Posts Tagged ‘processing the inner into the outer’

ghost_orchid_smallIf we’ve ever gone on a retreat, or been in a deep meditation, both relaxing states, we know how difficult it is to bring that state of being into our daily lives. A few stresses and we are quickly back to our old state. This is exactly the issue with our inner guidance for our spiritual journey: we come to know a truth inside of ourselves, but we can’t apply it, or translate it, into our outer lives because our outer lives are such a different ecology. We can’t grow orchids in the desert, and we can’t bring higher things into the coarseness and chaos of our daily lives. If we are serious, we will have to make changes in our life to accommodate the higher. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So there were three dreams, and the first is the meditation dream that sets the tone of it all, in that in the meditation dream I was able to tell that I could come back into the outer, and I was able to tell that I was able to come back into the outer, because I was in a more of a quickened way that is, because there was something sensitive in my nature in which I could tell that there was something missing – as I came back into the outer.

In other words, I had seen something inside of which there was no substance, there was nothing. So there was nothing to look to inside, so then I turn around and I try to go in the opposite direction into the outer. And, because everything’s fine, and everything is still, in the inner, and a glancing into the inner doesn’t do anything, it just is. So I come to recognize and realize that there is an area, or part, of me that’s missing, when I am required to come or turn my energetic attention back into manifestation.

So I knee jerk back and forth. I pull back to something, then I come and I look again. And I pull back, and I come and I look again. So I try and I try, but each time there’s no complete answer. The dilemma was that each time I glanced I could tell that I was not bringing back into life the full completion, because each time my heart hurt, and an absence existed from an aspect of the outer beingness of self.

So what is going on? I tried and tried. I just couldn’t bring back into the outer the inner that took in, on a one-to-one correspondence, all that was going on here. I peeked over and over to see if coming back could be done, in other words, if I could find the combination in which I could come back that would be complete, and each time I would notice a physical area that wasn’t okay.

In most of the instances, when I would glance to come back, the physicalness of coming back into manifestation had to do with going back into the physical body. And when I would glance I would notice that my neck was aching, or was in a strange position or something, because when I come back naturally I can be in any kind of catawhomper position and be okay. But if I don’t come back completely, then something is askew and my neck might be a little out of shape, or something, as if sore from having to hold the position without the inner-into-outer relief that I know is there – but is somehow or another missing, in terms of coming into the equation of the outer.

So the meaning is, that the meditation dream is reporting that in terms of bringing my higher self – a completely intertwined innerness – into the outer is something that I am not doing. I’m missing something. There’s something that’s not quite catching up, or being brought through.

And so I’m not able to make the inner and the outer a oneness and, as for the innerness, there is nothing to report in that regard because the innerness is the innerness. It’s complete and whole in and of itself.

So I just seem to be kind of astir, or kind of out of sync, in terms of at home in the all-pervading stillness within. In other words, it’s not astir; stable. I am stable in a home that is the all-pervading stillness within. That’s why there’s nothing to report there, but it doesn’t translate across into the outer.

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rqwetionWhen we get advice from others, do we follow it? The answer for most would be: sometimes, if I agree with it. Any advice we get in the outer world will always have a bias and an agenda, which then meets our biases and agenda. And mostly we are not conscious of this effect. Our dreams also give us guidance and advice, yet the images just show us where we are and what we are dealing with, leaving us to choose our own direction. Of course, our dreams also have an agenda: they are always trying to help us fulfill our human possibility.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: What I remember about my dream is that it felt like others, and I, were living somewhere where we were given the ability to do our routines in a certain way. And however I had set up that routine, in terms of how it pulled things to you, or how you did things, I knew I had done this before.

Then I’m kind of trying to study the results, and the way other people have set up just how you go about these routines, and how you pull things to you. And I feel like the way I’ve done it either doesn’t rack up enough points, or it’s not as efficient as it can be; and I know I’ve gone through this before, but I’m a little frustrated. So I’m talking to someone because it feels like I want to change it so it’s more efficient, or so I get a different result.

I know there was more to it than that, but it was about all I could pull out.

John: The schematic that’s coming down, or opening up, is that the stuff that we’re going through, whatever it is in the outer, we always know that the outer somehow reflects what is taking place on the inner. We kind of know that, but it’s getting more and more apparent that it’s like that.

So when you have a dream and you have a certain vibrational element in it, as it becomes more and more apparent that there is something of a transformative flow coming from inner into outer, it becomes more and more apparent of a recognition of this somewhere else, which means that the barrier between something that is occurring in the outer, and something that is opening up in the inner, is becoming thinner and thinner.

And, ordinarily, for the average person, they go through and they do things in the outer and they tend to think that the way the weather is, and the way this is, and the way that is it all has to do with circumstances and fate – and they don’t realize that the way you’re meant to look at the outer is you’re meant to look at the outer in terms of what it portrays is going on in terms of you – from inside yourself.

In other words, there’s something about a human being that is tied to orders and guidance. And so, initially, you just think that you’re going around and you’re doing whatever it is that you’re doing, and you’re doing that just for shits and grins in terms of what is interesting to you. And it kind of stays on that level to begin with, but after awhile you come to realize that everything that you do goes back and reaches to some depth within, in which something is correspondently inflecting into the outer.

In other words, to begin with, the outer just appears to be something that is functioning with a whole other level of inflection. But, ultimately, the outer becomes something that is a blueprint carried across vibrationally, from the inner, so much so that as you dream you can see something that is extremely, extremely clear inside of yourself, and can you wake up that something that’s extremely, extremely clear inside of yourself? Can you wake it up so that it is also unfolding? And the recognition of that unfolding is an outerness, and you can see the outer context of something that is an inner awakening, or quickening. That’s what you’re dreaming.

And so, it’s funny how that was the theme. Probably the simplest way to present it is that there comes a point in time when a person comes to realize that they receive guidance in the dreaming. Before the dreaming is something that operates in kind of another level, that can seem separate from a capacity of inner unfoldment, in terms of the outer. In other words, the outer can seem distinct from the inner, such that the inner is something that hints, or tries to speed up, or tries to quicken something in terms of an outer capacity. And yet you see yourself as functioning in an outer capacity.

Instead, what you have to come to do, is you have to see that the outer capacity that you’re functioning is a closer blueprint to the vibration of something that you are aware of inside of yourself than you realize, and that as you become more conscious you come to realize the two coming together. But you’re at a point now where what you see inside, when you open your eyes you don’t see it on the outside. But it will come to a point where what you see on the inside when you open your eyes you’re going to see it on the outside as well. That’s the inner and the outer coming together as one, and so that’s kind of the theme.

In other words it’s introducing a little component that, for some reason, one is refusing to look at. In other words, it’s one thing to say that the inner and the outer have to come together as one, and it’s another thing to realize that what you see vibrationally inside yourself, that you can’t hold onto, the look and the appearance of something inside yourself, and when you open your eyes it’s different, means that eventually when you open your eyes it is no different, that how you are in the outer is identical to how you are in the inner.

And that the idea that something is slowed down or whatever in the outer, meaning veiled, well, when you take away the veiling it’s kind of like one and the same. In other words, it’s like you do something in the outer and it seems to function in terms of a whole other sense and mind kind of manner of being, and that’s how it is when you’re doing something in the outer is you tend to see that, you know, okay you’re not working with the unseen light, you’re working with the senses, you’re working with something that’s apparent, that is very limited.

But you will come to see that eventually they’re two close together, that that whole unseen gets played out, and practiced or effectuated, comes across. When you no longer hold onto the illusion of the outer, in terms of that being your reality, you come to realize that what you’re doing in the outer is carrying across some innerness.

Very unusual epiphany. I mean it’s easy to go along and make a great big step and say the inner and the outer come together as one and the same, but it’s another thing to note how that is, to actually have a sense of how that is, to feel that instead of conceptualize it. So you’re trying to feel it.

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6lovers_1500-56a6e0673df78cf77290a757If we observe the natural world, we see that animals don’t second-guess themselves. They detect a stimuli in their environment, and they respond according to their nature and design. Humans are more sophisticated, yet we are still designed to respond freely, and naturally, to the stimuli in our environment. That’s what makes personal development seem so difficult: because we have been born into such an unnatural situation, the work of development is in unblocking the psychologies that prevent us from being natural to our design. And that requires that we face and acknowledge these psychologies. It is hard, but it’s the best work we can do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My dreaming felt like a bit of a jumble last night, and I only remember one dream very clearly. In that dream I’ve gone by a house that my friend, Mary, and her husband live in. They have a large garden and, in the dream, they also have a barn area and the house that they’ve fixed up. They’re going to be having some kind of a Halloween party.

So I’m going over there for the party, but when I go in the house I seem to have a really kind of strange outfit on because I’m halfway between deciding to dress up for Halloween and looking normal. I have my hair long, and all poofed-out. And I go around the house and I start climbing up on things, and I’m climbing and going up into secret attic areas with little openings into them. And sometimes I can get up into the attic area, and sometimes I can’t.

And then I come downstairs to where the people are coming. I feel like I’ve altered my appearance a little bit for Halloween, but not that much. I’m just in some in-between state.

And as the party’s winding down I come around, everybody’s out of the room, and I go over to a washing machine and it seems like I’ve turned a handle and some water has started to come out. And it takes me about two or three minutes to figure out how to turn that off. Then I’m going around the rooms again seeing some of the people. There are some women there that are kind of easy to be around, and some that are difficult to be around.

And Mary’s husband finds me and he seems really angry about something, and he thinks I’ve damaged this plant – and the people that have the house are going to charge him $1,000 for it. I kind of thought it was his house, but I must be confused, or maybe they live out in the barn and the house belongs to someone else.

The whole dream was like that. It was a little confusing with people coming and going all the time. But I tell him I’ll help share the cost, so that mellows him out, if there is a cost. It wasn’t clear there would be.

And then I go back and I see that the women that put on the party are now, at the end of the party, sitting down in the doorway and starting to want to collect money from people for having come to the party. And I think that’s all backwards. I can’t quite figure that out. It was something that should’ve been done beforehand if they were going to do it. So it just was all this jumbled up dream.

John: The theme of the dreaming has to do with going ahead and doing some action, or unfoldment. In other words, proceeding in a fashion, acting out in a fashion, in order to facilitate the process, or means, by which something from within can come out, can come through.

In other words, the scenario is that everything is kind of in a natural setup, in terms of how things are shaped. So once things are put into place, once something is shaped, then comes the unfoldment. And so the unfoldment has to do with a living out of an energy, and, when you live it out, that’s when you come to understand and appreciate how it actually is. In other words, that’s when something, then, comes from within to the outer.

Now, what kind of living out is involved? In other words, it’s as if it’s a process upon which you have to let go of yourself to unfold, and, when you do, then that which occurs, or goes through you, is able to transform and to change you. And whether that involves having to do anything in the outer, or not, well, the usual interpretational way of looking at things is to assume that it does. But it probably does not. It can, for some, however, but it doesn’t necessarily have to do that for others.

And so what you’re doing is this party that’s at Mary’s, Mary stands for an inflection of an area in which you are able to easily go, can influence or can affect, as a flow, and the going there and the participating is important. The energetic unfoldment is important. In other words, this is an image, but what the image is talking about is an energetic, and the unfoldment of the energetic is important in order to cause a greater realization to be there. And so if one doesn’t allow the energetic to unfold, one sits in a capacity that doesn’t necessarily have much going on – like the issues that you suddenly had having gone to this party. Everything got really jumbled

But by facing the energetic, that’s how something gets sorted out. So what is the scenario characterization of things that you’re asking this question about? Well, energetically, you’re apparently looking, and wondering, what is going on in relationship to how it is that you are experiencing something, vibrationally, inside of yourself. You’re wondering, okay, what is that about?

And one can go about in kind of a quiet, reserved way, or that can take on a dynamic that one lives. If it were to take on this dynamic, it would take and facilitate the breaking through of the parts of yourself that are normally kind of reserved, or hidden, or like in a mask. It would enable those parts of yourself to awaken, to come into the flow.

So, there comes a time, in other words, when your development on a consciousness level gets to the point where something is kind of choked, as far as the energy which needs to be lived. And so, hard to live because that’s when you face the unknown, and that’s when everything around you starts to become much more confusing again. It’s easier just to think that you’ve caught up with something but, rather than look at it very closely, you just leave it in a box and then something no longer is able to properly process through.

So there’s reluctance to do something, energetically, because to do something energetically is going to cause you to have to be confronted by things that are not there now, that are shadow sides and veils of yourself, that will have to be swept in or absorbed, taken in. You actually absorb these things.

When you’re taking and living an energetic you then absorb the abstractions, and you absorb those abstractions in order to have access to the energy that, then, only takes you to a point of greater confusion as you’re trying to then sort, and shift, things to determine what that’s all about.

Now, you’re doing all of this inside of yourself. Yes, to a certain degree you can part with this as a reflection in the outer, but the important thing is to catch up with the unfoldment from a depth inside of yourself – and to whatever degree you find yourself complimenting that by actions in the outer. That’s a whole other thing.

When you compliment that with actions in the outer, you do ground it, and you do make it rooted to the point where whatever it is that’s still in the way becomes issues, and complexities that you have to contend with.

But, otherwise, you can sit in kind of a la-la land and it can feel nice, it can be nice, but to properly break through to what it is that you are able to sense, and touch, at a depth inside of yourself, and also, then, from whatever the inner is that has already laid, or shaped something, as far as a pathway, you can go at this in a way so that it seems that there’s not much to have to contend with as obstacles, or you can take the energetic off, be a little louder in the energetic, and that then will cause you to have to come to grips with the effect, the change agent effect, of the energetic.

And when you have to come into contact with the change agent effect in the outer, just because the outer is reflective, and you’re never quite sure what all it’s reflecting, or is causing it to be reflected. When you contend with that, then you have put yourself into a need-to-know basis which then what needs to come through you, for your own edification, in terms of living this quality of energy, the information then can be provided.

So this whole thing starts off in which it’s being pointed out that the living, to be able to live a particular way that is awash inside yourself, to bring it out, is to find the hidden parts of yourself that are yet in a mask, causes you to come to grips with that front and center. And when you come to grips with that front and center, then you’re going to have to sort out and come to grips with understanding the confusing variables that are generally of a mental kind of nature, or masculine kind of nature. You’re going to have to contend with all of that in order to break through the confusion and bring things back down to what is comfortable, to what is at peace, which is the foundation of your all-encompassing inner side of yourself, which can sit more in a quietness.

Now the dilemma for the feminine, is the feminine is always trying to break out, but it is breaking out, in terms of its doingness, to ideas of what is going on, contributing and supporting the ideas of what is happening around in the atmosphere – and not listening more intently, and realizing, that when it comes out it is coming out in accordance with having to live, or bring through, something that it has as a basis of its energetic being.

Thus, like I say, it will cause one to have to contend with parts of themselves that are in a mask yet, and in having to contend with those parts they will then find that the scenarios that they are living out take on this whole jumble that is part of the process of taking in, and being able to sweep in, and to accommodate the whole. It’s easier to kind of sit in a limbo, but your dream is suggesting that something then comes out of the limbo, where one can sit in kind of a spiritual illusion fascination, and imagination. It’s suggesting that you’re to be taking this energetic more or less into an acting out, or living out, state.

And, when you do that, then what is needed for you to be able to do that will come through because you will have hit that need-to-know basis, as opposed to holding it in kind of an entrenched condition.

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