Posts Tagged ‘scary dreams and nightmares’

Jeane: I still don’t remember the middle dream, so this is the third dream of the night (see Getting Smaller and Smaller). It feels completely opposite from the first dream which had a very delicate, pretty, flowing sense to it; it was a feeling I very much wanted to get back to.

I think this dream could have been influenced by the fact that I’m reading a book called The Family. It’s about a right wing political group that thinks they’re anointed to be Christ’s soldiers, but they’re really about being the elite who are running the world  – they want to be the power behind the scenes. 

So in the dream I’m either with you or some other man, and there’s another man with us who feels more like a brother. We’re trying to investigate a factory at the edge of town where we know people are being taken. Surgery is being performed on them, and it seems they are even being genetically altered.

Some group is doing all kinds of things to make these people the way they want them to be. They are kidnapping people, holding them against their will, and then altering them.

I’ve been in the factory once and I’ve seen what they do. We’re trying to expose them and close them down. Some of the people who work their support what is going on, and others just turn a blind eye and ignore what is happening.

We’re trying to break in or get enough information so the factory can be stopped, but we might get captured ourselves. Part of me just wants to get a good pair of binoculars and observe what’s going on, and another part of me feels like I have to try to get in to the factory.

You tell me that if I should get caught, to just act like I’m there to give someone sexual favors as a way to distract them. I’m not too down with that plan. You might even tell me to stay away, but either way I’m suddenly on my own and going into the factory. 

It feels like this time there is a woman who is helping me. I’m almost discovered. There’s a worker who’s suspicious. I see a way to get out, but I’m carrying some bedding and maybe my binoculars, or a camera or other things, and I need something to put them in.

I see some very thick plastic bags that look like they are manufactured there; maybe they even put them over the bodies. I’m opening one of them up, while being watched with suspicion, so I can put my linens and stuff inside.

When I finally get outside the factory and into town, suddenly someone is questioning why am I doing these things. I actually knock them down. I think I’m trying to beat them up. I’m mad because I think they put up with this factory making changes to them because they’re changes that they really couldn’t do on their own.

I’m really mad that they would allow it to continue just for that reason, so it feels like I actually want to beat them up or something. At least I’ve knocked them down. That’s about the time I woke up.

John: So, why do you feel that this was so different from the first dream?

Tomorrow we will look at how both dreams explore similar territory using very different images and evoking very different feelings.

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Jeane: In the next dream it also feels like I’m always on the run, although sometimes I pause and change directions. My persona is female in this dream.

Initially, I’m with a group of people and we seem to be running towards a body of water, but everyone stops because it looks like we can’t climb over the rocks that are in the way.

But I notice that one of the rocks, a huge rock, has eyes painted on it; it almost looks like something that used to live in the sea, but that came out of the water and became a rock.

Even though it looks like we’re initially blocked from getting to the water, I find a way to get access by climbing over the side. When I reach the water, it looks like a scene from a south Pacific island because a whole group of people are paddling toward the shore in those narrow wooden boats.

John: I’m confused. I’m trying to get the sequence of this down. You’ve gone over some barriers to reach the water?

Jeane: Yes.

John: And there’s also something that’s pursuing you?

Jeane: No, I’m not sure I’m being pursued, but I feel like I am moving very fast, and I have to climb over rocks to get to the water.

John: But you have the sense that there’s something in the past?

Jeane: I feel like there’s something after me in a way, yes, but I…

John: But you can’t put your finger on it.

Jeane: No.

John: And so it looks like, so far, that you’re taking the feminine approach, in which you’re following along in a natural way.

Jeane: So then, when I get to the water, it feels like my way will be blocked because there are all these people paddling in these narrow boats – one after another. It feels like either the boat, or a paddle, will hit me, particularly as they are paused for a moment just prior to starting a race or something.

But I seem to be determined, so I notice that there is a narrow little pathway between two of the boats. There is  a very thin dock, and one can go in the water underneath this dock and not get hit by the paddles.

After I go out into the water, I get onto a boat. Then I look towards the land and realize I have to head back there. I’m not exactly clear on the next sequence, but somewhere in this dream I had seen a male friend of mine who’s a little bit intense.

Somehow, at some point, I become aware that this friend has been taken over by a demon or something, and he’s turning that dark energy on people. That’s why I have to go back to shore – to help with that situation.

When I get back on land I realize there are other people who have been taken over by these “dark forces” and they’re trying to hide this fact. If one pretends like they don’t know it, then the others won’t attack them.

I’m moving amongst them as though I think they’re okay, even though I know they’re not. I know that somewhere among them is a baby that they’ve taken, but the baby still hasn’t been touched by all this dark energy. If they don’t realize that I’ve recognized who they are, I might be able to get to the baby.

Then it feels like I do get to the baby. I don’t really see that I remove the baby, maybe just touching the baby was enough. However I do have to keep moving because I realize that this force (embodied by my male friend) is chasing and taking over people. I’m aware of it because I knew him before the force possessed him.

So I have to go and face the situation. I might be able to help. I’ve left the house where all the people had already been taken over, and I feel like I have to go back into the village. Perhaps I can help. Because I knew him before, maybe I will be able to touch something.

We will delve into the inner dynamics behind this dream in our next post!

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This is Part II of an analysis that began with the dream (Kiss, Chase, Earthquake), and the first look at what is unfolding through the imagery (I’ve Got Rhythm).

John: So we can see that you are dealing with these aspects from both sides of yourself – from the masculine and the feminine. You kiss the boy and then you kiss the girl. It’s an element of Kundalini energy opening up and it needs to be balanced. It’s almost like something is happening at the level of blueprint, from which it can then unfold into a greater part of you. What you’re describing is something at a formative level.

In earlier dreams we’ve seen you being able to embody what needed to be embodied. From the feminine aspect, you were able to function as a container for things that attempted to implement changes in you, changes at the design level.

Perhaps what this dream is pointing to is the need to have greater acuity in how those design changes need to be, because now we see you going to a deeper level so you can learn to have greater discrimination in what’s important and what you are affected by.

It’s as if you’re being held responsible or accountable. The feminine brings about the design changes in life. You’re being held accountable for having gotten a bit off track in terms of how clearly you’re able, or supposed to be able, to embody and know that.

So you’re back working with the two parts of yourself, masculine and feminine, and trying to bring them back together in an improved way. It’s like you are tinkering with the machine: things at the end of the process aren’t coming out quite right, so you go back earlier in the process and make a few adjustments. Then when things come out at the end, it’s a better product.

Maybe this way you’ll see what has been kept hidden and protected and be able to bring it out the way it’s meant to be brought out. It’s been kept safe and secure from whatever is going on in you because this is at a secret depth inside that nothing can touch. As you connect back and begin to bring it out in the open, then you’ll find out whether you are opening it up with clarity or with deviation.

In other words, the whole purpose of a dream like this is to enable you to see the proportions – the inner proportions of yourself at play.

In earlier dreams you have been shown a huge dimension – the big picture, but also how you were not quite there in terms of how that dimension needs to be brought through into the outer. Now, it’s as if you’re chopping wood and carrying water; you’re wrestling with whatever the realities are of handling it, from the inner through its journey to the outer.

You’ve gone from examining the overall, to looking at the in-between where problems are introduced (psychologies), which can cause a loss in translation. It’s pointing out that you have a pattern, or a habit, of losing information along the way (as seen in the chaotic imagery at the end of the dream).

At the same time, you previously didn’t have the ability to do the inner yo-yoing to help you sense it and to sort it out. Well, that’s what your practice of meditation might be giving you – a greater ability to sort things so that they don’t affect your ability to hold the note.

So the underlying theme here is about having to be who you are meant to be. You need to see the big picture, yes, but you also need to manage the stuff in-between. So you are starting to recognize, in terms of yourself, how it is that you’re meant to be, and recognizing that requires you to reach deeper inside and make adjustments at a design level.

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