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90JJJOften, we reel drunkenly from a positive outlook to a gloomy outlook. Usually we will find a point between the two and settle there, knowing that any extreme view may not be the full picture. In our dream life, we can see this play out between the different characters in the dream, each taking different sides as they try to bring us to a resolution and deeper understanding. And it’s like the breath, we need the full cycle of in-breath and out-breath, the full process of putting into life, and drawing back into ourselves. It’s a natural process that can be our guide when we find ourselves in any extreme position. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now listen very closely to mine because it’s the exact same thing, what lacks is my ability to describe the dream, but it reaches the same conclusion and understanding by being able to read the energetic.

In the meditation dream, I am confronted with having to cope with what appears to be two different energetics within my being. In other words, that’s how you feel it, that’s how you felt it, it’s like two different qualities, and it was like two different energetics.

So the first energetic, which is the in-breath energetic, has me all revved up. And when I am revved up, what is going to happen to me is going to be a calamity – in some sort of outer way. It seems I can’t do anything about this part of myself. But note, there is no resolution, just a disarray. The way I put it is: there is a sense of what is possible and meant to be within a greater unfoldment.

But if you were to say it from the standpoint of kundalini energy, from the stillness is what you mirror, but in the mirroring can be both outer and it can be inner. You can mirror it into the outer, or you can mirror it back into another zone inside of yourself, which is the zone of the spaciousness and what more is in there.

And that aspect is generally described as a type of magnetism, in terms of how it’s described in the outer, or in the dense way. In the subtler way, it is a bringing of what is needed, in terms of the time, because you have to put the time and space together in order to break the chains of manifestation. In other words, you have to go beyond both of those modalities.

So, there is another part, now this is describing the out-breath, that seems separate, that knows, in the future, everything is going to be okay.

So the dream image is as follows: a part of me knows not what I am doing in an outer way, and I have a sense of catastrophe – in terms of this being a discombobulated quality. I know that this aspect of my beingness is in trouble. Yet, even so, there is a future sense, and this future sense is like a part of myself that I know “gets it,” and knows that things will work out somehow, and be okay.

So what is going on is the first part is in the in-breath. It is an in-breath that is overly expansive in the spaciousness, and is going to suffer a crack up if this spiraling continues unabated. And the second part is the out-breath. This is where there is a timing seeking its whereabouts. The timing and the spaciousness need to find each other for there to be an orientation to the essence of an all-pervasive wholeness.

Why did I dream this? I dreamed this vibratory orientation in order to note that the expansiveness of the in-breath is unstable, in and of itself, and needs, first of all, a stillness, so that the timing, from the out-breath can catch up, or reach it, for a completeness to occur. Until the two come together in an orientation there is a waywardness that is spiraling out of control.

When I’m spiraling in the expansiveness of in-breath, deep down I know that won’t end well. This is offset by a future sense of things in which I know that there is a wonderful resolution in an undefined future. That future sensation is a timing that needs to be brought into the spiraling spaciousness. I am meant to catch up with the spaciousness of the in-breath, and the timing of the out-breath, to break through the veil of having to be about something in the physical sense dense way.

The net effect of going beyond time and space is to reach other levels of a greater inner world beingness, and bring this as a consciousness into a knowingness. What I’m talking about is an access that is in touch with such other levels of my beingness, which reside in a non-entity stillness outside of the physical orientation of time and space. In other words, I’m talking about time and space outside of the physical orientation. I’m talking about a time and space beyond the planes of manifestation.

This is more than spirit energy, although that is a level of beingness outside of time and space, or is it? It’s kind of in time and space because pure energy is still a type of substance defined, or viewed, as kind of an etheric way; in other words, very, very subtle. And there is much more because, in an all-pervasive stillness, nothing exists but the essence of it all.

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2231788_8b81_14Whenever we have a great idea, or we begin a new project, we have been inspired by our initial reasons and intentions. Yet, often, as we proceed, and find ourselves deeper and deeper in the reality of the work, we lose sight of those original ideas and inspirations, and we end up compromising the vision of what we are trying to do. So, in a project, as in our life, it is important to continually revisit the reasons why we are doing what we are doing, and the principles behind those reasons. In fact, the more we reaffirm our original purpose, the more potent our focus will be in achieving our goal. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I drill down on something in a way that I hadn’t done before. Normally I talk about the breath, in some sense, but this time I talk around the breath, as opposed to looking at it in some way, I talk around it. In other words, I talk about the stillness point.

So, in the meditation dream, I observe myself as being a person who embodies vibrations. So I’m starting off now as somewhere carrying yet an out-breath quality. These vibrations I look at and look at to see what is wanted. I note that the vibrations I embody are seeking to come into manifestation, in other words, to be embodied.

So, initially, the vibration is not even in the shape of dough. In other words, first of all you have to get it into something like dirt, or dough. And when it takes on the substance of, say, dough, it then needs to reflect or be shaped into a result that is deemed complete. In other words, what dough completes to is maybe a cookie or something. And I’m using this as kind of like an imaged example of how you bring the inner into the outer.

But doing it, this is still an aspect of out-breath in manifestation. So it is deemed to be relatively easy, when there is substance from the vibrations, to reach a resolution, or determination, with regard to the substance of our being. What is confusing is I went back into the vibrations, in the meditation dream, and had to make a sort of rhyme and reason out of the vibrations. I was still bewildered until I took the vibrations almost as a rising up from having taken it down into manifestation.

But I was confused about the vibrations, initially, until I took them into manifestation and created something to identify with. Such identifications drain me of a vital dynamic. Little by little I was able to go back to the beginning. In other words, I came down and then recognized you have to go back to the beginning because it drains you out of a dynamic.

And so this is still an attention that is placed upon the space, actually, of the in-breath turning to the out-breath. The beginning is where the vibrations originated; they came out of the stillness there. The beginning is the stillness.

And so what I’m talking about, in terms of this focus, is the stillness point where the in-breath turns to the out-breath; that is where I see myself retracing.

And then you can do it the other direction, which is there is a time when I cannot stand how limiting it is to be a compositive substance, in other words, you feel the weight and the burden of having to carry yourself as something that’s composited and dense, and you’re holding that denseness together as if you have to preserve it. That’s like the nature of the physical body. It has kind of a life orientation to it that holds your focus. And, when it’s like that, and you’re able to actually note the hopelessness of something like that, is when the heart yearns to be free of this state.

And so when you experience it that way, now you’re talking about the interval where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. So what is going on is, in the meditation dream, I experience the breath as being a delirium. And, in the meditation dream, I didn’t dwell upon the journey of the breath, per se. Instead, I kept, and maintained, a looking for the reference of stillness.

To begin with, this was a going back in to the interval of in-breath to out-breath, in other words, backtracking the vibration now. In other words, the vibration comes into a thought, the thought comes into more thoughts, those thoughts then come into what it becomes, then, a collective consciousness of manifestation.

And what I’ve done is I’ve gone backwards to that, even taking the vibrations and making the vibrations still, and that’s the in-breath to the out-breath. And then there was the opposite flow. When the vibrations had come into a result that’s in manifestation, and it’s like I’m trapped there in a denseness, so you have to shake off the denseness because the out-breath has come in and got caught, and taken all that down. And it’s like you’ve come so far that you’re now in a denseness.

And so what happens there is, at some point, you have to be able to denote inside yourself that you’re uncomfortable being wrapped up as a denseness – and you seek a letting go of this linear beingness. And that is when you’re able to come to a letting go at the end point, or i.e., at the interval of where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. In other words, that’s when you’re able to note the pain of things, and it’s kind of a sweet pain because you’re able to denote a longing there, in that aspect of kind of a subtle, split-second stillness.

So upon adhering to stillness is to be free of the breath. When free of the breath, there is no journey. There is just stillness. And this is all that everyone wants.

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0_zvIt’s obviously tempting to offer our solutions for any situation we may find ourselves in. But, from a certain viewpoint, this is pointless because we live in a duality, a place of opposites, so most times a solution is just an attempt to rebalance something from the opposite extreme. In this way, it’s not a real solution, it’s just soothing the symptoms not addressing the actual cause. If we, instead, can hold an inner stillness, then we offer the two opposites an opportunity to refine, or elevate, which is an evolutionary change. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, when you initially meditate, and you just go somewhere that is very soothing, and then suddenly you just come back out of the Dhyana of the meditation, you’ve gone into a place that’s very, very soothed and has quickened an attunement, so to speak, such that if you were affected by something in the outer during the day, that normally you would just gloss over, or just would fall by the way boards, you’ve actually kind of picked up something inside of yourself as kind of a speed, or a pace, or a depth that comes close to that.

Now, eventually, you’ll get so that you can actually see that, you can actually note that, in the meditation. But, initially, all you’re doing is tweaking that as if it is something that has been stimulated by the molecular of your nature, it’s been stimulated, embedded, as if it’s embedded within as a vibrational imprint within the molecular of your nature.

And so, then, when you come to bed, because that’s been stimulated, and not at a depth yet, or at a point yet, where you can notice that in the meditation dream, you are noticing it somewhere on an inner depth of yourself, so then when you come to bed, when you dream, you can go deeper with your dreams, you can go to this point more easily. Otherwise, you might be affected by other things and such, that are going on in the outer, the malaise of things being so much – thoughts upon thoughts upon thoughts of things, the reflective being to such a great degree that you go around and around in a kind of a malaise, a delirium, unable to… well, you don’t go anywhere, you’re caught in that.

But, from having meditated and quickened something, then you can develop these inflections, these light bulb moments, that leak through, so to speak, that you can grasp in the dream world, instead of it being all smothered. This kind of understanding is something that needs to exist in life, because when you come across situations where you see things that are askew, the thing that you need to be able to see and to note is: why are they askew? Sometimes they’re askew because something has come up that has been repressed, into the nature of a person, is leaking out now, it no longer can stay repressed.

And sometimes things are shut down because there is a trauma built into what you see in the outer, and that trauma is shut down. And you can look at that, and you can know that, eventually, that will not necessarily stay the case when you can see that the nature of the person is unnatural because of something.

And, generally, when you see this, you can’t put your finger on what that is because it’s oftentimes a pre lifetime. It’s just part of a veil that the soul hasn’t worked through yet, and does not necessarily have anything to do with the outer conditions that you’re aware of – in this lifetime. So it can be a pre lifetime thing.

And so everyone has this condition. And this condition is something that has to run its course in our nature. In other words, this amnesia has to run through, and, when it runs through, we are able to come more into an intertwined connectivity of our being, everything then starts to make sense as a quality of an unfoldment. But, until it does, then we, too, are victims and caught in this kind of atmosphere that pervades wherever and however you look. And yet there are attempts to shift that.

The underlying difference in all of these threads is where’s the heart? The question you asked, or the point that you made, in relationship to your meditation, in terms of the fact that you just go somewhere and you suddenly come out soothed, that’s how it starts. That’s the Dhyana. And eventually it gets deeper and deeper to the point where you might even start becoming conscious of what it is that you are getting into the depth of, in a very quiet way, that you’re capable of dealing with.

Because, if approached too directly, it will drive you crazy. It will be something that causes you to crack up, because to look at certain things, in terms of whatever the trauma was, that trauma, or that quality which was too much for you, and everyone has this too much ism in their nature of some trauma or another, that causes crack-ups.

And so that’s why a path of consciousness to awaken, and to get out of the reflective outer, is a very, almost dangerous and awkward path to take because you have to come to grips with this aspect of yourself in order to become real.

So the things that you’ve gone through when you’ve gone astray from the stillness have caused you to experience things that are over the top, too much, and then you repress those into your nature. And then you use a certain heartfulness energy, and expansive quality spaciousness of your being, to keep those things in check. And, every now and then, they leak out. And they have to leak out. And, in some cases, they are measured in the way that they leak out, so that they come out slowly, but, in some cases, they come out very quickly. And if they come out too quickly, they can lead to insanity and a crack up.

And so, how do you deal with a humanity that is caught up like this, that has this as a condition? The only way you can deal with that is you have to deal with them, helping them, to see the silence of a stillness, of a quality inside of themselves, so that they can redeem themselves. Otherwise, there is a fight, you create more delirium, which is another fighting of it on another level.

And therefore nobody gets to a stillness and the silence. What you have to do is you have to work with and accommodate the atmosphere, which is done in a silent way, not with any kind of overt direction. And, if you support it in a silent way, it then is following a course of evolution and unfoldment that is meant to be. And that’s why it happens like it happens, but we always have our opinion, or our belief, or our rationalization, or our trying to figure something out getting in the way. The silence is the only answer, no solutions.

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