Posts Tagged ‘the divine comes through the inner’

John: The thing we have to look at in life is a need to realize that we’re playing with a level of magic. And to reach that magic we need to learn how to let go of things without causing too great an indulgence.

An indulgence can come in many ways. It can be nothing more than a tone, or a mannerism, that we take on, as if we’re entitled to take it on. Or it can involve the rising up, in our nature, of anything other than the qualities of attentiveness and compassion. And an indulgence can involve our automated reactions to our life experiences.

My dream is set in medieval times – there are castles and everything. I find myself, and the group I’m with, being overrun by invading forces who have swept through the land and taken over.

Instead of running or retreating, however, our teacher keeps us pressing on into the territory that’s just been taken from us. It’s like we’re ignoring what’s happened and we’re heading right into the enemy’s reinforcements.

The enemy has decimated our position and left us powerless. We don’t even have weapons to defend ourselves. Still, rather than give up, or retreat, or regroup, the teacher has us proceeding along, as if he knows something the invaders don’t.

I can sense that the enemy closely monitors every move we make. They see us out in the open, instead of being wise and pulling back. The teacher seems fully aware of what he’s doing – he even says that we’re getting very close to where we may be subject to an ambush.

I complain about not having any weapons to defend an attack, which seems imminent. The teacher agrees. Our movements are like a display of deep inner faith, because nothing about our circumstances indicates that these are the actions we should take.

Then the dream shifts, and I notice that there’s a veil that separates us from the invading forces. A moment earlier it felt like we were surrounded and our every move was observed. Now it feels like we’re not as helpless as I thought. With this shift, I can see a barrier separating us from the enemy.

I also had an earlier image where I saw a dog lunge forward to take food right out of my hand.

The meaning of these dreams is that there’s a place deep inside in which trust defies the limitations of the outer. They show that, first and foremost, I must trust and abide in my inner connections. If I get too enamored at what I have externally, or I think that I’m holding a particular space (symbolized by territory or food) that’s important, something can come at any moment and take it away from me.

In other words, if my attachments are too heavily based in the physical realms rather than the spiritual realms, then the “invaders” can swoop in and take it. Even the dog, which is a symbol of friendship, will snatch what I hold onto right out of my hand.

However, if I can follow my inner guidance and ignore outer appearances, I can thread myself through any obstacle. It’s when I react to what outer appearances imply or suggest, and let them guide my actions – like retreating in fear – I throw away my inner connection and my trust. Then I can only live in constant fear of losing myself or, I live in a fear in which I do lose myself.

The forces in outer life will always be bigger than I am, because what is hidden actually yields to them, or stays dormant in the presence of them. It is only by me trusting in what is hidden, trusting that I’m in good hands, can I help bring what is hidden out into the open – into life.

Next I have an image that adds information to these dreams. I mean, I could say that something’s missing from the first image because the kind of trust that’s being asked for, few people in their right mind would be able to muster, unless they had “heard” some guidance.

It’s like the story in the Quran where Moses meets the “Servant of God,” later identified as Khidr. Moses asks to accompany him in order to learn, and is told that he has to abide by whatever Khidr does and not question him. Moses agrees, yet each time Khidr takes an action, Moses, shocked by what he sees, always questions what has been done.

It’s not until Moses has broken his promise for the last time and the two must part that Khidr reveals the true compassion behind his actions, a compassion that was hidden from Moses because of his limited viewpoint.

So, in this dream I’m shown a force that has four levels to it. I’m told that the last person to approach this force inadvertently awoke a lion ferocity that had been asleep therein.

As fearful as I feel, I can’t help but notice that the roaring ferocity of the lion is only active on the first level, but that there are three other levels that are still dormant. My sense is that these three levels can only come into being (be awakened) when one has stilled the first level.

In other words, what’s required to pass the first level is to not react to the ferocity of the lion. The law of the lion who is rudely awakened is that he controls the appearance of the present.

In other words, as in the prior image where the invaders seemed to have every visible advantage, there’s still more to consider than what’s immediately discernible. If we react to the most obvious – our external reality, the invaders, a ferocious lion – it becomes the only level we see and experience. In a sense, the strength of our reaction (the ferocity of the lion) confirms it as our reality. Yet that’s a very limited viewpoint that cuts us off from deeper levels of knowing and inner guidance.

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John: In this dream I’m in an area that’s larger than I’m able to absorb. It’s way too big; I’m out of sync with the environment. I see myself walking around in a daze, unable to sort anything out. Everything going on there is beyond my comprehension.

Then I realize that I feel uneasy because I know I’m in a place where I have a way to go before I can catch up perceptively. If I were directly confronted with all that is there in one fell swoop, I’d be overwhelmed.

As I move about, barely noticing things, another part of me, who is like a separate person, is directly relating to the speeded-up inner energy of this place, or outer energy; it depends on how you look at it because it’s seems a different place, but it’s still within the zone of something else that exists. 

My perception is that of two separate people (other than me) working things out. In other words, there’s the environmental outer person who’s a direct reflection of this place, and there’s the go-between inner person who is able to relate to this outer person, or at least try to relate. 

I mean, this inner person has an aspect about him that’s able to intertwine a bit with this place, so he’s getting aligned. What occurs between the two of them is something that I come to know indirectly, as things are worked out between them.

Somehow a part of me is able to absorb this process until I’m able to readily free-flow in the higher-speed variables of this place. I know that I need to be able to touch these variables. To begin with I can’t even imagine how that’s possible.

Then, as the process between these personages (they feel like personages somehow) memorize or go at something there, I come to know it by way of inflection and realize then that I’m able to relate to those variables a little bit more. That says I’m catching up to them energetically.  

That’s when I realize what I’m missing. Until then, a gap existed in which the go-between, on his own, stepped into the scene and was able to reconcile things on my behalf. His reconciliation enables me to ingest information in what seems like an after-the-fact way. 

That’s how it is in the beginning, but eventually even that falls away and I see myself (to my surprise) directly relating to the variables of this place that have awakened inside of me. When I find myself able to handle the variables, that’s when the presence of this second, outer personage, and the image of an inner, go-between personage, fall away.

What does this mean? To begin with I’m in a place that has more going on in it than I’m able to appreciate. That’s how it is when a person begins the “Traveling in God” phase; my denser self doesn’t yet know what it’s missing, but it’s working on it. I know there’s a lot going on, but I’m unable to bring it into focus.

But my higher self comes alive in this place. To begin with, I’m grateful that I, alone, don’t have to contend with all the overwhelming variables that are there. But as my higher self aligns to it little by little – the rate I’m comfortable with – I become more able to absorb or take on, directly or indirectly, the energetic variables at play.

The time comes when I (in a state of amazement) am able to do what I didn’t know at the beginning was even possible, which is to see myself able to directly engage with my environment. That’s when the place of inner initializing, or aligning, or memorizing, is suddenly over and I’m able to handle the transmissions.

I’m no longer able to determine if it’s a transmission that’s from another zone, or just part of this place. I’m just in it. While I struggle to keep up, I still have the sense that the energetic is part of this place. Ultimately, when I’m fully able to keep up, I come to realize that the whole energetic I’m experiencing is within me.

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