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When we say “yes” to something, everything changes. Yes, I’ll take care of it, yes, I can help, yes, I’ll marry you. The acceptance sends us a down a path that continues as long as the “yes” we offered still applies. Our relationship with the physical world is like that: whatever we allow in to capture our attention, sends us off on a different path. The idea of inner stillness is to be in the physical experience, but to not take the detour. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I seem to be repeating what I did in another meditation dream, it’s like having to go and take another look at it, or something. And so, because I could sense that it’s like that, I’m going over it as if I can just go over it in my deep meditation, and not have to bring it out and come out with it because it’s just a repeat. 

Nevertheless, somehow or another, I’ve noted before that that’s a poor attitude to take. I have to compel myself reluctantly to come out of this inner world, and hold on to this when I open my eyes, and write it up.

Because even though I know that there is nothing that’s that noteworthy, other than it’s going to be a story of plight, I say this because, in this dream, the commotion I feel upon the heart is correlated to an identification upon the breath. That is intensified when there is an identification from these outer reflective conditions that have me spellbound, or my nature is spellbound. Or, you might say, stem from my being spellbound.

And these spells curse the heart. They hover over the heart, they’re like a pain upon the heart, which I guess you could just say is an identification from the breath. Which, when it hits the heart, limits the wholeness of the heart, the stillness of the heart – so it’s like a sensation of stabbing. 

I know this wouldn’t be so if I were in the all-abiding stillness, but instead, this is my purgatory; I have to contend with some flip-flopping around in the breath. Thus I am out of the stillness and into what is a type of futility, in other words, where things are reflective instead of brought back to a wholeness, or a completeness, or a oneness. And I’m struggling in this, that’s a reflection, as if it’s real. 

Only in a letting go to the stillness do I actually go anywhere. In other words, I just yo-yo in this sort of thing because this is not a depth of realness, of wholeness, completeness, of absoluteness, it’s a bifurcation that haunts me.

So I do my best, in the dream, to accept the fate I know that goes along with a breath projection,

understanding that anything that is caught on the breath is lost in an ever-changing outer, or the purgatory of what appears to be like an outer, which is manufactured based upon projection.

So, in my heart, I am realizing that there is a deeper echo of stillness, which is pleading to not be diluted by a breath because it knows that if I allow the struggle that is in the reflective outer to be there on the breath, vying for the heart, that I will be compromised and end up more or less under a heaviness outside of the stillness, or an exhaustion, even.

So, under the scenario – again, because you go back and forth until you’re worn out – so under the scenario that I am in my heart is heavy from an identification. And so I am in a bifurcation that is upon the breath. I am especially saddened because I know that there is no answer for such a state with its endless hallucinogenic yo-yo reflections.

Because I know better I have no right to pray. Because I know better, I don’t just do that and then go begging for mercy. How can I do that? So I must hope others that are a part of me, do so, as they yearn for the stillness. In other words, because I’m supposed to know better. Their crying out for a letting go is my hope to not be permanently lost within a delusional outer projective neverending spell.

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futuris9Is it not true that, when we pursue a subject, more and more becomes known to us? And if we were to spend our entire lives on a single subject, isn’t it likely that we would have breakthroughs and insights never known before? So, it is clear that the intelligence of anything and everything is available to us – if we know how to gain access to it. And it’s an energetic thing: our research and pursuit puts us on the frequency of the energies we seek, and, in turn, the energy carries the intelligence that we “suddenly” know. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In a prior dream, many nights ago, I was given a test to see what I could see, or know. I was told that if I don’t know, I can ask. In this dream, I go back into the questions and images that I do not understand – and am taken into this to see and understand. And it’s like an experience of being taken down into something, going down into something, and there’s a whole world that opens up.

So, first of all, I go to a bazaar. When I come to this bazaar, where I faintly remember if I don’t know the answer to something, first of all, I’m on top of the bazaar, I haven’t gone down into it; I’m at the gatekeeper. And I was told that if I don’t know the answer to something, I can ask.

So I’m communicating my concern. And so I’m telling the host, that’s above, that hasn’t yet taken me down into the bazaar, that I’ve been told that if I don’t know I can ask. And so the host attempts to explain, but realizes I have not accessed this part, experientially, inside. I venture some answers on some things, and can catch some of the hints that she gives, but she realizes that I really, really don’t know that I’m a little flip-flop.

So she takes me down into the place where this exists, and where what I need to learn is pointed out. I mention to her that I have never been here before, and didn’t know that this existed. I’m told that the legacy is passed on here, and I just need to take it in. The legacy is ancient, and the science is forgotten.

What I see is like a skit, like from another country, or world, or something. It’s my best explanation of why I’ve never had any idea that something like this exists, and it’s designed to prepare me at various intervals, even. In other words, it’s not like I just look and get it, I have to go through steps there, various intervals, to see if I can figure anything out.

And, as I struggle, the skit continues until I get it. From this bazaar, I realize that all the questions I have, on the test that I took in a prior dream, are revealed here at this place that I have never been to before, including the answers to questions that I intuited as a good guess, but didn’t really know the half of.

Now, the thing that happened was, this was a test that I took inside myself in a previous dream. I never remember taking this test – until I went back into it like this. But I had taken this test and I remembered how bewildered I was at one question, in particular, where I hadn’t the foggiest idea what anything meant, not the foggiest idea. On the others, I sat with them and maybe, in a type of stillness, got a little bit of an answer, but that was about it; but didn’t really know the half of it.

So, the meaning of this dream is, from the stillness – and not the indulgence – that which needs to be made known occurs. So what are we talking about? Indulgence is sticking, is stopping, on some part of the breath, either out-breath or in-breath, that’s the indulgence. You have to let it go, from the stillness, that it all reveals, it’s all embedded.

I simply need to settle back. If I indulge, not knowing the half of what lies within, I get bewildered, lost, and caught up in nuances. From the bazaar experience, taken in silently, comes a revealing of that which is repressed and hidden. My problem is that I am embarrassed by what I don’t know, and this leads to a furthering of the delusionality when I journey with the breath, on my own, with no idea where I’m at. Few can sit in stillness and let every level of our beingness, on all planes of existence in manifestation, to be revealed.

Instead, when this was presented before to me, in a dream, I took wild guesses and couldn’t have been further from the truth that required an inner stillness to reach. I didn’t remember the dream because I was lost.

When I get what I am shown in an inner stillness, I am able to go back and forth with this, in the breath, and, in this way, this ancient hiddenness from the stillness comes into consciousness. This is the reason for the breath: to bring the wonders of the universe into consciousness.

When we get stuck on an aspect of the breath, we fail the Prime Directive test. We don’t even begin to understand what the breath is like. When we are so bewildered we are unable to sort anything out, that is when stillness is required to provide a space to step aside from our indulgences. Slowly we learn to go beyond the reflections of our nuances, and, instead of traveling on a journey, we travel within something – which is the stillness, that we call traveling in God, I guess.

So that is when the real purpose of the breath is revealed. The breath is there so man can live as the Crown of Creation; as the crown every mystery of beingness, from all levels, is revealed. The feminine wonder of the in-breath is like experiencing wonders deep within that we had no idea existed. And the masculine breath is meant to bring such wonders into life.

Hardly anyone, these days, understands this importance, and spends their day journeying back and forth with the breath, in a state of unconscious bewilderment. Only a few discover that the breath is the portal to everything that exists, or has ever existed.

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33d1liat2Why would the universe give humans freedom of choice? Because freedom of choice allows for things to happen that are beyond the robotic repetitions that follow a predetermined plan. But it’s an incredibly risky thing to do, because, as we can see, choice can be used for good things as well as terrible things. So how does the universe protect itself from such a risk? It disconnects its energetic support from anything that is not contributing to the refinement and evolution of the whole. Said another way, it feeds and protects, energetically, what it wants to support, and starves energetically what it wants to discourage. This is the difference between being connected, or not. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation, there is a way that I have at my disposal that enables me to do things with greater ease. The dilemma I have is I have gotten dependent upon kind of an outer means, and yet, on the inner, I’m looking forward to availing myself of doing it in this other way.

So, in other words, it’s like I’m dreaming both inner and outer; that’s the oddity of it. On the inner, I can see how something can be done with ease, how there is a quality to the way of doing things that makes everything flow. And it’s almost like I can feel that, I can feel how it can be like that, and yet, then in the outer, when I’m in the outer, I am the way I am and I can just report to myself in the outer, almost as if this other is trying to break through, that there is a better way of doing it.

In other words, in the meditation dream, I have it easier because at my disposal is an energetic that in an inner capacity I’ve gotten accustomed to going to. So, in the meditation dream, the effect in the outer is seen to be about 3%; only able to bring about 3% across. This effect is able to change, and it’s a tremendous 3% because it’s able to change unfolding consequences when I access, just by the fact that there is this kind of essence that’s leaked through.

So what is interesting is this effect is in the hands of my shadow, in other words, the other side now is my shadow, which is hanging out in an inner zone, while I’m going about in manifestation. It’s kind of like a strange way of dreaming this. Carl Jung had a dream where he saw a yogi sitting by a tree, and then when he came up close to him he realized the yogi had the face that was him. And then he realized that if the yogi woke up, then how could he be? What was the dream, and what was the dreamed, kind of thing?

Well, that’s kind of how this is, I’ve got this inner thing that’s an aliveness inside of me, kind of like a shadow, but the effect of that can come across and can touch the outer, and can be brought into the outer, and can affect the outer. And this inner quality is where total at-ease and peace exists. And, to the degree, even if it’s just 3%, that something comes out, it can change the way things are, it can affect the way things are. Otherwise they’re pretty dense, and pretty serious, and you’re caught up in your senses.

So, in the outer, there is this need to justify that I can lean upon things in the outer. In other words, I’m trying to justify that I can go through the things in the outer, I can lean upon the things in the outer. I can do this as my motif, but that’s not the way the shadow part, or this other part  on the inner plane where my higher self decides, it decides it all has to go. So it is destroyed. I winced at not having this at my disposal, when I could have used it to make things easier in the outer.

So the inner got destroyed. The 3% got destroyed. It’s like I was using it, but maybe misusing it, or something, and now all of a sudden it’s gone away. So my higher self saw this as being a limitation, in that I was going more and more asway in the outer, applying it to make my life easier. I was not meant to use it in that capacity. Use, in this way, leads to an imbalance and inadvertent ungroundedness. So my higher self, seen in this dream as a friend, destroys it. It was okay, but not if the effect is going to change the meaningfulness of the process.

So, what is going on? The energetic that I am waking up to needs to be in an inner/outer cohesion. If not, there is a problem, the problem shows up in the outer in that the unfoldment deviates into a personal abstraction. To deviate means a closeness of the heart, in the outer level, has gone askew.

At the inner, higher-self level, the importance of the heart being in a more real place, meaning unfolding closer to the essence made manifest, not getting lost in the outer reflections, is the predominating note.

So, when I lose it in the outer, in other words, get caught up with things in the outer, yet still have access to a little more energetic or something, that being a bit of a violation because it’s not supposed to be used to make the outer easier to accommodate, because the outer is just a reflection, so when I lose it in the outer, the higher self coming from the plane of the soul, has to honor that plane, has to honor that as the realness, so it has to destroy that which is being bastardized.

So the meaning of this dream is, an inner awakening is only able to be, in the outer, from the perspective of the higher self, if it brings a heartfelt closeness to the situation. If it doesn’t, then the result is wayward and needs to be obliterated. In other words, because then you’re misusing it, or whatever.

Or to put it another way, the dream is saying that I am only allowed to use the access I have to bring about a greater overall awakening. The significance is to dwell upon problem solving is not what serving the higher self, on a soul level, is all about. To awaken from the projective outer slumber is needed at this time. With that in mind, as an inner principle, I am not allowed to make things easier if doing so leads to a waywardness.

The way things are devised to unfold in the outer is beyond my frame of reference. My frame of reference needs to be upon facilitating the inner-into-outer awakening, and not in paying attention to extraneous nuances.

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