surrendering in a dream – Dreaming into Knowing

Why do we start on a spiritual journey? Usually it’s because we feel an urge inside of us that can’t be quenched any other way. The shocking truth, however, is that discovering that merely means you have found the beginning of the path – the real work lies ahead. And that requires that we shift our lives from a planet-based perspective (career, family, etc.), to a more universal perspective (being in service to what created us). But, of course, it’s not easy to let go of everything we know and trust in something bigger than ourselves – but it is necessary. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my dream I start off reviewing where I had gone yesterday. In other words, yesterday is where I realized that you sometimes do things that are to your detriment – in terms of obvious outer appearance – but it’s because you’re holding onto something on the inner that you hope, in terms of potentiality, will come through.

And yesterday how I saw that was a magnification effect showing how that expanded, as opposed to it going down the same deleterious way, or roadway. This time, as I review this, I find out the name; the place where I had been has a name. Again I’m creating this into a dream image, so I’m going back into this energetic. I’m going back to like on a thread that goes this way, and this thread is called Springtime Road.

And Springtime Road, where it’s at is it sits at the edge of two separate states. You know, by separate states, two separate conditions. It’s way out there, in other words, and that’s how I know it’s out on the frontier border. In other words, way off the beaten track, and it’s a place where I am required to do things, or allow things to happen to me, that are not in my personal best interest – and even to my detriment, from a personal perspective, but done anyway because deep down I know that there is a greater potentiality awakening.

It’s a potentiality, that’s a key word. It doesn’t mean it can happen. I could poison it in some other way. It’s an attempt for something to come through. This doesn’t mean it can be a for sure thing, however, because I am still caught up in a lower-self nature that contaminates. The issue is, can I simply let things happen and quietly bear the weight of surrendering? In other words, there’s a weight, and when you totally surrender, of course, it drops away. So the attempting surrendering is awkward; there’s a lot of weight there because it’s not really surrendering.

If not, the essence deep within that needs to be left free in order to awaken will lose heart. To lose heart means a potentiality goes away, gets lost. Last night I went back out to this place again. I made a turn onto what seemed familiar to me. It wasn’t labeled, but I faintly recognized it from yesterday. This was Springtime Road at a different place along it. Isn’t that an interesting dream?

What is going on – and additional dream information: I am suffering. I can’t stand where things are at around me. I need to stop. An important coloration and its heartfulness is burdened. The reflective image is seeing a person… Okay, this is like a dream now, with additional information. I’m seeing a person that is caught up in his day-to-day existence, singing to himself a song that I remember from long ago. In other words, I am watching this. This person I can just barely hear him. He isn’t singing it for me. He is singing it off to one side because it sort of touches something inside for him.

The song is very faint in the background, in other words, because like he is doing this not for anybody else’s benefit, but I’m noticing this going on. It’s in the background of where I’m at. This guy is not a singer, I just happened to be able to overhear him. The tune if familiar. It sounds a little bit like “Swanee River,” with the words changed a bit to fit an inner unfoldment just out of reach. That’s why I can’t quite pull it through, but there’s a note there that I can faintly hear. That’s how a potentiality feels to begin with: it’s a note that you can barely, barely catch.

So the meaning is, in putting the two dreams together, in order for something important in life to come through I need to step aside. The process of stepping aside is painful, but has to be done because a bigger game is afoot. I will not be able to be part of the unfoldment of an awakening process in life if I am unable to get out of the way.

Springtime Road is a horizon where the border edge exists between this awakening essence and my limited perspective. The person singing to himself to touch what is important is reflective of my condition in which there is an echo to something so much more astir in me if I can bring it out quietly. In the dream there is a problem that is keeping the free flow in check, and of course I understand that the singer is part of myself, and because I can’t pull it out, and the singer is singing, and the tune has changed, and the words are changed, and there’s something there. I know that the thing is disjointed. So that’s that dream.

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In this image, John has a piece of property whose value lies below the surface (on the inner level), and the property itself is not easy to access. And so it is with us as individuals. What is being show is that the path to knowing how to access that value, to unlock it, comes through a connection to the heart – the feeling part – rather than through the brain, the reasoning part. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: There is a piece of property that I have never seen other than on a map. It’s in the shape of a railroad strip, and this railroad strip it’s almost as if it lies up between… you know, above the top part of Canada as Canada maybe connects to Alaska or something. I see it as a line that comes across, and there’s water and whatnot, so it’s not easy to get to the spot. You would have to go up and over and around to get to the spot.

And this line comes across and this line is like what separates the two areas and it is in a cutoff spot, like I mentioned, because it’s cut off by water on both sides. And I owe taxes on this parcel, and these taxes seem very excessive. I’ve gone into my pocket and I’ve checked and I’ve got just enough money, if I go to the loose change that I have, to pay these taxes. It is like $1803 to pay the taxes – but it’s going to take everything I have, including the change.

Even though I haven’t seen the property and do not feel that I have any interest in using this property, that is the surface of it, which is like the lower-self nature, I know that this properly sits in an oil and gas area and is within definitions in which there should be oil and gas under the property, but that’s like a whole other story, a depth.

Because of the oil and gas potential and what that might mean in other regards, in other words regards other than the surface because there’s something about the surface that I don’t know quite where I fit in relationship to that, I am torn over what to do. In fact, I am wearing myself out trying to resolve the issue, thinking about it, or trying to find within my own intellectuality or something, what’s the right choice? And I know I have no intention of ever using the property, nor will I ever travel to see it. I mean, I just locate it on a map. So in that regard, if I wanted to relieve the tension I could just blank it out and let it go.

But there is something innocuous, something tripping me at some sort of inner value at depth that makes me have to ponder, in other words, not just amnesically let it go, there’s something more. And I realize that the answer I seek over what to do is from kind of what I would consider a feminine perspective, because from a masculine perspective you weigh it up, see if it was tangible right here and now, and if it’s not you move on. And it’s more feminine because of the potentiality that’s latent perhaps underneath all of this even though the surface is something of which again this is a strip that ties between two places. On one side is one place, it’s kind of a no-man zone.

To know what I need to do I need to let that part of myself come through. In other words, a part that listens from the heart, or sets aside the intellectual mannerism, in other words, to find this nonintellectual knowingness that comes from an intertwined quality I carry at a hidden depth within. By accessing that I will know what to do. From this place there is a knowingness that will either resonate or not in terms of what you might say an inner flow.

Now, the thing that’s difficult about this dream is the inner flow has a certain excitement to it, and then just looking at it in the outer sense it’s flat, it’s going to be flat, because I have no use for it, no understanding of how to use it, I’m not there.

The meaning is, is the sight that I seek to know what to do comes from a part of my being that is connected to the higher self. This is a part I do not readily know other than that therein lies some sort of potential value which makes things important in another regard, other than strictly a means of connective association. In other words, connective association I do not yet understand for myself in terms of where I’m at in manifestation at this time, so it’s bland, it’s blank, it’s meaningless. But then there is something even more so, in that regard, in terms of manifestation, in terms of looking at just from that opinion other than what lies beneath, I am flat.

So the intrigue continues because there is a unique wayward appearance on a map that is fascinating, even though it’s flat to me, and by that I mean this piece seems to lie between two separate regions of the world, i.e. between two countries, and I am not in touch with where I am at on this issue. The only link I have is an intertwined interest that comes from an inner depth in terms of the location, and that is it may have a potential importance that I am not meant to disregard. To know the answer to that I need to surrender to an inner space where a knowingness resides. I will only tear my psyche or soul nature up if I remain divided against myself from the physical perspective only.

The deeper meaning is that there is a closed-hearted coolness in my nature, in other words, the part that is flat about the whole thing. That’s kind of where the heart closes down because it does not have a tangible way of knowing how this fits and so it quickly jumps to conclusions. So, there’s a closed-hearted cool that is in my nature that is making this hard for me to discern. Otherwise, I would readily know what it is that I am meant to do because there is an inner flow that is more concrete. So, that is the deep meditation dream.

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