Posts Tagged ‘the in-breath and the out-breath in dreaming’

FI0nsWhere do epiphanies come from? Usually it is because of a confluence of events: we have put our attention on an idea or an issue, our system works on it while we do other things, we revisit the subject, or add new information, whether awake or dreaming, and then a new insight or knowing can appear. In this way we are like a garden, and we prepare the ground to grow the produce of what we seek. Once the ground is well prepared, what we have invited by our care and attention will be attracted and grow in us, eventually working its way into our consciousness. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I’m still having trouble remembering my dreams. It’s like I’m aware I’m dreaming, but I’m having trouble remembering the details. The only thing I remember is the last detail, obviously influenced by what we watched on TV last night, because it feels like I’m living at something that I think of as like an institute, like there’s a lot of grounds and people there.

But it feels like an institute where some of the women who have gone to live there they’ve gone there because they’ve been battered, or persecuted, in some way, so this is a safe place for them to be. But I’m observing one woman, who actually works in the library, and I have some concerns because I feel like whatever countermeasures that she’s gone to, to protect herself if whoever persecutes her comes into the library, are going to be too extreme. And it feels like I’m pondering how to moderate that. That’s all I really remember of the dreaming.

John: Well, it’s a type of dream that you had and, now that you’re slipping to this phase of dreaming, it tweaks something under what you’d call the underside of the energetic unfoldment – as opposed to going back and seeing the energy that is able to be understood, the depth within that’s able to be understood, based upon the unfoldment projection.

In other words, going back through the projection to where something is coming from within. That’s the normal way that one understands, and looks at, and finds themselves dreaming. But that is not what you’re doing. What you’re doing is you’re going through and you’re looking at something, but you’re looking at it as if you’re tweaking the underside of it. And whenever you have a dream that tweaks the underside of it, in one way it’s hard to remember because you actually get to a point where you lucid dream, these other kinds of dreams, in terms of their meaning.

So when you’re tweaking the underside of something you don’t quite know what you’re trying to wake up yet. You don’t get a sense of what that flow is. I have found that those kinds of dreams are a type of dream that are very difficult to remember because you don’t have a direct knowing to what they mean, and that you have to pull them out. You have to spend some time pulling them out, writing them up or something, in order for the other to open up. And the reason why it’s like that is the underside of things is a deeper depth that functions with another tool.

By another tool I mean another aspect of how something comes through. It is the carrying of a stillness into life. When you dream, per se, you’re dreaming generally in terms of going behind the symbolism and the event of what’s happening. You’re going back and you’re looking at the quality of where it’s coming from; it’s coming from a deeper innerness, or the zone of essence, or of stillness. And so you’re inflecting back.

You’re taking the thoughts back and drowning them in that, which is what you seek to do with the in-breath. With the in-breath you’re taking and going home with the in-breath, which is where you’re drowning the activity needs in the outer. You’re drowning them from the stillness where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. You’re drowning them back into the in-breath turns to the out-breath.

But when you start dreaming like this now, because your dreams are predominantly out-breath oriented, emotion equivocation kind of things, you have two ways of dreaming, and the way that you’re now trying to dream is the second way of dreaming which is very awkward because you’re not dreaming in the same modality as before. Before you would be going backward. You’re backing up to whatever the thought projections are to the essence.

This time you’re coming down into life with the essence, with the stillness. And so as you come down into life with the stillness you have these things that effectuate out of the stillness, so to speak, because you don’t have the thoughts that you’re caught in, or lost in. You don’t have to go backwards to that to find out where the stillness is at. You’re able to be more natural with the stillness.

So when you dream like this you have to identify with what is going on in the outer. You have to look at what you’re doing in the outer as bringing in the stillness. This is different in that you have brought the breath to a complete stop.

In other words, when you dream you have the out-breath, and then the out-breath has a thought, and then what carries back something as the in-breath to the crown, to the top, to the stillness point again is the understanding that develops of the uneventful out-breath thought. And that is able to happen because that out-breath thought has hit an epiphany point in the interval where the out-breath turns to the in-breath.

So that then sets up and creates a spark of insight, and that insight is the understanding, then, that happens as you then proceed back. So when you then proceed back you have actually hit what is called a home, in terms of the in-breath turning to the out-breath interval, and where on the Naqshbandi and the Chisti path the idea being that you then have to bring the energetic back into the outer, their understanding of it still involves, even though they know better and aspire to this, still involves having to contend with something in an outer-aspected way like trying to help this, or trying to be situated this way or that way, in terms of looking out for the affairs of the world, a kind of doingness yet. And when you have this kind of doingness you’re always going to have a report, in terms of a dream, that will then go back through the thought to the stillness, and the understanding of that is possible from the in-breath that cycles up as the in-breath. You still will be doing that.

What you’re dreaming is being like plop in a quality of the in-breath, that then the report of what goes on in the outer is aspected as an in-breath Will or something, an in-breath Will. Yeah, that’s it. That’s the connection to the Will, and the Will is the in-breath stillness. It’s the stillness, and it reports on the outer condition of an unfoldment, as opposed to the outer reporting back to it.

In other words the order and mandate of a person is they make the journey home, and then they come back down into life which, one might describe as a taking of a step backwards, so to speak, in terms of evolution, to come back into life. And most people who do this really do take it as a devolved step. They come back and they, to some degree, get involved in whatever it is that they still feel that they need to get involved in, which means they haven’t had enough of it, or haven’t quite got the full memo of what it means to have made the journey. They still have some incongruity.

But there comes a time when you could come back into life with just the stillness, without having to create a visibility, or an actionability, in any other sense.

In other words, there’s the journey away from God, which is the out-breath, and then there’s the journey towards God, which is the in-breath, and then in the stillness there’s the traveling in God. So that’s neither breath. That’s stillness. That’s above and below stillness, and when you dream like that, then, if you’re traveling in God, then you report the other as opposed to the other reporting back to the stillness – because that’s where it’s trying to be.

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maze33We all have experienced the feeling of running out of energy in a process we are in. That could be a project, or a job, or even a hobby. We can only get as far as our passion and energetic drive will take us. But, in life, there is one urge that is never-ending, and that is the urge to connect to our true purpose; it will be with us all the days of our lives. That doesn’t mean we won’t feel tired or overwhelmed sometimes, it just means that we are designed to overcome anything that deters us – it is in our design, and the intelligence to prevail comes from our higher connections. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I woke up, it’s kind of the vibrations of being in the midst of everything within, an atmosphere. I woke up within the maze; it’s like a maze, energetic maze, of being in the midst of everything within an atmosphere of vibrations. That’s the best I could do to describe the general overall sensation.

So, at first glance, my reaction was this is too much for me. I am overwhelmed. I somehow hold it together as I know that what I am doing is creating from within this overall maze. It is as if I am creating a house to live in, and that this is what happens when I hold my focus and attention and don’t crack up straightaway; in other words, by the fact that things are overwhelming.

What I am formulating is a base that I utilize for delving even deeper. That’s like an energy. That’s like a presence. The base is not something I have found for myself, it is just a presence that has somehow come together, a tiny bit, in the maze for clarity and flow purposes.

This is, as the expression goes, a presence that is with soft hands because if I am leaning on this for indulgence purposes that would be an identification problem. In other words, sometimes you just accept things as useful, but you’re not dependent upon it. So, instead, this is simply a lightbody form of inner beingness I need to function with, in terms of the maze of endless subtler and subtler vibrations. That is how the sensation is experienced upon a heart that is immersed in manifestation.

In other words, this is how you experience everything, really, you know taking it all in. I’ve broken it up a little bit in realizing how you, somehow or another, come out of that, or try to come out of it. But you do come out of it, and what you have to come out of is revealed, in that, at a depth deeper than the sensation upon the heart, is a still longing that if I am able to abide in breaks all of the vibrational spells.

And so the coming out of this is portrayed as something that actually works within manifestation because longing is where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. And the expression about that is that you can follow this longing as far as it can carry you, so the question is, how far is that? And the answer is, using the breath to paint the picture is to my true home of stillness upon stillness, which is at the interval where the in-breath turns to the out-breath.

Or, in other words, what happens is when you catch up with the longing, and you’re able to hold the longing and not go deviating off into the energy, and continue to maintain a certain presence vibration that is able to build – and not get attached to what builds, not get attached to your aura or anything like that that’s building – you’re able to take that, and hold to that, and go from that as it is recognized at being able to be like that in manifestation, and it’s at the point where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. And, if you hold that, everything else is set aside, and set aside, and set aside, you go all the way to the stillness where the interval where the in-breath turns to the out-breath.

So you could say it’s a beingness, a stillness, in which the interval of out-breath turning to in-breath, stillness there, is simultaneous to the stillness of where the in-breath turns to the out-breath.

So now we’re talking about how the end and the beginning are one and the same, or beginning and end one and the same, however you want to phrase that. Above and below is one. Microcosm and macrocosm are one. So the journey of an in-breath and out-breath is a journey in which you have reflections that adhere to, and contend with, indulgences. That in-breath to out-breath, when you hit the true stillness where the beginning and the end are one, it isn’t anymore. In other words, there isn’t some degree of it.

But here we are in a human body, and we breathe in, and breathe out, so that is our plight. Yet we have that, so we have to let go of that to have that stillness. And the in-breath and the out-breath, everything resonates there, and it is part of the illusion. It’s the plight we need to surrender.

You could say this is an interesting dilemma. There is nothing but nothingness that’s being the all-pervasive stillness, yet we are in-breath and out-breath in order to experience the sight and sounds of a thought-upon-thought manifestation, this being a dance that, when the reflective falls away, there’s just stillness.

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3erx090In this dream, the dreamer sees a piece of property, that has been covered in junk, for its deeper qualities. And this says something true about all organic forms of life, especially humans: no matter what we have become covered up by in life, we are, at our essence, fine, and we have everything we need. It is when we focus on all the surface junk too intensely that we get thrown off course. In the end, none of these things matter. What will matter is how much of our essence we allowed to emerge. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And, in the dream, I had come, it’s like on the edge of town, or there was this piece of property, anyway, that was like on a corner, a corner parcel, and for all intents and purposes it was a nice looking piece of property, good sized lot.

But, on this lot, was a trailer, and it was kind of junked up. But I had come to just accept the appearance of things, it being what it was. And then one day I came along and all of that was gone: the trailer, the junk that was scattered around this lot, everything was gone. And as I looked at the lot I realized, this is kind of a pretty lot.

Of course, it was on a corner, made it kind of desirable, and it didn’t have any obstructions or anything so it looked like it probably had a decent view. So then I go onto the lot, and when I go onto the lot, because it had a trailer and junk that had been cleaned up, the lot had been altered. It was disturbed in the center – and I even hear a voice that says something about how it’s horrible, how things are horrible.

So I turn around, and so I’m in the center of the lot, and I start looking. And my eyes can’t help but fall upon everything directly in front of me, which is how this lot has been misused and abused. It’s all torn asunder. From before it had a natural beauty, and with what was there, gone, it had what I saw a kind of hope. It could heal, or be redeemed, or now used in a better way or something. But when I went on the property, and then looked around, what my eyes immediately saw looking around this was miserable.

And so, at one point, I take and I go up near the edge, where the property joins another piece of property, and there I see ant piles and stuff, and my sensation is to get a shovel and bust these ant piles up, or something, because they were so old.

The meaning, and the essence of this dream, is how to let something just be. That piece of property had been abused and, in its abuse, yes, you could even see it as encroaching with its awkwardness to, say, an adjacent property, and you would notice this if you got too up close and personal with this parcel; if you went into it, and stared around at it.

But if you stepped back from it and you looked at it, and you didn’t indulge, you could see that there was something very wonderful and interesting that could potentially emerge, that this piece of property, in the context of the way it was naturally situated, really was a desirable parcel that was a corner lot.

The significance of this dream was to point out that deep, deep, deep down I have a sense that something, that is completely fine and copasetic, it may not be if you stare at it too closely. It may not be if you try to orient yourself in relationship to that, and that alone. But if you’re able to look at it in terms of a larger picture of unfoldment, able to look at this thing not in some sort of limited context, this piece of property was just fine. And that was causing the problem was the indulgence.

Now the way this corresponds to the meditation dream is the indulgence was in the breath. And, like I understood yesterday, and then had to look at and dress rehearse again in my dream, meditation dream, sleep and all, was that it really doesn’t matter which part of the breath you’re on, whether you’re on the in-breath, or the out-breath. Both of them are breaths that journey, and that you have to stop that journeying in order to have a beginning and an end, an above and below, a microcosm and a macrocosm being one and the same. You have to find the note of a stillness, and you have to find that note by quit trying to noodle around.

And we have come out of the stillness as if we have something that we can live, and play, and not get caught up in, and when we come out we are caught up in the journeying, either moving away from God, or moving towards God, in terms of the breath.

Away from God is the out-breath, and towards God is the in-breath is one way of saying it. Or you can just ignore however it is that you say it, and just point out that whether you’re looking at it in this regard, or that regard, as long as it involves the breath, per se, the effect upon an effectuality that involves the breath, and an intention that indulges with in-breath, or out-breath, in some capacity, that that stands in the way of the letting go of the stillness, of letting something be, and letting it emerge as an essence and a wholeness in and of itself.

The motion and all of the action of the breath and whatnot has actually undermined, indulgently, the sense of things – because there’s a deeper sense that is fine. The in-breath and the out-breath kind of contend with how things are in relationship to sorting out what touches the heart, and doesn’t touch the heart, because both of them go back and forth. That’s a yo-yo syndrome with the heart. You just keep letting go and letting go.

There is a quality of one’s self that knows what that is like, in the stillness from which it all originated, and that it is the motion and movement of the in-breath and out-breath outside of that  that’s mired things up. And it’s not a matter of this side of the breath, or that side of the breath, or anything like that. The thing that’s important about the breath is that there is an energetic behind that that is an intensified energetic behind the breath, and that intensified energetic comes from the stillness. And the bifurcation is us trying to rip it off, or steer it, for our own edification. Whether we steer it in as an in-breath, or steer it as an out-breath, we’re still being disrespectful and repudiating the importance of the essence.

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