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A Bit of a Shock

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John: I had two short dreams.

In this first dream, I drive up to a large pull-up door. It’s a door that you could actually drive through when it’s open, but I stop in front of it. There’s something on the other side that’s colorful, that’s fascinating, that’s wonderful but, as far as I know, the door is closed to me.

Suddenly the attendant says, “Oh, what the heck.” I’m not supposed to be able to go inside, but he’s going to open the door so I can at least take a peek and see it for myself.

I’m standing just outside the door, but now that it’s open, all I see is a grayish mud. I’m told the colors on the roof are incredible, so I absentmindedly step inside to see them and I nearly fall down because the mud is too soft. My hand goes down and gets full of goo. It’s like a shock to my system.

The shock-like effect is because I’m not quite “getting” it. I never do get a glimpse of the beauty that’s being talked about. All I can do is hear about it. I can’t go through the door yet; the floor hasn’t firmed up enough.

This image is similar to the idea of being clear enough in terms of my own issues that I can look at others and see them for who they are, without any personal projection. This image I showing me that I’m still not there yet. What’s beautiful and colorful is still a bit out of reach.

In the next image, I’m lying in a bed against a window. It’s 10am and daylight outside, beyond the curtain. I peek out and see a person standing there, six inches from the window. I see a man’s back.

I don’t make out his entire outline because I’m groggy, I haven’t gotten up yet (it’s like I don’t want to create the contrast).

Then, all of a sudden, I feel like someone’s stepping through the window, like a person’s leg is coming in. My thought is to grab the leg and hold it so that it can’t be pulled back out.

But then I feel frozen, unable to move. I can’t lay there and grab the leg at the same time.

This scenario is creating the relationship between what’s on the outside and what’s on the inside. So again it’s like a shock and surprise. I can’t quite accomplish what I want to accomplish or see what I’m trying to see.

I’m not able to actually be in a neutral enough space within. I’m projecting biases around me and I’m finding myself comfortable being that way. As a consequence, that interferes with my letting go and being in the overallness, and I’m seeing that something isn’t quite possible.

So I can’t actually see the light (colors) but I can hear about it. It’s not quite soaking in, it isn’t quite firmed up yet, it’s still in process; I can’t step through the door.

I also can’t quite integrate what’s in the outer (of the window of illusion) and me in the bed. I can’t quite deal with that because they’re still two separate things to me, and to the degree to which I toy with that I’m apt to shock myself.

Of course what kind of a waking life scenario is behind these images? Well you could say a big scenario is the idea of the future, and in order to have a better future, we have to figure out how to hold this inner space inside, no matter what’s occurring in the outer world.

If we aren’t able to be empty in ourselves, then how can we expect others to find the compassion, and the recognition, and the coming together, and the intertwining, and the wholeness for themselves?

That’s the huge picture and it has to do with the whole. But of course I’m being shown that I even have difficulty from a personal standpoint in that I’m not even handling the little stuff.

This whole spiritual process begins with having to deal with the dark side of ourselves. Even in that we can get caught in the reflections of going back and forth and back and forth. At some point we have to take a leap forward into something that’s an overallness, or a wholeness. As one attempts to do that, the realization comes that the light is not necessarily what we perceived it to be, and we have to make another shift to realize that all the light is inside us.

The light we connect to isn’t some light that we find as a support in a collective way, as if there is greater clarity outside ourselves. We’re all created out of everything and we have everything in us. But, are we finding it? Are we working from the principle of the whole, rather than from the principle of figuring out how to pull all the component parts together? Are we acknowledging the fact that everything is already intertwined?

Mining the Inner

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John: This particular dream is trying to sort out an energetic. It has both the ancient and current aspects, just like your dream (see The Surrender Process).

As this dream starts off, I’m looking at a company that has land leases in an area where I used to spend time when I was younger. Because of the way it’s now being used, it’s not how I remember it, so I’m trying to make sense out what I’m seeing.

I’m studying this area because I’ve been invited to get involved with this holding company; there’s a feeling that there’s something to the land, but I don’t know. I’m trying to establish if going forward with this project makes any sense.

The company has control over the key access corridors, which is good. I know this because of my remembered knowledge of the land – I used to run (flow) freely there as a child. Yet I notice now that there is an adjacent property that I never paid much attention to before. As I look, I see a tanker truck.

It’s the type of truck that would hold natural gas or fluids, which I take to be injection chemicals some company is using as part of their extraction discovery process. As I stare at this tanker, in my mind I am wondering how it works.

I’m surprised that I’ve returned to this area, which was quiet and dormant when I was young, to find that I’m looking at doing a project in the same place so many years later. Back then, it was just property I took for granted as being part of the neighborhood. I flowed freely about and played in it. Now the same area is thought to be carrying some potential, which needs further enfoldment.

The meaning here is that I am trying to evaluate the energetic potential of this area. I’m aware that I’d taken this area for granted when I was growing up but, now that I’m more awakened in life, I see that it has tremendous potential within.

What I’m trying to reconcile in this image is how I feel about the current situation. I liked the feeling of the place when I was in a state of innocence (amnesia) and it was wide open and didn’t attract the interest of anyone.

Now you might say there’s a type of stickiness to the place. I haven’t fully determined what the potential might be, yet I sense that there’s something there that I have to take responsibility over.

So I don’t know the depth or scope of what is to be further revealed. I mean, even that isn’t really clear because in the dream I haven’t convinced myself that this area is worth developing. Of course, seeing this tanker truck indicates that someone else is probing. I get the sense that nothing significant has happened yet.

I’m at the stage where I have to decide if it makes sense for me to commit further. This energetic from my inner, dream life, is no different than what I’m trying to sort out about living in Vegas. First, I have an ancient memory about Vegas back before it was discovered. Today this same ancient undeveloped property has been discovered but only discovered in a certain capacity – there’s something even deeper behind it.

It’s a latent inner treasure, in other words, that has yet to be revealed. I’m not sure how I actually feel about what currently exists in Vegas. I need to establish what the treasure there is before I can commit further to the surrounding neighborhood.

Yet somehow I feel that the most precious of holdings are at my disposal. I am trying to establish the best course of action – that feels energetically right – before I take the next step deeper within. The way to go further within has not yet been revealed. I’m still in shock that what had been ancient stomping grounds has become the epicenter of my inner path.

What I’m noticing is that your dreams relate more to the foundational core of where we are, meaning the building, and I’m aspiring to the light and brightness of things in terms of the surrounding area. You see the building as the epicenter of the inner space of your beingness.

What’s interesting is how you’re going to sort out the shiny part from the tacky part, as I try to sort out whatever treasure is supposed to be buried here that hasn’t yet come through.

Missing the Magic

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John: Last night, because of my fever, I didn’t think I was going to have any dreams. All my attention was on the fact that no matter how I bundled up I was cold and, as a consequence, I consumed myself with trying every sleeping position so I wouldn’t create any additional aches and pains.

It wasn’t until 1:00am that I had this image. I was trying to figure out how to carry the image back to what was going on before, but I was blocked by the fact that my attention was also on my fever, aches and pains.

So, in this glimpse, or image, I see a woman who shows up from time to time at the dream group. She is accepted as part of the group; it’s as if she lives in the area.

Somehow I come to know (no one else seems to know, they just accept her), that she doesn’t really live any place in particular. She just flows freely and with ease. 

If I didn’t know that information, nothing about her demeanor would cause me to think she didn’t live locally. The image of this woman, the quality that she carried, had a great freedom and elegance to it. She would just show up.

There was no way I could draw any conclusions, or quite put my finger on what it was about her. All I knew is that she seemed to be around at important meetings or events from time to time.

So this image is creating an energetic space, and freedom, to move about at will. It’s an expression of composure and elegance that feels natural wherever it is. It’s an image that shows that there is more meaning and freedom available to us when we are not limited by a need for definition. This woman defied definition.

We see this in waking life, and it has been a theme in our dreams since we went to Las Vegas, that when we find ourselves in situations that are completely out of the ordinary, completely different from what we are accustomed to, it stirs things up inside us. From an inner (dream) world perspective we are shown, and can experience, that if we’re able to just flow freely and with ease, we’re much more alive.

Flowing freely allows for more amazing images and states to open up, which also gives us a greater understanding of all that’s going on. Whether waking or dreaming, this free-flow state is almost impossible when we see ourselves in terms of how others might see us, whether friend or stranger. That ego-perspective isn’t good because it defines us – it limits us – and therefore shuts down the magic.

A dream like this causes me to wonder, how does one do this in relationship to the home community? In going to Las Vegas, we were far from our usual dream group (meetings) and unlikely to find similar ones there. Maybe this is a dream with a hint to show a state, or a value, that exists when we’re not in any place in particular?

The dreaming has been showing that there’s a much greater dimensionality to things when we’re able to be at peace with, and accepting of, all situations. Whenever we (humans) find ourselves in an uncomfortable predicament, we quickly begin to put limits on our senses and we adopt old patterns – we focus on the particulars and details, and lose the bigger picture.

When we do that – begin to limit things by defining them – it causes hurt to the heart, because it’s a disconnection from what really is. If we can keep things outside of the specific, or not view them so personally, we can actually have a greater perspective of what’s transpiring.

We’ve been dreaming that, and noticing that. It’s might seem like human nature to want to define everything, but that narrows our experience into the predictable, when our real safety, and joy, is in the spontaneous, or in the aliveness and uncomfortability of the unknown.