Posts Tagged ‘spiritual longing’

John: I keep dreaming that there is a dominant, inner expression that dictates the outer life. This is an influence that is familiar, deep within my natural frame of reference. However, the loudness of everything else – the superficial – drowns out this effect over the short run. 

So this influence silently dictates the overall way things unfold, even though it’s not readily apparent in the outer.

In one image, I see this inner expression represented as a skeletal frame that holds things together. The outer features are what I notice at first, and am apt to be swayed by – like the skin and the flesh on this frame – on a moment-by-moment basis. As a result, the controlling feature in life (the inner expression) takes a backseat to everything else in the outer environment. Or so it seems, even though in the long run the skeletal backbone to life is what ultimately wins out.

In other words, what I saw is this skeletal structure, and it comes all the way down to the ground. So there’s something about the structure that makes an energetic connection to everything that’s rooted in creation. Then the shell, the body, the flesh, and the skin on it is what people pay attention to, it’s what they see, so they’re not aware that there is an aliveness to the structure that actually dictates what is meant to be and how things are to unfold.  

Everyone is paying attention to what is more apparent or obvious, i.e., the denser, outer layer, which is just the wrapper, or the exterior of the skeletal structure. So people base their choices and actions according to appearances, because that’s the easiest to sense and to see.

In other words, the invisible skeletal structure carries the energetic or vibration of what’s meant to be, not the skin and the flesh and everything else that’s visible. But it’s the outer, visible layer that has a loudness that captures the senses, and draws everyone’s attention.

Of course, in the long run, what wins out, in terms of what is meant to be, is determined by the skeletal structure.

Isn’t that a strange image?

So in this dream I feel fortunate in knowing what is actually affecting what manifests in the outer. It’s a wonderful feeling of relief to know that there is inner guidance, determined or destined to come to the forefront of my being.

First of all, I sense this in a fairly general way, but then I realize that my attention is drawn more to the skeletal structure than it is to the outer layers. I do not readily grasp this.

I can feel it and I can know it, but I lose sight of this knowing when I’m caught up in some situation that requires my immediate attention. Even then, when I’m unable to hold onto an inner balance, I’m comforted in a subconscious way with knowing that there is the essence of what is meant to be, like it’s waiting for me to go there, to look there.

In the dream, because I’ve made the choice to have the inner framework to life dictate how I’m meant to live, even my mistakes and detours are simply guided and shaped into what is intended. I find that amazing.

In other words, as I fumble about it’s almost like something else is directing me because whatever I’m doing is being transformed somehow. It’s affected. Sometimes I suffer when this happens, but at other times my input is redirected and guided to bring out the intended inner effect.

I come to know and trust this inner expression, even though it’s not visible; for me it is just as real as what is visible. What is visible in the outer is there for appearances only. I’ve become able to see the deeper thread of things, beyond the noisy surface.

This cannot be said, however, for my coarser nature that is still dominated by the appearances of the outer world, fed only by the physical senses.

What I’m describing is a subtle awakening, of my consciousness, to that which lies deep within my nature. It gives me joy each time I’m able to break through the outer barriers and be touched by this inner essence, which waits patiently for me to attune myself to its existence at the core of my being.

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John: In this dream, I’m carrying the feeling of being cut off, or removed, from something that I’m looking for, inside. Try as I might, I can’t even remember what it is that I’m looking for. Ideas pop into my head, but I’m unable to hold onto them. It feels as though I’m looking for something that isn’t there.  

Still, I look and I look. Suddenly, you come back to bed (in the outer world) and I’m able to identify that something is being revealed in me. But what is being revealed is still only at a vibrational level. I’m excited because I feel as though I’m about to figure something out.  

When you return to bed it coincides with my excitement at having reached a crescendo, but I also get jolted awake. My feeling is that I haven’t completed my inner search, and I’m left with a longing inspired by the dream.

This imagery shows that I’ve gone back to the beginnings of things. We have been talking about dream work, and asking the question, “Is every person meant to awaken to a spiritual life?” So this dream finds me back at the beginning, where we all find ourselves at some point.

Yet even at the beginning we are seeking something more, even though we don’t know that we’re doing it, and we don’t know what we’re searching for, or what we want.

So to begin with, when we go to sleep, it’s like we give access to a vibration that seems to restore our sense of self. Not only are we recharging our energy for a new day, we are also being healed, to some degree, of the stresses and burdens that we face in our waking life. Sleep each night helps keep us from being overwhelmed.

Sleep, this period of “going home” – to an inner place – restores us and enables us to face the new day. Typically, we take the process of sleep for granted – just as we do our ability to breathe. Sleep is something that’s just accepted, yet few of us really consider what it is and the key role it plays in maintaing our health and helping us evolve during our lifetime.

So, in my dream, I’m looking for something, but I’m unsure of what. This is like the initial stage of a spiritual journey – having a sense that there’s something more, but not knowing what that might be or where to look. And we may have that sense of longing in our waking life, but it may well begin during sleep, where we are always connected to the higher part of ourselves, even if it’s at a subconscious level.

For most people, the usefulness of sleep begins and ends with getting a good night’s rest. The physical world we inhabit is the only reality of interest; we think that everything of importance happens “out there.”

Upon waking in the morning, we open our eyes and everything that was going on inside seems to fall away. We may or may not consciously remember any of the imagery of our dreams, and if we do we might consider them strange or confusing. Most people really only consider how well they’ve rested.

The switch to something greater – an awakening – can come to the person who is able to recognize that there is more to life than meets the eyes. That sense can come from a connection to nature, an inner knowing, or the nudging and guidance that happens during sleep and through our dreams.

So everyone experiences such vibrations, which refresh and restore, which we take in at night and take for granted, and for some there is an awakening to something more. It is only then that the spiritual world consciously begins to open up. The inner connections have been made.

This is incredibly important to the unfolding of a human life. The human design has embedded this process of awakening to a spiritual life as a latency within it. It’s really as natural to us as the desire to continue the species, but that is more robotic in nature.

A spiritual journey can be hinted at through this latent coding we all have, but following it can only be undertaken by free choice, otherwise we would be no different than slaves or robots.

Every soul that has the focus and attention can reach the deeper levels of themselves, but the choices required can only happen in their time. Thus, to answer the question “Is every person meant to awaken to a spiritual life?” the answer is “Yes, and it happens in accordance with how well they’re able to catch up with that which is astir within.”

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John: Yesterday we heard your dream (see Into the Woods), and saw how it described a journey between two places – the house you are staying in and the meeting place with the teacher. In between these two places is a darkness that you are having trouble navigating on your own.

That’s where you’re friend comes in. She is a part of you, and she represents the means by which you can develop a certain sight, or understanding – at the depth of your being – that enables you to navigate in the darkness intuitively; by hearing or just knowing.

In other words, the unfolding of the spiritual part of one’s self – the higher self – occurs through a light that you can’t see. There is a gap that exists between these two points: you are whole and complete as a part of Creation, yet you’re in a state of amnesia, too, because of the darkness between the higher and lower parts of yourself. We are all, for the most part, strangers to higher selves.

Still, you have the feeling that something important is beckoning, is calling you, which is shown by the meeting house where the teacher is. The whole zone in-between is full of darkness. It’s full of trauma, it’s full of fear. It’s full of all the qualities that cause one to be veiled and lost to oneself.

And you mentioned that you have seen this meeting place before in your dreams, and needed help to find your way along the dark path. So you are being shown your lower self (the house you are staying in) and your higher self (the meeting place and teacher), and the darkness in between is the veil that has been created through fears, patterns, and the general disconnection we get from our cultural training.

But our systems are always trying to awaken us to ourselves. So the dream repeats, giving you the same hint, and offering you guidance. You are at a point that could be bliss, because the mystics spoke of this point where the in-breath turns into the out-breath as a point of bliss. (In the other direction, where the out-breath turns into the in-breath, it is described as a point of longing.)

But you are at a point where you can’t really hear the guidance of your higher self because it sits in an unconscious zone. So you find yourself telling the teacher that you can’t hear him. In other words, you’re not getting the memo. You’re not getting the connection. The teacher represents the higher self in your nature, but you’re not able to gain the awareness being offered.

Why not? Because you’re still depending on “things.” Among other things, you’re depending upon some quality of light or understanding from “your friend” in order to make your way back and forth to this place in Creation. In other words, you have your abstractions, and therefore you can’t properly listen.

You can’t properly gauge the two points. Ideally, if you gauge the two points, they’re one and the same. But you don’t know that because you have the higher self and the lower self and there’s all of that darkness in between that keeps you veiled.

This also is a good dream from the standpoint of the question “Why do dream work?” Well, this is why you do dream work: so that you can come to know these points, that they are accessible by all of us, and to bring awareness and light to the darkness that prevents us from knowing.

In that process, you can actually raise your energetic – you begin to work with higher energies. You raise your inner sense of power. You also speed up, because higher energies move faster, and that allows you to access even more from within.

In the dream work process, and in this particular example, you’re given an image that shows you the polarities, and because you are on a path, you understand you are being beckoned to something important, in terms of the higher self, even though you can’t quite hear the teacher. At least you know that the teacher is trying to get your attention and to communicate something you need to hear.

The dream also shows that you need to be able to go back and forth, between your higher and lower self. You need to light that pathway, and connection, until such time as they might merge into one.



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