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When we say “yes” to something, everything changes. Yes, I’ll take care of it, yes, I can help, yes, I’ll marry you. The acceptance sends us a down a path that continues as long as the “yes” we offered still applies. Our relationship with the physical world is like that: whatever we allow in to capture our attention, sends us off on a different path. The idea of inner stillness is to be in the physical experience, but to not take the detour. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I seem to be repeating what I did in another meditation dream, it’s like having to go and take another look at it, or something. And so, because I could sense that it’s like that, I’m going over it as if I can just go over it in my deep meditation, and not have to bring it out and come out with it because it’s just a repeat. 

Nevertheless, somehow or another, I’ve noted before that that’s a poor attitude to take. I have to compel myself reluctantly to come out of this inner world, and hold on to this when I open my eyes, and write it up.

Because even though I know that there is nothing that’s that noteworthy, other than it’s going to be a story of plight, I say this because, in this dream, the commotion I feel upon the heart is correlated to an identification upon the breath. That is intensified when there is an identification from these outer reflective conditions that have me spellbound, or my nature is spellbound. Or, you might say, stem from my being spellbound.

And these spells curse the heart. They hover over the heart, they’re like a pain upon the heart, which I guess you could just say is an identification from the breath. Which, when it hits the heart, limits the wholeness of the heart, the stillness of the heart – so it’s like a sensation of stabbing. 

I know this wouldn’t be so if I were in the all-abiding stillness, but instead, this is my purgatory; I have to contend with some flip-flopping around in the breath. Thus I am out of the stillness and into what is a type of futility, in other words, where things are reflective instead of brought back to a wholeness, or a completeness, or a oneness. And I’m struggling in this, that’s a reflection, as if it’s real. 

Only in a letting go to the stillness do I actually go anywhere. In other words, I just yo-yo in this sort of thing because this is not a depth of realness, of wholeness, completeness, of absoluteness, it’s a bifurcation that haunts me.

So I do my best, in the dream, to accept the fate I know that goes along with a breath projection,

understanding that anything that is caught on the breath is lost in an ever-changing outer, or the purgatory of what appears to be like an outer, which is manufactured based upon projection.

So, in my heart, I am realizing that there is a deeper echo of stillness, which is pleading to not be diluted by a breath because it knows that if I allow the struggle that is in the reflective outer to be there on the breath, vying for the heart, that I will be compromised and end up more or less under a heaviness outside of the stillness, or an exhaustion, even.

So, under the scenario – again, because you go back and forth until you’re worn out – so under the scenario that I am in my heart is heavy from an identification. And so I am in a bifurcation that is upon the breath. I am especially saddened because I know that there is no answer for such a state with its endless hallucinogenic yo-yo reflections.

Because I know better I have no right to pray. Because I know better, I don’t just do that and then go begging for mercy. How can I do that? So I must hope others that are a part of me, do so, as they yearn for the stillness. In other words, because I’m supposed to know better. Their crying out for a letting go is my hope to not be permanently lost within a delusional outer projective neverending spell.

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In Jeane’s dreams, we can follow how the imagery leads her from an awakening, or an inner stirring, toward a deeper inner connection, where things happen in a natural and magical way – without the usual struggle.

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Jeane: I had two dreams that were really hard to remember, and I was going over rehearsing them, and then I fell into a repeat dream that was so dominant I forgot my middle dream.

The first dream I had, the main features about it, it’s like I’ve gone into kind of a crowded living area, and into the room of a young woman who’s psychic. And it’s like when I have to go to the bathroom, it’s like she has almost like sacks that go into the ground at certain points, or into the floor, and you can over there and pee. And if there’s one that’s kind of a little closer to the bed that works out better.

But then she suddenly gets fussy and wants us to use one that’s kind of around the corner, which I don’t particularly want to do. So I think I’m a little irritable in that. I don’t quite figure out why she keeps changing what she wants.

And then it feels like when I go around the corner to where there’s kind of a divider and then there’s somebody else, a young man is renting a room or something. And he’s decided that since she has all these people coming and going that maybe he can sublet the back of his room, which doesn’t feel quite right.

It’s like because of what he sees is going on at her place then he wants to do something that brings in more people, or differently utilizes his space.

And then that seems to just shift into a dream that the only thing I remember about the second dream was that I would keep shifting whether I was the… I think I was a young man in it, or if I was the man or I was the woman. It’s almost like I could be all parts in it, but I never got back to pulling out that dream because the repeat dream, or what I felt was a repeat dream, came in that was so dominant.

John: The repeat dream is the dream you’re going to tell next?

Jeane: Yes.

John: What you’re doing in this dream is there’s something that you feel that is affecting you, that is astir in your nature, that causes you to have to look at how you function or live differently. In other words, it uses a peculiar analogy to get there. In other words, it has to do with whether you relieve yourself in this way or in that way, or over around this corner or however, as if you’re following a thread in terms of this process of how you’re releasing things, or as a type of release.

But it’s more than just a type of release. It’s also a way of unfolding to where you get closer and closer to the inner recognition as you are going about outer reflections. The outer reflects the inner. What you’re seeing is that you have a different responsibility.

In other words, you have all these other considerations that you have to take in, that is like a tightening up of the process in terms of how you’re unfolding, or relieving yourself, or however you want to say that.

And so what you’re describing is the spiritual path as perceived by a type of focus and attention that you have with yourself.

Jeane: What feels like to me a repeat dream, it’s even a repeat dream in the dream, it feels like you and I’ve been on an assignment with a number of other people and one of the parts of the assignment is when we got to a certain place, which happened to be my maternal grandmother’s house, that we would put on a certain skit and everyone would come up with a different skit that they put on.

Well, in the original dream, you and I had arrived there alone at night and none of the others were there, and we had come up with this great skit because I never really knew that you could kind of dance and sing and I even had this big wig I put on and we had gotten these animals to participate including this really large poisonous snake.

It had gone really well but we had done the whole skit without anyone else there. We just knew that was going to be part of our assignment. That was the dream I’d had before, and then I have it again.

In the dream this time we arrive at my grandmother’s house, but the whole group is there, and then they tell us we have to do our skit. I hadn’t known we’d have to repeat it again, but of course none of them were there when we did it, and so I’m a little off base because I don’t know what will happen as far as getting the animals there or anything but sure enough the big, large, poisonous, pink, female snake shows up.

And then it’s like I look at the ground and I just do something with focus and waving my hands and suddenly all of the – it’s almost like the ground kind of opens up – and all the other little critters appear. And so that will be part of it.

And I send you off to find your notebook because you had written down the lyrics to the song, which I didn’t remember, and I go off into an inner space going through various rooms looking for a place to change into the outfit and the wig that I wore, and I have some trouble finding a place to change because the rooms we’d used before have changed into a stable and there’s even a saddled horse there, and another one’s a restaurant with people there now, but I finally come back.

I seem to have gotten my… whatever changes I needed to make happen so that we go on to sing. And I go right up to the poisonous snake and it actually has a feminine aspect to her and she is huge. I mean, like she has a face almost as big as a human’s, big python type, all pink, and I actually do some things where I’m scratching her face and getting ready for the performance to sing to her and somebody else is commenting that they had really kind of slacked off on what they were doing for their skit but it felt like we kind of went all out.

You do the singing in the skit for the most part. I just have to get your notebook for a few lines. I guess that’s the main dream.

John: That’s a dream that takes you completely outside of the world of the outer, and into a world so connected to the inner that the reflections that occur in the outer are no longer reflections per se, as if they’re estranged or disconcerted or separate from the inner.

In the first dream that had to do with you trying to figure out where you needed to be and how you needed to be, that dream had a bewilderment and awkwardness to it in that you were still trying to catch up with the ability to grasp or follow the thread to a knowingness of how it is that you are, or are meant to be.

In the second dream, you found it. You know that the energy comes through and awakens and quickens and makes everything alive, only it’s a connectiveness to the innerness, so that the aliveness in the outer is not some sort of like dead reflection, it’s a direct correlation.

In other words, it becomes a symbolic way or a meaningful way of directly creating the inner. In other words, this is a dream that has this whole creative quality to it, and it indicates the role of the masculine as an aspect because the feminine should have a completeness and a wholeness and know how to dance, and the masculine is going to be awkward that way because it does not know how to catch up with the reflections, from which it is able to reach a knowingness or a hearingness. In other words, bring that through almost as if it speaks it into an aliveness in the outer.

The power of the dream is this whole beginning part. In other words, as you’re sitting and trying to understand that, what has occurred there, you’re lowering the energy because you were just living it and going through with it naturally, without any forethought or mannerism at all, a lot different than the awkwardness of the focus and attention in the first dream to try to be where you needed to be, or to follow the thread of however it is that you are directed to be in that regard.

And there’s a certain tension in that because you haven’t yet pulled through the inner in its all encompassing way, and you somehow know when you’re like that that to properly live or relieve yourself, you have to catch up with that as a responsibility.

In the second dream it’s just suddenly there and it has a whole magical element to it in that what it is that you experience turns out to be what manifests around you.

Jeane: The only part of that dream that I forgot near the end is it feels like I go over and I look down a level, where some stairs are, and you’ve gone down there with some guys, and you are apparently moving and so you’re carrying your moving boxes. I’m considering whether I should go down and help you move in, but I’m pausing because I do not necessarily want to carry the same kind of weight boxes the guys carry, so I’m thinking that maybe if I got handed the clothing boxes or something I could carry those in and help you unpack. But I’m just pausing and deliberating on all of it because so far you’ve got guys carrying the boxes for you.

John: That’s still devolving as if it’s something that you still have to contend with or something, because in the first part of the dream it was all working in cohesion, the awareness that was an aliveness that then corresponded to things that were automatically there as if created through the inner energetic. That was all there in the initial first part of the dream.

And so what you did is you just… I mean, it’s almost like you just nonchalantly described what it’s like to bring inner into outer and what that can be like in just kind of a, plop there she be, kind of way. And the other part of the dream has you kind of somehow or another trying to reconcile all of that, and it doesn’t work that way. You can’t reconcile it.

You’re too much in the essence and its aliveness that comes through is created through the presence of that essence in as an absolute a way as you’re able to do it. It has a slight flicker in there where you recognize an aspect of the masculine, in other words that can sing the song or make the note or something like that, but other than that it would just be one seamless flow and it still is a seamless flow, you just throw that in to make sure that one recognizes how it works in terms of your having caught up with your fullness of being.

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