The Inner Dynamic

In this series of dreams from Jeane, we can see how, over the course of a night’s dreaming, a premise and a process unfolds. In this way the unconscious guides the conscious to new revelations and understandings. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I have a series of dreams that ran together and initially they started out being influenced by the fact that we had watched the primaries last night. So it’s nighttime and it feels like I see the forms of what it looks like as the candidates for the Republican nominee move forward, but I just see it as like forms on the horizon that move forward because it’s night out and they just have different energies in how they move or some don’t move forward at all. Then that kind of segues into the next dream…

John: So far what you’re doing is you’re catching the thread of what the unfoldment theme of a quality of inner into outer is. In other words, you’re looking at the candidates and you’ve developed the sense that one of them has to surge forward and when it surges forward and stabilizes itself in a front runner position, that something as an energetic will coalesce around that occurrence.

At present there seems to be a lot of vacillating first back and forth and back and forth, but you’re sitting trying to take a read or get a bearing on what is about to unfold as an expression, as a theme of energy in terms of expression.

Jeane: What happens next is the candidates are out over water. It almost feels like the water in a park at the hometown where I grew up, but it’s mostly still night, and then there is the force on the water almost like an ocean force where there’s a storm that’s come up.

The storm is such that some people go into the water and they can only be rescued by helicopters. It almost feels like I’m involved in this process, like have I gone out, how much have I got in the water, could I get rescued by the helicopter. It’s more like I’m monitoring because some people would not even venture out in the form, and some people are going to have to be rescued by the helicopter, and some people seem to have been able to fly right through.

That was my second dream.

John: What you’re doing now is after having established kind of an inkling or understanding as to what is going to kind of unfold, the next determination that you’re trying to make is, to what degree the process is conscious and unconscious? Because you have the sense that what’s unfolding is also kind of superimposed mannerism.

So it exists over a setting of water of which people or whatever end up getting caught in whatever the unfoldment turns out to be. They get caught one way or another in kind of unconscious mannerisms and are in need of being rescued.

The deeper meaning of this, the nature of the dreaming last night had to do with the idea that what is unfolding on an inner level, because of the nature of the senses and the mind and whatnot in an outer context, you have to look at and read behind the scenes of what is unfolding in the outer in order to try to get an inkling of what is astir on the inner.

The outer reflects the inner. Rarely is it to a point where a person can hold the inner connection. They’re always relegating it and reflecting it and creating veils for themselves through their outer dynamic. And so the theme of the dream is to try to backdoor this thing so that one is tying their connection to this whole inner linkage.

So that’s what you are seeking to do, with first of all discerning what is taking shape, and then secondly trying to focus yourself to what is conscious and what is unconscious in terms of the process.

Jeane: In the next scene it feels like it’s a little more towards daylight, and I’m in the park there at my hometown on the edge of the lake, but I’ve kind of interrupted the whole process because I feel like my mother, who’s been gone, has returned home and I want to talk to her. So I phone home. And there must be two people there that I don’t know well. They answer the phone and they go to get her and I can hear them. I think it’s a man and either a son or a woman, I don’t know.

They’ve gone to get my mother, unless they’ve set down the phone and they’re talking, and they’re forgetting that I can hear them. That’s all I remember of that dream except that there’s a shift suddenly.

John: What you’re trying to do now is you have the input of things, in other words the sight of something, in front of you, in which you can see what is unfolding and then you can see the effect that it’s having, in general. From there you’re trying to take it to a deeper level, in terms of where it’s going, or something, or what the ultimate consequences could be.

In other words, how does this thing get shaped? And that’s where you look to the feminine side again. But at this point, because you’re looking to the feminine side, there’s some sort of mystery that still exists because that side has to be reestablished, or you have to re-find that, or you have to bring it to the fore in order to get a better sense of what is necessary, for shaping purposes, because it’s the feminine that does that, that does the alchemical change.

The first two dreams have created the coming through with the level of sight, and then now you’re looking at how this… You haven’t established yet, but you need to establish what this is going to shape into.

Jeane: Then there’s a shift, and I’m observing an adolescent boy, but he’s more like 19 or so, and I’m at the same park but it’s more daylight now. He’s been given a position like a park ranger or a lifeguard, and I can see it suddenly dawning on him that now when his friends come to party, if they try to drink or things at the beach or get drunk, he’s going to be the one that has to enforce that you can’t do that. And it’s going to be very tricky because you let people come and enjoy the park, but he’s now going to be part of what enforces that it doesn’t get drunk or out of control.

John: The whole thing is you’re now defining from what you’ve observed and then located inside yourself how you’re going to carry and conduct yourself based upon what you’ve observed unfolding in the outer. In other words, you found the element inside of yourself to use as a tuning fork kind of note.

So then the last shift is how it is that you feel or see yourself as being able to conduct yourself. In other words, you’ve brought back in the feminine principle. So how is it that you’re going to cause something to unfold, or how are you going to conduct this?

And what arises is kind of a set of values, because you now have a sense of how something needs to be coordinated in relationship to how one enjoys or appreciates themselves in life. It may have been all confusion before. At one point it was a mystery as to how this sort of thing was going to come together or come out, and where you separate the conscious and the unconscious, and then how you establish and reach the part of yourself that can guide something or help formulate a plan, or a shaping. And then in the final dream, you’re setting forth how it is that you’re to do this. In other words, your way of doing it.

Now also as the theme to the dreaming last night, was this context that: so in the outer, also in the inner, which means that how one takes and sees themselves, in terms of symbolic imagery, involved in an outer capacity way, that to a person who knows how to read the unfoldment of the inner energy through the veils of the outer mannerisms and projections, you’re able to see what is seeking to come through, or be astir, on the inner.

Based upon your fourth aspect of the dream, what you’re essentially doing is, as you gather a certain kind of clarity and then attempt to figure out what that means in terms of shaping things, you’re actually setting up guidelines. You’re setting up distinct things.

What I read behind the setting up of those distinct things, is that that’s a type of sealing, where your nature tends to take on a kind of station in which it then lives or orchestrates itself in an outer way, based upon the degree to which it is caught up with something on the inner.

It’s a type of station, but it isn’t the fullest of stations that you can reach. That is why it is said that it’s a type of sealing, where you seal yourself, and then you tend to carry that mannerism over and over and over again as a schematic or a dominant theme.

Now, as I have seen you do this, where I’m starting to react is the fact that you think you have to do it that way, because I know that there’s a bigger trust in which there is a more powerful effect, and a more powerful connection on the inner that you can reach, if you don’t have to create some sort of established dictums.

In other words, if you can leave yourself more vulnerable to the circumstances around you, which is another way of saying that in spite of how it looks, can you let something crack, collapse, or die? It’s a very, very tough kind of principle, but if you can do that you find yourself in an even greater state of freedom without having to react or knee jerk all the time.

What you’ve done is you have described where you’re at, through this dream process, of how you have taken what is unfolding, in terms of a perception, you brought in the characteristic of the feminine that takes and works with that in terms of how to determine the way it’s to be introduced into life, how to shape it so to speak.

The actual shaping of that is established through the fourth part of the dream, where you have certain dictums that have been established in terms of how to carry this across. And so you have set, you have established, a certain format.

Now, that format is a format that you function from that you’re comfortable from, that has to do with a clarity and rootedness that you have come to grips with through the process of time – in terms of your soul level.

What I am saying, however, is that you can take another leap. That’s how you are situated, but you can take another leap with that as well, in terms of another kind of letting go.

The way I described that in my dream is that rarely does it get to a point where an individual is able to take what is unfolding on the inner, and hold more to that unfoldment on the inner, as opposed to having to create certain reflections from which veils arise in terms of how that comes across in the outer.

How is it possible to backdoor, or to back up into, the inner unfoldment to where you’re able to maybe sit more at the very beginning, which is at the point where you have the conscious and unconscious forces there, and where something can be rescued out of the unconscious – but not having to project a rulebook of what necessarily is conscious?

Very hard because a human being always has to have everything make sense in a dot-your-i, cross-your-t sort of way. But within the dream, taking out the need to have to seal it in some capacity, you find yourself back into something like that, which is very, very difficult because it’s a more speeded up way of having to be, when the end result of the other that reaches a type of solidity and power of expression, that is pinpointed, seems to be an advancement, but is actually a taking on of a state that is transitory to the bigger picture. Because the bigger picture would have you letting go of that, and not sealing at all, continuing to try to stay on the inner.

But that is very, very difficult and rare to do, thus that’s why you have the dhikr to try to hold the note during the daytime, because during the daytime you’re constantly taking whatever your perception is that’s unfolding from an inner schematic being the dominant underlying energetic, and you’re constantly trying to bring that to some sort of sealed understanding.

And the dhikr, heartfully felt, keeps taking you back and taking you back to that there is something so much more that stays in its free flow, or surreal, way without having to be nailed down.

So that’s the dynamic. In other words, your dream is portraying where you’re at, in terms of the dynamic, but within the dynamic is the full understanding because you have all of the component parts. And often times one, in the dreaming, we tend to perhaps dream on the first go around something that is meant to be present at the end.

And then there is the middle, in terms of maybe how we’re working with it, and then there can be the consequence at the end as to where it goes or something, or how it’s steered. And often times it’s important to try to put an attention upon how something begins, because in the beginning the components are a little more fluid, and from that fluidity you can tend to see something that you may not be able to see once it’s more solidified.

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Pulling the Rug

John: Yesterday I described, in the first dream, a type of perpetual motion boomerang that wouldn’t lose its force no matter where it went or what it came in contact with. Yet when I tried the process myself, with just energy, the strength of the energy diminished and became distorted.

As the second dream begins, I’m sleeping on a couch in the dining room. You’re sleeping in the bedroom on the other end of the house. Perhaps I’m only napping, but it’s evening.

While I’m deep asleep, I don’t notice that someone comes in the front door. Because no one is awake or aware, they take the rug that’s right in front of the door. I somehow sense that something has happened and I get up, in my groggy way. I look out the window in time to see a small car driving away. 

I intuitively sense that something has been violated or stolen, though at this point I don’t know what has been done. In other words, I’m not awake enough to realize that the person in the car was the culprit.

Some part of me knows and registers it, but I’m slow to put the pieces together. Then I look around and realize what has happened. What I was sensing is suddenly confirmed when I notice, “Aha, the rug that’s supposed to be there is gone!” 

I quickly look around and I’m relieved that the rug is all they took. They just did a quick snatch; they didn’t touch anything else.

I make an announcement, from where I’m standing, to you, as if you’re going to hear me from the bedroom. I make it as if you’re going to pop out of your sleep when you hear what I have to say – that we’ve been robbed while we were asleep.

Before there is any response (I haven’t gotten your attention yet), I realize even though I still am drowsy, I know that I can’t really ground my reaction, or realization, until I get your reaction. In other words, I’m reserving my reaction (masculine) because it still needs to go through you (feminine).

The way I wrote this on my note pad is this: “I’m holding back what to make out of this until I see your response. The only thing I fear is that, now that this has happened (and this is the protector, masculine way of something in a groundedness), the energy has perhaps been penetrated or pierced such that there could be a further violation if we don’t fix something about how we are.”

So the imagery of the first dream involves being trained, from within, to work in a new way in the outer – in my life. Yet when I attempt in the dream to go out on my own, to make an energetic projection into the universe, I fail to keep it from distorting and I suffer the blowback.

With the images from the second dream, I can see that I’m not realizing a type of vulnerability within me until after the fact. The image shows that I go somewhere – to sleep – and in doing so I let go of a linkage. That linkage is from the inner into the outer.

In other words, when I’m in a sleep state, I still need to be attentive all the way through. I struggle to keep up with the events that are transpiring around me when I go to sleep in this way. I am required, however, to hold both the inner and the outer simultaneously in my consciousness. Otherwise the rug can be pulled out from under me.

In the second dream, the way I work with this new energy suggests that I’m not as attentively rooted in creation as I need to be, and that makes me vulnerable to events that can blindside me.

Ultimately, the dreams are saying that I’m unable to sustain the essence of the inner – the connection to the inner – when I don’t keep it together in my outer life.

Holding the Note

John: And so, as we discussed yesterday, you are trying to break through this amnesia state because you know that this is what makes everything come alive again. So you see yourself as this model, or this particular type, and you have to take it to the next step wherein everything that you flow into, and everything that you touch in life, is all part of you being a model – this quality is recognized energetically, rather than outwardly. In other words, you relate to the realms within you no matter what banality is occurring in the outer.

Now, for some peculiar reason there is a bit of an embarrassment in you about this (you don’t want to be recognized). This sense of embarrassment has to do with a leftover understanding of what the environment you are in (the parlor full of ladies) is looking for. In other words, that collective consciousness carries a projected world-view. So you, in being the model, feel that you have to accommodate that since that is what is expected of you.

The question then becomes, what if you actually saw everything happening around you as an aspect of the vibration that you are carrying inside, and that there really isn’t any difference? There is only difference when you buy into what someone, or something, else is trying to say or to project.

Do you quibble with that? No. The group is putting something out there as a new linkage, as part of the vibration you have inside. And, can you pull that out and experience that for yourself?

This scenario doesn’t mean to show that you can necessarily do that for them. It would be nice if you could, but this isn’t an us-or-them situation. It’s an image where everything that is taking place is describing a back-and-forth (inner and outer) of the heartfullness you are feeling. It is this heartfullness that elevates you from having your energy slowly drained away from you by the day-to-day events that just accumulate and come at you from every direction.

When you can actually turn your attention and see yourself as being the model in everything that happens, and no longer have to accommodate and orchestrate your life to keep with the thought patterns and cultural mannerisms that are projected, that’s when you are able to maintain your energy and not be drained by the world around you.

In other words, now your experience has a one-to-one correspondence with things that are happening around you; without that correspondence, you cannot go through. This inner change is what shifts you through the “middle” area that absorbs the light. And so you are being shown in your dream how hard it is to be the model. In other words, you have to be able to be the model in spite of how others see you, and how that causes you to see yourself.

And, of course, the way you (personally) are inclined to see yourself means you have to go into a kind of hiddeness. Now if you are able to hold the inner note of the model, and have such a focus that it becomes how everyone else sees you, you will have sustained it, you will have brought it through as a vibration. That is how an energetic (the light) inside of us gets effused into life; otherwise it gets dissipated, or drained away.

If, little by little, you accommodate every situation and circumstance by moving from where you are to what they are energetically projecting, your light is diminished. The others in the dream are not fully recognizing that they have to carry this vibration as a constant inside of themselves.

That is why there are these lessons. That is why, in Sufi practices, there is the zikir (the repeated prayer), because through constant repetition you become able to maintain this note in you. The goal is to hold the note in you while you are in life and relating to everything else. When it embeds itself in you, everything you do in life is touched by it.

The lesson behind this is how you lift yourself from the dark hole and into the fifth level of the heart. The dark hole feels to you as a sadness that you carry. Where does this sadness come from? It is coming from the dark hole of disconnection. So what you dreamt was almost a relief from that, showing you, and asking you, “Can you be the model? Can you hold the note that is the model?”

As an example, if you imagine that your balance comes from things (people) outside yourself, doing this or saying that, you will never find a balanced point (note). You will find yourself instead getting dryer and dryer, duller and duller, more and more frustrated, emptier and emptier, and even crackable (fragile) as a consequence. You will be drained by the bit that is always missing, as opposed to you sustaining that bit yourself.

This is said to be an easier part of the process for the feminine to actually get because the feminine has this way of knowing that its ticket is to love everything in spite of the way it is. This is the nature of the mother who still cannot disown her little Johnny even when he has completely messed up. The feminine knows that this is how it is to be done.