The Greater Equation

We don’t always realize that our natural complex of systems are designed for our spiritual journey. For example, whenever we enter a new space, or a new place, our systems are making calculations and assessments of the frequencies, energetics, and safety of where we are. But that array of natural intelligence isn’t just used for getting us through a dark street or helping us find a new home, it is also at play on our inner lives where we are trying to find our way into the universal aspects of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: It’s interesting how the theme of the dreaming was last night in that it really is something that, instead of taking and starting on the out-breath, which has to do with where you’re inclined to see yourself, as if you have an energetic thought that’s behind how you are, and so instead of being able to see yourself as that now correlating to outer things, and, of course, it’s been a little while ago when I first noticed that there is this kind of shift that happens, that you can get to where you instead see yourself as something that’s blasted into a greater overallness. 

And you have to somehow or another come back from that greater overallness into something that functions outside of the maze of that, which is from an in-breath. In other words, you’re on an in-breath trying to make an orientation in a spaciousness. And it’s giving you glimpses of things because the in-breath does get to the angelic and is a traveling towards God, and is a constant weighing of what has a value orientation in terms of yourself. 

It has its way about it in terms of taking an assessment of things. Maybe it is a shift, so to speak, in a way, from what might have been a type of out-breath, in which you had gotten too linearly oriented. And then you suddenly have this in-breath that opens something more up but leaves you in a bit of a delirium, a bit fractured, and seemingly out of tilt a little bit because you don’t have a good grip of things. 

That’s what the greater overallness is like. When you can let go of more of the me, myself, and I and can actually start to see yourself as there being a greater equation of things. But it can be extremely peculiar if you’re still trying to do that in relationship to your usual persona of having to have an identification nailed down. 

So to find yourself having to let go of an identification and go into this greater spaciousness of breath, overallness, it may be a bewilderment. But from that bewilderment comes a type of sense of orientation; a very strange one. I mean, you misuse it, you abuse it, you try to steal from that orientation in order to make something compacted again that you can get away with. 

But what ends up happening is the degree to which you are actually trying to usurp it or steal from it is the degree to which you can see it not as a form of guidance now, when you bring it down from a compacted way, but instead seeing it as something that is attempting to limit, or impact, your ability to hold something that you define as important together. So it’s policing it, it’s like a policing of it instead of as a guidance. 

So this is more on how your dream is, and more also in terms of what the understanding is in relationship to what this is like in terms of a seeing of things that involves the traveling towards God, as still aspected on the breath now, mannerism, feature, however you want to call that to sorting yourself out of the delirium, You’re still in a delirium, you’re still in the illusion, but you’re groping around to look at it is kind of what it amounts to, with a type of looking that can have a guidance to it, or at least an attempted guidance.

Only when you get to a total letting go and stillness does everything kind of come together, but between that and now, in terms of how one is, you have this developing of what you think is a kind of insight, but you don’t get much ease-ability out of it because the greater scope-ability of yourself from a stillness, it being bifurcated in some way, creates a quality of a certain kind of plaguing that you have to hold onto or maintain about your nature. 

But in a way it’s good. It’s expansive. Or I should say it’s expansive and contractive, expansive and contractive. Only in this case you’re starting with the expansive instead of the contractive where you tend to get lost, and then get into a yearning for something more. Here you’re starting with a kind of an expansive, but you’re not capable of handling the expansive, so you come back to the contractive. 

And then the degree to which you can hear the expansive is more as something that bugs you a little bit, that polices you a little bit, rather than knowing that it actually goes all the way up to a stillness from which there can be true guidance. So that’s another way of describing your dream.

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In the Multiplicity

mexico_city_If a spiritual life were easy, many more people would live one successfully. But, as has been noted, it’s not a part-time endeavor – it requires letting go of the life that was being led and living life in a new way, a different way, and in a service way to something higher. Anything less than that kind of surrender puts us in a no-man’s land where we’re not connected spiritually, yet we’ve turned our back on the personal way of living. And it always seems that, in the letting go, we’re giving up something. Technically, yes, but what will be gained in the process is worth it beyond calculation. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay, my dreams last night, in some ways, were bizarre. The dream had several parts, but the dream took place primarily in a setting that felt a little bit outside a city because it’s like people lived in cabins, and then there was a main cabin they might into and interact with.

And in that main cabin, I think on an upper floor, people would come sometimes to get massages, or physical therapy, and that seemed to be the main room that I hung out in.

In one part of the dream I realized I have to go back home because I have an exam coming up, and I feel like I haven’t prepared for it. And it’s evening and I’m going to leave and go home and maybe study the next day for the exam, and you’ve come and it’s like we leave somewhat at the same time but we’re going to meet up at a movie theater.

Well, I get to the movie theater, and I go into the movie that I thought that you wanted us to both see, and when I walk in there I can’t find you. So then I go into another movie theater, or I go around the other side first and try to look up into the audience, because there’s multiple viewing rooms in the theater, I go into another one thinking maybe I’ll see you there and I can’t find you there, either.

And this is just not normal, so I think, well, maybe you realize that I needed to study for the exam the next day and so you just didn’t come. And I just need to go home. So that’s one part of the dream, and then it shifts back to the main complex.

John: So in the main complex where you have the massage going on, the massage is the focus and attention upon some part of yourself that leads to the polishing, and the purifying, of your being – like in a particular house, since you’re describing it as in a complex, or a house, or something. You have all of the commotion going on, but there is a pristine level of the place that’s the higher octave, as you denoted, which we tend to see things in that way just like going to the north is to the spiritual north, and north is kind of up, as well.

And so you’re going into the parts of yourself that are receiving treatment, and that treatment then causes you to recognize that you have more work that has to be done on yourself. And to better understand that, you have to try to sort that understanding out, so you have to study and take tests and, you know, go through the price of admission of things in the outer.

However, a human being tends to be lazy, and they don’t necessarily use outer existence in terms of getting closer to God – which is what it’s all about. They can go off into tangential experiences. And so you could go out and you could have reprieves where things can be kind of easy for you, and that’s why it seems like most people progress in a path towards consciousness through a kind of Pavlovian pressure where they’re subjected to things where they have to constantly be letting go, and sorting things out.

But you can also have a life, and in a roundabout way that’s a blessing for it to be like that, that something is reeling you in by taking and slapping things around, so that you keep dropping things, so that you then take what has been massaged into you and you put it into an inflection so that when you go into the outer world you’re using that as kind of a means upon which to better see things – in terms of letting go of attachments, and distractions, in a realm of multiplicity.

However, you can take yourself out of this kind of format if you take and you just stop, you just kind of coast, if you kind of go to a movie or something you kind of let your attention hang fire at an in-between capacity. Well, what happens is, when you let your attention hang fire in kind of a conceptual way, because that’s like a conceptual way, then because you have something very pristine and then you have something that’s constantly keeping things mixed up, and keeping you on your toes to identify between the two halves, to be able to live and yet at the same time experience the other. Because you have figured out how to go in between, you can sit kind of in an amnesia.

Well, what’s very interesting is even that isn’t allowed forever. You know, an example of someone sitting in amnesia that I’ve seen was people going into an ashram. And, initially, amazing things opened up, and then they got into this process of steering their life where they didn’t like the outer, and so they weren’t mixing it up in the outer anymore.

And they had had a glimpse of the inner, so they’re not doing the process of having to do, as above, so below, they’re not doing the intertwining, they’re not running the chemistry between the two places, the difference between sound and light, they’re not doing any of this. And so, as a consequence, they start to shut down. And when they shut down every little thing starts to bug them, starts to bother them.

So even in the coasting you can’t find me in the theater, then. Or, in the ashram, they can’t talk or have any relevance, and their eyes are all buggy and whatnot, and they look like sickies. So, yes, that process happens, too, and when that happens, of course, are you able to recognize that you’ve fallen back?

You know, when things get to the point where it’s like that, where you’re confused, and you can’t get any bearings whatsoever, because it’s a principle in the spiritual path for there to be the watcher, and when you can’t get any bearings whatsoever anymore you don’t even have the watcher principle going on. And in the watcher principle you can have an inkling of something more, and you can be getting all beat up in terms of the chemistry of things in the outer, and you may not be able to do much about that, but you’re being polished, and changed, and shaped by having to go through it like that, and having to suffer or whatever it is, however it is that you take it in. And you watch that, and you grow in that capacity.

But when you stay in-between, you are actually holding on to a way of being in which you are not quite getting it, not quite finding or seeing anything anymore, and when it’s a bewilderment like that you kind of go around and around. You go in circles, patterns repeat. Will something get you back on track? Will something hit the heart in such a way so that you get it and go back into the whole systematic process of unfoldment, where you’re meant to be in the multiplicity and yet at the same time hold onto the quality of what is divine?

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The Great Flux

ff1A word we often hear in spiritual journeys is surrender. And it seems quite a hard thing to actually do. Yet if we look at everything else in the world, we see that it is very rare to find anything which doesn’t act together in a larger context, whether it is a tree in the forest, or an animal in a herd, or a bee in a hive. All living things act toward the purpose of their design – with others of their design. Just because we, as humans, have become disconnected from our greater purpose doesn’t mean we don’t have one. Yet we are different from every other living thing: we have freedom of choice. That means we need to “choose” to be a part of the greater unfolding, which we can’t do unless we surrender our personal view of our life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: This dream isn’t terribly clear to me, but it feels like I’m like in my 20s or something. I’ve gone to a town. Initially when I go to town I seem to be going to some different group meetings, like large groups of people standing around listening to a speaker or something, and then everybody stays in this hotel.

And I have a roommate, a woman, that I room with. It’s almost like we share this really large bed, that she’s at one end of the bed and I’m at the other. The hotel that we stay at has levels, and a lot of the levels slant when you go from one level to the other, like it’ll have a slanting walkway and there might even be an open balcony up above where you can sit, and you look down, and you’ll see this slanting level between one level and another level.

And there’s people all over the place. They may be sitting, and they’ve laid papers down on the floor, and they also have an unusual kind of food system where it feels like there’s lots of places where you can just sit down and there’ll be a counter there, and then they have a certain way that they serve food including turkey and trimmings, so you can get it fairly inexpensively even though it looks like an expensive hotel.

Initially I’m rooming just with the woman, and then it feels like the next relationship shows up and he is across the room, and I keep having the feeling I’m supposed to get back with him, but I seem to be remaining on my side of the room. And we also always seem to have papers that we’re studying, like we’re all studying something there.

And the initial groups that I went to on the street, like some of them were speaking another language, they might be from other countries, and then there’s all this moving between levels, and between the room, and going back out to a meeting. And at one point I know I’m supposed to be working on this relationship with someone in my past, but then I suddenly realize that he’s leaving and we haven’t really done anything to connect because he’s finished whatever course he’s on already.

I’ve gone out in the other room. I run into my roommate and another friend of ours. Somebody walks by and they pick up a paper that was at my feet that I was going to study, they just pick it up and they drop it down so I can see that it goes down to another level. I need to go get it, but I’m not sure how you get to that level. I go down to one floor and I realize that that’s where some people are sitting. I see the food system.

I’m going over one way kind of close to a counter looking for an entrance to that next level that goes up in between the two levels, and the security guard pulls me to the side, and then I realize he thought that I was going over to that side because apparently there were some gold things stacked up on the table and he’s supposed to be keeping people away from that.

Then we look at each other and we both kind of laugh, because he realizes I wasn’t interested in any of that. I’m just looking for an entrance to this in-between level so that I can recover the paper. At the same time another woman comes at some point, and I realize that she’s asking me about some man, and I realize he’s a man that I’ve seen at one of the meetings, but I don’t recall him real clearly. And she’s trying to match-make on some level, and she may even be right.

And then there’s another man I’m trying to track down, so the whole dream is like that. It’s just like all these different levels, and trying to find my way around, and connect with certain people.

The interesting thing about that dream, actually, is that whereas the dream on certain ways was confusing, after it was over it kind of led me to a certain way of breathing, and trying to go back within myself to a time when I had a certain experience of wholeness, like before times that were confusing, or before certain thought forms got formed, you know, that maybe even bothered me lately. It’s almost like really getting the value of going back and tuning into a time when you feel more whole, and trying to work that out. And that seemed to be what the dream led me to do.

John: Without the detail, meaning without the dynamics, the melodrama of the effect, you just dreamt of what it’s like when the established order of things suddenly is altered and changed, which means basically all the levels come together, which essentially means that the man made structure of things can no longer predominate. That what is intended has been unable to flow because there has been restrictions, you know, there’s been controls based upon man made powers in nature, that that has been obliterated, or has gone away, that something has happened.

The protection so to speak, you might even say it like that, the protection that had been in place to keep the levels separate, and to keep everything kind of in some sort of copasetic way that enabled man to go about doing things in terms of an orderliness, because things were kept separate, or there was the duality. Or, in other words, there was the difference in consciousness and wholeness.

In other words, the wholeness hadn’t come in in terms of the awareness in which everything is here when it’s invoked. It hadn’t come in yet, or it had been kept separate, but in your dream it was no longer kept separate. It had suddenly flooded into the scene, and so the means upon which, or the manner upon which, things now appeared, and the world that you found yourself in, was a world that you could no longer sort out with the mind and the senses anymore like you were accustomed to getting away with before.

And so you couldn’t turn your attention to this prerogative or that prerogative on a personal level, because you didn’t have anything that you could nail down and concretize as established, as within a degree of control, because everything was in play, everything was in flux.

There wasn’t the segregated portion of this, and the segregated portion of that, upon which you could weaponize your way of approaching things. No matter how hard you try to establish, or to recognize, or to acknowledge, or to take in, or to try to shape this and that, or to get this, that, or something else to be, wasn’t possible because the barriers had been so removed that the flux of the wholeness of life was so great that you couldn’t find a personal context upon which to work. You can’t find the personal context upon which to work because in the wholeness there is no such thing. Everything is there in its dynamic, in its complete, full dynamic.

You dreamt this in kind of the safe confines of a dream, but if you were to actually experience it like that it could drive a person mad, or insane, because we’re accustomed to having to have an established order around us. Even if it’s a lie, at least it’s an order of semblance that we can accept to lean on.

But when you pull all of that out, and you have the whole thing as one great big cosmic flux, and the individual can’t find themselves in terms of control, or power, or way of feeling themselves, when a human being gets to a point where they can’t quite make that work, and they’re used to that working, that can be very maddening.

And yet what you’re dreaming is a situation in which the rug has been pulled out from under everything that does exist, and everything that you had relied upon, and everything that you had expected; in other words, all of the attempts that you make to do this, that, or the other don’t go anywhere because there is no room for the personal motif anymore, not in the great flux of the wholeness.

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