit. And what you’re doing is you’re creating resistances in the atmosphere around you. And the reason why you’re creating these resistances is because everything that comes before you, is part of you.
It’s from having dreams like this and the dream that you just had, that I now understand how Shamanism actually works in terms of being able to do soul retrieval, or actually to capture power and energy. The better example is how you capture the energy of, say, something that will appear, that is something that is needed, that then you give to someone else.
The way it works is you’re not doing this in terms of aloofness to aloofness. It doesn’t work that way. I mean it’s presented as if it works that way, as if you’re looking at another person and realizing what it is that they need. But your ability to recognize what it is comes from a higher self that has intertwined and is part of that, can put that particular being, in some fashion, into the whole that you’re in and that they are in.
In other words, it’s not something that’s distinguishable. And so, it is from that point that you are able to recognize something that is adrift in terms of the power, that it needs to be conducting itself with, in terms of being able to be whole and complete and balanced.
A person is always striving to find that. All of the peculiarities that they kick off are just screams and yells and hollerings in terms of trying to get it right. And when you’re around something like that and you’re flinching, it’s because, you know, you aren’t able to shift and adjust in a way that compensates, and completes, and fixes that so that it is able to be okay in the environment.
And so, when you take and you find something that is lost on a power level, you actually find it from an aspect of the intertwining. In other words, you are they, and they are you, and you see what you’ve been, that you happen to have the ability to hold a focus onto a flow and onto an energetic – that they don’t recognize and don’t see – because they have lost the power and therefore are just doing all kinds of mannerisms.
You can actually see that, you can actually tell that, and so you’re just recovering it inside of yourself, that’s all you’re doing. You’re recognizing that from inside of yourself, that is inside of them, but is more veiled. That’s all you’re doing. You’re not taking and going down and finding something or another that’s somewhere else. I mean that’s how it would look, but in terms of the functionality and the reality, that’s how it works.
So, the same thing is true in your dream. In your dream you have the mouse and you shrunk it into something that causes it to come closer to the sense of power, which is a little game. It’s a little tricksterism that’s going on, because it’s that power of that furnace that you need to get close to.
But you can’t reach down there, you can’t go down there, it’s too small. It’s because you still identify with the pet world up above that. You still identify with the space that takes up more area.
And because you are holding onto that, your attention is that, and you will be speaking from that. You’ll be acting from that. You’ll be complaining from that. You’ll be saying that this has shrunk, and this is this, and this and that, and what you’ve got to do, all in regards to this other.
And that’s because you’re putting all of your attention upon the other, so your attention is misplaced. If your attention gets misplaced enough, you even forget the power; you even forget the vibration of the flow and the intertwining that is necessary. Then you’re giving up your own power yourself.
The vibration itself that is intertwined, you have to bring it across in that way. And in that regard, it’s kind of invisible. But what it does is it increases the etheric energetic in the surrounding, but you can’t do anything condescending.
The sense of where you’re going and what we are talking about there has to do with, not the outer way of looking at it, but the inner way of looking at it, in terms of having an energetic that feeds you. That keeps you whole.
It can’t be repeated too often: humans are the meeting point between what has been created (matter) and what created it (God). Humans are the only creature that can claim that relationship with the universe, and it is an incredibly important role. Unfortunately, we mostly have lost our way and abdicated our higher responsibilities to the whole. But it is never too late to choose the whole over our personal desires. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane:The last little snippet I remember just before I woke up was it feels like I’m with some people in an area where there’s some partying going on, and there’s one man that’s maybe been kind of wayward before, so we’re kind of correcting him and we’ve sent him off.
He’s gone to his bed and then this kind of large black woman who’s going to kind of be his partner now, I think, she kind of goes to get him when it’s time, but she’s kind of being funny about it. I think she walks up to the bed and lifts up her dress and flashes him or something, and he’s acting all suddenly coy or something. And so we’re wondering what’s going on.
Well, there’s this girl hidden under the covers, so the woman there had come to kind of be with him she kind of gets in a snit and goes off. Well, then he’s mad at the girl under the covers because she’s actually got her clothes on. It’s like she just jumped in bed and hid in order to cause some kind of uproar, I guess.
I’m just observing all of this. This is just something I’m looking at for some reason.
John: That’s a dream that portrays a reaction in your nature, which keeps you from recognizing how it is that all aspects of matter relate to the essence, or to the light, and that if you are a kind of matter that is trying to control your own sense of closeness and proximity, if you’re trying to attain or maintain a connection that is, so to speak, personalized according to your own predilection, the tendency then is to not realize that matter per se is just an overallness.
In other words, it’s just the light has been transformed into matter. In other words, the sound has taken form from the light and that as long as one takes and then sees that they have an affinity to try to go back to the essence of light, and if one is trying to do this by way of their own separate ideologies, and values, and whims, and mannerisms, that is when you don’t realize the fact that all of matter is intertwined and interconnected.
As long as you somehow still see it as having its distinctions, whereby you have to fight or struggle to maintain your space within that, then that is when you simply go around and around with some nuance inside of yourself that keeps you doing battle with how something needs to be in the plane of creation.
So it’s very interesting. I wonder… let’s see how can one take and make that applicable to the degree to which you try to aim to please, or to relate to something that, on one level, you feel is out of your reach but still attempt to relate to it.
If you approach things like that, then you are going to find yourself making a kind of doingness distinction. And if you’re making a doingness distinction, then you’re violating the overallness. Even though it’s done in a plane of sound, you’re violating the oneness that exists here.
All of life is a oneness, too, just like the essence is a oneness. And when you violate that, then you’re trying to sift and sort this over that, as opposed to seeing yourself as all of that. There’s a way of oneness of the feminine that there can be all of that.
That’s where the idea of complexes comes in. A complex is something in which what has occurred, in terms of outer misalignment, has caused a way of trying to correct or to find a missing link – as if there’s just a thing – that is distinguishable in matter, as if matter is all separate. And, in doing so, then you throw yourself around reactively.
So what happens is that the inflections, the sparks that hit, can’t give you the information from the doorway, or from the in-betweenness, between the inner and the outer in that split second moment. You can’t get the actual guidance because you have a nuance, or paranoia, or a perception of fear, or however you would place that, that exists based upon a kind of woundology or however you want to characterize that, that is still based upon the plane of existence, or the aspect of how it is that you intertwine with matter.
And you’re supposed to be able to intertwine with matter as a wholeness, just like light is a wholeness. And when you have both like that, that’s when you have the guidance. That’s interesting. It’s an odd, interesting dream to understand.
So the reason why you have such allergies in the morning is it’s a type of saying “no” to the interval that’s in-between. In other words, you have a reverb from it. It causes a type of dullness or a type of staleness to flicker out as if this predominates, instead of just popping through with the inflection that is visible at that moment in which you’re in this in-between state.
When you’re in this in-between state, you’re in a state of calm, you’re in a state of quietness, you’re in a state of knowingness, you’re in a state of resonance, you’re in the moment in which all is happening.
That is the in-between, that is the point of an aliveness that is a nothingness. But if you’re hit by it, or if you’re sitting attempting to be speeded up but aren’t quite hitting the interval, two things happen. One is you can feel your body getting hot as if it’s trying to breakthrough a crescendo, and you can then feel real nauseous or allergy-like affected, as if there’s something still pulling you back to maintain a type of density of nature.
Ultimately this is meant to get to a point of normality. In other words, the interval in which there’s the spark and all of that, that’s where the coincidences, the meaningful coincidences all happen in that moment and whatnot. That’s when the guidance and everything is quickened. That is when there is no imaginative, it’s just all flow.
It’s where you have the best of both worlds. You have the world of where you have the thoughts alive but in a state of complete ignorance, and when you have the world of flow of essence most alive but in a state of such wholeness that there is nothing; it’s the drop in the ocean yet.
So if you’re having allergies, constant allergies that are affected by things until you somehow or another pity patter yourself back together one way or another, this all infers to something in terms of the type of holding back, or no or something, in your nature, the reason why that exists.
Just like reactions are the same thing. The degree to which one reacts when something speeds up or whatever and the way that they come across, and maybe they’re off the ground or ungrounded – that’s a type of saying no, too.
The no-ness is actually something recognizable in creation. When a plane goes through the speed of sound and sets off the sonic boom there’s a loudness. Now, ultimately, you can refine that and get that to the point where you can do it smooth enough where it isn’t just that crack point in which there is the depth perception like you dreamt in your first dream, where there’s an above and below, and an east and a west, and a moment in the middle where you are able to be at peace with the crocodile.
That’s what they have this mastered down to now. You have the jets flying overhead all the time and you don’t hear them popping the sound barrier and creating one sonic boom after another. They have learned how to treat this point between kind of a flicker point of the world of sound and then something slightly more. They have learned how to embrace that. That’s a scientific example, so to speak, of how one can see this in an outer consequence and know that on an inner level it can be done with the same manner of balance.
And thus you can come to see how it is that one’s nature creates all of one’s illnesses. These are all ways in mannerisms of doing a type of denial, or saying no, and the body tends to reflect that.
And that’s why there’s this whole sense of there being a kind of danger on this path because you create this way, in this flicker point and everything, you create. When you create, well, how does something in the physical that is trying to relate in its density yet, how is that going to work out? The physical then takes the blows. It’s an interesting schematic because the physical says I am to take the blows in order to try to get to this in-between state. What a peculiar game.