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Golden spiralIn these dream images, Jeane is shown an imbalance that she continually comes up against, one that keeps her unsettled and unable to be in the flow. And what is important to realize is that we live in a system, the human complex, that has our best interests at heart. It is always seeking to push and prod us toward a state of greater well being and connection – through dreams, through intuition, through knowings. That’s an unbelievable concept in itself, because it acknowledges that parts of us know us better than our waking brains. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So my earliest dreams I don’t remember as much detail except that one, it was like I was in an audience looking up on a stage. Both dreams were about alignment. I was like using my breath to align with something.

So the first instance I was aligning with something on a stage, different things actually. And I remember another segment of that when I was walking somewhere, it even had to do with alignment with a grizzly bear.

Then it felt like I was back at the stage focusing on alignment with someone. And I think I even had a dialogue with you, but it was like, whether we disagreed with something or not, it felt like the only thing I felt was important was really the alignment.

John: What’s interesting is that your alignment vibe feels a lot like what I would call a masculine perspective as a vibe of appreciation. In other words, an alignment gives you an overall quality and sense of things, that pulls things in, so that you can take it all in.

And an appreciation for the masculine does the same thing in that it relieves the masculine of… it softens the quality of how ideas, or impulses, or mannerisms, or pressures are experienced.

Jeane: Then I had a dream where it felt like I met up with a friend, a girlfriend, and we went to a lot of trouble to get somewhere to join a group of people. And we’re sitting with that group of people kind of on a platform, and there are one or two people that I remember as high school teachers that are talking to us.

And things are winding down and, as they’re talking to us, I have a cup someone hands me that has something in it to drink. And I drink, but then in the bottom of the cup is this huge spider, like a tarantula, so I kind of scream out at that. But a tarantula jumps out and lands on my chest, and I have to have someone else come out and remove it because I don’t even want to look at it.

Then that little drama is over and it feels like everything’s winding down. We’re just having dialogue and things and, when it’s time to go home, I suddenly realize I don’t know where my car is. So I have to think really hard and then I realize that I can’t find my car.

I do have to return the car, it’s like a rented car or something, but I realize now that this girlfriend I have been traveling with I had met her at the car dealer at one point, and I must have gotten in her car at that point to come to where I am. So now what I’m going to have to do is find my way back to that car dealer to get the car to return it – and that’s maybe it’s because it’s there it’s already returnable.

It’s like I can’t quite figure that one out. I’m trying to sort it out. After that it felt like all that happened was I actually had a couple of beautiful images. One was just sparkly like colors and things, and another one was some pearls that belonged to my mother.

John: The idea of a tarantula or something jumping out when you let your guard down, so to speak, and you think that you’re just taking in and appreciating an environment – only to find that at the bottom. Or the quality of not being able to remember how an alignment of things has come together is a repeat pattern for you, and it’s apparently a repeat pattern because it points to something that you’ve done to short that out, or to cause that sort of thing to be sitting there in some imbedded fashion in your nature that comes up from time to time to mess up your well being.

So it’s more or less speaking of something that’s unresolved, or not properly taken in, or appreciated, or aligned and, as a consequence of that, you are not able to be as even and as settled as would ordinarily be the case.

This is also like a tear or a complex for you that can cause you to crack up. And the approach, the energetic effect of this, is a little like having to know how to work with kundalini energy. And the reason I say that is because your after-images are all an attempt to restore the balance, and the cadence, so that you don’t go taking something too seriously and do another kind of stabbing upon yourself.

However, the fact that this keeps coming up, this quality keeps coming up, means that you have to take stock of the fact that you have this reactive aspect in your nature that keeps you from being able to settle back and appreciate, fully appreciate, what is just naturally unfolding.

And because there is that conundrum, it creates the sense that you have an alignment conundrum, so I’m thinking that your alignment conundrum is more of a byproduct of the fact that there is this gap, this part of yourself that is on edge, that also then affects your ability to catch up with memories that would normally naturally be there, but this other sits there and has to be, and is, absorbing a lot of your consciousness.

Because the way that this is is if carried to an extreme this could drive one crazy, or over an edge, because it can spin out and spin out and spin out. So you’re taking it in in little doses, and you’re looking at it in terms of it being an alignment issue is a roundabout way of looking at the outside parameters of the scenario, but the depth of it is something that is pretty jarring, energetically speaking.

But the thing about this is it’s kind of like a Doctor Jekyll and Hyde kind of thing because, if that’s not there, you have appreciation. When it’s there you’re not allowed to… when it’s prevalent it undermines the appreciation and it has you thinking that something is off. Or when it’s flickering the sense is that something is off.

So it’s an archetypal kind of trauma. You have energy that, as you work it through, brings you into a wholeness of yourself, and the language of your soul seems to have an intent upon you catching up with this – and it is going at it in a very careful way.

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John: Picking up from where we left off yesterday (see Holding It Together), my dream shows how easily we can get lost in some pattern from the past that has no current meaning or usefulness for us.

In the dream, I’m returning to high school.

I’m apparently an older student, but I’ve decided that I don’t necessarily want to return like I’m an old fogey, or someone who acts like they’ve got it all figured out, because there’s something stale or stagnant about that. I know that every time I return to school after being away for a while, it’s going to have a different sense about it. There’s going to be a shift.

So what I do is go through the introductory part of the orientation, to get the feel of how this will affect me or how things have changed. Time has gone by and it might be slightly different in terms of how I take it in.

After doing that I go back through the door to where the new class of freshmen are. Of course, they’ve never been to high school before so they are full of anticipation as to how it’s going to be. There’s a certain excitement in the expectation and, as a consequence, there’s nothing that limits the potential – and I find that refreshing.

In fact, it doesn’t have any parameters around it, where it’s taken for granted in some sense because everything has already been figured out and put in its place. It’s a pleasure to be with something that exudes like this.

To help things along, because I do have a little understanding, I go through the door first as if I’m kind of clearing the way. On the other side I see the upperclassmen that I know, and I’ve known them a lot longer than I’ve known the freshmen.

I hear their voices and recognize people, but I’m holding back so that I don’t get pulled in to talk with them because my whole sense is that they feel stale and reserved and are just going through the motions in their return.

In other words, it doesn’t have the same level of excitement. It’s kind of a lackluster state, so I hang back and wait for the freshmen who are right behind me to come through because they’re more exciting and alive to be with and joyful and so on.

As I’m there, I’m pondering if it’s going to make sense to introduce the freshmen to the upperclassmen, or will the older guys be too stuck up to respect the exuberance and excitement of the freshmen?

What happens is that I wake up noting that I’m hanging back, waiting. I don’t want to be seen or recognized or pulled into the realm of the upperclassmen. I’m waiting for the freshmen to come through, and pondering if I can integrate their enthusiasm into an atmosphere to enliven it, or will the blandness of the familiar that the upperclassmen carry repress the fresh and eager anticipation of embracing life?

I’m familiar with the ways of the heart, with its euphoria for life, but also the way that other things can just go along with a process, putting in time in a lackluster way. So I look to that which is now and alive as if this is where the future lies.

The reason for this dream is to get me to shift from a way of life I know too well, I’m too familiar with, and is too predictable and, therefore, shut off from an aliveness that’s quickened, innocent, and teeming with excitement. Such freshness is actually infectious if I’m able to catch it and it’s able to make a difference with its euphoria in ways that I find interesting and touching.

This way of being has not yet been beaten up by life and needs to be guided in such a way that it doesn’t lose its flair. My concern is that this wonderful quality will get worn down into a pattern that is again lifeless. That would be sad.

In the past this sort of thing has been inevitable; can it be different this time?

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Jeane: In my dream it feels like I’ve had someone imprisoned in a hospital for something they did. I’m pretty sure it’s a woman, but sometimes I seem to think about them as a man, so I’m not positive on that part.

Some time has passed, and now another man and I are going to the hospital; we’re going to smuggle this person out and break them free. This will probably be as much a surprise to the person in the hospital as it would be if the hospital staff discovered that we’re the ones doing it.

So we have to distract the staff and smuggle the person out. I get them in my car and then I have to decide whether to have them hide, or maybe cut their hair short, so if it’s a woman she can now be disguised as a man until we can get past any roadblocks.

I’m trying to go through different scenarios of how best to keep hidden. Then we drive off.

I have the impression that one of the reasons I can break this person free now is that my children have all grown up. So it feels safe to let this person out or to break them out. There’s also some kind of intense dialogue I seem to have with them now.

John: The theme of the dreaming last night has to do with having to hold onto some sort of overall inner balance, in relationship to being confronted with things that are overwhelming, in terms of the use of energy, in the outer.

What you did was start with a general, overall vibration in terms of how you felt things. Then you took and added to that. There’s a certain overallness to an energy from within, which you hold inside. You’re in a physical body and you’re able to direct that energy in particular ways, and when you do direct it in some specific way you can, when coming from the center, have a lot of energy . And you can do it in a free way – providing you hold onto the understanding that it comes from.

The energy you’re working with is an energy that’s at the essence of your being, or is from the inner, so when you’re having this dream, in terms of you taking and now applying this energy in some specific outer way, what you’re doing is weighing the degree to which this foray takes something away from how you feel yourself connected in an overall context.

And you find you’re able to do that because something about you has grown up (the children), or has gotten to the point where you can sustain the energy that you feel within, without losing it. Ordinarily when you take energy and cycle it and funnel it into some outer capacity, it faces a lot of resistance from you, in the form of personal or psychological indulgences. So the degree to which you personally indulge, is the degree to which you do harm to yourself in terms of maintaining this inner space.

You have this dream in which you’re trying to see if you truly are free, if you truly have let go. In other words, can you deal with a huge challenge, from an outer context point-of-view, that you’ve decided to take on, to see if you can effect a change in it or break something free?

And, can you do this without contaminating yourself, or without contaminating the inner space? A part of you is saying yes you can, because something has grown up. However, you’re not sure, so what’s facing you is presented as a dream, with the potential to be caught, or not break free.

So what you’re doing when you have a dream like this is you’re weighing the forces inside you that are personal versus impersonal, or that are totally free or in a nothingness or an emptiness, versus still having some sort of involvement in an outer capacity, reflective way.

In doing this you’re recognizing the degree to which that kind of lack of independence, in terms of letting go, will actually distort or hurt you.

An example of what that’s like is when the American Idol judge Steven Tyler commented to one of the participants that her biggest challenge was in accepting herself. He felt that this comes with time and that eventually she would get to the point where she could just think, “I don’t give a shit.”

Using that language, and many other mannerisms, is Steven Tyler’s way of showing that he’s beyond what other people think; he’s not limited by what other people project on him, or how they try to define him. So he stays true to his core. He said to the participant that she may not have that quality and freedom now, but she’ll get that. Eventually it will come to her.

That’s kind of how this dream is. You have this huge energetic opening up – can you process it in a way that doesn’t compromise it, or inject some limiting personal, self-image problem, in relation to what you’re experiencing inside and what you’re dealing with on the outside?

The dream is a testing ground, presenting a situation to see if you can take and truly bring inner into outer. Because if you just take the bait of whatever life throws at you, feeling that you have to confront it and deal with it in some separate capacity, then you really haven’t found, using the words of Steven Tyler, the spiritual version of that “I-don’t-give-a-shit” mannerism inside you. That place that’s totally free, empty, and in a nothingness.

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