Posts Tagged ‘spiritual energy’

John: I keep dreaming that there is a dominant, inner expression that dictates the outer life. This is an influence that is familiar, deep within my natural frame of reference. However, the loudness of everything else – the superficial – drowns out this effect over the short run. 

So this influence silently dictates the overall way things unfold, even though it’s not readily apparent in the outer.

In one image, I see this inner expression represented as a skeletal frame that holds things together. The outer features are what I notice at first, and am apt to be swayed by – like the skin and the flesh on this frame – on a moment-by-moment basis. As a result, the controlling feature in life (the inner expression) takes a backseat to everything else in the outer environment. Or so it seems, even though in the long run the skeletal backbone to life is what ultimately wins out.

In other words, what I saw is this skeletal structure, and it comes all the way down to the ground. So there’s something about the structure that makes an energetic connection to everything that’s rooted in creation. Then the shell, the body, the flesh, and the skin on it is what people pay attention to, it’s what they see, so they’re not aware that there is an aliveness to the structure that actually dictates what is meant to be and how things are to unfold.  

Everyone is paying attention to what is more apparent or obvious, i.e., the denser, outer layer, which is just the wrapper, or the exterior of the skeletal structure. So people base their choices and actions according to appearances, because that’s the easiest to sense and to see.

In other words, the invisible skeletal structure carries the energetic or vibration of what’s meant to be, not the skin and the flesh and everything else that’s visible. But it’s the outer, visible layer that has a loudness that captures the senses, and draws everyone’s attention.

Of course, in the long run, what wins out, in terms of what is meant to be, is determined by the skeletal structure.

Isn’t that a strange image?

So in this dream I feel fortunate in knowing what is actually affecting what manifests in the outer. It’s a wonderful feeling of relief to know that there is inner guidance, determined or destined to come to the forefront of my being.

First of all, I sense this in a fairly general way, but then I realize that my attention is drawn more to the skeletal structure than it is to the outer layers. I do not readily grasp this.

I can feel it and I can know it, but I lose sight of this knowing when I’m caught up in some situation that requires my immediate attention. Even then, when I’m unable to hold onto an inner balance, I’m comforted in a subconscious way with knowing that there is the essence of what is meant to be, like it’s waiting for me to go there, to look there.

In the dream, because I’ve made the choice to have the inner framework to life dictate how I’m meant to live, even my mistakes and detours are simply guided and shaped into what is intended. I find that amazing.

In other words, as I fumble about it’s almost like something else is directing me because whatever I’m doing is being transformed somehow. It’s affected. Sometimes I suffer when this happens, but at other times my input is redirected and guided to bring out the intended inner effect.

I come to know and trust this inner expression, even though it’s not visible; for me it is just as real as what is visible. What is visible in the outer is there for appearances only. I’ve become able to see the deeper thread of things, beyond the noisy surface.

This cannot be said, however, for my coarser nature that is still dominated by the appearances of the outer world, fed only by the physical senses.

What I’m describing is a subtle awakening, of my consciousness, to that which lies deep within my nature. It gives me joy each time I’m able to break through the outer barriers and be touched by this inner essence, which waits patiently for me to attune myself to its existence at the core of my being.

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John: Well, your dream showed you feeling strong enough to go back from where you came, because you were armed with a sense of knowing. In my dream, I see myself back at a class reunion, without such strength and knowing.

At the gathering of my classmates, I notice that I can’t really relate to any of them anymore. It’s almost like I don’t even know them – they seem so bland and the energy seems so stale, The whole thing seems so boring.

The first two days are like that, completely empty. In spite of that I stay for the third day because that’s the day we all get together for a class meal. I find myself sitting at a table feeling just as I have for the first two days: I can’t relate to anyone; the situation feels empty, as if some energetic quality is missing.

At some point, before the food is served, I get up to take a walk and get some fresh air. Suddenly I see an old friend in the distance and I feel an upsurge of energy.

The friend I see is a man who has a golden heart – he works in the community to make a difference as a leader, and he’s very generous with his time and his openness. But that’s not how I knew him back in school – he was more of the football-captain type: popular, but perhaps not that bright. He was very grounded, rooted even. But that’s not how he has emerged. He has changed. He must have always had it in him, because he has become quite a good person.

So I yell out to him to get his attention. He sees me and as I approach he slumps down next to the wall as if all of a sudden he’s gone into a state of despair. He says, “Don’t do this to me.  Don’t come back.”

He is speaking from the heart. He’s saying something that’s very hard for him to say. A tear even wells up in his eye. I can see that he’s being very genuine. He continues, “You’re just going to get beat up again.”

I’m a bit taken back by his statement. I thought I was just greeting an old friend. He reads it as me trying to fit back into the old world again. In other words, he was the one person that I thought I could relate to; none of the others had the vibrancy or the openness. It was all so shallow.

So I take this story of what happened – because I’m still shocked by it – to a relative who lives in the area who has been telling everyone that someday I would return to my roots. When I tell him the story, my relative confesses that he has been spreading this story of my return and he starts to cry as well, but his crying is more from a sense of loss for what can never be again. He even cries more than my schoolmate.

He can’t let go of his past and that influence weighs upon him. He tries to be as good a person as he can, but he sees everything in terms of black-and-white; that’s just how it is for him.

This dream is showing that I’m vacillating when aspects of my past get stirred up. When it happens, I’m not able to sustain a quality of the heart we’re all meant to be able to sustain. That means I’m not able to stay true to who and what I’m meant to be.

This dream has created a conversation between aspects of my physical past and the heart of my past, which has moved on to a more genuine realness. The divine heart is saying I should stay with my higher self, where I’m able to take a step forward.

In other words, I shouldn’t try and fit into aspects of life that I’ve moved on from. It’s warning me not to go through those travails and difficulties again. Don’t go backwards. Don’t go into the past. Don’t try to wrestle with the things that send me off on a tangent.

Yes, these aspects have a hold on me, but to return to the old ways of being is to risk being beaten up all over again, because the energies that I experienced still live in those realms and can be reactivated.

So we have another good example of how our dreams can help guide us on our spiritual journey. We really can’t go home again, at least not in the familiar sense of that phrase. Yet a spiritual journey is really one of finding our way back to our true home. That’s an area that we can delve into more deeply tomorrow.

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Jeane: In this dream it feels like I am in the U.S., but I am a woman who is from India. My friends are also from India – our skin is dark.

I am married. It feels like a group of us go to visit another friend. He lives in an area near his work; his living quarters are more public than usual. It is near a transport station, just off to the left, and there is a lot of glass so his living quarters are not very private.

It feels as though times are unsettled. There is something going on in society that is similar to McCarthyism where people can accuse other people and have them arrested just on casual suggestions. Some people believe this is going on, but others don’t.

I am drawn to this man we are visiting, even though I am married. I go there to sleep with him at his place. Perhaps someone could even walk by the windows and see that I am there – perhaps one of his co-workers.

Then it feels like my friends come to warn me that one of his co-workers is going to have him arrested for some offense – like he is being accused of being a communist or something else.

Neither of us can really believe it, yet they do come to arrest him and, perhaps, also arrest me and others I’ve associated with. They take us out the door; there are some transport buses and people walking by. I try to appeal to some passersby that this is a miscarriage of justice and we haven’t done anything wrong; maybe one of his co-workers is just jealous or envious because we are involved. I do not know. I try to get them to see this is just a set up. However, people are afraid to act.

Next the dream does a sideways shift: It feels like I’m standing outside with others (I don’t know if it’s the same people or not). I am participating in a game that involves crossing the highway to get somewhere.

It’s like a video game. When I first step onto the highway someone pulls me back because something comes zipping by me. You have to time when to step out, and then you step onto a moving island that is traveling down the highway.

There is a puzzle box that, when you move it, takes on different shapes and opens up. It feels like I’m also trying to get the people who are traveling with me to come along.

So, I’m trying to open this puzzle box, which will suddenly change its shape and the shape of everything around me. If I can open up the right puzzle box at the right time then there are more ways of traveling across the highway.

It’s hard. Sometimes the box just opens up in odd ways and none of us are quite sure what to do, but you still have to take that risk and go out on the highway and travel down on that island and open up another puzzle box and try to figure out what this shape means and what that is leading to.

John: What you are doing here has to do with an energetic that has built up to a particular point where it’s now able to do something differently – in a dynamic way – in the outer. It’s trying to open up, like the puzzle box, even though you are not sure what to do with it. The actual theme of the dream has to do with using a type of consciousness to affect matter.

In your dream you are extending an energetic of yourself into a new capacity. When you do that, part of you perceives it as a violation of the established order of things. That’s because you are not embracing the energetic as natural to you – you feel it is separate from you. So it becomes an inner struggle.

What the new energetic is manifesting appears to you as something that is not allowed, something that must be wiped out. In other words, you are having a dream that has to do with addressing an energetic, but instead of letting the energetic do what it can do, you interpret it as a threat; it feels personal, but it isn’t, really.

So that conflict in you creates the disruption in the dream (the threat of arrest). In the outer world, everything that is done is perceived to have a result. But internally, deep down, you know it doesn’t have to be that way: an energetic can just be there in and of itself.

You are not able to bring this through as just a pure energetic; you are only able to carry it through as a disruptive image. For some reason this is how you are interpreting the energy, rather that just seeing it and working with it and allowing it to change things without having to do any thing yourself.

Because, ultimately, the energetic you are struggling with is perfect and natural by itself, and you want what it can do in life.

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