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ae10As may often happen in life, we find we have to leave something that we have attachments to: a person, a school, a job, a home, a town, or a city. The feeling can be bittersweet – and there are many and varied reasons for this, individual to each of us and the specifics of the situation. But our spiritual journey wants us to understand that our entire life is a visit to a special place, where we are meant to learn and grow – according to our design and possibility – all in preparation for our next adventure. Our spiritual quest helps keep us from becoming anchored here by planetary attachments because we open ourselves to our universal potential. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In this dream, everything has come together into one place. In other words, everything is visiting. I mean, I’ve got the spiritual elders, and my relatives that go back generation upon generation upon generation. We’ve all got together. We’re meeting at this one place. In fact we’ve already had our meeting, and now it’s time for them to take the elevator right back, or the in-breath back.

Well, I’m the elevator operator. And so they’re all lined up, and I still carry a certain density in my nature, and this is an elevator that’s designed to carry lightness. And so I figure, oh, everybody’s got to have a little density; there’s got to be a little weight. But the weight is me.

And so I figure, I can do this. There’s only three people. You know, a whole bunch were there, but only three got on the elevator on this first trip – and I have to do this. Can I do this? Well, this is pretty hard because how do I relate? What do I say? What can I do? Where am I at in relationship to that, because there’s nothing there? They are a lightness. They are breathing in; they are following the in-breath of the light.

And so, in that elevator, everything is taken in as a wholeness, and I’m sitting there struggling because I, as the elevator operator, what can I say to them? How can I be? You know, I’m still caught in my complexities. In order to do this I have to, somehow or another, breathe this light, this in-breath, that is there, and then yet I have to come down then with this same kind of light bring that down, you know, to pick up more in the in-breath that are going back.

This is how you take in everything. This is a dream that takes in everything. Now I once saw how the out-breath works. This is the first time I saw how the in-breath works.

So the meaning is… you know, to jump into the meaning, the meaning is the setting I am part of is an overallness that is not in a this, or that, condition, having let go of, and set aside, the effects of the reflective, and therefore exist in a singular stillness.

That’s a statement of what it is; describing it as breath is another thing. The elevator is the vehicle that knows the difference, but the elevator is like the breath. It is a vehicle that can go up and down as the breath, with the breath.

In this instance, it is going up. What is going home on this elevator had breathed back in the light that was in the out-breath they brought into this place to visit. To be in such lightness of being I can have no separate action in my nature. In other words, that’s me trying to be in the elevator with them. I must breathe in the light to be amidst those other side beings. And, to the degree I do not, the density of my diverse mind, still mired in the diversity of the outer, will weigh me down and I will not let go to be in the light of the heart. And this elevator is designed to take souls who are weightless, in terms of the outer, back home.

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im442It is said that everything breathes, in its own way – even the universe itself. As humans, we can breathe on many levels. We can breathe on the level of our lower self, purely for oxygen, and we can breathe at the level of our higher self as a way to attune ourselves to the energies and cycles of the the whole of things. One is only in sync with the physical aspects of the planet, and the other can bring us into sync with the fullness of the breath of creation itself. One is limited in its possibilities, and the other is not. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The only other dream I remember, it’s like I was dreaming about the TV show “The Blacklist” with James Spader, and so it’s like his daughter and I are in one room and we want him to come, I don’t know whether it’s to help or whatever, but he’s in another room and he’s been tied up. He’s been captured and tied up, so he can’t come.

And it feels like anything else that happens in that dream has that same kind of energy, like we want something to be occurring but the person is not there, or they’re not available, or they’re bound up in some way.

John: Yeah, that’s adding more information to the situation, in that you have your identifications, and you sense your limitations. And, as you were telling that, I kept realizing one needs to say more about what that is in terms of the light; in other words, how is it that you breathe out light and then sweep that all back up again? How do you do that?

Well, this is done when you let go, and if, for example, you don’t have joy and you feel in pain by things, and you’re not able to touch life, you’re not able to be with the wholeness of things, in your out-breath you’re out-breath won’t be rejoicing. Your out-breath, as you’re breathing down, it won’t have an exhilaration quality to it.

This is what was behind teaching this, he was teaching this through a practice. He started off by going hah, hah, hah, and everybody laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing. And can you do that without it being forced? Can you actually literally let go to where everything is that kind of exhilaration, and joy, and exuding?

If you can, if you’re able to do that, that’s why laughter is so interesting because in the laughter is a letting go, and is something that propels, a true laughter, one that’s just a true belly laugh, propels into the outer a vibration of letting go. In other words, a laughter is a laughter because it takes and what it sees as a heaviness it is able to let go, and not let its mind get caught up in it. And it’s able to let go in a way so that the subtler aspects of the heart can see something, or are able to be subtle enough to see something so much more in terms of an overallness. And it has this tingle of laughter to it when it can do that.

You can’t laugh when you’re dead serious and you’re completely in your mind. There’s no laughter in that. You know, you can’t be distracted or anything because you’re all caught up then. But if you can just suddenly drop that, there is that laughter and that laughter effuses itself into the outer.

Now the reason why that heals things, laughter heals, is in that laughter there’s something kind of cosmic that happens in that the other person then breathes that in – and it relieves them. Do you see how big the breath is, the in-breath and the out-breath? They may start out as if they are individual lights, but they actually take in the wholeness of all that there is.

And so a person who is able to laugh and break the density, and the heaviness, of things, and it’s a genuine laugh, then it effuses into the atmosphere as another person in-breathes. It effuses into the atmosphere the breathing in of light. They breathe in a light and they can get it. They then are healed in a way in which they can let go of whatever the heaviness is that they had been carrying, only for a split second. I mean the laughter goes and then you’re back into breathing in the multiplicity of things that vie for attention, and you resort back to the fallback position of trying to grapple with that with your mind – and then your mind shuts off the heart.

That is why the training is generally a training towards working with the mind, to get the mind from grappling in its density. And then, when you do that, the process of doing that, the subtleness behind that, is the heart. You fall into the heart.

So that’s why you have all these breath practices, but nobody knows what they’re doing in the breath practice. Now the thing that is interesting is after the hah, hah, hah, then when he said okay, now without saying anything, feel that, inside yourself, as an out-breath. And you could feel that. You could feel yourself bringing down an expansive lightness, an auric light.

And then he said, okay, now breathe it back out, now breathe it in, and when you did that it’s exhilarating. And what you would find when you breathe like that is that you now are able to let go. That is what’s letting go, and what is it letting go of? It’s letting go of the mind, it’s stopping the mind.

And what are you experiencing? The essence of the soul, or the essence that is so subtle that it takes in the heart, and the heart takes in the world. Everything in the world is put in the heart. Only what is there in the world? There’s only this innerness which is this light.

In other words, the essence is this quality in which you bring something down which is everything, all that there is, in an out-breath. But if you don’t know that then how can you breathe it back in as light? And if you can do that, then there’s nothing ever going on. And then you go around able to have some experience, but you are having the experience with this quality of breath.

It’s the right breath. It’s the one breath. It’s the only breath. It’s the breath upon which everything is. It’s the one thing. You know, when Rumi makes his poems he talks about maybe there being 99 things that a person can do, and they can do all of those well. In other words, you can breathe down a certain momentous energy, and you can try to steer, and direct that in some sort of capacity, in a way that bicycles around in the myriad of things, maybe do 99 different things really, really well – but that’s not what you’re here to do.

What you’re here to do is to let go, to get into that breath, that quality, that condition that takes you to the emptiness. That’s what is meant behind those three words: Jalal, which is the masculine, which is the out-breath. Jamal, which is the feminine in-breath. Kamal is where you don’t need either one of them. They have come together as one, as a stillness, as an emptiness.

And to put that into words when that has happened, for there to be the emptiness or the stillness, that is because you’re only breathing light out, light in, inner coming into outer, and then that touches everything and gets swept right back up again. That’s how you’re supposed to breathe. You’re connected like that.

And so the key is to have all of it coming down, all of it going back, all of it coming down, all of it going back. And the out-breath and the in-breath come together as just a will of light, rolling in the light.

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heart-esHumans are diverse beings and it’s good to acknowledge and celebrate that. And there are many paths and religious teachings for people to follow, not because there are many gods and many possibilities, but because it is useful to have many paths to the same destination – precisely because we are all so different. Each of us can find a path that works with our sensibilities, and can give us our best opportunity for success. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The difference between your dream and my dream is, I’m trying to figure out the correlation between the out-breath and the in-breath – as if there has to be one – because you don’t just have that shift to somewhere else completely. You don’t just have that. That isn’t the end all, be all.

There is something more than just that, or so it seems, or otherwise this is a bad joke. It does seem that the flip side, or the mirror image, just like there’s light and there’s sound, there does seem to be something correlated to sound to the light, just quite how that works is this huge mystery, how the wavelengths come together.

I suppose, most people start off on a spiritual path complaining, and what they complain about when they reach a certain sense of awareness is that there is something more, and that they’re caught in not being able to access that because they’re mired in manifestation. And so you have all these religions of the world that all take and go on their leap-of-faith approach to something on the other side, and sit and try to hold the line, or find an acuity or something, with some inner depth of themselves, as they fumble and struggle through life.

And so it really threw me into a mystery. The mystery it threw me into is trying to determine the correspondence between the out-breath and the in-breath, as if there has to be a correspondence in terms of a cycle of creation. You can’t realize something in just a totally transcendent approach, and you can’t realize something in terms of a total noodling down here just in the physical. It’s as if they work in a Yin Yang way. At least that’s kind of the sense that the dream started to throw at me because it pointed out that there were these two ways, and I started to look at these two ways that exist.

So, in the meditation dream, I am shown that when you persevere like in a particular way, like through the meditation and whatnot, and you’re actually letting go and you’re going somewhere, finding some sort of otherness of yourself as a depth within, that current way of going will take you deeper and deeper. It’s the way that you kind of transcend, energetically, with karmic barriers and veils that hold a person back. And it’s the way one’s identifications, which veil, fall away. And it’s the way you become empty.

Like in my meditation dream I was suddenly coming back from a place that was so far inside that everything around me was lifted, in other words, it was like a total in-breath or something. But then when you come back down with the out-breath, it’s like there’s another way, because you’re coming back into life. And so I took it as them describing that, as if that is another way. Or maybe it’s just part of describing the out-breath effect, because it doesn’t follow this kind of thread. It tends to defy this deeper and deeper within design, and this path is a defiant path that challenges everything constantly, and one is honed in this approach by the way you let go in the School of Hard Knocks.

By School of Hard Knocks means this approach isn’t necessarily pleasant. You’re radicalized from a lower-self, going through like a type of purging process, that tears at the fabric of the heart. So whatever you’re holding onto, until it blows up, or goes to pieces, or shifts, is an intensity that seems contrary to the other aspect of the depth that you went into, that went deeper and deeper in which that was just somehow or another you let go of that.

Yet both ways awaken, or appear to awaken. Maybe one is illusive in that it awakens you to a heart that’s trying to vie and feel everything. Even in the out-breath way of awakening it becomes a heart that is carrying a pain of a perception, and a reflection. Which means this is like they’re mutually exclusive, because when you’re really, really somewhere else you can’t find the heart necessarily. Your heart’s everywhere. You’re at a depth instead, and when you’re caught in the condensed state all you can experience is the calamity of the heart.

So the first path is the inner path in which the physical reflections, which afflict the heart, fall away, and you find yourself more and more in a deeper and deeper depth within. And in terms of trying to understand this, this is often referred to as kind of the Bhakti subjective approach, but that is overly simplistic, and if you just look at it that way you can just be something high in the light or something and not have any grounding. So it’s almost as if the other system has to have some degree of involvement in the process, in which, by calling it the other system, which is the out-breath, you’re putting everything including the reflective conditions into the heart trying to purge that in some sort of annihilatory way.

In other words, if you purge it completely enough then you can’t find the heart and the great expanse again. This is the approach that burns off the karma in a living it out kind of hard, heartfelt way. And being able to go along and live in the outer and, somehow or another, be okay in that is kind of the Raj yoga way – but it’s a painful journey.

In the dream I like the way that I was able to see myself suddenly lost, very very deep, and was coming out of that deep capacity. Under this scenario, or quality inside, or however, or even system, I seem to be at an inner depth as if I woke up there all of a sudden, or was shifted there, in one fell swoop.

The second scenario was pointed out to me as something with an entirely different sensation motif. It is also part of the out-breath and therefore has an intensity to it because you’re coming down into the multiplicity. Whenever there are identifications, of which there are going to be, by the heart to the reflective physical images, there is a lot of pain and collateral effect, which means that there’s the offsetting reactivity or reactiveness. And a reactiveness is nothing more than the heart have or the mind and the senses trying to figure out what’s going on, trying to create an understanding of the reflection.

The reason why I had this experience is to point out that it is so much smoother to let go and be taken. The other approach fights and struggles every step of the way. However, this predilection, being how I am in terms of contending with the outer, is a system whereby I suffer a lot in the outer – and hopefully do not blow myself to physical pieces prematurely.

A person who is too afflicted by the outer can have physical ailments, you can have a condition shut down that can cause personal injury. All kinds of strange things can happen. So if I’m able to handle this, I set the table for being naturally shifted in a letting go way, that’s if you’re able to handle it. If you’re not, then you just go around and around and around with it. The two seem to work side by side, or hand in hand.

The second approach, in other words, you know I can’t deny that there’s the out-breath right, so they have to be working hand in hand is another way of saying it, but I didn’t look at it quite like that. I just noticed that in the depth inside it was like when I saw the other, I realized that they’re both there, and they both have the same intent to try to get you somewhere, or try to awaken something up. It’s just that the second approach dials things up in one sense, in an outer context, so it’s doing it more quickly, or so it seems. And if I’m able to let go of the reflections that tear at the heart, and tear one up on a physical level, I can suddenly catch up with the inner depth, which maybe lucky, maybe not everybody can. Maybe some people just never can get out of it and the trauma just builds and builds until it drives them insane, or burns them up.

So I guess what I’m saying is that there are two versions to the process, much like flip sides of a coin. There is what I would call the Bhakti in-breath, and there is that which goes into life as an exhaled out-breath, which one could call maybe the Raj part, which has to contend with everything in the physical plane of reflection vying for recognition. Because such vying is reflective there is the appearance of multiplicity. The more I contend with that as being so, the more I afflict the heart with reflections that incite the senses and ego mind to intervene.

The definition of ego mind is a mind driven by sense perception, contracted from its true inner home in the overall essence of everything, everywhere. The true inner home is a piece in which time and space are incorporated within, and the without is located within at a quiet inner depth.

The subtle inner note is more alive, or so it seems, when the letting go Bhakti side prevails. When the Raj side is present there is the impression impressed upon the soul that there is work to be done here, in other words, caught in the illusion. You’re putting this stuff in the heart. The illusion veils until we reach beyond with the in-breath. We’re veiled by the limitations of a bifurcated, reflective physical plane.

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