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Today’s dream continues a theme that was touched on in our prior posts, The Interval and Holding On to The Need. Here, the imagery triggers John to describe how the changes that need to occur in humans individually, and in the human race, can only come through those who are connected to it. There are no external fixes any longer, there are only internal fixes. We can only hold ourselves open and ready to the changes that arrive. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream tends to show the struggle that the masculine tends to have because it can always rationalize why it needs to attempt to change something, or wake something, or touch something, in terms of coming out of, and down from, that space.

This is all set in terms of something that is going on in the outer, because in my dream what I do elicits the justice system to comply with a certain normal, expected, and consistent result. In other words, I’m starting off trying to ponder the idea of doing something to kind of cause it to wake up, and have thrown in its face the idea that this is how it should look and be.

I know that this result is consistent with how the court used to operate or function long ago, but it’s no longer functioning like that so I’m thinking that it can come back to that. I’m not willing to accept that it is so far out of it, in a collective motif, that it will only go around in some circle or another but it will not come out of it. In other words, it can’t and it won’t because the system has gotten defiled and, as a consequence, the court is no longer able to do what it is meant to do, or that is kind of its role or its job, which has to do with the connection that incorporates the morality into a justice expression.

In the dream I seek to point this out in a way that exposes a bigger problem. In other words, I recognize this in some little way, but I’m thinking that, again, by coming out of the space I’m acting as if I can come out of the space to actually point out a bigger problem through a smaller issue that looks more personal to me, and then show how this is affecting the Whole.

I’m challenging the court in doing this to take a step that is consistent with upholding the system that it is sworn to protect, because by doing this I’m showing that it is making a mockery of the system that it is in.

Now that’s pretty belligerent and is violating its freedom of choice to do something like that because if it chooses to go on some tangent and be like that, that seems to be what it’s allowed to do as a prerogative. We’re supposed to just watch that and be in that interval space because it’s not like we have been given the orders to bring down a certain justice that comes from the divine.

We are instead in the place hoping that some grace can flow through because that’s usually the way that it is meant to work. It’s not working now, so we stay in that empty space, because to do this other and try to bring it down is like trying to expose an inconsistency from the standpoint of the outer, to point to the inner workings from the top to bottom that are more important. And in doing so, point out that the system has established a built-in conflict of interest, when it started to do things in an outward capacity.

This conflict goes beyond the law which they are meant to uphold, but the law that they’re upholding also has a divine quality to it and that’s what keeps it in sync when you’re in touch with that.

If you’re able to be in touch with it then you’re able to reach to the workings of the body and the system that it is sworn to uphold, and the people it purportedly represents, but none of that exists now because that’s the collective dilemma. The result is a decision, as I know it should be. In other words, if I take this approach I can get the decision, I can compel the decision to come around through all of this extra effort that can somehow point out a way for it to try to be consistent, and one can get the decision that is as I know it should be.

But it can’t go any farther than that to what is important, so who cares? In the consequence it doesn’t shift anything, and that is seen because then there is a gap, which is followed by a further response that is meant to address what has been challenged in terms of its functionality.

And what I remember from the dream about this additional response is it gaps. There’s just this huge space in between that it jumps over the top of like a dot, dot, dot gap and then you will get subsequent additional findings, which shock me because they defy the expectation I may have had. In other words, they elude. They don’t address it. They can’t really hear it. They aren’t able to be there and I do not yet get a chance to sort this out before I wake up.

A type of meaning is, I seek to checkmate the system. That’s what you do when you try to take and bring something down and through and get it to untangle something in the outer, as if it can work that way. But the collective won’t allow it to work that way, and the response you get is a dot, dot, dot gap from the expected function of the court as a review body.

In other words, it’s not designed to take on any depth. It’s just a review body. It can’t take any steps. It can’t shift. It can’t really address the issue. The issue’s been avoided in every step of the process, and then you go to the Supreme Court and it can’t really shift to the true underlying problem.

The sense I end up with is what I have done has sidestepped the justice system, instead of just staying and keeping with how it can only see tiny, tiny things and not very well, what I end up doing is going beyond its usual design and way that it has to uphold itself as a viable body.

It’s like the inner has this quality to it, so you have to stay with that essence, that emptiness, that interval that is so potent. And I wouldn’t have been puzzled in the dot, dot, dot response as I felt it in the dream if the result had hit the value that was behind what could touch the overall if that had occurred, which it didn’t. It’s like prophetic even here.

Another meaning of this is, play with the outer at a level where it is no longer functioning and you will get a result that diffuses, rather than infuses, the result.

This is a dream that reflects the state of being within me as well. I tend to diffuse things by not sitting on the need. I tend to press that need into the outer to cause the outer to correspond reflectively with the greater picture of the Whole. Unfortunately, it doesn’t do that.

Just like I am diffusing myself when I do this, this likewise causes a similar confusion in the system that is opposite to what I feel needs to be in the fabric of its design. This diffusing of the issue further obliterates the desired result from being able to occur because now it takes and has to be accountable for something like that, which is the wrong kind of responsibility or accountability.

And an even deeper meaning is, the esoteric question is, and the question being one which I already know the answer is, is it better to hold the need quietly within as an observer, or is it of a greater value to unwind or try to untangle the reflections that are external in the hope of reaching a higher truth?

The answer is it is better to hold the need. The truth flows from inner into outer. In a dire time when the truth is compromised to such a degree that no collective shift is possible, that is when living in the interval that lies between the in-breath and the out-breath is the answer to the question.

To do so is to hold the need in an emptiness that exists prior to a seed thought from the crown into creation, a motion that affects and shapes manifestation – when it’s permitted to do that. The reason this is the answer is to do something other than this is to take away the one thing God lacks, and that is man’s need. And God answers the need of the heart. He answers it, but in his timing.

At present nothing can shift because it doesn’t connect with any collective heart, nor is there any advancement that is possible in terms of the light of the individual. However, at this time, this has to do with coming closer to God through how it tends to work something out in creation.

And at this particular point in time, it’s like the caravan stops in this interval and watches and holds and it feels the need. It doesn’t do anything. It just feels the need. It pents up, so to speak, just like you can have a quality in your nature that builds and builds and builds and pents up. Maybe you don’t act on it, and maybe you don’t act on it, and then suddenly when you do you have a lot of clarity and power behind it because it has built up to a crescendo.

The simpler understanding is that this approach is a quality that has this essence in prayer. What I said earlier is the legal system is purposely ignoring an issue because it is compromised. This causes a deviation if what is meant to be serves only the best interest, which are personal. You deviate then from something that you hear in a deeper level, which is your light, or the light of the Whole. So the need lies beyond the system, in that we’re talking about a system in the collective, which has put itself into a trick box.

In other words, the world is trapped. It’s trapped itself. It has no way out. In order for something to change that place where something is able to change sits at the point where the inner turns into the outer, that in-breath space. You sit there and it’s actually a space that you can only know when you’re in a nothingness state, or when you’re maybe deep in meditation or something, and you’re totally at peace there.

It has a bliss sensation to it, is the way the Yogis tend to describe it. And in that state you’re most watchful, and in that state you’re most able to recognize the need of the Whole. When you’re not in that state is when you have a tendency to think that there is something that you can do in an outer way that can make a difference, as if you can steal a little bit of that from the inner, but you’re not to take and subrogate that.

You’re meant to just hold the need, and hold the need, because you don’t have the right at this point in time to act because there’s no recognition. There is no counter feedback. We see that even in terms of the dream groups. Everything has to have an invitation and conceivably, inside of us, all of that is the same. 

And unless it is really clearly understood and recognized, we can work out the nuances in the dream group, and hopefully help speed things up a bit that way – as opposed to going out and getting slapped around thinking that we’re able to say something in the outer, or collective, that kind of turns the ear a little this way, or turns the ear a little that way, but not really.

It’s like everything is now taken and turned, any little inflection of light, because there isn’t the light in the outer – it gets absorbed and twisted and turned in some sort of deviant way. So the key is to hold the recognition and develop the need, or hold the need and from the need something can emerge, either in a grace way, a greater grace way, or in the bringing of something down in a mannerism that is consistent with the way the new light is able to somehow start to awaken.

And the teacher has indicated, there has got to be something coming, and it has a different quality inside of it that is designed for something quite different in life. What that will mean will be interesting to see, but right now it’s like everything has gotten itself under a state of – it tortures everything in life. You still have to know how to find that and hold that need, and then it comes through. And we’re all one organism, so we see how that comes through then.

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The masculine perspective, in dreams, often deals with the smaller details of situations, compared to the feminine perspective, which often relates to the overall nature of a situation. Here, John has an image involving changing trains, yet in making this inner shift, he finds himself disconnecting from the flow.

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John: We are kind of on a theme in which even the dreams that we’ve had before have led us up to kind of like this point of unfoldment, in which there is a captivation to the essence that lies behind what is normally just a projection.

And for most people it still remains just a projection to which they identify within an outer context, but for me there are particularities that may now seek, to access or reach, in order to come to grips with this inner meaningfulness.

And in your dream (see The Big Fish), you’re shown it in a general context, and in the general context you’re seeing how you’re doing in relationship to the expansive wholeness that you are meant to catch up with and embody. And in your dream what you’re seeing isn’t yet complete. It’s formative.

That’s best portrayed by the final image, but even in the images leading to the final image, it’s the final image is the clearest because I have the familiarity to what a fish means, and over and over again it seems to have this universal symbolism of a consciousness, or an awakening.

And so you can take the fish that you see, okay here comes the consciousness symbolism, and how that symbolism looks or comes across in terms of you. And you can see the surprise and the shock of you noting that, and then appreciating that in relationship to finding it behind, or within, the essence, as an essence to what is ordinarily just a reflective image. And yet there it is as something more significant to come to grips with or to just take in. Your dream has that whole outer context.

In my case, I’m trying to deal with the inner. I have to address little things that keep me from quite getting it, or from staying in sync with it, which again is the more masculine nature – the particularities. You have the generalness of the overallness, and I have like a particularity to the same subject.

This dream begins with me seeking to be a person who gets off a train and onto another train, because the train I had been on, which provided a nice casual ride, now something has shifted in which the next train has particular other qualities that I have to take more responsibility for, and I have to access directly.

And I have a whole sense of that, but that doesn’t mean that I have the stability and balance for it to happen. And so what happens is I see myself move up to where the door is, and before it is announced where it’s perfectly safe to get off, or everyone can now leave, it’s kind of like you have in an airplane where you’re not supposed to get out of your seat until something gives you the notice that you can do so, or otherwise you’re being rude or inappropriate to the way something is supposed to unfold.

Well, that’s kind of what’s going on here is that I’ve moved up to the door before it’s timely, and then I even push through the door to try to get an edge in terms of finding a seat on the next train and, in doing so, I don’t realize that I am out of sync with the flow, and a naturalness from within.

On this train there are seats that connect you to kind of an inner unfoldment as you ride. Once one gets off on a tangent like that, even though I have a sense of what it is that I need to recognize, I can’t find them. I can’t identify them.

And yet here I am jumping on this train early. It’s as if somehow there are others that have gotten still ahead of me in some capacity, or if I do see seats, I’m continuously looking for something that’s in a different rail car, or something that’s better, or more succinct. And I end up finding myself in this condition, or state, or mood, or mannerism, that I’m carrying, which has gotten exasperated, and not found a seat at all.

The reason for a dream like this is to show that in one capacity or way inside of myself I am able to recognize how there is kind of an interesting way that something unfolds, and that you can connect with that and be fed by that.

But then at the same time, when you get to indulging in the importance of that, as if you have something to say about that or need to adopt a higher degree of control or peculiarity in relationship to the unfoldment, as if there are things in the outer that can get in the way, and so now you’re taking what had been perfectly fine as an inner essence and now putting a seriousness spin on it in terms of outer reflections.

What this does is this throws you off. It throws you kind of on a tangent. And once you get on this tangent, you don’t shake it. And you project this tangent upon other people. And you could sit there and deep down in some state you can know that this is how you would have liked to have done it, and wanted to feel, but you can’t because you went off on an indulgence instead of just staying in the inner flow.

So as a consequence you’re now communicating that reflective imbalance, and if you really look at it it feels horrible, but also at the same time it’s a type of clutchiness. It’s a type of grabbing. This is what tends to cause this sort of thing to suddenly pop up.

You can know the flow. You know that it’s there but you could be repeating over and over again, that the fact that you’re acting out a reflective mannerism – as if it can affect or do something to the inner flow – instead of being in a state in which there is an emptiness and a letting go feeling that has this auric trust and wholeness from which whatever unfolds is what is meant to be.

As opposed to suddenly getting to the point where you catch up with the fact that there was the flow, like this other train, and then now all of a sudden you have to take on a more engaged relationship to that because you have caught the flow, and now you’re in a reflective outer, and now you’re trying to put two and two together.

And when you function like that, that is when you start to become disoriented. That’s when you’re blinking, as if the outer actually has a consequence over the inner – and it never does. It’s you trying to take and do a deviation as if that’s important; taking something and drawing out of it that which isn’t there, imagining that which isn’t there, glowing too much in outer circumstances and having reactions according to those outer circumstances – inside.

And then eventually getting to a point where whatever those reactions are rub off on you, and so you emote that. You hate the fact that you’re emoting that, but you can’t stop yourself. This actually then keeps you from being in tune with that essence that you can just be flowing with, and feeling, and carrying, and transmitting, and watching it from a withinness, do its creative magic or creative thing. The degree to which you carry some imbued trait of tangentiality is the degree to which you compromise that. And it feels horrible, but you do it.

I wrote up a kind of meaning to it that might help too, because it’s a dream about indulging: to do so is to kill the magic and to get in the way of the natural flow. I’ve been fortunate to have been on a train that got me to this point with a flow that I was able to enjoy. Now I am shifted as a next step to a new train.

I carry an energetic entitlement. I’ve taken on this energetic entitlement that has me imposing myself without the composure and graciousness I know is imperative to my wellbeing. To do so doesn’t work, because while you’ve taken on this awkwardness – it is not about me. Yet you’re somehow making it more like you have a piece of the action or something. I will not find the inner into outer connection if I violate the natural inner trust that acts from, and for, a natural inner knowingness.

What the dream is doing is causing me to see how my raciness keeps the natural linkage and flow from unfolding, and takes me away from the inner into outer recognition I need to be abiding in.

Of course as a scenario you could say that I find myself in a state of subtle desperation, and in doing so I lack the usual graciousness I normally carry in my aura. And once you get off like that you tend to stay off and be on a spin, which is away from the inner path. You then, in terms of reflections, reflect that as a denseness, instead of the inner quality that keeps things joyful around you and happening.

And I was unnaturally sharp with people. You get a unnaturally sharp with people, which isn’t one’s actual nature but depicts and points out that you have allowed this raciness vibe, or something that’s pressing you, to take that on as if that is actually real.

And then that vibe gets imbued into things and causes a loss to occur, which becomes a blockage, or a veil, or an attitude that stands between the inner flow, with the appreciation and naturalness, which is imperative in this phased way of compressing to seeing the inner flow in its importance.

Before I just needed to be on the train, now I’m required to hear this a little more succinctly, trust in its meaningfulness, and take care to not get off on the wrong foot and end up imposing an outer pattern. For me to be who I am meant to be, I must remain attentive to the natural inner unfoldment.

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In today’s dream, Jeane appears to others, i.e., the view from the outer, as a kidnapper. But in understanding that she is all the characters in her dream, we can interpret her twirling as a process of deepening her connection to an inner essence. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I dreamed a lot last night, and it felt like one long, continuous dream that kept shifting. I mostly remember segments of it. It started out like I was male and I was like some kind of a robber who kind of went into a building and went upstairs and took charge.

The main thing I took charge of was this woman who was twirling. Well, everybody thinks I capture her and I’m taking her hostage or something. What I do is when I go up and I twirl with her, I diminish the arc of her twirling some, and absorb it, so that maybe my arc of twirling becomes larger and hers becomes smaller, and then take her away from there.

Everybody thinks like I’m kidnapping her. What they don’t realize actually is that her arc aura is actually larger than mine, and she’s actually my sister, and maybe she’s actually even the head robber, so I want to make her look less visible. I do that by kind of absorbing this a bit. And then everybody thinks I’ve kidnapped her, or I’m in charge or something, so this hides her.

John: What you’re doing is you’re discovering how to take and look at the inner essence of something, and take it in. In taking in this inner essence – that which is captured as a type of twirling, that has to do with an arc aura or something that exudes out – this is something that takes and permeates out into everything.

In fact, it’s at the epicenter of all that exists. And so when you become trained to be able to take this sort of thing in, this is different than how everything is seen in the outer. Whenever you’re taking something in, absorbing something into your being, if it were an outer reflection of something, or an outer trait or quality, not taking in would actually be affecting that image.

In other words, you would be diminishing that image. So that is how everyone tends to see this because they’re accustomed to relating to the activity having an outer consequence. So if you are taking from the outer activity, you are diminishing that.

Well, the meaning of the dream is to show you that when you relate to things in an outer capacity way, you’re diminishing yourself, and when you relate to something in an inner way you’re enhancing who you are.

However, in the eyes of others who observe what is going on, because they only see this as something that occurs by appropriation in an outer context way, they have to see this and recognize this in terms of how that is as a pattern of outer seeking inner, which you never reach, because they see that as something that diminishes. So, because they can only see it in that way, they see you as diminishing. They see what they think is you in terms of what you’re doing as something that is in keeping with how they see this working in life, and that is that you’re diminishing the energetic

But because you’re drawing from the inner essence of it, and that inner essence is permeated and is located in everything and lies behind the reflections, to take that sort of thing on is only enhancing and bringing out even more so, that inner essence, which is an essence that in its truest nature comes across – to a person who can only see in an outer way – it comes across as something that they can’t see in its hiddenness.

What you’re kind of actually doing is, is you kind of know that you have to find the inner essence of something and take that on. But you’re not quite there yet, and so what you’re taking on is some reflection and some inner essence. The fact that you are taking some reflection on, those who are looking and observing can see that something is being diminished, but what you’re doing is you’re actually enhancing your own growth because this is part of the process where you absorb the reflections as you access the essence.

And as a consequence you get to the point where the essence becomes so hidden and attenuated as a value, that on a subtle level that is what you’re coming in direct contact with.

And this is exactly how dreams work. To begin with, dreams can appear to the person at the very beginning as something that has to do with ordinary events that are happening outside of themselves, and so they try to look at it in a trite context.

And then dreams start to reveal, as you recognize that everything in a dream is you, you come to recognize that the dream is depicting shadow dynamics and such by which you’re consumed. And so you come to see those shadow dynamics and then try to figure out how to let go of those in relationship to your higher self.

When you access your higher self you start to come to grips with a natural knowingness that exists there and you try to flow with that. And then ultimately you get to a point where you live, or resonate, that essence and know that everything around you is reflective from that essence.

And so you are not affected by the reflections, which means in a sense you kind of accept or absorb them, as an aspect of taking in the essence more deeply. Finally the essence gets to a point where, if you were talking in terms of dreams, where it is so subtle that most people who dream aren’t able to have such dreams.

And even if they have advanced themselves to the point where they should be having those kinds of dreams, the subtleness of those dreams makes it very, very difficult for them to access, reach, and pull out. And thus what has happened is that they have gotten to the point where there is the secret of secrets in terms of a hiddenness, that’s in the essence, that they can’t quite access.

And what is holding them back is the degree to which they are still affected by the outer, as if the outer still has some sort of sway in an outer capacity instead of in an inner essence mannerism that takes and is behind all that there is.

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