Posts Tagged ‘spiritual illusions’

crashWe may have learned how to pack for travel in light of the new airline fees and regulations, but do we understand the baggage limitations of our spiritual journey? If we were to fly away tomorrow, and we could only take a few things with us, what would those things be? Our need for safety? Our fears of the unknown? Our hesitations to trust in what we can’t see and touch? It’s an interesting consideration, because those precious things are the ones that will hold us back at the last moment, and keep us from making our next elevation and development. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Initially, I’m with a group of people, men and women. We’re young; we’re like college age or something. And we seem to be trying to make decisions about where we’re going to live, like whether we’re going to live more in a group setting, or get our own apartments. It’s as though whenever someone talks to one, you know, they’re trying to sway one, one way or the other.

And then we’re all going to get on a train that goes a little more into the country, I think. Now, as we leave for the train station, I have this sense that I’m not sure that I trust the whole system around our bags, but we’re supposed to leave them all behind and then they’re going to be loading them and they’ll catch them up with us.

And we seem to be taking these empty carts, like a grocery store cart almost, up to where we’re getting on the train. And I see that some people had grabbed some of their stuff, and I do have this sense that I’m not sure I like, or trust, the system, but it feels too late to go back and try to grab bags – so I just have to let it go.

I don’t remember the train ride, because it suddenly seems like we’re just in this house in the country, and different people are arriving earlier, and some are coming later. So there’s kind of a mix of who one’s talking to that might be different than before, and I feel like that there would be some pressure from some people when they arrive because maybe they’re interested in a relationship, so they would be pressing me to get my own place. And other people I’m there with are just fine with us all living more communally.

I’m standing over near a window at one point, and it feels like the young people I’m around are kind of having this conversation of having some confusion with their sexuality, because they feel like as they talk, and they get close to people, even if it’s someone that’s the same sex, they may feel more attracted – but that’s not normally how they identify themselves.

And then I go over from there, because I think someone arrived that I feel a little crowded by, and I want more space. And so I’ve left there and I’ve gone over and I’m standing on this stairway where there’s a bathroom above. And there’s a woman waiting for the bathroom, so I start talking to her. It’s like I’m waiting my turn for the bathroom or something; she feels like someone that I can talk to about what I’m noticing going on around me, and I think that was when the phone rang.

John: Your dream, if you follow it energetically, seems to be a progression towards more a complete breath. To begin with, before you get on the train, you’re kind of in the world, or in the city of things, and those indulgences just kind of have a way with you that kind of keep you in their trance.

Then when you get on the train, it’s like traveling towards God, or trying to travel towards God. You’re caught in kind of this period of time that yo-yos back and forth: do you have everything with you from the city? And yet are you traveling in the right way? And then you have the illusion kind of hitting a type of destination.

In other words, you make a distinction with it, in that you point out that one arrives at a place that seems okay, but isn’t actually really quite okay, either, because you’re still trying to sort out. You’re now able to look at things a little differently, and able to sort out what has a magnetic pull, or attraction to you, and what doesn’t.

When you’re initially just in the dumb outer, the natural physical world of things, you don’t have any sense of anything more going on, you can seemingly enjoy that because you don’t know any different or any better. And in a way that can even seem like that’s all that there is. But once you start on a path of looking for something more, and trying to see what you can take with you in terms of that something more, that’s when you start playing in this in-between zone of trying to sort things out.

And in that sorting out, you’re making a distinction that there really is something more, that there is a quality of a home, and in that quality of a home you reach a point, where, on a magnetic level, you’re looking then at what you feel you need, which is still a type of indulgence. In other words, instead you’re even subtler with this in terms of what you’re looking to sustain, or maintain, in terms of the outer in your home, or as an innerness. And that is the realm of the spirit.

In other words, it’s able to reduce things into a really, really fine sort of state, but it’s still caught in that, and so you can have a certain sense of balance, and completeness, but it’s still not the original breath. The key is a recognition that goes to a letting go of any kind of buying and selling, even on a subtle level like the spiritual illusion level, or when you’re yo-yoing.

And the key is to let go of all of that, in order to hit the magnetized breath, that encompasses the wholeness of everything that there is in all of life. And the way this develops, or the way this helps a human being, is that the original breath kind of becomes a sort of magnetized naturalness that is charged with a more all-encompassing, inclusive energetic, and that the indulgences, that had been in the city, you really do see as nauseous now, when before you didn’t necessarily see them as nauseous.

And thus you were still sorting things out, in terms of what bags to take as you were attempting to do something anew. And you were still trying to then take those bags, reduce them to something of a subtler need, and still keep this subtler need in a place that was more like home, which is a spiritual illusion, because those bags had now turned into a type of spiritual essence quality, brought with you to a home.

But you make headway against this middle area, the subtler second breath, you make headway against it only by holding the original breath and thus you see the nausea of experiencing in the outer.

When you’re able to see the nausea of experiences that are just strictly in the outer, meaning with the mind senses only, it becomes more and more difficult to try to take some sort of mind sense orientation with you, or baggage as you would call it. And then from baggage to something of a subtler essence spirituality, into your home, which again is just a finer substance of the baggage, and the baggage being what you are reserving your right to hold onto, that is quasi-personal, still personal, but an aspect that is not totally indulged, that you are attempting to travel with.

By letting go of that, you are put in a position to where the yo-yoing and the spiritual illusion aspect of things is something that you’re able to make headway with, even though they’re subtler, and harder, to work with, because they still have as a foundation of a substance the shell orientation, not the essence orientation, not the orientation that’s one of light.

It’s easier to come to grips with the yo-yoing where you’re taking baggage back and forth, trying to take baggage with you from the city to some place that you’re going, and it’s harder when you get to what you think is a home and you still are holding to your spiritual ideals, or images, and that is a subtle personal aspect. It’s harder to let go of that, but it is made easier, the recognition is made easier, when you have taken and died, so to speak, to the idea that there is something in the outer that can be utilized, or experienced, in some edification way.

So the more grounded you can be, towards the density of that outer breath, and not caught in any of that, the more you’re able to truly adhere, or in that more holding on to the original breath, that is the only means by which you’re able to see the limitations of the other quality.

When you go into the original breath, which is magnetized, you sort out the two. In other words, as things get subtler, and you’re carrying your spiritual illusion up, and things are brighter, they cannot get to the total stillness of where the in-breath turns to the out-breath because you’re still holding on to spiritual illusions. It can have a real angelic quality to it in terms of how you can convince yourself that this is meaningful.

On the flip side of that, is where that energetic that can’t be lived in a stillness, is trying to come down into manifestation. And so it is only the holding onto the original breath at the top that you pull those two together.

When you let go of it, when you hit the heart breath, or just let go of the mind sense orientation, then that is when you have the deeper realization of something in terms of what you really are all about, in terms of this complete stillness, or in other words devoid of spiritual illusion, and devoid of the need to try to steer something in some capacity.

When you are like that, then, this other vibration, which is the only aliveness that there is, the magnetized vibration is the only aliveness that it is, it then is able to play in a way through the human being that is really quite magical. And change then can happen, and shifts can then happen. And to the degree that the human being is still functioning in life just like everybody else, no one notices, because their mind is caught up in having to sort out and make sense of things.

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cannonballSpiritual illusions can come in many guises, but they always have one thing in common: they negate the essence of the spiritual truth. In these dream images, the awakening that is gained by connecting to higher things turns into an exercise in the ego, because in both instances the main character thinks he can control the outcome of things. And that, of course, is the opposite of surrender. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I should probably tell my last dream first because it shows the spiritual illusion of going way, way over-the-top, in the extreme in which the masculine can do it. And it’s amazing that I even bothered to write it up because it’s like something so bizarre that you are inclined to think that it’s just mind chatter.

And in this dream, it starts with when one realizes that the outer is all illusion and that a person is able to find something inside, or touch something inside, awaken into something inside that’s able to transcend much of the limitations. That is when the spiritual illusions can get to your head, can really get you. That is when you can go over-the-top. It is better to remain as is than to go over-the-top like this because you get into a domain, or a lightness, that takes you and removes you from everything.

In the dream I go so far over-the-top, I am outside the bounds of reality. To portray the vibration of what it’s like to be so over-the-top that you’re no longer relatable to life, that you can ooh and ahh life so to speak, which is really deceiving yourself, I shoot myself out of a cannon which, of course, is insane.

And I announce that I’m going to fly over this great distance and land in the ocean, a considerable ways away. And there are all kinds of people swimming in the ocean and somehow or another I’m going to gauge this where I’m going to land right where they’re not at. And when this works I find myself then propelling with an air propulsion system and seeing that I can do this because I have done this before, and I am navigating the shallow oceanic frontiers. What is missing are other human beings who, by their very nature, are non-assuming, simple, and innocently discreet.

So the question is, then, why did I experience this sci-fi thriller? This is so over-the-top you know in a transcendent way, isn’t it? I experience this over-the-top adventure to bring myself back to earth, in other words, to see what it’s like so that I can come back to earth, so that I might get back into life, instead of all of the wonders and amazements outside of human existence.

Simply put, I need to catch up to, with, and support where others are at, and quit trying to go beyond such barriers. The wonder is to be human, not to be lost on the other side. The theme of the dreaming is that when I reach a point of wonder I have to set all that aside and live in life no different than anyone else. Otherwise, I’m missing out on why it is that I am here. I was given a human body to have a human realization, not to throw it away in spiritual illusions. What is missing in the sci-fi adventure is I have lost the most important thing of all, a deep inner heartfelt connection that touches the outer delicately.

Now the meditation dream starts banging on the door, but it doesn’t hit me between the eyes like the sleep dream, which again, I’m surprised I even wrote up because it seemed like it was so stupid, but it’s not stupid, it’s trying to make a theme by throwing one into something that’s outrageous. And the fact is, is I went around and around in this outrageousness as I was dreaming it trying to navigate this way and navigate that way and out on the ocean… it was myself and two others, and I felt that one could do all of this because I seem to even have a memory of having done it before. But that doesn’t get one to the heart. And, there’s nobody around. They’re not in life.

So, in my meditation dream I get into an energetic which requires me to use my left foot to kick two pens through an upright. The reason why I’m down to this is because I have set myself up with so many problems that this is the way I bail myself out. Things haven’t worked, and haven’t worked because I’ve floundered this way and floundered that way and now all of a sudden I can do a Hail Mary. If I can kick this in a certain way so I have a pen leaning on one side, a pen leaning on the other, a thing underneath the foot impact, and somehow or another if I get this just right they’ll fly up in the air and they’ll go over the top.

Now I’ve got to do it with the left foot and there are obstacles in the way, and deep down I’m believing that this is actually possible. It’s like a double field goal, because if it doesn’t happen then I will lose. And I am restricted in a number of ways, so the main thing I have going for me is my positive attitude, spiritual attitude. I’m not paying attention to common sense here.

The fact that I keep trying in the dream to visualize in my mind’s eye how this needs to work out, because the alternative is a devastating consequence, exemplifies the personal motif, in other words using a spiritual energy, or things that they have a certain righteousness or rightfulness and needs to be there because you’re not caught up in the contanglements that everyone else is caught up in, so you still follow the same mannerism but you just do it in a different way of deceiving yourself. And so I wake up.

And the meaning is, is that I have placed myself into a personal motif energetically. In other words, thinking that it was spiritual, or thinking that I gained some sort of understanding, and the next thing you know I’ve done this other, a motif that requires a lucky break to come together as a compromise and contamination of the inner essence of a divine flow.

Consciousness does not come down through some sort of hope and wish in the outer. The flow is from the inner to outer, not the other way around, which in my dream is still kind of present. In other words, I worked it around to where this is how it needs to be because I am saying so. The reason for this dream is to get me to surrender to a naturalness and drop the trying to hit a personal home run as if I am owed such an entitlement. This is asking for trouble because I am not giving up to the inner divine will.

What the dream is doing is showing me the danger of a gambling energy archetype which comes to a point where if there is no surrender I am in trouble, because life in the outer in a personal motif must essentially get crushed before the potentiality of an inner essence is able to advance the divine need – and it only advances it through the heart.

The heart has always got to be there and this takes you to a point where you’re using your heart to go back and forth banging into things in a way that hurts you, as opposed to a heart that makes everything joyous and wondrous and all of that, in which you see life like that.

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Karen Casey Smith

Here’s a type of chase dream, except this time the main character is doing the chasing. And the idea of a woman chasing her mother points to the effort to make a connection to a greater feminine principle. Yet, as we also see, that connection is not easily made, and it continues to elude her as she gets distracted by the oddities of life, one after another, which is something that can prevent us from reaching what we aim toward. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My next dream I could probably never get the sequence right because it was so long and involved, but in this dream there are two things going on, one is I’ve started a new job, or I have started a job where I’ve changed offices maybe, and I’m going to have a new boss the next day that will be coming in, a guy.

Meanwhile, I’ve gone home and I live with a woman who I think of as my mother, and she lives in this kind of complex house with several levels and it’s easy to lose her, so sometimes I have to go through there looking for her, and once I start looking for her, or following her and trying to catch up with her, it’s like we seem to have a lot of levels that we pass through, or complicated things that happen.

And so I’m looking for her, or even when I catch up with her, we seem to start on this journey and, as we go out the door, it’s almost like you slide somewhere and then I find us at this complex building where I don’t look for a second and I don’t know where she’s gone. And I go in this one area where there’s someone I get a very bad vibe from, and I have to go around several corners. They’re wearing blue, but they don’t feel friendly. It’s like I don’t trust them, almost like they’re bewitched or something, or could bewitch people.

But I have to keep pursuing their space and whatever they’re doing there to try to find if my mother’s hidden there. I finally get out of that room and I go down a long hallway and I see her in the distance, and it seems like just about the time I catch up with her we’re outside and we go to a beach area. By this time it’s like there are several trials we’ve had, and then when we go out on the beach I’ve almost caught up with her, and suddenly I turn to my left and there are these huge waves coming at us almost like a tsunami-type wave.

It’s almost like enough is enough at this point, so I actually rage at the ocean, and so it goes around us rather than hit us really solidly. We still end up in the water, but we don’t end up hit by the tsunami because I was just so angry. It was like, enough was enough here. Then when we get back on the shore, and I’m following behind her it’s like we go to this house and I see that my boss – and by this time I realized it’s so late in the day I’m not going to make it to work today for my new job – but my new boss is at this house. I’m not even sure if I keep following my mother like this until I catch up with her whether I’m going to make it to work the next day.

And as we go in this house there’s a man there who owns the house and he’s sorting through some pictures and I notice one of them is a painting by Nicholas Roark, and I point out that I really like his colors. He was a Russian mystic, and I get a little distracted by that. And as soon as I get distracted by that my mother’s out the door. And this time there’s someone I think of as my sister with her, and I’m on the trail again.

But those few minutes I got delayed by this guy who then kept wanting to talk to me so I couldn’t get away, when I come out the door there are two or three different paths and I don’t know which one they’ve taken, and I can’t look down them and tell from the people in the distance, so I just have to choose one.

And I choose one, and I don’t know if I am catching up or not, but I keep going but at some point I come close to a building. As I go into the building and I’m on my own for a few minutes I get captured by an indian, Native American Indian, and it feels like I fall under a spell of his a bit. And I’m with him for a while and he’s going to be a speaker at this meeting that everybody’s going to. I’m on my own for a few minutes and then I find the room where everybody’s speaking and I go in and I choose a seat. It seems like now I’m a little entranced by waiting for the Native American who will be the speaker.

John: So what this is pointing out is, again the theme of all of this is, there are various ways of going into the spiritual illusions. And there’s only one way to keep from experiencing it to some degree or another, and that is to have a really, really, really always present, very deep, heartfelt connection. And when you have a really, really, really deep, heartfelt connection, you’re naturally in sync with everything that’s going on around you – or otherwise you become indulged in one direction, or the other.

So the dream starts off with you being on a new job with a boss and all of that, and what happens is you actually get indulgence in that direction, which is kind of a masculine flow connection.

Then you try to come back and catch up with life, and so you’re following your mother and following your mother, trying to close the gap of coming back into a grounded, rooted, creation into manifestation. And just when you see that you’re on the beach, basically almost there, there is the roar and the activity of things in the outer that break up the closeness or the approximation. And so you have to rage at that and, of course, at this particular level of raging you actually can have a sci-fi kind of effect upon things, or at least you do in the dream because that’s what it’s really like in terms of your separation, thus it throws you in not being able to reach that kind of simplicity.

When you go back to a house and such, and there’s something there to pay attention to that catches your attention again, you’re again thrown in a wayward state so that then to keep up with the feminine principle in life, that being represented by your mother, you have no idea what trail she went off on. This is yo-yoing you in terms of things, and you’re yo-yoing in order to see the essence of the theme, which is this really, really deep heartfelt place that you have to reach, that is outside of how you see yourself – because as long as you keep seeing yourself as having to check in with a boss, an employer, or do something with whatever you had to do with whatever this other guy was about, and how his life was or whatever that was, as long as you keep seeing yourself as this way or that way, then the main thing that was missing in this dream is you weren’t quite connecting as fully and as heartfully as you needed to connect, and be able to hold onto that.

You have to be able to handle and accept and to relate to all of the other things that are going on in life, and you have to be able to see them. You hold that principle in something that needs to be touched and awakened, but you never really fully quite take it on because one is still being engulfed with, and enamored by, this or that.

And the spiritual illusion comes in all kinds of different directions and the only thing that enables them to go away, as far as the impression of the vibration goes, is if you truly, truly accept the human experience – which you can’t do unless you have this amazing connection of the heart to all that there is around you. Because otherwise you will constantly be trying to play with the chemistry in some fashion or another, and you can find yourself being able to do some amazing things.

The idea of shaking the walls of Jericho down is no different than the idea of roaring back at the sea, or the conditions that happen in the outer, instead of seeing how all of that plays and strokes the heart chords all the time. That’s why you have the principle in Sufism that the enemy is your friend because, technically, there’s a way of seeing that that deeply touches you and in the end results in you staying in a human orientation.

It’s all part of being grounded and being grounded in a way that can handle this, in other words, not to the point where your sensitivity’s blown apart, such that it results in a whole other schematic of things happening that are chaotic. When you see that sort of thing happening you kind of know why, you kind of say it’s not properly grounded. Grounded, yes, but not properly grounded.

You have to maintain the heartfulness. The heartfulness keeps the strength of the body going. It keeps the vibration, the electrical currents of things the way they need to be. And that you have to connect to that, and then that keeps you properly oriented – or otherwise your energy races in some direction or another.

This is kind of like noticing this quality, noticing this trait. This is not something that you readily notice when you’re just taking and dealing with, for example, the limitations and inhibitions that everyone initially finds themselves under. But at some particular point you realize that you get wafted back and forth by the way things change around you, so to speak, the wind of life blows, and you have to know how to handle that. And you’re not going to handle that because it is so much more than you could possibly grasp or contend with, unless it’s all captured in an element of the heart.

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