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Adam-and-Eve-twinsFinding true energetic balance in oneself is a key to being able to access and hold the greater depths, or spaces, within. In this dream, Jeane’s resistance to a full acceptance of her inner masculine sets up a violent confrontation. Yet it’s not really a nightmare, but it does reveal what is preventing Jeane on her journey to Wholeness. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: What I remember of my first dream is, it felt like it takes place out on the hillside. It’s almost like people, they’re not really staying in their homes. They’re staying out here.

There’s supposed to be some kind of supervision when there are couples, but it almost feels like in the couples, they’re a danger to each other in a way, or actually within the couple – like the man might be a danger to the woman. And there are people that are supposed to make sure that they keep things safe.

I’m more of an observer in this, I think. It’s almost like you feel like some of the men are trying to kill the women, their wives actually. And so they’ve been somewhat separated. But on the hillside, people have to sometimes come together to help each other, and I’m kind of observing this.

Well, in all of this coming together, suddenly one man stabs the woman to death, but actually says that she fell on the knife, or something like that, like it was an accident; he didn’t mean it to happen, and he kind of gets away with it.

I’m kind of trying to argue the other side, like I don’t trust this, so I’m trying to keep everybody under observation or something, in all of this running around that goes on.

That’s about all I really remember from that dream. I’m upset that anyone even believed him, but they seemed to. It’s like he could get away with it.

John: What you are describing is a very odd way of describing it, but you’re looking at an overall condition, and the overall condition you look at is a setting that is like on a slippery slope, in which the traits that you carry have a crack or a break in them. They’re not held together consistently, and the crack or the break that they have in them creates a problem in terms of holding something together.

In other words, there’s wounding that happens when the masculine energy actually violates the feminine energy of overallness. And it’s hard to keep the overallness together, because it’s on the slippery slope. And you’re just looking at a particular set setting on the slippery slope, and there’s all of this stuff going on that is failing to hold a stableness and that there is kind of an attitude you have in that you feel that what is taking place, the result of it, is not being properly held accountable. It is getting away with it.

What you’re basically describing is a set condition upon which you carry yourself, in which there is this confused gap that isn’t able to sustain itself with a focus.

The way we were dreaming last night, I was looking at how I carry a particular characteristic in terms of how I go about doing things. I carry this particular characteristic or trait in my nature. Left to my own devices I actually shut down to a certain degree with this particular trait. I’m not as open as often times people are when I meet them. I hold a certain rigidity and I often judge myself in terms of this rigidity because I have to then come out of this rigidity in order to relate to them.

This set quality upon which one carries themselves is kind of something that one takes on in terms of being part of, and in, a dense world. It’s the trait that you develop when you learn to chop wood and carry water, so to speak, or get grounded and rooted in life.

So what you’re doing is, you’re seeing where, in the overallness that you’re carrying, in terms of yourself, you have this area in which you leak energy, in which you do not hold that characteristic and that trait and, therefore, you don’t hold your full presence like you could be holding your full presence.

This dream is explaining to you, or showing you, how it is that you dissipate energy, in terms of attitude, or reactivity, or anger, or frustration. It’s interesting, as I hear this dream, what I find interesting about it is you have to carry a real expansive nature because you are meant to be more of a container, and you’re meant to be more subjective in terms of how you’re able to appreciate, feel, and see things. Your seeing being subjective, not objective,

And yet this dream is telling you that your subjective clarity is somewhat biased because there is a component of yourself, the blackboard side of yourself that is rooted in life with the subjective clarity to things, that the degree to which you are able to, in your overallness, take into account what is going on, is biased or affected to a certain degree, by a mannerism that you still carry toward what is going on that isn’t properly and completely linked yet, in terms of your masculine and feminine side.

And that what you’re doing to keep this from coming together, is you’re still holding out some sort of judgment in terms of what is fair or unfair, or appropriate or inappropriate, in terms of how something should be mediated, meaning that what you see, you feel that the standards aren’t right in terms of what the masculine can get away with.

And this bothers you, and because this bothers you, this will then affect your sense of a natural knowingness because it will act as a filter to keep you from getting the information more purely from your subjective side of yourself.

See how that worked? That’s quite a quality catching up with how you carry yourself, so that you can take and know things. And when you carry something that’s a little misaligned, it keeps you from being able to get complete and proper unbiased readout – in your overallness.

 

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Jeane: So, I didn’t dream most of last night, and then I had a dream just before I woke up.

In this dream I was playing somewhere near a house. It looked a lot like my maternal grandmother’s house. I don’t know what I did, but there is a guy in the woods, a young man, who I realize is hunting me. He is looking for me, so I run away.

At first I try to go into my grandmother’s house. Thinking he will figure out I’m there, I run over to a neighbor’s house. I know they have an attic that people can’t really see. Their kids actually climb around toys going up the stairs, so it looks like you couldn’t even make your way up there.

So I go up to that attic room. I’m there for a while and then the scene shifts: it seems there is a little black cat, or someone is like a cat, and the tip of the cat’s tail has been torn off. I’ve taken some black thread and sewn it back on.

I didn’t do a very good job, however, so the tail comes off again. Now, the man who was chasing me has taken the place of the cat with the broken tail – it seems like it’s no longer the cat that has the tail. He’s going to have to let me sew the tail back on him – that’s what his role is right now.

I have a little trepidation about this because I need to sew it on better than before. I think I know how to do it so it will look okay and stay on this time, but at the same time I’m really concerned that when I sew through part of the tail it’s going to hurt and the man might not sit still for that.

I feel anxious about this and I’m just getting to the point where I get the man to sit still. I’m going to sew the tip of the tail onto the rest of the tail, and I think that’s when I wake up.

John: That’s a pretty deep dream. And I think it’s trying to take into account how you’re intertwined with, and affected by, different things. You start off with someone trying to find, or catch, you and you go inside someone else’s house to hide, and where you hide there is a black cat who has lost its tail – is that right?

Jeane: Yes.

John: Which turns out to actually be…

See, I knew in this dream that wherever you were going to hide, there was going to be something in the hiding place that was going to reveal your location. I could tell that this dream was about a type of intertwining.

In other words, the dream starts off as if everything is separate: you, the man, the house, and the cat. The feeling is that there is something you need to avoid (the man), so you go, first of all, into your grandparent’s house and then your neighbor’s house. So, you’re going into places that you feel are familiar and where you feel you have a connection.

But all of that is separate from whatever it is that’s trying to perturb you, or affect you, in some way. What you find there is this black cat, which to begin with you might identify as something that’s an inconvenience, but that’s there nonetheless.

You don’t make the quick association that this is what you’re trying to get away from (represented, again, by the man). You don’t see the linkage of this cat to whatever it is that’s coming after you. That could be because it’s a black cat and a cat has a feminine quality of precociousness to it.

In other words, that which is coming after you is not necessarily as bad as it seems. You’ve been connected to it, or linked to it, in some fashion.

Tomorrow we will delve deeper into the inner workings of this dream.

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John: In this first dream I’m being shown how to take and use a throwing disc. It has a hole in the center and is like a Frisbee; there’s a way of using it as if it’s a type of perpetual motion object.

There’s a person who’s showing a few of us how to do this. The others are really just there, I guess, because it’s ultimately going to fall upon me to have to pass along this understanding. The way it works is you throw the disc at a wall, it bounces off and hits another wall, and then bounces off the corner and comes back, like a boomerang.

In between, there are all sorts of obstacles. Some how or other, the disc works its way through all of the obstacles without getting stopped or slowing down. It comes back with the same energetic force no matter what it bumps into – nothing is lost. That’s why I’m describing it as a “perpetual motion” object.

So when it is thrown, I don’t have to worry where I’m aiming, because the nature of the disc is that it will find its way back. On my first attempt I throw it out very weakly and slowly, not with a lot of force or power. Even so, it seems that no matter what force I throw it with, it still comes back at the same speed, without losing its energy.

Now that I’ve been trained, I have to take this skill into my (outer) life. Only I’m not playing with the disc any longer, I’m just playing with energetic force. The energy needs to be sent out into the universe, and I don’t know if it is supposed to return or just be encompassed within the universe.

All I know is that it’s not supposed to change. It’s supposed to maintain itself. I’m supposed to be able to look out there and see that however it has affected or touched something, that effect remains unaltered.

At first I see the energy penetrate, and it seems to be going through all that I can see in front of me. However, when I take a look more closely, I realize that what I’ve thrown out there has changed. It has been altered and distorted.

This is very disconcerting because I had such high hopes that this could be done and somehow saw that it could be done. Yet when it really counts and is projected out there as an essence of one’s self, as an impulse of one’s self, it degenerates into this appalling distortion.

This result is unexpected and it tears me up inside because I know and feel within that it wasn’t supposed to happen. I start sweating again during my sleep because of this. My whole sense of what I was shown was taken in so literally, I hadn’t expected that this could even happen.

In my sleep, the stress of this causes me to sweat profusely. I’m unable to realize what has gone wrong or how something designed to stay intact has fallen apart.

Tomorrow we will look at the second dream in this sequence and discuss the overall theme and how they the two dreams are related.

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