Posts Tagged ‘personal responsibility’

daydreamingHow much of our time do we spend imagining how things could be, or should be, or even will be, someday? There is so much written about living in the moment, but what that really speaks of is the ability to be energetically responsible for what is actually happening in and around us in any given moment. Anything else is, in a sense, an abdication of our role in the unfolding of the universe. Of course it’s not easy to do, but we can teach our systems to take our greater awareness up, as a habit, which is how we become more conscious. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream, I can see the symbolic images or indications. I can see them like in a future. By a future, I mean in a space that’s further away from the present, in which there is a further collapse in the future of outer conditions. I can also see how that can be accommodated, too.

So what I know is things aren’t going to get better or be simplified. Things are going to continue to have to get tugged in two different extremes.

One’s inclined to want to think that, as life progresses, that a change happens and that somehow or another, one comes back to a Garden of Eden kind of status quo or something. But that’s not what I’m seeing. I’m seeing the polarities and extremes still existing there, and that one counterbalances the other. In other words, I see the symbols of balance with that, so I know that one muddles through, so to speak, or is okay in the collapse. But I also see that that is something of an intermediate or a longer term consequence.

There are other symbols that I don’t pay any attention to. They’re actually more immediate. They’re actually closer to me. They’re actually right in front of me, that have to do with the near-term consequences, but I don’t pull those out. For some strange reason, it’s easier to avoid the present and to contend with and try to ponder where things are going. So as a consequence, I don’t properly distinguish short-term versus the long-term effect within this imagery.

And I suppose you could say that that’s my nature. You know, I can take and play chess and do combinations and solve complicated scenarios, but then, you know, like in the dream group, I can be totally unrelatable because I don’t get grounded enough. And you hold that kind of groundedness. And I accentuate this other opposite that can take in and function in this kind of way that’s a little bit as a seer, but so what? I mean, what about the here and now?

So, in terms of describing this dynamic, I’m drawn more to understanding the symbolic flow images. In other words, of something that’s distant or a ways out there. I say that because, as I write them up, this is what is holding my dream attention and not the other that is more present. That, you know, they fall away because I’m not giving those the balance and the credence that they deserve in the dream – even though they’re right there. The fact that I could see and remember and notice the other and take it down is kind of odd, because what’s transpiring and shaking and rocking and rolling in the present, I almost, like, am bored by or something.

How else do you explain the fact that it’s easier for me to look at the seer quality of things than to deal with something right in the present. In other words, it’s showing that I’m not very attentive to what is pressing me in the here and now, and instead keep looking, as a type of avoidance, looking out in the future, in the distance, or as I would call it, the intermediate term of things yet to be.

So, it’s like an irresponsibility trait that I carry that keeps me from being here, in the here and now, as I need to be. This intermediate term imagery, which is predominating over my attention so that I don’t catch up with the here and now, is, well, it’s presenting work that’s yet to come to be grounded and everything. And so, it’s not yet here. And it’s kind of obvious that what’s currently needed, I’m not grounding. I’m seeing it as I’m alibiing out of it as I look to the future instead.

And so, I can’t help but notice that to the degree that I’m like that, I have this habit of winging it in the current present. In other words, not necessarily being as succinct and to the point and as grounded or fully present. And therefore, in that regard, I’m compromising or am compromised from a certain kind of heartfulness in the present. And am inclined to subject the present to shock that is unnecessary and would be avoided, but it gets in the way, the shock gets in the way, of who I am in the present.

And so something gets lost as a humble and gracious energetic way of being in the here and now. And when I take and I confront this, it’s something that one should be embarrassed by, because it is kind of a shocking mannerism, that causes some unnecessary complications in the present, a present that I’m skimming along in, that instead of being fully conscious in the here and now, because the predilections or seeing outwardly, and the overindulgent in a type of knowingness, is getting in the way.

How you bring something up from a rootedness, and you bring it up to a knowing center, but then you can’t let the knowing center get too far or carried away, you have to bring that back down in and through the heart and develop the proper power. A true power, or otherwise the power is a kind of power that’s manic or strange.

And that’s also what the way this is working or flowing or unfolding in me, is also the way this is in society, in general. No one wants to get real. Everyone wants to believe in the daydream. It is easier to pass things off to the future and muddle along amnesically in the present.

Such an attitude leads to failing to take responsibility for the mess we’re in. Which is scary, because it suggests that the severity of what is coming now is being ignored because it’s in the here and now. Because everyone wants to take the past, reflect upon it, and use it in some fashion to look to the future, and still hold onto their personal biases. In other words, never deal with the here and now, never deal with the moment. And, as a consequence, you end up with misuses. You have a misalignment.

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Jeane: In this scenario, I’m somewhere with my dad and my sister and apparently there’s been a death (I think it’s my aunt), but the estate hasn’t been completely distributed.

My sister is explaining to me that my aunt held something back and now it’s going to be distributed. I don’t seem to be very worried about it, so a portion is given to my sister.

My dad seems to be somewhere in the background, and I think he must be getting a portion too, although that’s just my assumption; I’m not really focused about it.

There’s also a portion that I’m supposed to get. My sister has concerns whether that will be distributed. I don’t seem concerned about it. I just think, “Yes it wasn’t done at the time as was expected, so there’s something to be given out now.”

I seem to feel that all this really isn’t a problem. I just have to go and collect it or see what it is. That’s that part of that dream.

John: What you’re doing in this dream is expanding upon the theme of the quality of a certain state of overall freedom, in which there’s a spaciousness, or overallness (the macrocosm), that somehow helps guide or direct things in the microcosm. (For the earlier exploration, see Getting In Tune.)

Now as your dreams have proceeded through the night, in this imagery you’re taking this idea to the next step. You find that the “estate” has something more for you, so you’re connecting to something greater and it has more to reveal to you. Things are opening up, “more” is being made known to you from within. The proposition is, how can you now carry that awareness into the world, or bring it from inner awareness into outer expression? Or, how can you distribute your inheritance?

We humans tend to be pretty lazy in this regard, because when we experience an inner breakthrough we like to sit back and noodle with it, hold onto it a bit. But we should be exploring how to distribute it, or transmit it into life. Any conduct that lacks the kind of freedom to just let it flow into life, and to twine with everything else, is a conduct in which things are lost – for others and for Creation itself.

So you’re having a bit of inner discussion through this dream, in the sense of, “Is it important to bring through all aspects of a perception that unfolds inside you? Is it important for all of that to be carried forth into the outer?”

It’s almost like you’re looking at yourself and holding yourself accountable. Are you doing it or are you not doing it? One has to ponder: “Okay, what are the considerations? Is there something that you consider too personal, or, what aspects are too personal?” This is leading to a recognition that your greater wholeness, which is intertwined in everything in the outer, is only possible if you’re able to bring everything through, i.e., ultimately nothing is personal.

This isn’t easy to do because we live in the outer and there naturally are physical constraints associated with the outer. As a consequence, it’s very easy to develop certain mannerisms and characteristics that are associated with how the outer is, in relationship to you being a soul in a physical body.

So, as a consequence, there’s the tendency, there’s the projection, that we need to pay attention to a certain safeguarding of ourselves in a personal way. We develop personal identities from early childhood and spend most of our lives supporting those psychologies as a protective device, where personal protection leads to separation from the whole.

However, this dream is having you make distinctions in terms of where you stand in this regard. It’s coaching you, if there are any doubts or resistance to being open and free within the overall, to just bring it forth and lay it out there.

It doesn’t matter how it appears compared to our training in the culture. It doesn’t matter because a human is not the type of entity, or being, in the greater sense, that’s meant to get trapped or caught in trying to sustain a specific persona or personal identity that’s separate from its identity in the overall – in Creation. We can’t be both personally involved and part of the whole; we have to choose.

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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

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