John: Yesterday I noticed that there was a particular energetic quality that wanted to express itself. I also felt the kundalini energy that was stirred up in relationship to it – there was a potent force behind it.
That then set a tone in me in terms of how something would unfold. I was assuming that everything would work that way. Little did I know that I was too narrow in my expectations.
The image that I had was that there might be 20 components within me in relation to a given issue, all adding their bit to the picture. Then I was reduced down to only six or seven components. That didn’t make sense to me, so I resisted it. I resented the idea that I was going backwards, rather than reaching to something broader.
Then I realized that these six or seven components had kundalini energy behind them. I noticed because I started to sweat in my sleep again. That told me that what I was being reduced down to, in terms of my nature, was still clinging to something, and even that had to be let go.
In other words, I began with 20 components and I was willing to compromise because I knew the kundalini energy was pointing to something that was destined and meant to be. But I was still surprised to find out that I now only had six or seven components. The change felt like a punishment because I had been comfortable with the 20 components.
I was thinking that I just needed to learn to let go, and I was surprised that I was being thrown off by this change. Then, all of a sudden, I started to sweat again, meaning that there was a vibratory thread to this aspect as well.
An example of what could trigger a dream like this is when we are with other people. What often happens is that we (people in general), by our inner thoughts, put pressure on others if we don’t approve of their decisions or something like that. In whatever way, we have an effect on what they are feeling.
What we should really be offering another person is a blank slate of ourselves, being without judgment or agenda. In that way we can offer them a mirror of themselves as they truly are. In doing that, they can see and understand whatever it is that they are ready to see or understand about themselves.
In other words, we are always adding to the energies of another person by what we are processing when we are with them. My tendency is to always want to help people move forward from where they are. But that’s not necessarily what they need (it’s only what I think they need).
We always think we are helping another person, as if we know what’s best, but it’s not necessarily so. We don’t need to try to steer or change people – that just creates confusion. The more a person is able to see themselves, the more they’re able to see other things in their nature. And it’s their business to see that.
Our business is to be a reflective mirror of recognition and appreciation in terms of how a person is. When we don’t do it that way, we create things that put pressure on the space that a person is in.
The key is for us to eliminate or move beyond our own inclinations, by relating exclusively to someone else as they are. That way we don’t really change anything. We have no right to try to change anything. Yet by doing that, we offer a mirror quality that gives them an opportunity to sense and see themselves because we’re not doing anything to cause any further confusion.
Because everyone is so used to putting up defense mechanisms, the best thing to do is to hold a location in us that doesn’t trigger another person’s defense mechanisms. That way they’ll have the clearest sight.
So what my dream is doing in relationship to something like this, is that in the beginning I had the 20 components and that was my comfort zone. It’s turned out to be better to have six components, but I couldn’t relate to that, Ultimately, I also want to let go of the six components so that I’m able to truly see what’s at play, because I’ve removed all the veils of my personal identity.
There are so many blind spots that we can have in our own nature, we might think we are letting go yet still have further to go. The key is to figure out how to truly let go, and let go, and let go and not get caught up to the point that you solidify or become arrested.
The statement is that “every human being eventually comes to a point of solidification.” That is true in death, but it can also be true in life if we get too stuck in our personal psychologies.
If we can keep that from happening, then we can become “less than dust” in terms of the outer environment. That is a state where we let everything be as it needs to be. There is a path within that where everything is fine, if we can find it.