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In John’s meditation and dreams, the role of the soul is explored, as it tries to manage the inner life in relation to the physical experience.

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John: What I noticed from my dream, is that the soul does not know how to relate to the outer conditions of things. The soul sits in a state where everything is okay, and so if there’s something haywire in the outer, and that’s what’s being impressed in the direction of the soul, the soul has to figure out how to accommodate that.

And that is kind of a strange thing for the soul to do, because the soul doesn’t relate to that. The soul relates more to the whole, and yet it finds itself having to accommodate something that doesn’t quite twang right. And the thing that’s missing, is the soul is being required to make work something that’s outside of the equation of where it is at.

In other words, the reflections happen around the flow from the soul, but the soul is separate from those matters that can be described or imaged. The soul is free from all of that, and yet, if something that because the soul seems to be compelled to have to hold its relationship to the physical, in other words, you’re in the physical there’s an element of an aliveness in the physical to which the soul is the vital essence, if what is going on in the physical has to be dealt with by the soul, the soul doesn’t know how to really relate to that other than by trying to take and be in some sort of coping way.

And there’s a sadness in this coping way because it’s displaced from the greater orientation that it can have. Now, where this makes things especially difficult is if you have caught up with this greater awareness of how things are, in terms of the way that unfolds, if you’ve connected with that, and then you find yourself slipping back into trying to establish the chemistry around you of something like that, that is when you will find that if you are true to yourself, you can’t make those elements, those images, you can’t make them real in a touching way.

I guess that’s why it’s said that when you go to a certain point inside yourself to let go of that and try to go back out into the outer, it just doesn’t work anymore. The images and the mannerisms that have fed you before in the outer, just don’t do their thing anymore, because you know better.

In my dreams last night I had to experience the ordeal of this sort of thing, and so I did it straight away as an aspect of meditation. As I’m sitting in the meditation, in kind of an absent state, where something just kind of comes in where there’s generally a meaningful inner effect, in other words, that evolves, I am confronted with the physical result that I have to adjust to in order to not feel afflicted, because it is afflicting me.

It’s kind of like when you sit to meditate and you’re fidgeting and you can’t stop fidgeting or you can’t stop the thinking then you are afflicted by that which is happening around you, and that kind of keeps you in that state of a trance, or way of being off. And so that is the veil, and you’re held by that veil – in that degree you feel off.

I remember dreams when I would have stomach acid and I’d incorporate that stomach acid into a quality that told me something in terms of the dream. In this particular case, in terms of how I was sitting or something, I developed a huge pain and I incorporated that pain into it, in order to try to make it work, but I couldn’t make it work because that pain was in the way.

And that’s how I came to realize what the soul has to put up with when it has these kinds of peculiar impositions that are placed upon it that the soul generally just doesn’t know how to relate to because it takes into account the big picture. It takes into account the wholeness.

Essentially the scenario is, as I mentioned, I went somewhere and wherever it was that I went I had to try to contend with, on this side of things, a physical pain, and this was very confusing because the soul doesn’t design, in its infiniteness, some sort of pain. And to the denser, lower self, whatever you’re going through has a fatalistic, shallow, and just basically it can lead to a sadness, can lead to all kinds of things coming through the senses, because you don’t have the linkage you need.

And the soul, because it’s always situated in an overallness, the soul consciousness has to accept and absorb these outward deviations. So to accept those circumstances, whatever they might be in the outer, the blend between the two, the struggle between the two, can have you courageously making a stand as if this is how you’re meant to be. But what’s needed is just this noble focus that adheres to what is deemed true to the big picture wholeness it is in. That’s what you need to have, not the preoccupations on the little things.

The deeper meaning is, because the meditation took me outside of my physical senses to a place where lower self emotional activity is gone, and if it were to remain it would be confusing, because to remain in kind of a lower self, lower level, physical level way of orientation, it’s always some sort of strife, whether you identify it or not, whether you look at it or not, you still feel it.

So the inner response is to simply accept what is meted out, as if it is an intended aspect of the wholeness, and the wholeness as designed.

By taking and knowing how the soul is constantly trying to find the orientation of, as above so below, that’s where I know that the soul is not able to reconcile consciously a physical limitation. It has to factor that into the greater beingness, as if it’s part of what is designed to be. Because the soul doesn’t have this lower-self whimpering, or futility, and nature of the humanistic aspect to have to deal with some imbedded reaction, or defense mechanism, that one has. It doesn’t do that. In fact, it isn’t even possible for the soul to do that. The soul is not a defense mechanism in which limitations such as this even exist.

A soul is part of a wholeness that doesn’t become shallow just to convenience the personal level. The soul has to sit in this overall infiniteness, and it is us that tries to make that come across like that and be different. The soul never lives itself, or sees itself, or experiences anything, on the basis of reflections because they aren’t real, only the lower self does that.

That is the meditation dream. I had a lot of pain. What was interesting is I came right out of it, it was all psychosomatic to create the scenarios so that I could see those.

When I went to bed I continued dreaming about being out of place with where I am meant to be. Every image was either embarrassing, disgusting, sad, or demoralized.

For example, in one scenario I’m kind of in this large reception area room that’s like full of high school students that I don’t know anybody and it’s like maybe a type of graduation party and they are jockeying and carrying on and there’s all this commotion.

But I don’t relate to anyone and not only that I am the only one there who isn’t dressed, wandering around naked, and it’s an embarrassing and disgusting situation, but nobody seems to pay any attention to it except the emcee that are looking out for the fact that this party exists and so maybe they’re the grownups in the group. And they’re a little embarrassed by it.

And then this progresses to the point where when it’s time to sit down or something I can’t even find a seat, which doesn’t belong to someone else, without me, in other words, pushing myself into where I don’t belong. And wherever I look I see people I do not know and cannot relate to.

And from there I proceed out onto a boat as if this is kind of a recreation for the whole gathering, and I am just as out of place there. I don’t know what it is I’m trying to accomplish there, and even at one point I turn to a person who is sitting next to me and I ask him if what I’m doing is taking away from the experience, or lowering the energetic for him.

And he just looks at me, and as he pauses to glance within I can see that he knows what I mean. To me it is so obvious I would have expected a person to be able to get it straightaway, but people just don’t realize that everything that they find themselves trying to do for the sake of thinking that this is what it’s about in terms of trying to enjoy, and this is a reception, a party, and all of that in relationship to some event of some sort, and yet everything that is done to orchestrate all of that in the outer is completely flat. It has to have that inner aliveness to give it a quality.

There comes a time when I realize that I must go back to get my clothes. In other words, I had gone out on this boat excursion and still seem to apparently have my jacket or clothes or something that were left behind maybe on a boat near the docks or something. And so I actually jump in the water and try to swim back there but everything is discombobulated. I don’t recognize a single thing.

It’s as if the high school graduation party and reception and all of that and whatever the extracurricular have been, which was the boat scene, has all ended and things have shifted back into a whole different look. Without that projection, there’s a whole different look.

So there isn’t a person around that I can even relate to as even that innocent or bizarre kind of high school vibration even. So I haven’t the foggiest idea where the place is even where I put my clothes, and so in one of the busier kind of houseboats or something that’s floating out there, which has a whole different scene that’s emerged there, I seem to ask out of complete confusion because I have nowhere to know how to recreate what that’s supposed to be like because all of the outer images are different, I ask this person and sure enough they, in changing the scene, moved a whole bunch of clothes aside rather than throw them out. And you would have thought maybe they could have just as easily thrown them out because they were reshaping it for whatever it is that is their outer scene. And it’s at that time that I realize that I’m not the only one trying to experience that which no longer exists or makes any sense.

What is going on is that I looked up the place where my friend was moving, and I was stunned. Remember I communicated how that left me just really strange? Energetically it hit me as off. I didn’t like the neighborhood. I felt like a person who could no longer relate anymore to that which is needed, and so in the dream… the meaning of the dream is my new dream has me delving into an energetic, sinking feeling that came over me yesterday.

What I learn from the meditation dream is that without the inner awareness I wallow in the outer. When I wallow in the outer, the soul gets confused because it doesn’t relate that way. The soul isn’t necessarily confused, the soul is maintaining how it is that it sees things in the overall.

And then this other is thrown at the soul and that leads to a huge gap, which results in confusion. There’s a reason why one experiences it like this and why one has these experiences is when you notice that the outer is like this, it’s to help you come to grips with the fact that your attention needs to be even clearer in terms of sustaining and maintaining the soulfulness, because that’s what when you have the correspondence and can find the correspondence of the inner into the outer, that’s what is alive. Until this dream I hadn’t realized just how discombobulating it is to be disconnected from the inner.

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Jeane: In the beginning, I’m in a large building where I’m going around and trying different elevators. I’m going up and down on different floors trying to figure out the right elevator to produce a certain effect.

I’m not sure I can tell you what that effect is, except that I can figure out what effect a certain elevator has on a person. I finally figure out which elevator goes up and down at a speed that works.

Because I’ve accomplished that, I then find myself at a university and a teacher has come and given me an assignment to help two new students (a man and a woman) whom I know. The man is in a fraternity. I don’t know if the woman is part of a sorority or not, but they are both having some trouble with adjusting to the university.

In fact, one of them is having a problem physically because of the stress at school. Because I figured out the elevator system, I know that I can meet with them and I can help them. If they know what elevator to go to, on what floor, and the speed it goes, then that will help them out physically as well as with any other stresses of adjustment.

First I see the man at his fraternity and have him pulled aside and we sit down. I think he knew I was assigned to help him, but there is a lot he hadn’t shared with other people about what was going on, so it feels like we talk for a bit.  

After that I meet with the woman. She also hadn’t told anyone of the stress she was having physically, so I explained what elevator she should be taking because I had figured out that system.

Now I will be meeting with each of them regularly. It may not always be easy for them, but I will give them some guidance on adjusting to university life.

John: The theme of this imagery has to do with how, in order to be able to do anything, or to make changes, or to pull anything together, you have to get into life. And you see yourself learning all of the variables by going up and down the elevators: different floors, different levels, different ways…

Jeane: Different speeds.

John: Yes, different speeds and all of that. Essentially when you use the term elevator, it’s symbolic for the breath. So you’re noticing different qualities of your breath, and it’s a breath in relation to how you feel about something, or come to understand it, because by taking and trying everything out you come to know how it all resonates in relation to a measuring device within, which is the heart.

They actually are correlated; the listening center of your heart and your breath are correlated. In order for you to realize or recognize anything, in order for you to get into life so to speak, you have to allow yourself to pay attention to that.

In paying attention to that you gain a certain insight because you know how circumstances are around you, how it all tends to vibrate or echo in you – based upon your having made and recognized, by delving into life, what the various things actually feel like on various levels, various speeds, and various ways of breathing.

So once you become fairly adept at that, you don’t get lost in it. In other words, it’s not taken for granted anymore. You know where the constant needs to be, and to start off you’re able to distinguish things for others. First it might be the masculine energy and then it might be the feminine energy, but eventually you work with both of them.

What you’re seeing is that, in order for this to happen, you have to allow yourself to be subject to everything that there is: all the levels, all the speeds, all the various ways of breathing. And you have to make a note inside you, on an energetic level, by the only part of you that knows how to measure things energetically – which is your heart – because your whole ability to be alive or have a presence in the physical body has to do with an energetic.

That energetic is held together by the breath: a breath that dips down into life and then goes back to a Home, and it keeps doing that, just enough to keep things going. Initially, in a life, it’s a great, great strain because we don’t know (we’re in a state of amnesia) what to make out of Creation, or what to make out of the Created or the Creator, when we go back (Home) with the in-breath.

But ultimately, if we come around and catch up with that, it is being in life. We’re not hiding from anything and we’re able to look at things exactly as they are. We’re no longer on this treadmill of bouncing around, taking on different personalities. We’re no longer searching for something but not knowing what we’re searching for.

So the dream is showing that you’ve taken it all, and you’ve gotten into it, so you’re now able to give response.

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Jeane: So in this last image of the series, I’ve moved West, and I’ve gone into the new house where I’ll be living. As I noted, everyone lives communally (see The Octave of the Times). The wife of one of the couples living there sends her husband to seduce me in a bed with new sheets on it. I think this is the dream where I saw a lot of the color yellow moving through the house.

I’m more of an observer, though. I’m just finding it all interesting. It’s strange. I’m observing this new scenario and seeing the bright yellow color. I don’t remember a lot of other details.

John: This is a mixed bag dream in that to understand what’s going on, one has to ponder whether the key aspect has to do with recognizing an importance, on an inner level, that needs to be experienced or realized.

The idea that you, or an aspect of you, is being seduced means that something is opening up, or that something is in need of being sustained, or recognized, or realized at a depth within. This provides a counterpoint to the previous images where you were becoming aware of things happening in the outer (first that things were changing, and second that you needed an encompassing awareness, from top to bottom).

So you began by having recognition in the outer, and now it has switched to recognition on an inner level. The sense of seduction relates to a basic carnal association with kundalini energy (as it manifests in the outer world). But on an inner level, the kundalini both touches Creation and that which is on the other side of Creation.

The idea of kundalini energy is significant in terms of understanding the dynamic that’s going on. The higher octave of kundalini energy isn’t involved with the inner (to the degree in which the inner relates back into the outer) because it relates from another zone that is so wide open that it brings in the principle of love.

It’s one thing for everything to be astir and be changing in the outer, but it’s another for what’s astir and what’s changing to be able to accommodate something more – as a need. When people start revolutions, or when things begin to stir, it’s like somewhere deep inside they’re questing for something more. They’re hearing an echo.

When the Beatles appeared and the revolution in the Sixties was occurring, it was almost like the full download didn’t come through, but people were still questing and looking and seeking something more.

When there is the insight that things going on in the outer are falling apart, or that the usual balance and order of things is being questioned or challenged, it means that people are responding to a need that has to do with an inner impulse that’s seeking change. That change, if you really get to the bottom of it, is an attempt to awaken. It’s an attempt to come to grips with a larger part of themselves.

Within this theme, you approached it in the first two images by looking at the variables in life. Then, in the third image, you tried to take a trace of that back by having the inflection of the carnal side, which appeared as the seduction, of kundalini energy.

So you stayed very basic in your dreaming. In other words, change begins with an inner note that we are meant to maintain, and sustain, and then carry down or through into life. Hopefully we are able to bring it all the way through to life, because the challenge is that as it moves closer to our outer reality, the various levels and awareness in that note begin to fade out because they are affected by our inner noise (psychologies) and the denseness (world of matter) of the outer.

In your particular case you saw all the different levels in the outer astir, but you didn’t get a good answer other than to realize that you needed an infusion in order to facilitate and be at home with the process. That infusion was the kundalini energy, which is one-third sexual and two-thirds of it exists on the other side.

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